Day 338 socializing

Day 338 socializing

My girlfriend was telling me I should be socializing more with my fellow tree planters…like after work…especially on the last day of the work week. Like typically the majority of the workers like to have some alcohol on the night after our last day of work for the week…and perhaps get drunk/wasted…as it’s considered like party time…because there isn't work the next day. I’m not at all interested in the boozing scene and have deliberately distanced myself from that type of participation/social interaction…as I've come to see that there’s other ways I’d prefer to spend my time…I mean I only have so much time in the day…and it seems to me kind of like a waste just hanging around drinking. The reason I bring this up…is that I noticed a slight reaction within myself to the word “socializing”…as like being offended for being regarded as anti-social…like thinking I’m rebelling by not socializing after work on party night.

Playing with the word ‘socializing’

Socializing...Socialising…social I sing…social I zing…so-c-I-all-sing…social-eyes….social-eyeing…social-I-sin…so-shall-I’s…so see I all I’s…

Looking at dictionary definition of ‘socialize’

so·cial·ize  

v. so·cial·ized, so·cial·iz·ing, so·cial·iz·es

v.tr.

1. To place under government or group ownership or control.

2. To make fit for companionship with others; make sociable.

3. To convert or adapt to the needs of society.

v.intr.

To take part in social activities.

Playing with definition of ‘socialize’

Socializing…like the sharing of I as persona….the coming together of many I’s/eyes in a group dynamic…like social I/eye singing/zinging as word exchanges…social interaction

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the word ‘socialize’ with a positive energetic charge.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting in defense/offense…as like being offended when I am referred to as being anti-social because I didn't want to hang out with co-workers after work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for experiencing a loss when my girlfriend was referring to me as being anti-social…as like I interpreted this as something negative and bad.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining ant-social with a negative energetic charge.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be zinged by the word socialize within and as allowing polarity energetic charges…as like either a positive or a negative zing/shock.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having desired to socialize as like wanting to share the company of others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for drinking alcohol as like my liquid courage in social as my social lubricant for socializing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring alcohol within socializing experiences.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging others who use alcohol as a point of comfort in socializing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making a big deal about alcohol and socializing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offence to being regarded as anti-social for not hanging out drinking with co-workers after work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not being interested in hanging out with co-workers while they drink after work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have felt the need/obligation to be social with others as like a form of etiquette as like it’s how I want to be treated.

When and as I find myself reacting to the word socialize, I stop and breathe and I check the specifics of the reaction I am having to the word socialize and investigate the point within myself as a means of self-reflection. 

I realise social interaction is all the time from the perspective that our reality in inter-dependent meaning that various parts are in contact at all times…and like everything is interconnected…so there is like always physical social interaction.