So today, I had some doubts about my work planting trees, in
the sense that it’s like I got extra cautious about my quality of trees I’m
planting. There was mention this morning about making sure everyone is planting
good trees…and I took extra time today while planting my trees as to double
check to make sure I’m planting good trees….It’s like I reacted in fear to the
words this morning and doubted my trees and worried/feared that if my trees weren't good I’d have to rework my land/trees and make sure everything was
good. It’s ridiculous how my reaction this morning seemingly subtle…influenced my
entire day. I know how to plant good trees and this is my 9th season
planting trees…so like doubting my planting abilities and fearing to have
re-work my trees as consequence of not planting at my potential is
ridiculous. I planted a lot less trees
today than I planted yesterday. It was a bit hotter today…like 5 degrees hotter
than yesterday…for a 28 degrees Celsius. I planted just a little bit more than
half what I planted the day before…I realise it’s the beginning of the season
and I’m still building endurance and strength…but definitely notice how if my
attitude was different…I working result would have been different. I get paid
by the tree so it’s in my interest to plant good trees as efficient as
possible.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for mind
fucking myself today by reacting in fear/worry/doubt of my planting abilities.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to allow
words spoken to scare me…as like today when the management mentioned about the
importance of good quality trees and that people will have to re-work poorly
planted trees….I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be
influenced by these words and react in fear and worry as like not wanting to
have to re-plant…and therefore take extra pre-cautions because of having lots
of worry/fear about having to re-work my trees/land.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
slowing myself down planting trees when I am capable and able to move faster
and work more efficiently.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself
compromising myself trust within and as worrying about and entertaining the
idea that people will have to re-plant their trees if the trees are not planted
properly.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
judging and comparing my tree planting performances.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
attaching emotions and feelings to tree planting, specifically because the
amount of trees I plant determines the amount of money I make.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
having a fearful and paranoid attitude about the quality of trees I plant.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
suppressing my capability to plant excellent trees very very very fast and
efficiently.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having
allowed my day of tree planting to be influenced by words I hear in the
morning as like determining the attitude I will hold within myself during the
day.
When and as I see myself being worried and paranoid about
the trees I am planting, I stop and breathe and I realise the absurd
ridiculousness of carrying on this way. I adjust my attitude to planting
greatness as I realise my great tree planting abilities…and I move as the
expression of tree planting greatness.
I commit myself to great tree planting.
I commit myself to trusting in my planting abilities and
capabilities.
I commit myself to exercising my planting abilities and
capabilities.
I commit myself to stop emotions/feelings attached to the
amount of money I make.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being
really happy when I make lots of money and disappointed and upset when I have
days where I made less than I did on other days.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to
compare myself against other tree planter…and I forgive myself for accepting
and allowing myself for wanting to know how many tree’s other people planted
when I know I worked really hard and planted possibly more than anybody else.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
comparing my tree planting numbers when I know I was capable of planting more
trees but didn’t.
When and as I see myself making comparisons about trees
planted, I stop and breathe..I realise the absurd ridiculousness of creating
energetic frictioned energies within myself as either positive or negative
about trees planted.
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