Day 636 Relation Dynamics

Day by Day I am really beginning to appreciate all the moments of sharing that happen throughout the day. What I am realizing and understanding is how many moments are present to fully appreciate as a result of being here in myphysical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having disregarded the simplicity of physical participation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how small adjustments makes huge improvements.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the amount of assistance and support I receive in my environment is always in fact equal to that which I in fact give to myself....actually...it's like the more I support myself, the more and more and more support and assistance that is available to me from those I share my environment with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I am receiving assistance and support when I am giving assistance and support.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself within Everything Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for participating within excuses and justifications that distract me from connecting/sharing/seeing a moment of support and assistance that is presented to me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for obsessing about the differences within people,...and within this not realizing and understanding the moments of self-reflection that are being presented to me here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect the similarities that exist here within people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get lost within fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the nature of my existence here as like a holographic self-reflection.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating inequality within and as our shared reality here as a result of accepting and allowing myself to exist within and as a fearful/survival mind set....of winners and losers.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I suppressed my abilities to effectively express myself as Who I really am within and as I harbored tidbits of self-righteous/Inferior Judgments/comparisons about others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting the practical living support within and as the words "solidarity" and "camaraderie".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having feared to stand together with and as all of humanity here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to stand in front of the group as like a part of the circle as All as One and Equal Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for arguing/fighting with myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how dependent I became upon fighting within myself as a source of my attention.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have existed in separation from all of existence as a result of my fears of expressing myself here from moment to moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurdity of my relationship dynamics existing from within and as the depths of fear/survival...where and as suppressing self-expression makes sense and is justified within and as the self-deception of believing that I am right in my action/behavior.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how the ability to self-express myself here exists beyond the morality judgement of right and wrong.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having logically reasoned to make sense of my actions from and as a poverty/slave-master mind-set where my actions believable and justified.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the on going and continuous commitment of moment to moment management and application where I am existing in real time physical reality and I stand as the epitome of responsibility...as I exhibit extraordinary ability to respond in the moment within and as the awesomeness of myself-expression here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having feared to risk self-expressing myself within particular moments...out of fear that I will be judged/not well regarded....I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how within these particular moments I was in fact revealing to myself that I was in fact judging myself with low-regard and lack of self-worth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having disregarded myself within the realms of self-judgement...as like a justified self-induced separation from and as myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for pulling and pushing myself apart.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I pushed and pulled a part the relationships in my immediate environment as a direct reflection of and as how I was pushing and pulling myself a part, within and as attempts to escape my acceptances and allowances....without self-forgiving my opinions about myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how much I learn from and as communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of my communication as a basic reflection and example of and as my ability to self-express myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for censoring communication out of fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my communication has primarily existed within and as the starting point of fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing it is necessary to fear communicating.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doubting my decisions when the decisions I make conflict with the general attitudes and directions of my environment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my tremendous ability to relate points to one another as like having a great ability to forge bonds/connections here by illustrating the similarities within a point that is often missed when the focal point is to look at the separation existent. I see/realize and understand how to in fact remove the separation and strengthen the building of connections here that are best for life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the answers and solutions existing here as Our Physical Self-Reflection of and as Our Image and Likeness here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for over complicating the simplicity of things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying and reasoning the need and a fascination to obsess and possess myself about and within relationships that I desire.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the mindfuck within obsessing over a particular point...as like how within and as this obsession...there is in fact a justification that is not seen/realized...as the obsession veils the justification.

When and as I see myself experiencing myself to be stuck within a point...as like a reluctance to move myself out of the point, I stop and breathe, I see/realize/understand that by beginning with a small adjustment,...that this is in fact the pivotal movement within and as self-direction/self-movement here as unconditional assistance and support.

I commit myself to the pivotal movement within and as self-direction/self-movement.

I commit myself to stop fearing to express myself in moments when and as I see I am faced with a point of suppression/fear/judgement/doubt/worry/justification.

When and as I see myself complicating things within my mind as a result of obsessing within thought, I stop and breathe..as I see/realize and understand this small adjustment is a pivotal point in changing my course of direction from self-suppression to self-expression.

I commit myself the the self-forgiveness and self-corrective application process in moment to moment application/self-expression of myself here.

I commit myself to removing all the manifested separation that exists within my mind.

Day 618 Relationship Association

So, I've become aware of how I have little moments of accepted and allowed justified judgement within myself as a form of self-talk/backchat...where within this behaviour I am sitting/standing within a point/heir of self-righteousness where I create this better than perspective...where I look at the person within my reality as less than me...I have done this within the justification that there being stupid...or don't realize that there being stupid...and whats really stupid about this is that I talk to myself about this...as like justifying and believing it to be necessary that I process and figure this out about and by talking about it to myself from the starting point of reacting to it...and what's funny and ridiculous about this is that within my mind...I see how I have been validating this behaviour from within the starting point of wanting to make sense of what the fuck is happening in my environment...like wanting to define another being..as like make sense of why they are like they are...what's interesting about this...is that its delusional...because obviously there is so many factors that goes into a person being exactly the way they are. What's also interesting about all of this is that this explains me as why I am exactly the way I am. And so within seeing the small reactions...I am able to investigate and forgive myself for all the little moments...and get to know myself for real as a point of and as self-intimacy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying judgment within myself as a form of self-talk/backchat...where within this behaviour I am sitting/standing within a point/heir of self-righteousness where I create this better than perspective...where I look at the person within my reality as less than me. I see/realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of such participations. When and as I see myself creating judgment within myself as a result of having even a minor reaction within myself, I stop and breathe, I say,"I am here"...I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating separation between myself and another being here. I see/realize/understand how within understanding the nature of a reaction I participated within...I am in fact able to see how I created the particular relationship dynamics that originated from a state of cognitive dissonance as manifested perceived separation. I commit myself to releasing myself from manifested perceived separation in my relationships with beings here. I commit myself to stand/sit One and Equal here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying stupidity. I see/realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of justifying stupidity. When and as I see myself trying to make sense of something within my mind by justifying stupidity as the reasoned logical explanation, I stop and breathe..I say "I am here"..I self-reflect upon the point in question...I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself of for justifying and rationalizing stupidity as an acceptable human condition that is beyond repair. I commit myself to self-correcting every aspect of my accepted and allowed justifications within and as the word stupidity. I commit myself to investigating all my relationships and the nature of my accepted and allowed word associations. I see/realize/understand the practical living support within remediating my vocabulary, as a way to prevent cognitive dissonance within myself here. I commit myself to take self-responsibility for my mind. I commit myself to purifying my vocabulary. I commit myself to purifying the nature of myself here as what I accept and allow to exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself of not realizing and understanding the delusion of trying to make sense of things when in fact common sense is lost within the moment and statrting point of trying to make sense of things. When and as I see myself trying to make sense of things, I stop and breathe, I say "I am here"..I look at my starting point here, I see/realize/understand that the starting point here as what is best for all Life is in fact always common sense. I see/realize and undestand that I do not require to make sense of things when in fact I allow and accept myself to stand within and as the self-direction of and as common sense...as like this is the point of self-reflection here...where in fact I am giving myself the opportunity to see with clarity here the common sense reality that is always here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting myself access to practical living common sense reality within trying and attempting to make sense of things within and as my mind consciousness system. I commit myself to establishing and solidifying practical living common sense reality within myself here. I commit myself to the flexibility of mind within and as common sense physical reality. I commit myself to understanding and self-realizing common sense here.

Day 599 Certainty

So,

Sometimes I have found myself speaking from a point of uncertainty within myself. Like I am speaking to others from a starting point of treading lightly, like being overtly careful, due to having a fear of judgment inrelationship/association to the people I am speaking to. This can also be regarded as desiring a favorable response, wanting to be liked, wanting things to go your way, fearing conflict/disagreement/confrontation, lack of certainty within and as self-trust to speak from the heart as what is best for all. It's like a point of being in the middle of processing how to move about...a hesitance if you will...speaking without an all the way commitment to the speaking as a point of self-expression...kind of reactionary in nature due to being invested within the desire for positive reactions and being dreadful of negative reactions.

So,

Obviously this uncertainty within communication is absurdly ridiculous and is a complete hindrance on my ability to self-express myself free from fear.


So, 

Even just the tiniest little bit of judgement/fear/desire/doubt within our communication fucks with our ability to be certain about our self-direction within and as our self-expression from moment to moment.


So, 

I am looking at and investigating the word "Certainty".


So,


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to realize and understand the practicality within aligning myself one and equal with "Certainty".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting Certainty within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to establish Certainty within myself without understanding and realizing the dimensional dynamics of uncertainty I have created within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the practicality of structuring my writing process around and within the process of specific word assistance and support, so that I am capable and able to take the specific words and immediately implant them into my daily living as seeds of assistance and support that will enhance and expand my ability to self-express myself here as what is best for all Life.


To be Continued

Day 517 Cool Creation

continuing from previous blog

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself for taking a stand of self-responsibility within and as cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to take accountability for my expressions here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that cool cannot be created within particular situations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing cool to be a conditional term.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be conditionally cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for deciding to remain within conditions of cool as like self imposed restraints as a result of the mental frame worked judgments that act as like bars/veils that keep me from seeing/realizing the extent of cool that is possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for submitting myself to acts of frustration for lack of cool here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting to think and believe that I am all cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding cool as a point within self-expression as a looking at things and forming an agreement within oneself as to how to participate in a particular moment as like having the harmony of mind and body physicality here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing coolness as a point of self trust.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be an example of cool potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that I am responsible for granting myself access to myself as cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that by suppressing coolness within myself I am accepting and allowing a coolness suppression throughout existence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the suppression of coolness throughout existence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having extensively feared being uncool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be uncool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for deciding to be uncool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for deciding it is easier to be uncool than it is to be cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to spite myself within disregarding my coolness potential in self expression as the self-realization that coolness in self-expression is a point of self-agreement within and as physical participation as the point of living equality and oneness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing the starting point equation to all creation here as oneness and equality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for deciding I don't have time to be cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that what is cool is not really cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having decided to try to act cool from within a starting point of doing things that don't seem cool but are regarded as cool...like copying/mimicking pop culture as what I see in movies and television that is portrayed as cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to program cool based about judgement from television and movies.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as the creative force of cool as like the author and authority of it as I write it so as how I paint/say/speak it so as an expressor professor.

To be Continued