Day 617 Re-Writing Creation

By facing and self-correcting the nature of my accepted and allowed reactions, I am birthing myself here as new creation potential...because within self-correcting my reactions, I am taking self-responsibility for my creations here that are not cool that have been sustained within and as my every justified energetic reaction...as like believing that I could not help myself...which is an interesting wording in and of itself...because in seeing a reaction as justified...it's like a push/pull kind of situation...where it's an act of spitefulness...as like well I'm going to react here because I was challenged...and the whole ridiculousness here is not ever really self-reflecting and seeing self as the source of everything here.

When and as I see myself having a reaction, I stop and breathe, I say, "I am here". I commit myself to investigating with specificity the nature of my reaction. I commit myself to seeing the detail within and as the point of reaction. I commit myself to tracing back the originating memories that link to the point of reaction that has presented itself to me. I commit myself to self-correcting myself suppression/separation from and as the starting point of and as Life Oneness and Equality. I commit myself to seeing/realizing/understanding the gift/present of and as moments of reaction because of the self-reflection potential here. I commit myself to enacting and utilizing self-reflection potential here. I commit myself to stop allowing myself to get stuck within and as a point of reaction. I commit myself to immediately seeing the necessary self-correction required within and as a point of reaction. I commit myself to giving myself the ability to create my Life as I would like to create my Life. I commit myself to taking self-responsibility for Creation. I commit myself to self-realizing what it in fact means to stand as Creation Here. 

I commit myself to seeing/realizing/understanding the who and how within as Creation.

I commit myself to Creation as what is always best for Life.

I commit myself to Creating what is always best for Life.

I commit myself to stop and change creations that I have self-realized to be less than what is always best for Life.

I commit myself to always taking self-responsibility for self-realizations.

I commit myself to support and assisting myself in purifying my Creation Here.

I commit myself to stop fearing my ability to create here.

I commit myself to stop creating and perpetuating fear.

I commit myself to assist and support myself and others in stopping to create separation.

I commit myself to exposing the absurd ridiculousness of manifested separation...as like perceived separation.

I commit myself to authorizing my abilities as a Creator here.

I commit myself to standing within and as self-authority here as self-creator here.

I commit myself to self-creation.

I commit myself to self-authorization.

I commit myself to self-responsibility within and as self-creation and self-authorization.

Day 616 The Error in My Judgement

Within investigating the relationship dynamics I have with various people I am ashamed to see how I have limited the development of many prosperous life expanding relationships as a result of my accepted and allowed self-judgment. 

It's interesting to see how one's ability to have fulfilling relationships with beings is directly related to the point of "judgement". Specifically what I mean about judgement here, is with particular regards to one's personalized vocabulary. See, What I have noticed about myself is that my relationship with each and every word within myself reflects and illustrates my practical living effectiveness in and as my ability and capability in developing quality relationships with people in my reality. 

Meaning, if there is energetic polarization in my vocabulary...this is going to cause an inability for me to have genuine, effective, substantial, fulfilling, substantial, rewarding, supportive, assisting, and profoundly great relationships without self-imposed strain, tension, frustration, anger, irritation, and cognitive dissonance.

What is interesting to see here is how "justification" is a primary word of the individualized ego mentality of mind that has contributed in justifying my very own self-validated and self-defined vocabulary restraints.

Here's a little example and story to clarify the significance and importance of proper vocabulary alignment:

So, the word "alcohol"...I created many negative energetic charges in relationship and association to the word alcohol. Meaning I created an extensive amount of resistance around this particular word...to the point where for the most part I would disregard the majority of humanity who associate themselves with liking to drink alcohol. 

The consequence of such behaviour was the result of and as self-righteous justification. Interestingly enough within my mind, I believed my self-righteous justification to be logically reasoned within my mind as making sense because of how the word "alcohol" was accepted and allowed to exist within myself. What is interesting about the word "alcohol" and my experience with the word "alcohol"...is that basically I was holding onto extensive self-judgement/tension/strain in relationship to the word "alcohol"...where I in fact flip flopped from having initially regarded"alcohol" with positive energy.

See, my initial relationship with alcohol was from the starting point of regarding "alcohol" as something to do that is cool and is a way for me to have added courage within and as my socializing and expressing myself towards others...to the point where I in fact at one point in time regarded alcohol as my "liquid courage" and it was a social lubricant for me...making socializing a seemingly more natural process...because I had recognized that I had had some difficulty with socializing because I was at times shy and timid.

What is interesting about all this is that I never regarded the anger and frustration I harbored in relationship to this point. You see, because years later, I totally changed my stance about alcohol and my identity in relationship to alcohol. Also, I saw that I did not require alcohol to be comfortable within my own skin and that I did not see my initial relationship with alcohol as cool...as like, it was a form of a crutch...granted, I see and realize how a crutch can be a temporary point of assistance and support. 


To Be Continued:

Day 615 Creation and Reaction?

So in looking at the word "Creation" I noticed that the word "Reaction" is within and as the word "Creation" when and as you move the letters around. It is interesting to see also the correlation and connection that Creation is in fact within and as the word, "Reaction".


This is interesting to me because I have been regarding my reactions as less than creation here. What I have neglected to understand and realize completely is how in fact my every reaction reveals to me my manifested accepted and allowed creation here that has become so much so automated. It's interesting because reactions reflect what has already been created...and I have been looking at reactions as the suppression of the in the moment opportunity/possibility for new creation/expression to be born/lived.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the equality and oneness within and as the words "Creation" and "Reaction".


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding my reactions as less than creations.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the self-reflection in seeing and realizing and understanding how and why my reactions are in fact my creations here.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I in fact created limitation for myself in defining particular behaviour patterns for myself as a points of reaction as a result of personalizing a definition of a specific word that stimulates/triggers/generates a point of conflict/friction within myself.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I created conflict/friction/reactions within myself.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining reactions as bad and creations as good.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for giving a positive polarity charge to the word "creation" and a negative polarity charge to the word, "reaction"


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting mixed up within myself as a result of bouncing back and forth within positive and negative energies.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating particular relationships towards words with positive and negative energies.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have fucked with my ability to play with words as a result of creating personalized definitions of words with specific and particular energetic associations.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating reactions towards words as a result of creating energetic relationships with words.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have been passively creating my reality within having reactions. 


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how having reactions is a point of creation from and as the starting point of passive acceptance and allowance.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abdicating creation within passive acceptance and allowance from and as the starting point of having reactions and not knowing and understanding what to do about reactions.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking reactions personally.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing reactions.


To Be Continued

Day 614 Creation

I'm looking at how it is that I create. I am seeing that how I in fact create is within the who I am as I create. Because I see the self-reflecting question within the 'how' as the 'who' I am as the starting point of creation here. 

What is interesting here is that I am noticing that I expect things to be created for me...like I have become reliant upon my mind of automatic creations...where I have a particular energetic experience and I just kind of roll with it. I see/realize and understand that I am in fact living out a pre-existing creation of my acceptances and allowances within my mind. I see/realize and understand my ability to create new moment of self-direction is in fact dependent upon me stopping the acceptance and allowances of my past mind creations as automatic energetic triggers within my mind....because what has become so apparent to me is how I have hardwired my mind to be in a seemingly somewhat constant perpetual state of reaction with momentary pauses here and there when I in fact give myself a chance to breathe for real as a point of self-direction in kind of like hey...let me take a breath and pauses for a moment...slow down...stop just impulsing within information bits that I have formed particular energetic connections/relationships to.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resistance at times to taking self-responsibility for my already existing creation here within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to question the how and who within and as what I have created for myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stand within and as the starting point of practical living self-responsibility as the point of creation that is always best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to question what is best for all life within every moment of participation/creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for half hazardously accepting and allowing creations to exist that are in fact a disservice to my well being.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the support for creations that are in fact a disservice to my well being.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to stand one and equal within and as Creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to orchestrate and correlate my Creation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to self-examine on a daily basis what it is I in fact created within myself here today.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abdicating self-responsibility as a creator.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for hoping and waiting for someone else to authorize my abilities as a creator here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for seeking validation outside of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to exist as a Creator.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the irony within fearing to stand as practical living physical Creator here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to self-correct apparent design flaws within Creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from and as the starting point of Creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to live the words Creator and Creation as practical living words of support and assistance as who and how I am existing here. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for negating self-direction and self-responsibility within and as the self-realization of myself here as a Creator and Creation Here.


To Be Continued

Day 613 Self-Forgiving a New Beginning

Continuing from my previous post Day 612 Beginning a New Day




I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to make sure when and as I go to sleep at night, I take the time to assess my day within and as how I participated, specifically investigating any trigger points as emotions/thoughts/feelings that came up that were not directed in the moment.

I commit myself to assessing my day before going to sleep as a point of self-responsibility in insuring my future well being...I see/realize/understand this to be a point in making sure I start my new day with a clean fresh start.

I commit myself to preparing my new new today with a clean fresh start.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for carrying around dead weight as like the baggage of my previous days thoughts/feelings/emotions as like unresolved points of energetic conflict that exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the amount of time I have wasted within mind as a result of indulging within whatever comes up within my mind as like just kind of going into the vortex of my mind without and specific practical self-directive application to facilitate self-corrective applications.

I commit myself to specifically applying self-forgiveness and self-corrective applications when and as I go into the depths of my mind to investigate my memories.

I commit myself to taking self-responsibility for my memories.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wallowing within my memories.

When and as I see myself wallowing within my memories as like a point of self-indulgence and neglect and resistance to really taking self-responsibility in moving myself within and as the point of self-forgiveness, I stop and breathe, I say, "I am here"...I forgive myself in relationship to the point in question in which I see/realize/understand that I separated myself from. I commit myself to prevention as the best cure...and within this I see/realize/understand the practical living self-responsibility in re-scripting scenarios for when and as I am faced with a specific point...I have a structured platform of support outlined to assist and support me in stopping participation within and as a point of self-sabotage/self-suppression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for carrying dead weight around within and as the justification that it is necessary to hold onto thoughts/feelings/emotions about the past as specific memories that playout within my mind over and over again. I see/realize and understand the practical living assistance and support in self-forgiving myself the thoughts/feelings/emotions that replay within my mind. I see/realize and understand how the thought/feeling and emotions that replay within my mind are reflecting to me the point of self-responsibility I require to enact for myself...as I see/realize/understand that thoughts/feelings/emotions that replay within my mind reveal to me where I have in fact abdicated my practical living self-responsibility. I commit myself to practical living self-responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for logically reasoning and justifying that I have a few minutes to spare/burn/kill and therefore I can indulge within my mind as like a form of entertainment as like a daydreaming/tripping in my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not regarding the physical body consequences for drifting off within my mind as like a form of entertainment and distraction from and as practical living physical self-responsibilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to plan out my escape from practical living physical self-responsibilities within justifying that I have a few minutes to spare/burn/kill within indulging within the depths of my mind as a like form entertainment and distraction from and as my immediate participation within physical reality.

When and as I see myself deciding to drift off within my mind, I stop and breathe, I say, "I am here" I direct myself in facing the point of avoidance by looking at and seeing what I was in fact attempting to avoid, I take self-responsibility for my acceptances and allowances, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from myself, I self-correct my manifested separation by re-structuring my behaviour programming from within and as the starting point of prevention is the best cure. I commit myself to and as self-perfection.

Day 612 Beginning a New Day

Within beginning my morning movement, I have noticed that when first moving myself to lets say the washroom,..I have caught myself existing within my mind just kind of automatically thinking about yesterday and what I did and didn't do. What's interesting about this is it is like a carrying of a dead weight. Like, to a certain extent, having held onto self-judgement from my previous day(s) and carried it forward with me to today...and what is interesting about this is that within my mind I have been automatically indulging within this thinking...and justifying this behaviour within the belief that I am analytically really studying myself. What is interesting about this...is that, it has become quite self-evident to me that I am not being as effective as possible within my evening before I go to sleep...specifically making sure I am not carrying any energetic baggage with me from the past into the future. Obviously, I realize and understand that this is a process and it is my self-responsibility to face points as they come up and prevent these same point from coming up in the future.

What I have also noticed is that I have allowed myself to be distracted within myself as a result of thinking about the past. It's like going into a vortex...and the vortex seems interesting because it's about yourself...and you don't realize how you get stuck in time and really lose your time because whether you realize it or not your resonating within this energetic buzz/trance that is directly related to the vortex that you're within. And interestingly enough, what I have noticed and realized is that there is always a point of self-awareness...where I choose to enter the mind vortex and choose to step out of the mind vortex.

What's interesting to me is that within accepting and allowing myself to practically live the application of 'gratefulness', I can in fact see the point of self-realization that I had previously not seen/realized/understood. What is interesting about this, is that here exists the humbling nature of the process of self-realization and self-perfection.

What's interesting to me is that going into the trance like state within my mind where I am just kind of totally in my head and out of my body, is that it is always a choice...and interestingly enough...I have justified making this choice on many occasions within the seemingly logical reasoning that I have a few minutes to kill/burn/spare. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the ridiculous absurdity of justifying and logically reasoning that I have a few minutes to kill/burn/spare...where I can indulge within my mind as like just drifting off...day dreaming...thinking....not realizing and understanding the expensive cost paid by the physical body for such entertainment in mind.

To be Continued