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Thursday 9 May 2013

Day 332 The Ridiculousness of Going into a Wave of Emotion at Work


The Ridiculousness of Going into a Wave of Emotion at Work

Today there was a few moments where I kind of distracted myself from focusing on my work. When I daydream or go into some sort of thinking/backchat while I am working like just randomly because a thought pops up in my head and I indulge within it…my work suffers… I'm not as effective…it’s like I can still do the work…it’s just that I’m not as efficient…as it’s like allowing multi focuses…which really compromises giving all my attention to the work I am doing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to distract myself from my work when a thought comes up in my mind and I give attention to it…as like to enable myself to now be multi tasking my work and thinking as like a form of entertainment that can be automated if I allow myself to not stop the thoughts by going into self forgiveness on the thought that comes up in the moment it comes up.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting applying self forgiveness at moments when a thought comes up and I am aware that this thought just came up within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand how by allowing myself to indulge in even one thought while I am working, I am compromising my best work performance because my awareness becomes compromised within giving attention to thinking and the working I’m doing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that I am limited my ability to be real successful with my work when I accept and allow myself to participate in thinking/backchat while I work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing to indulge within backchat/thinking that I have a positive reaction towards as like get an energetic high…and therefore keep focusing on the thinking/backchat automation because of the quick reaction I had and wanting to continue within the reaction as a feeling high.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting to feel high within thought/backchat reactions…as like choosing to keep alive within myself memories that are energetic charged as character weaknesses….which are accepted and allowed forms of self suppression.

I realise it is not cool to compromise my best work production for a feeling or emotion as play out of keeping a backchat/train of thought rolling within my mind.

I realise I am capable and able to stop a thought/backchat in one moment by choosing not to participate within it…and seeing the thought/backchat as a tool of support as what I have to work with here in the moment as the point that requires my attention as a problem I am aware of and therefore…going into self-forgiveness on the point/thought/backchat/problem that comes up within myself I create the solution by applying the tool of self-forgiveness in the moment and then I continue about and related points that are triggered in relation to the initial point….and therefore by doing this I establish moment to moment management,,,as I enable myself capable of doing my best work in the moment as a result of giving my undivided attention to my work and enabling myself to perfect my work…by alleviating issues that come up within myself as thought/backchat/emotion/feeling.

When and as I see myself giving attention to a thought and indulging within a thought, I stop and breathe and 

I realise myself responsibility in utilizing the tool of self forgiveness to correct character weaknesses that exist within myself. I realise that taking this approach enables myself to be a better worker as I become more focused on the task at hand.


1 comment:

  1. I found that it's easier to stop when I accept that X pictures/words are coming up one image/word at a time. Saying 'delete' in myself and actually removing the internal words and/or picture together assists and supports me to stop participating in conscious thoughts. Thank you for writing!

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