Day 792 - Royally Fucked

Royally Fucked

“I realize all forms of Inferiority and Superiority are essentially the same thing as points of self-suppression and that it's like Inferiority is less suppression than superiority....where superiority is superior suppression. Funny to see the irony of suppression within Inferiority and Superiority where it's Inferior suppression and Superior Suppression.....like fucked and double fucked.”

“I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having become so used to being royally fucked that I experience myself as uncomfortable in being less than royally fucked. Where being less than royally fucked, feels strange and almost embarrassing and shameful...where i should want to fuck around more so i can get back to being royally fucked. The irony is profoundly fucked lol.”

The Fact that within our world we have the word “Royalty” and “Royal” is an indication of the ingrained Debt Servitude relationship as Inferior and Superior. This is showcased well as the basis of energetic conflict within and as Mind. Polarization. Friction. Battle. War. Slave Mentality.

What do I mean when I say, “Debt Servitude”?

Servicing and Creating Debt. In Service of Debt. Like Debt is the Superior and the Service is Inferior. Where the Debt and the Service need each other to exist...because it's like a point of both being incomplete without the other one...and so each is bound, bonded to the other.

Relation Fucked. Meaning, the basic framework in which relationships are designed is within and as this debt based construction of More than and Less than. Money has become the medium to support the servicing of charges. Energy is another expression and outflow of money. Meaning, Our positive feelings and negative emotions as our relationships to everything here.

Why Relation Fucked?

Relation Fucked, because the basic mode of conditioning, our behaviour within and as mind set up has been, Royally Fucked. Ironically, it is because of our own Accepted and Allowed Royal Acclaim. And our own accepted and allowed Royal Servants. Where each is a manifested representation of ourselves here in all ways and our reaction/impression about it, is like valid confirmation for mind justification in continuing to mine and mind the feeling and emotion about what we see....because what we see is what we are...and it's been going on for so long as the Specificity in Definition Impressions. Where it's like we just layer and layer and layer the Self-Deception. Only, we don't regard our behaviour necessairly as draconian...but more of a sort of human evolution of our greatness...and that our greatness is just very complex and sophisticated like our intelligence...I mean deception. Cough Cough.

Where am I going with this bit, “Royally Fucked”

It's a point of self-reflection for me in and as the world here. Where I am in the process of taking responsibility for all characterizations of myself here. Removing the Separation existent within myself as how I separated myself from all characters here by believing myself to be an individual character that is totally a Separate Setup from all other characters here. See, it's interesting because we have the whole spectrum of characterizations within ourselves...and it's a range of vocabulary and a range of feelings and emotions...just as we have a range of colour here that makes up the spectrum of colour. Point of Investigation is ourselves here as Life.....What is Life...Life is Sound. So in really investigating through words the structure of myself and the world, word by word in a way where I can specifically investigate how I have articulated...made my artistry into the point of ecstasy excretion through perpetually suffering and torture,  making slave labour by keeping my Body and Beingness in a state ingrained debt servitude to my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how I created the design and definition of Royalty within my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how the definition of royalty existent within my body and mind as supported the world as a whole being exactly the way it is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to really go into myself to see who and how I am existing within and as my mind as Royalty.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to face myself as Royally Fucked.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deny and suppress myself here as Royalty.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the suppression of myself as Inferior to Royalty because of various phrases such as: “its just the way things are”, “there's just royalty and non royalty”, “our family just isn't the royal one”, “not everyone can be royal”, “Royalty wouldn't exist if everyone was royalty”, “royalty is a necessary position and part of our world and society”.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into conflict with “Royalty” where I would be angry and frustrated with the status of the world, my words, myself here....while most of the time, only projecting my disgust outwards onto others I define as Superior to Me here in this world as for instance the Queen of England and her Royal Family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame people in this world who are regarded as Royalty for the problems within and as the class system of inequality existent within humanity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to fight against the world out of frustration for my understanding of the relationships that exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to really take the time to place myself as each individual thing here....to really stand in and as each One here in this world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created a preference towards conflict and destruction over collaborative structured creations. I realize the ridiculousness of fighting for my limitation. I realize that working together is to get things done...is to actually move as the point of democracy here...in making things happen as a result of weathering the weather as a result of creating the ripple that is the momentum that moves the current which is currency which is our weather system which is our water which is our weather, which is our environment.

I realize I like to use synonyms for words, as this is like this and this is like this and this is like this....I realize this is a support in seeing how words are capable and able of supporting and assisting each other in working and playing together as a form of compliment and complimentary action.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge my usage of words and how I create the flow of my words in sentence structure.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the judgment and condemnation of others for the flow and presentation of myself here in and as Word.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become apathetic within and as my Words...specifically the structuring and the sounding placement of how I lay things out. I realize I created an apathy towards practically structuring my reality. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create Apathy within myself....and within this, justify the suppression of my ability to structure and create new Potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to lock myself up within my word relationships in such a sneaky and deceptive manner of self-trickery that I resist to even speak or write about it....because the pain of self-condemnation as an Inferior and an Imbecile is heart breakingly embarrassing to myself as Mind Superior Royalty who is Superior to such characterizations and behaviours.

To be continued

Day 746 - Supple Play Works

Take a Moment to work and play Here with Supple:

"Supple" is the ease of movement which is Graceful. Bending and Flexibility.

When you Look at Supple...there is a sort of Supply to It.,,Isn't there? Like if you are not supple than you're ability to apply responsibility is rather limited, isn't it

What about the supplement within and as supple...or rather the Supple within and as Supplement?

With these regards and considerations is it Seen that the ease of movement which is graceful is a rather complimentary act...and self-responsibility if you will....a sort of glad to be of service approach....whether the service is self-service or other as the service of another self-here....in this regard....Isn't the service of self always all ways to be regarded here?  I mean, really who else is Here, other than Self? All of ourselves here.....all of our cells here....all the individualized parts of self here.

Supplement like the add in point...the play in the move as the natural way not such a forcefulness but more of a grace.

There is a tremendous amount of effort within and as Supple quickness...It is very focused and specific...and so there is a grace about the movement and motions...however, excellency within and as such supple quickness in application is a result of Practiced Efforts...and so the powerful practice efforts appear to be effortless as the grace about them...but the truth of the matter is....is much work goes into that which is seen as easy....like walking for instance....all of us who can walk now, spent a long while practicing it before we perfected it...and there was a constant and consistent everyday effort that went into the mastery of walking....

I commit myself to the utilizing the words Supple and Quickness as process points of support and assistance in aiding in my development and substantiation of response abilities that are great.

Day 747 - How In Secure Are You?

Secure or In Secure?

What is the difference if you are Secure or Insecure?

The spelling?  The Cure? The with In or the Without? The Cure Status? How You See the Cure?
The relationship with placement? Security Relations? The tie to Safety?

To be Secure, must You also Be Insecure?

To be Insecure, must You also be Secure?

Have You ever noticed the need for Security? Was the need for Security a solution to a problem that was presented?  Did the problem exist before it was presented?

Have You ever Noticed the Insecurity Narrative within the Need for Security?

Does Security/Insecurity propagate/perpetuate the existence of One Another?

How does the Media/Government/Law Make Rules a Measure of National Security? Is it the Acceptance and Allowance of Insecurity?



ARE/OUR Colors Like Words, Meaning our/are Ability to Live/Draw/Express/Know/Be specific in action related to Inaction?  To further or closer specify, the Nature of Knowing the relationships...is like the effective functionality of a Word. Do You See/Seed Words in relationship to all other words? Is this like for Instance a Color being a makeup reflection of actually every other color...but is presented as the one that is not here...as like the only One...Meaning that the individual make up of each color/word is a reflection of Everything Here?


I find it most fascinating to look at the polarity relationship of things here...because it is in the Seeing and Seeding of things as they are, that we are able to specifically creatively cultivate the Best Here as the science of Awesome in always Here as the practical working/playing Investigation of understanding Ourselves Here within and as Everything...and so to sew it so as to the ways that are best, Contributing to the advancement of Gift Giving the Best physically structured Sound Self-Support for Everyone Here. This is the Key to the Manifestation of Heaven on Earth.


The Irony, that ironically enough comes to mind from time to time is the Fee in Fear as our charged and credited payment that is insecure as our protected and Secure investment and self-interest that originates in the law of our binding word relationships as how we have agreed to Pay for Attention on what we Credit as Worthwhile whether it is really Good or Bad. The feeling and or Emotion that is energetically charged is in all ways ironically irrelevant, no matter how we make believe the relevance to be. Interesting isn't it, that we are the gate keep of our ability to respond and direct the opening up of situation that is best for Everyone as a self-appointed Authority on the Ownership of Living Expression as the Best Living Actions....?!!?!??!


To Be Continued :)

Day 745 - Supple

Continuing from the post: Day 743 - The Irony of Effort

"One cannot work effectively well for a consistently long amount of time with a strong stamina to have excellent output performance if One isn't at ease within and as the work/play.

Isn't it fascinating that we often take this approach to stress even within our recreational activities?

Like for instance Golf:

The golf swing takes about 2 seconds to complete.  There has been soooo much information published about it.  Most golfers or people who have ever played golf....really really struggle with the game. The interesting thing about this...is a correlation to much effort...as like a point over exertion....and increased tension due to the mind chatter within the body while attempting to move through the swing.

The golf analogy is something i will open up more in blogs to come...this is somewhat of a teaser as to what is to come.

Stay tuned, Much to look at here:

Some key words of examination will be: Tension, Strain, Effort, Agreement, Logic, Emotion, Feeling, Golf, Irony, CoIncidences"

I find it interesting to look at the beginning above statement I made about working well for a long time...and i proceeded to give an example of how even within leisurely/recreational pursuits such as golf, where the swing takes about 2 seconds....the same point is true.  It's about our relationships within ourselves.  Now, perhaps this consideration and example, garners perspective into the questioning of "what is a long time?"  Because, 2 seconds is kind of a long time...when you consider that for example you can make a golf swing...and that such movement can move a ball 300 meters.


Some self-forgiveness in relationship to the points at hand:


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which Tension, Strain, Stress, Emotion, Feeling can in fact impede upon physical activity within as little or less than 2 seconds.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding to what an effect the thoughts/feelings/emotions I participate in have on my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that so much of the Effort about Work is created as a result of having a build up of emotion/feelings conflictual relationships within the body as One's vocabulary that is energetically polarized that contributed to the status standing of conflict/friction/tension/stress....which equates to less than one's actual living potential to express oneself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the seemingly quick moments of thought and or feeling and emotion that comes up within my mind in relationship to participating within any activity/work/play/movement here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the supple quickness of myself here.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how my mind has been assisting and supporting me as a tool of self-support in showing to me many, many examples of "subtle quickness".

I see, realize and understand how I can direct myself in and as a moment as supple quickness.

I see, realize and understand how I can correct myself within a moment with supple quickness....because it's just as easy to correct/remediate a point of dissonance that is revealed to me in my mind...as it is for the point to come up...so in this regard...I see the practicality in balancing myself within time as like to make the decision to no longer linger in time as a continuously perpetuating build up of tension...as a result of resisting to live as "subtle quickness" within myself from and as the perspective of immediate application when and as I see a movement of dissonance within myself that reflects the accumulation of past moment acceptances and allowances that i have stored within my body/mind as moments/points of tension/stress/strain/dissonance


To Be Continued

Day 721 - Is Embracing the Cold a Key in Physical Body/Mind Awareness Here?

I've been exploring Cold Water therapy.  It's a fascinating process. I suggest googling, "Wim Hof" aka, "The Ice Man".

The focus of this blog here today is to remove any energy within myself with regards to "Cold".



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to associate fear and a general resistance towards the cold as like not wanting to get cold when and as I am warm.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding Cold as separate from myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a energetically polarized relationship between Hot and Cold,...where Hot is a positive thing and Cold is a negative thing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating Warm with a mild positive energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating the word Chilly with the word bad and also 'not being good' and with a generally accepted negative energetic charge.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having positive energetic experiences within myself as a general point in regards to warm and hot temperatures and also a generally negative energetic experience towards cold temperatures....or as like a bit less good than warm/hot temperatures.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself dismissing the therapeutic support for the body within working with Cold.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the generally accepted ironies within society/cultural-norms about temperature and specifically the words, "Cold" and "Hot".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Irony about the specifics accepted within North America culture about catching a "Cold" as like a type of sickness/flu...and not realizing the irony within a typical "Cold" where one may get "Hot" in the process....which is kind of funny in the process....because it seems like a bit of a balancing act here.....where it's like You have a Cold and thus You get Hot in the process as like the body's way of balancing out the internal temperature within oneself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I am able to have influence on my body's ability to regulate temperature as a result of and as my connection here with breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the self-investigation into the nature programming conditioning of the mind consciousness as a result of seeing the extent of my automatic bodily reactions to Cold as like an ingrained Fear point that has been developed and conditioned overtime as a result of and as the way I have conditioned my mind and body here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a survival mentality relationship towards temperature and the specifics of weather...where there is a point of dissonance within myself with regards to the specifics of Temperature and Weather Conditions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for accepting and allowing Weather and Temperature to exist as points that are separate from me to a certain extent as like regarding myself as somewhat inferior to Temperature and Weather.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having been somewhat conditioned throughout the years in my environment to fear the elements to a certain extent as like a matter of survival.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how self-expression can in fact be suppressed in regards to the Elements here as a result of and as the specifics of our emotion/feeling about things and also as a result of accepting and allowing particular points of knowledge and information about things, without actually questioning it for oneself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of the suppression that exists here in our world as a result of and as Word Relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for conditioning my perspective about reality based upon what other people say.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blindly accept points as truth because many people believe them to be truth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having subscribed to the logical rational that if many people are saying something is so, than it must be true and that I do not really require to investigate the point myself because clearly it is true....otherwise so many people wouldn't believe it to be so.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the fuzzy logic at play within and as the general acceptances and allowances of just following along with the crowd....as like not really considering that everyone within the herd is potentially also using this exact same fuzzy logic....which in a way makes everyone within the group a kind of lemming where it's like the blind leading the blind all the way into and as their very own self-demise.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to face the Herd mentality in society/culture here,...even when as as I have tested a point and proven it for myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for conditioning myself to not like to have to deal with directing the Herd on points of realization that are not commonly realized or understood.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being rather self-righteous in keeping my self-realizations and insights to myself as like a sort of coping mechanism with the patience required to communicate points effectively to people who currently do not understand said things/points.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be impatient in word/though/deed as like reacting to the Weather/Temperature of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a hard time fathoming the interconnectedness with bodily well being and breath awareness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a negative energetic reaction towards the words "meditate" and "meditative"...and also for associating these words with various mental masturbation practices...and generally thinking that anyone who meditates is engaging in the egoistic practice of stroking one'es own ego...and that the whole meditation thing is always rooted in the desire for more positive energetic experiences.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the physical body/mind process of self-awareness as Everything Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for assuming that in being born here in this shared reality of ours, that everything is taken care of for me and that I don't really have to do anything...and that I can do whatever I want because Everything is taken Care of.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for blindly assuming that the authorities of Science are accurate in and as what they say to be true.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from and as Science.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to doubt the validity of and as myself as here as the very empirical evidence of and as Science.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created dissonance and opposition in regards to the words Science and Scientists...as like making believe these words to be points of and as self-righteous governing authority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the scientific process of and as my mind/body relationships here as like the signs and symbols that exist within and as me here that are working together in playing their parts.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing and disregarding the creative ability of and as each individual part/life that makes up and supports the inner-workings of my Body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of support always all ways available here within as as the serendipitous interconnectedness of and as the willingness and openness to investigate the possibilities that open up within and as the king of Questions....meaning, where Oneself realizes and understands the self-regard within and as the AsKing...asking of Questions here...as the Self-Authority Governmental Science Investigation and Discovery Journey here...as the growing prosperous potential expansion and development.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the interconnectedness of and as Structural Resonance Alignment within and as the AsKing of QuestIons here as being a point of self-reflection of as as the tune that I am sounding/reflecting here....and how within this process....the answer/solution/question is being mirrored back at me within and my participations within our Shared External Reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a dissonance between my internal reality and my external reality here....where there has been a generally accepted disregard and cover-up operation of avoidance as like a procrastinating neglect of exercising the daily practical living of the extent of self-responsibility required to exist here as a constant and continuous Life Force.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the blockage from and as the extent of oneself existent within and as the air of Ego...as the colorful energetic spectrum of feeling/emotion energy as the range from Inferiority to Superiority.....

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the temperature exchange within oneself as the participation within and as as energetic reactions, from the shortness of breath to the ineffective blood circulation of various degrees of accepted and allowed fear.


To Be Continued

Day 700 - Fortitude of Purpose

Purpose.

Fortitude.


Purpose plus fortitude is a formula strong in nature. I see purpose and fortitude together as one and equal as the infusion of Life all ways always in and as the movement of self here.

The question has come to my attention, "If you lack purpose, do you in fact lack quality of Life?"

"What is the fortitude of purpose?"

"Does having any purpose guarantee a high quality of life....or is there a certain fortitude required in order to insure creation of a high quality Life?"

"Is life meant to be high quality,,,and is it in fact a point of becoming aware of our fortitude of purpose...as like it's in us to give...as a result of what has been given to us?"



At different times in my life I have briefly reflected on what it is I want to do with my life. Interestingly enough, every time I had asked myself such a question and or reflected about such a question...my thinking was in an absolute sense...and I often had difficulty with this...the commitment aspect of making a decision that I felt I would be bound to once in fact I made it....and what was interesting is that it's like I've been looking for sometime throughout my life as something I can give to myself as a responsibility to walk indefinitely...a Purpose of Fortitude of You will as the Meaning I give to my Life Living daily application and expression of myself here.

Now, what has been peculiar within my process of self-reflection throughout the years is that I have allowed myself to get distracted and preoccupied with things. And in this doing, kind of allowed a procrastination to ensue about activating fully the Fortitude of Purpose I wish to give to myself.

Entertainment has been my primary source of distraction from and as the development of and as my self willed purpose of fortitude. Ironically enough, I have seeked  a plethora of avenues within entertainment as a means to finding what it is I would like to find...and that ultimately being my self-expression. What do I mean by my self-expression? Many many many things. Looking for substantial greatness in all things....Ironically this thirst for greatness in various modes of entertainment has been a result of holding myself back as great entertainer.

It's interesting, my writing here...because even as have just written the above paragraph...I faced immediate reaction, where, specifically I turned away and did not even want to look at the words I have written. Me a great entertainer? But why? Why is this I see as a point worthy of my attention...and to such an extent where I can claim a fortitude of purpose?

I see tremendous value in Education. This is a rather obvious point for many I am sure...in that most would agree with the tremendous value within and as Education.  I mean education is a point where really, I think everyone can agree upon the importance in and as it's value. I see Entertainment as a a medium of Education. Within this, I see that there is great responsibility in standing as an entertainer within this world....because not only is one providing entertainment as a point of fun to be had....but first and foremost the entertainer is an educator...a teacher.

I have been looking to lots of teacher's in this world....lots of entertainers to be what I think they can be...and this is not fair to any of them....for in this regard...I have placed expectations on others as separate from myself to be operating and performing of a high quality particular standard of greatness that I have not even consistently held myself accountable to. In a way...I have been afraid to actually commit myself to the fortitude of purpose....as like actually existing here as the strength of character that does not give up or bow down to anyone. This is not to say that I must be fighting or welcoming to conflict...but at the same time being open to dancing with conflict that I am presented with...you know...in a way like a ninja master....where the problems/issues are directed into and as solutions.

The irony of course within everything is myself.  So often I have reflected outwards about irony as a seemingly separate entanglement that only loosely relates back to me and is not really knotted deeply in attachment to my particular acceptances and allowances. This perception being a scapegoat defense mechanism where I ultimately excused the deep seated self-reflection required in really getting to the origins of myself here as who and what I am really all about.  It's fascinating to examine the conspiracies of my acceptances and allowances if you will. I sure each and everyone can relate to the conspiracies within and as our very acceptances and allowances...as this is an area that can be easily dismissed from the giving patience and time as the necessary ingredients required to actually look at the story of self here...and the questioning of Fortitude of Purpose.

Anytime I would come across something that would reveal a depth of character....or be rich in substance...I would yearn for more and more exposure to such things....whether it be a show or production, a book, a person, a sport,...it's like all the while...I was always missing the core of myself within and as it....where full appreciation was not quite grasped...because I don't think I have ever really fully appreciated myself to the fullest extent of and as the meaning of appreciation. Reflecting back on my various modes enthrallment from the perspective of entertainment interests...my satisfaction and thirst for more was never ending...and within this...the reflection to me is clear on the point of enjoyment...self-enjoyment....where it is an alone and together thing....where it's a shared thing between two or more.

I am reminded of the court jester....the joker if you will...as the comedic relief to the absurd ridiculousness of aristocracy and monarchy. Within and as such a position...the joker is like the master educator...world teacher in a sense...where his immunity is granted for him alone because of his chosen profession...and the reasoning that this is the joker...and no matter how serious the reflection may be...this is the court jester...the joker...who is permitted...authorized to ridicule the ridiculousness of the accepted and allowed crown rule.  I think of this in terms relatable to stand up comedy and movie and television entertainment. Where there is potential within such a position to me an intermediary role player bridging the gaps of dissonance with common sense critique. Exposing the absurd ridiculousness in absurdly ridiculous ways with cleverly creative points of comparison and association...making a mockery of a mockery while at the same time, giving the antidote...the formula....the recipe....the solution as to how the absurd ridiculousness can be solved...as being no longer relevant and therefore remedied,,,because after having the aha moment of a laugh and seeing for real...it is clear...crystal clear like water...the perfect solution as the how to do....I get it, I got it...I  do it...I am doing it attitude that is contagious in and as itself being a point that is addictively spread as the messages worth repeating.

What's interesting within as a my moments of reflection here is...that I as each I is the gate keeper of I...for it is for I...and I for an I that make everything to I...as to grant to I...is to for real be to I...as Realized...as aha...yes...I see it is all to and for I...as to and from I ...as the perfect relationship...I Give and Get Given here for it is the Gift of me/you/life here.
Meaning the play is in and as our permission authority to play...as like will allow ourselves to play...will we ask others to play....will we show others how to play...will we talk about our play...and to such a point where our work can become the play..in such a way where the play is a work in progress..as like a continued play day...play date that can stand the testaments of time as like...yes playing and working with what is here will stand the testaments of time...in and as the way to educate and entertain effectively....because education and entertainment together as a point of enjoyment shared between two or more is something rather harmoniously marvelous as the simplistic euphoria of the warmth of touch. This is life awareness here. This is who I am ....this is who we are. This is what I am about. This is how I choose to express and share the expression/creation of myself here.

,...it seems daunting and far to easy to actually be the way forward here...that trauma and suffering is not actually required...that simplicity is key in self exploration and creation. That really we can have a lot of fun in creating our fortitude of purpose and within this enacting a self-responsibility that will insure the future well being for generations to come as the knowing that this is substantial support that is fostering the facilitation of greatness in all ways always. It's important to note that obviously this enactment of purposeful living of and as self-responsibility will be a challenge in and of itself...because I realize I have been conditioned to operate in a way that is less than beneficial to all life here....so in breaking the restraints of my conditioned limitations may in fact very well be somewhat traumatically challenging....though I see here...the way in which I remove the layers of deception from myself as being related to me and my investigative digging...meaning that my willingness to pull off the layers of my deceit self-willing will be a challenge yes...but far less traumatic if I avoid doing so and therefore require to only realize through the consequence of my programmed planning conditioning playing out.

To be Continued

Day 660 - What have I already Created Unknowingly?

I suggest also reading the blog I am attaching here: "How I've changed since re-defining the word Daring"

What I have found interesting within taking Responsibility for myself here is specifically facing my acceptances and allowances.

To really look at acceptances and allowances and learn from acceptances and allowances that are obvious mistakes....is the first step in moving into the next step of self-correcting such acceptances and allowances.

Now, this can very easily be regarded as a "Dare"...because of the way in which we have actually "created" our 'acceptances and allowances' in the first place.  This is actually quite interesting because to face Your acceptances and allowances and actually change/correct/remove acceptances and allowances that you realize are not in fact cool is a process...that is somewhat difficult from the perspective....that you have "created this sort of 'energy wall' that keeps you contained from expanding outward...a form of 'in the box mind control' that was self-induced through one's reactionary energetic outflows.

See, within actually daring to face our acceptances and allowances as the points of resistance that contains us from participating in ways that we actually see as being cool.....we see/learn/understand how not to create effectively...like what a self-induced prison it is to build up an energetic containment structured in the spectrum of emotion and feeling which can also be regarded as various types/forms of "Fear".

Fear being the debt and bond we created as our being bond/bound in servitude to...as like this totally ridiculously bogus contractual agreement we created for ourself as a result of and as how we have participated in creating/defining our acceptances and allowances here.

Interesting thing here....is that passively accepting and allowing the physical structure of ourselves here as negating to correct/respond to our automated reactionary behavior.,..is that we have created a compounding debt upon ourselves here....making the ability to actually express ourselves...."seemingly" increasingly more difficult...due to the continuous buying into what has been accepted and allowed within oneself.

See, it's difficult to let go and free oneself from one's own confinement because we have become so uses to existed within and as our own prison confinement as our mind/body relationship...that getting out of our own debt/prison is scary/fearful.....because this is all that we in fact know....and so going into the unknown is intimidating....because we created our known reality through and how we reacted...which is actually the total opposite of what is means to have really actually created for real.

See, having "reacted" is to having made a mistake...and missed an opportunity to have actually "created"...

"When we React, We miss the point of How it is in Fact We can Create"

"To create for Life is to know and understand the difference from what it means to React"

"We cannot Create when we are in a state of Reaction"

"See the difference between CREATION and REACTION"

"See Our Ability to in fact Live CREATION, Stems from Our Ability to first Stop and Direct our REACTION....Because this is in fact the first Act of Creation...The Taking Responsibility for our Mistake....Our Acting Out....Because to React is to Mistaking Act in A way that is less than Responsible....Because to Live as Response-Able is to Be able to Respond in the Best possible ways that exist beyond the conflict/friction/debt/restraint of a Reactionary movement"

So we stop perpetuating our Fear/Debt/Restraint/Mistaken Acceptances and Allowances by Daring to question/examine/Correct/Direct the Nature of Our Life Here



To Be Continued


The Fuck Up of Creation is to have Reaction instead of Creation....which is a misalignment...the reversal of what it actually means to "make it happen for Life"

Day 649 Justifying Reactions is a Tragic Comedy

It's interesting to see how ridiculous it is to justify reactions. Like, for instance, in a moment where we act out an outlandish and ridiculous behaviour as a way to validate the emotion/feeling as a judgement we had created in relationship towards a past action.

I've noticed how I have had a tendency to make sense of an emotion/feeling/thought by perpetuating it...where I would justify it so to speak...as like a going into a make belief...making sense of the experience of myself by buying into participating within the reactionary energy...which is ridiculously absurd...because the reaction in the first place was and is always ridiculously absurd... and building off that as a result of creating more thoughts/feelings/emotions about it...just compounds one's mind fuck.

What I have noticed within this, is that there is in fact always a split second decision available to me where in fact I do not have to exist within and as reactionary energy...where I in fact have the opportunity to stop, breathe, see my initial reaction that has come up within me, let it go and learn from my mistake.

What is interesting about this is that in many instances there has been like an urge/justification within myself to follow out a reaction playout...as like this is a a way to assert my righteousness and feel good...like there is an initial shame within actually seeing my mistake/error/misunderstanding/reaction, and therefore wanting to shift away from the so called "bad" of this mistake/error/misunderstanding/reaction and into the "good"...and what is interesting about this is that there is nothing really "good" about perpetuating reactionary behaviour within myself...as this reactionary behaviour I have come to realize and understand is unnecessary stress/strain/abuse that is done unto the physical body.

I see/realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of wanting to showcase reactions towards particular situations as like a belief within needing to be self-righteous and prove myself..

I see/realize/understand how ridiculous it is to make the decision to lose control within reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how absurdly ridiculous it is to perpetuate participation within a reaction for even another moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how absurdly ridiculous it is to believe I need to qualify my reactions to others...as like I am selling them on buying into my perceptual mind fuck.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing to play out a reaction energy as a manipulation tactic.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for manipulating my physical well being within reaction energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying moments of reaction within myself by making the decision to perpetuate the experience of reaction within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for participating within negative/positive reactions in hope and desire of receiving a reaction from another that I can leverage to perpetuate a positive buzz within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself negating self-responsibility and accountability for all of my positive and negative reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being judgmental about mistakes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my natural learning ability is suppressed within making the decision to be judgmental about my mistakes. I see/realize and understand how I am able to learn at my utmost potential when and as I embrace my mistakes, so that I see my reactions for what they were...so that I can perfect and direct my actions in a way that is best.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that I need to prove myself to myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying reactions as a necessary way of making sense of the experience of myself in a moment...as like a constant re-enforcement of programming conditions/restraints on myself expression here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being careless within and as participation within reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting the well being of myself and others within being self-righteous in making the choice to react in particular moments. I see/realize and understand how I am able and capable of making the decision to help my self by stopping to participate within the play of and as reactionary energy that has surfaced within my mind.

I commit myself to accountability for my actions.

I commit myself to learning from my mistakes/reactions without delay.

I commit myself to stop justifying reactions within myself.

I commit myself to stop seeking approval within and as participation within reactions.

I commit myself to stop creating a need to perpetuate reactions within myself.

I commit myself to exercising patience as I move through the depths of my mind and take self-responsibility and accountability for every moment of emotion/thought/feeling instability.

I commit myself to living self-stability as who/how I am here.

Day 615 Creation and Reaction?

So in looking at the word "Creation" I noticed that the word "Reaction" is within and as the word "Creation" when and as you move the letters around. It is interesting to see also the correlation and connection that Creation is in fact within and as the word, "Reaction".


This is interesting to me because I have been regarding my reactions as less than creation here. What I have neglected to understand and realize completely is how in fact my every reaction reveals to me my manifested accepted and allowed creation here that has become so much so automated. It's interesting because reactions reflect what has already been created...and I have been looking at reactions as the suppression of the in the moment opportunity/possibility for new creation/expression to be born/lived.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the equality and oneness within and as the words "Creation" and "Reaction".


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding my reactions as less than creations.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the self-reflection in seeing and realizing and understanding how and why my reactions are in fact my creations here.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I in fact created limitation for myself in defining particular behaviour patterns for myself as a points of reaction as a result of personalizing a definition of a specific word that stimulates/triggers/generates a point of conflict/friction within myself.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I created conflict/friction/reactions within myself.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining reactions as bad and creations as good.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for giving a positive polarity charge to the word "creation" and a negative polarity charge to the word, "reaction"


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting mixed up within myself as a result of bouncing back and forth within positive and negative energies.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating particular relationships towards words with positive and negative energies.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have fucked with my ability to play with words as a result of creating personalized definitions of words with specific and particular energetic associations.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating reactions towards words as a result of creating energetic relationships with words.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have been passively creating my reality within having reactions. 


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how having reactions is a point of creation from and as the starting point of passive acceptance and allowance.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abdicating creation within passive acceptance and allowance from and as the starting point of having reactions and not knowing and understanding what to do about reactions.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking reactions personally.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing reactions.


To Be Continued