Day 387 Facing the Brutal Truth
Writing today was initiated within reflecting on point of
observing others drinking alcohol as like a raw energy drink to
entice/stimulate positive energetic experiences…and realising and understanding
how I reacted to hearing people speaking within a positive energetically
charged tonality …as like I realise and understand how I participated within
past moments as like spewing verbal diarrhea because it felt good because
speaking in such a manner was fueling and perpetuating positive energetic
experience within myself which is result of lots of negative energy charged
acceptances and allowances within myself.
Also I reflected on the point of how negligent and abusive
it is to spew words with a positive energetic charge as like having no regard
or consideration of the consequences of imprinting polarized sounds onto other
beings within your environment and specifically within oneself as like the
spewing of words from ones mouth from the starting point of polarity friction
is perpetually compounding the accepted and allowed abuse within this world
because our inner acceptances and allowances is a self-reflection of what is
accepted and allowed within our environments as our inner reality reflects our
outter reality…and within this I realise and understand that it is myself
responsibility to tak accountability as care for myself within my environment
and to be the directive principle in preventing abuse and remedying situations
of abuse and also to take a stand and voice myself as Living the words that,
“abuse is not acceptable…I do not stand for abuse…I stand for Life being free
from Abuse…as Like Life is for Living Awesomeness as the awe so me nest of that
which is all ways best as like the total picture clarity as seeing clearly.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
having focused on selective aspects of positivity as a defense mechanism way to
stop myself from seeing the brutal truth which is the negative.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not
realising and understanding the necessity in facing everything that is negative
and bad as like the only way to see that which is good and best.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not
realising and understanding that having access to which is best is not possible
without understanding and removing/releasing that which is bad from within
myself as acceptances and allowances.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
having resisted dealing with all that is negative within myself…and within this
I forgive myself for not realising and understanding how I cycle through
energetic experiences of positivity as like being secreted very temporary
escapes from all the negative that is brewing within myself as acceptances and
allowances that have not yet been self-corrected.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
having resisted the assistance and support of others as a mirror reflection as
like a point of cross reference in assessing judgement defense justified
reasoning within myself as like ingrained negative acceptances and allowances.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
resisting to see all the nastiest that exist within others as like a way of
avoiding the point of self-honest reflection as like bring the point back to
myself and working within and as the process of self-correction which is
facilitated in as the process of self-forgiveness/self-realisation…as like the
ultimate gift giving of a physical act of love.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
choosing to be selective in what I see as like manipulating myself in deriving
a positive experience….and within this not realising and understanding how the
positive experience is derived from accepting and allowing so much negative
nastiness within myself as like various form of self-suppressions which are consequence
of all my thought/feeling/emotion acceptances and allowances…and I realise and
understand that choosing to just be positive as like taking the attitude
stance/mantra of just focusing on the positive is one of the most
self-deceptive ways of existing as like totaling numbing oneself from the
brutal truth of reality as which I am a part and shareholder in creating from
within and as the law of Oneness and Equality.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
resisting to talk about the brutal truth of reality out of fear of causing myself
created positive bubble illusion/delusion perspective/perception to shatter and
my course of direction to change as like letting go of the chase/choosing to
manipulate and distort Life time opportunity to be Here as the image and
likeness of Heaven. I realise and understand that letting of bubble world
delusion of positivity is in fact the only way to gain access to practical
living within this world as Life and that resisting this process is like choosing
to be less than Life as like accepting and allowing myself to not be worthy of
greatness.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
choosing to be less than Life by chasing after temporary moment of bliss
positive energetic experiences as like not realising and understanding how I
have always perpetuated my own fuckedness within being scared/fearful to live
for real.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not
realising and understand how I was conditioned to be scared and fearful of
living for real as like enabling myself to be worthy of greatness…and within
this I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of trying to fit in
with everyone else that is scared and fearful to live for real and how in fact
I am doing a disservice to my fellow inhabitants of Earth by resisting to face
and transcend the irrational fear of living for real by always facing the
brutal truth of my acceptances and allowances.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doing
a disservice to myself as all Life within postponing change that I see and
realise as a necessary course of action as self-forgiveness. I forgive myself
for accepting and allowing myself for procrastinating on self-corrective
actions within and as fearing change…as like change representing the unknown as
like the end of the world as I know it.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
fearing the unknown as like the brutal truth of myself…and within this I
forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having suppressed the
brutal truth of myself to such an extent that the brutal truth of who I am is
unknown and buried within and as acceptances and allowances that are less than
what is always best for Life.
When and as I see myself resisting to talk about the brutal
truth out of fear of being different and people taking offense to my sharing of
words, I stop and breathe and I realise and understand the support within
practical living words as like making the best history within and as realising and
understanding the point of self-responsibility as myself
as the author of the story here as like always being the main character within
the play.
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