day 800 - Integrity of Sharing

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https://steemit.com/life/@worldclassplayer/integrity-of-sharing


Note:  If You are Not in Fact familiar with Steemit, You should!  There's a lot of reasons why.  At the very least...it can change your life for the better.

Day 799 - Desteni and Dignity

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https://steemit.com/desteni/@worldclassplayer/dignity-and-desteni-my-vistit-to-the-desteni-farm-and-my-potential

Day 787 - Creating Structure(s)

Lets have a look at Structure:

Our time is structured....whether we like it or not. Obviously depending on our time management and regard for our responsibilities and allotment of time...will reflect in the quality of our minute to minute structuring of our days within time.

Activities are structured.  Say you play a sport...there's a certain structure to it that makes it the very sport/game you play.  Television is structured into a specific amount of time....same with movies.  Also consider here the stories are structured in a way of a timeline.

Money Is Structured. What do I mean?  I mean lets say you use a bank, there's banking structure.  Also, how much money you receive from work that you do is often structures by an hourly wage, an annual wage, a commission per sale, and or by specific contract.  Each point showcasing a particular structured design.

Our Thoughts/Feelings/Emotions are structured. What? Have a look...if you investigate the details into one of your thoughts....you can see that it corelates to much about yourself in one way or another. Same with the feelings and emotions.  They have been conditioned into ourselves in very specific ways as a result of how we have acted and reacted in response to stimuli in our environment.  Basically how we have been conditioned to process information from the time we were born.  Interesting investigation into the structure of our thoughts/feelings/emotions....because in using our words as a point of source identification....we can explore further by seeing what connector words are associated to the core words that come up in relation to a thought/feeling/emotion.

Point I am getting at here is:  Everything exists within and as Structure. Notice how something that is well built is checked by the engineer to make sure that it is Structurally Sound.


Creation is therefore all about Structure.  Anything we do has that point of structure to it.  Even within the regard that we create new structures by learning and knowing...understanding old structures.  Because with this insight we are able to fine tune the structuring of things in ways that are great.  Though ironically enough if we look at the world of business, many products are being made more and more inferior in and as the quality/durability of their structure.

I have started Playing with the creation of Structures in my day to day living.  How so?  Specifying specific amounts of time to begin new projects.  I am keeping it super simple. So i've decided to test these specifc structures over the course of 1 year. Yup one year.  The structures I have set up are small investments of time on a daily basis. 5 minutes or more.  I set the stop watch and I immerse myself within the point for 5 minutes...or a bit more if i decided to do so.  Though the point here is in seeing for myself how many things I can create with very small investments of time on a daily basis.


See the interesting thing here is that the learning compounds everyday.  So, lets look more closely at the 5 minute investment each day.  Lets take 7 points of Interest. that's 35 minutes.  Each day for 365 days. That's  1825 minutes per point. now say you pushed yourself and you did 7 minutes on each point.  Keep in mind, you dont have to do these things, one after another.....you could have 7, 7minute blocks spread out throughout your day.  That doesn't seem all that difficult. That would equal 2555minutes on each project/investigation point of discovery.  Now the interesting thing here is obviously you could push it further if you wanted to.  Say you get 10 minutes on average....because you just can't help but want to do more once you've started this fun structure setup you've created for yourself.

The emphasis here is that their is tremendous growth potential when and as you create a structure where you build on your own momentum on a daily basis.  It's a cool discipline in short term focus for long term benefit.

So just figured I would share some of my structured investments that i've embarked upon. 



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist creating structured supports in my day to day living. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize how supportive it is to create many structured points of support for myself in my day to day living.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand my tremendous creative potential within creating specific structures within my day to day living.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forget about Play in relationship to Structure.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have forgotten about being a small child who was extremely satisfied to spend time on the Play Structures.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how setting up specific structures within my day is allowing me to Create Structured Play Time in a variety of ways.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how creating specific structures within my day to day living creates and supports the harmony of a balanced work/play creation.

When and as I see myself resisting one of my specific structures I have setup to support my day to day living, I stop and breathe, I realize that moving into the structure and playing and working with it will be fun.  That the time commitment is short and totally doable.  I realize that these specific structures i have setup in my day to day living are long term investments that yield a rich harvest.

I commit myself to the fruits of my labor.

I commit myself to using Structures to support my best potential.

I commit myself to using structures as a platform to Create and develop myself in ways in which i would like to expand and grow.

I realize by creating structures for myself I am creating a sort of recipe book of my own success.

I commit myself to living passion within the specific structures i have set up.

Day 678 - Effort

Continuing from, Day 677 - Effort-full


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting caught within the polarization of the word Effort from the perspective of trying to decide which is better of worse...things to require effort or without effort....like effort-full or effortless.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating effort with movement...and within this attaching a negative charge...where I have created a resistance to actually moving myself within points as a result of believing and experience negative emotion towards requiring effort to actually move myself within things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having polarized my effort participations....where I have been effort-full in various applications....working very hard. And, in many other instances....doing almost nothing...virtually putting in no effort into particular relationship developments and living responsibilities. The contrast of doing my best work and my worst work....where it's like maximum effort in some applications and a most minimal effort in other applications....as like the very bare minimum.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have created a fight or flight type of survival relationship with the word "effort"...where it's like...OK...I will live/give effort if I believe it is absolutely necessary from the perspective of my immediate and relatively near future depends upon it....so like if I believe my survival is threatened....than it;s like I thrive in doing what I believe to be necessary. Otherwise....I believe...what is the bother....I don't really require to move....because no imminent threat/consequence that will jeopardize my immediate and relatively soon future survival.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for participating in a relationship with Effort from the perspective of short sightedness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the difficulty within actually and practically living a word effectively, when and as the word has emotional connotations rooted in the fear for survival.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I had impaired my full potential to express and live my best efforts as a result of justifying whether or not I should exercise my best efforts within my sharing and caring for myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the sharing and caring that encompasses the practical daily living application of Effort.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being negligent in my relationship towards practically living Effort.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being shocked with the absurd ridiculousness of actually seeing how I make believed a condition of learning impairment....where my actual effectiveness in learning and expressing myself was dependent upon my emotional disposition.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resistance to living Effort as always best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abusing myself and others as a result of neglecting to live Effort in always Best always all ways.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of actually making an effort to avoid effort in life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the irony within making a big Effort about Effort.

When and as I see myself faced with a moment where I am resisting to apply Effort, I stop and breathe....I see/realize and understand that I am faced with a moment where I have the opportunity to learn from my mistake and actually correct/remediate a contaminated relationship towards a particular point. I create the perfect correction as a result of giving forth my best effort in taking responsibility to do what needs to be done.

I commit myself to sharing my realizations about Effort and my past relationship suppressions within and as the point of Effort.

I commit myself to expanding my practical living application of Effort.

I commit myself to growing my expression of Effort.

I realize my Effort is the strength of my overall character here, both inside and outside.

I realize my self-responsibility to live/give my best Efforts...And, I realize Sharing and Caring are Paramount for Life Sustainability Here.

I commit myself to Life Sustainability as the Effort required to practically live/express/give as I would like to receive the realization that Sharing and Caring is Paramount Here.

I commit myself to Sharing and Caring as Paramount Here.

I commit myself to practically live to give....realizing that Life self-expression as who I am here is in and as the gifting.

I realize a strong depth of gratitude for the effort I have put into writing Self-Forgiveness.

Day 662 - Habit Change and Routine

I've been investigating the point of "habit" and "routine".  I've noticed an interesting thing within these investigations. Making an adjustment to a habit and routine...can carry over into influencing other areas of your life. Meaning that by adjusting a habit/routine with regards to one particular point...may actually have profound impact on assisting and supporting other areas of your life...like, a fine tuning occurs...so....by adjusting one area of yourself...you automatically are re-aligning/fine-tuning other areas of yourself....it's like, see/regard yourself as a musical instrument...and consider that by adjusting your particular playing ability....You change the overall nature of the game for you....like an expansion and increase in effectiveness occurs as a ripple effect...if you will...

So, the point of this blog here,....Is to open up the point....that,....making small...seemingly insignificant change within your daily routines....can have significantly profound results.

Obviously, the reverse is also true here.  By struggling with complications/problems/stress in one area of your life....this can cause a ripple effect...into a consequentially negative impact into other areas of your life.  Take a couple of examples here.....stress/problems at work....carrying over into personal relationship issues. Or financial issues...impacting marital issues. Or, for example....neglecting to make the bed in the morning and keeping the bedroom tidy...carrying over into and influencing the effectiveness within and as the structured organization of one's work/business. I've personally noticed a parallel with a messy room and a messy mind.

I've noticed/realized I am most effective within tasks/activities when I create specific structured routines and habits for myself. I am able to be most effective within this approach because I create a "in the zone" space for myself to move within. What is interesting about this "in the zone" space is that I move myself to exist beyond having the time to think so much and stew within thoughts/feelings/emotions.  See it's interesting here, because, by not giving the time and attention to wander within thought/feeling/emotion as I participant within events/moments....my awareness within my immediate physical environment and participation is heightened.  Within seemingly short tasks that may take only a matter of seconds...by remaining committed to the task at hand I am performing said tasks fractions of seconds faster...and in some particular instances...many seconds faster. Now, a few seconds saved here and there might not seem like a lot...but, when you consider that our whole day is structured within the time frame of a matter of seconds...it is apparent that every second counts in doing the math in accumulating all the seconds within our 24 hour day.

To Be Continued

Day 629 Information Transaction

 It's interesting how we live here in and as Information. Like the happenings here are a result of and as Information. Like We are here in and as an Information transference...Like All the time Transactions are happening. Have a look at how money moves as a point of Transactions...I mean look at how we communicate, essentially our sharing as how our communication is received and regarded is like an on going transaction...where and how we are always in the process of Buying and Selling.

Why do I see we are Always in the process of Buying and Selling? Well I see this as the way our sharing exists because there is a point of Choice Acceptance and Allowance. Meaning, we can willing accept and allow particular transactions to take place or we can stop particular transactions/transference's from happening.

What I am in the process of doing is taking accountability and individual self-responsibility for and as my every Acceptance and Allowance Here.

Why?

Because I see the Value in and as Life Equality and Oneness Here. I see how it is in and as the Best Interest of Life Accountability Here to Forgive the Debt I have accrued in Buying into bad Acceptances and Allowances? What is a bad acceptance and allowance? This is where I have accepted and allowed myself to invest in and as the development of a Word Association Relationship that is defined as Less than What is the Best Standing Representation of Life Here. It's Interesting to see here how I am the Ultimate Share Holder of and as My Sharing of Words Here...and thus I see that it is an Individual Personal Self-Responsibility to make sure that the standing presentation and representation of and as our every communication of Our Word's is Aligned within and as the Life Interest of and as Equality and Oneness...as this is the Understanding Self-Trust within and as the Self-Honesty of What is Best for All Life is Always the Best Gift Here.

Our Presentation, Practical Living Self-Expression as Our Self-Movement from Moment to Moment is Easy to be Well Received as an Insured Agreement Guarantee when and as there is absolute clarity within and as what is being Shared. Like there is no mystery in being straight forward...as it is clear to see what is being presented to you. Nothing Hidden.

Interesting how I became aware of how disagreement and uncertainty comes about within our Confidence in Agreement Transactions Here as a result of Fear...as the Fee we Pay as the consequential Fare of and as Self-Doubt which is a resulting factor of and as the inherent history of our track record of deceitful actions with and as our track record of receipts. Interesting to see here how we hold the key's/Tools to releasing Our-Self Here from and as Our Own Indebted Servitude. This Here I speak is in fact the Process Tool and Key which I call Self-Forgiveness.

To change our Status Standing Here from Citizen Debtor to Real Life Living Creditor as The Life Source Giving/Gifting Our-Self Life Credit. I mean, How are we suppose to be in Service of and as what is Best for all Life Here, If we do not Start by Utilizing the Taking of the Opportunity Here with and as our Time to Give Our-Self the Best Life Here?

The Process of Gifting/Giving Our-Self the Best Life Here, Starts within and as the Practical Living Application of and as Self-Forgiveness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of and as my debt within and as my participation within Information Transactions...as the sharing/Speaking of Words from and as a Starting point of and as Conflict/friction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating a debt within myself as a result of speaking words from within and as the starting point of debt/conflict/friction/dissonance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the amount of support that exists here within and as the Living of Words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the self-reflection and self-expression that exists within and as the practicality of Living Words effectively within and as the greatest meaning/value/potential/support/assistance/possibility possible Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my potential ability to express myself here within and as the practical living of words within and as the greatest value.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the value of Life Equality and Oneness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as less than the Highest/Greatest/Supreme Value of and as Life Equality and Oneness.

I realize and understand the Magnificence of and as Self-Expression Here.
I realize and understand the Equality and Oneness within and as the practical living of Words Here as what is Best for all Life.
I realize and understand the self-responsibility, self-trust, self-honesty required within and as the Self-Expression of and as Our-Self Creation Here as Living Words.
I see/realize and understand the process of Self-Correction as a result of and as the accumulation of Self-Forgiveness Here.

I commit myself to the practical living process of Self-Forgiveness and Self-Correction.
I commit myself to Self-Direction within and as the process of Self-Forgiveness and Self-Correction.

When and as I see a point of conflict/fear existing/moving within myself, I stop and breathe, I locate the word within myself that represent the particular cognitive dissonance I am experiencing within Myself...As I face/see/Understand/realize the word relationship association that exists within myself that is out of alignment within and as Life Equality and Oneness, I take the time to remediate the word relationship association to it's self-corrective positioning as what is best for all Life.

I Commit Myself to the Status Standing Creditor and Beneficiary of and as What is Best for All Life Here.

Day 628 Conceited

It's Fun Funny and Cool to play with the sounding of words to see what is sometimes missed within and as the actuality of what is here in and as a word relationship as how the letters come together in producing a structured sound expression.

I'm looking at the word "Conceited" Because this is a self-defensive word I have utilized as a tool to propagate the religion of myself as being Superior in competition/comparison/judgement to others. Interestingly enough, this reveals low/inflated self-worth. I believed that it was necessary to sell/promote my self-proclaimed greatness as a way to in fact achieve self-proclaimed greatness. Motivated within and as the desire to be be famous and regarded as Royalty in Superiority, I presented my beliefs/opinions whole heartily, triggering others to fuel my proclamations and stand with my behaviour/programming/words as a result of having the very same desires existent within themselves, however, not necessarily actively engaging desire to the extent in which I have been advocating/living.

CON-SEATED !!!

Notice also how the word "Cite" and "Cited" exists within and as the word "Conceited" and how the spelling of "Cited" is rearranged to spell "Ceited"...as "Con + Ceited = ConSeated"

It's Funny to see the actual play out of Conceited behaviour because it's like trying to encourage a hypnotic trance into getting what you want...Like instead of Asking for what it is that You would Like to Receive, there is this belief that if I deceive and I believe in what is is I am deceiving about...I will Achieve the result I am seeking without being direct in my asking for it...interestingly enough this behaviour is like a "beating around the bush" type of mentality that is the direct result of self-manipulation as a result of the accepted and allowed Fear of Inferiority.

OK, Let's look at a very specific example here:

"Let me tell You how great I am. I am the Best at Everything. Everything I do, I am so good at...I have accomplished this and this and that and this...and let me go on and on about all the things I am capable of...Also that I am not not afraid of this and this and this...which is actually quite impressively and truly remarkable because pretty much everyone is afraid and I am not...I am actually so much better than You..."

OK, the point of my example here is to illustrate the specific nature of "Conceitedness", where a specific desire exists to be regarded/perceived/judged/worshiped/proclaimed/complimented in a particular manner...as like to specifically tell someone what it is You want to hear. I find this really funny, because the ridiculous absurdity of it is not heard at all within the speaker...as like there is a cognitive dissonance towards the joke/funny being parlayed here because of the serious nature of the speaker...as like the roots of the situation are seriously fucked...as Fear...is like fucking our Ears ability to Hear...and so, Fear, is like the price/FARE we pay/speak without realizing and understanding the seriousness and severity of and as our own current situation/problem...and thus we miss the Joke that we are, which in truth is Soooooooo Ridiculously Absurd that it is Funny. Albeit and Arguably So, the truth of Our-self is the Most Unfortunate Tragic Comedy Existence as a Whole has in fact ever Witnessed. Ironically enough, Seeing that our finger pointing judgement/comparison/competition has all been in vain, as the reality of the situation is that we've really just been finger blasting our own Asshole as we did not realize and understand our Equality and Oneness and therefore consequently became the manifestation of and as total fucking assholes here...Not realizing how we've proliferated the belief in our own BULLSHIT by finger fucking our own asshole within our self-judgement/comparison/competition believed and propagated inferiority/superiority complex conditioning behaviour mentality frame of mind.


To Be Continued

Day 620 Persistence

 So, very sheepishly of me, I did not realize and understand the practical living support within and as the word “Persistence”.

I had come to associate the word “Persistence” with the saying, “Whatever you resist will persist.” And this particular saying I had associated with the word negative…which therefore created the logical justification for me to affiliate the word “Negative” within and as a part of persistence…which I in turn had created a negative energetic buzz about within myself.


As a result of this particular connection within myself, I did not realize and understand how I was in fact compromising my ability to live the word “Persistence” in the truest sense of the word/meaning. Like, as a result of the association I had created towards the word, I was negating the full potential that exists within and as the word Persistence. Obviously, this isn't the cool way to continue onward within and as a word relationship, because the value inliving words comes from within and as the Equality and Oneness of words…where we are able to clearly see/understand/realize the meaning of words without bias/compromise and shortsightedness.




Let’s look at the word Persistence for a moment:





Persistence: (noun) Firm or obstinate continuance in a course of action in spite of difficulty or opposition. 

The continued and or prolonged existence of something.





I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for sheepishly not realizing and understanding the practical living support within and as the word “Persistence”.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for attaching a negative energetic charge/buzz within and as the word “Persistence”.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I suppressed my ability to live the full potential of the word Persistence as what is best for Life.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating Persistence with the saying, “What you resist will persist”…and within this, thinking that this is all that Persistence is related to.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating resistance with persistence to only exist within and as a form of negative connotation and that I should therefore avoid anything to do with Resistance and Persistence.



When and as I see myself reacting to the word Persistence, I stop and breathe, I say, “I am Here”, I see/realize and understand the practical living support within and as the word Persistence.


I commit myself to living the word persistence as a point of Life enhancement as a necessary tool within and as Creation from and as a starting point of Self-Determination.


I commit myself to self-trust within and as the practical living application of Persistence.

Day 612 Beginning a New Day

Within beginning my morning movement, I have noticed that when first moving myself to lets say the washroom,..I have caught myself existing within my mind just kind of automatically thinking about yesterday and what I did and didn't do. What's interesting about this is it is like a carrying of a dead weight. Like, to a certain extent, having held onto self-judgement from my previous day(s) and carried it forward with me to today...and what is interesting about this is that within my mind I have been automatically indulging within this thinking...and justifying this behaviour within the belief that I am analytically really studying myself. What is interesting about this...is that, it has become quite self-evident to me that I am not being as effective as possible within my evening before I go to sleep...specifically making sure I am not carrying any energetic baggage with me from the past into the future. Obviously, I realize and understand that this is a process and it is my self-responsibility to face points as they come up and prevent these same point from coming up in the future.

What I have also noticed is that I have allowed myself to be distracted within myself as a result of thinking about the past. It's like going into a vortex...and the vortex seems interesting because it's about yourself...and you don't realize how you get stuck in time and really lose your time because whether you realize it or not your resonating within this energetic buzz/trance that is directly related to the vortex that you're within. And interestingly enough, what I have noticed and realized is that there is always a point of self-awareness...where I choose to enter the mind vortex and choose to step out of the mind vortex.

What's interesting to me is that within accepting and allowing myself to practically live the application of 'gratefulness', I can in fact see the point of self-realization that I had previously not seen/realized/understood. What is interesting about this, is that here exists the humbling nature of the process of self-realization and self-perfection.

What's interesting to me is that going into the trance like state within my mind where I am just kind of totally in my head and out of my body, is that it is always a choice...and interestingly enough...I have justified making this choice on many occasions within the seemingly logical reasoning that I have a few minutes to kill/burn/spare. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the ridiculous absurdity of justifying and logically reasoning that I have a few minutes to kill/burn/spare...where I can indulge within my mind as like just drifting off...day dreaming...thinking....not realizing and understanding the expensive cost paid by the physical body for such entertainment in mind.

To be Continued

Day 611 Emotional Attachment to Money Self-Corrections

When and as I see myself stressing myself out about money, I stop and breathe, I say I am here, and I see/realize/understand that stressing myself out about money does not in fact support me at all. I see/realize/understand the harm/strain I do to my body within stressing my body as a result of fearing not having enough money. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear not having enough money to survive. I commit myself to seeing the humor as the absurd ridiculousness of justifying the need to stress myself out as a result of requiring/needing more money and not knowing how I am going to get it. I see/realize/understand that stressing myself out will not support and assist me within obtaining the money. I commit myself to stop stressing myself out. I commit myself to stop justifying the experience of stress upon my physical body in relationship to dealing with money.

When and as I see myself experiencing disharmony within myself in and as relationship to money, I stop and breathe, I say I am here, I investigate why and how it is that I am in conflict with regards to my starting point within and as Money. I commit myself to resolving conflict/disharmony within and as money. I commit myself to taking immediate self-responsibility in self-correcting a disharmony within and as money relationship when in fact I see the point. I commit myself to stop fearing to see for real what is here. I commit myself to stop fearing and doubting my future here on earth. I commit myself to the future here on earth.

When and as I see myself valuing money more than I value myself/others, I stop and breathe, I say I am here, I direct myself in forgiving myself for devaluing myself/others in relationship to over-inflation within and as the value of my relationship to money/currency. I commit myself to stop perpetuating a world money system of abuse. I see/realize/understand my relationship with money and other beings is a reflection of why and how the world exists today.

To be Continued

Day 606 Emotional Attachment to Money

Why is it that I have an emotional attachment to Money?

Well, I feel safe and secure when I have lots of money in my bank account. Money provides me with a sense of comfort and security of well being. Have I created a false sense of security within myself that is relative to the amount of money I have? I mean, money is a point of practicality within the word in which we live. Money supports our well being here. I need and require money in order to buy food and be able to pay for a place to live. I need money to survive. So, I see that within this desire to survive/fear of not surviving I have derived comfort within having money to spend. I mean, I like spending money on points of luxury...like being able to travel, have a car, have toys to play with...the money to participate within activities. 

I was just looking at my bank account and calculated some upcoming expenses...and also I was looking at the price of the Canadian dollar in relation to the European dollar and the American dollar....and within doing so, I had some reactions of anger/frustration/irritation/annoyance/blame.

Also, I started questioning my initial plans for the upcoming months...I mean I started looking at things more and more because of the fear of loss...like losing the money that currently sits in my bank account...and within this...kind of fretting within my mind... so very concerned...in a slight state of panic/stress/strain upon myself...feeling uncomfortable within the thoughts that as my bank account shrinks and I move into new business ventures without an initial immediate return of income....what if I don't succeed? I mean, shit, the paranoia attached to my money relationship is a most tragic comedy.

So, 

As, I stabilized myself within taking a breath and realizing I am here, I was able to look with clarity at how I had created such an energetic buildup within myself in relationship to my money. 

Obviously it is not cool that the majority of the people on the planet most likely have some sort of emotional attachment to money.

It is not cool that my emotional attachment to money has been a result of competition mentality mind set as the 'desire to win and the fear of losing'...the epitome of a win/loss relationship. I mean, fuck, that type of relationship mind set sucks.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating an emotional attachment to money.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for existing within and as a competitive win/loss relationship with money...where I desire to have more money and I fear loosing all my money.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining my comfort and security in relationship to how much money is in my bank account.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create my existence to exist within and as an emotion/feeling state of energy that is directly related to how much money I have.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having suppressed my practical living creative expression and potential expression within garnering an emotional attachment to money.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating emotional stress/strain upon my physical body within fearing to lose my money and fearing to not have enough money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the money psychology of our shared reality...and how it exists within and as the fear of loss.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing my life potential within stressing/straining myself about money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for valuing money more than I value my physical well being.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for sacrificing and compromising my physical well being within forming an emotional attachment to money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have suppressed my relationship potential with money as a result of fearing to lose money...and desiring to have more money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a conflicting relationship with money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have the opportunity to expand my relationship to and as money within letting go of my emotional attachment towards money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I am able to become more intimate within my expression with money as a result of stopping to accept and allow my money movement relationships to be rooted and influenced by fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have the opportunity to develop creative expression with money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from and as the money here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as the point of self-determination in deciding and determining the level of connection I have with money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the money delusion of desire as like the beautiful mirage that is always just a little out of reach.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for mind fucking myself in and as a result of creating an emotional attachment to money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for becoming energetically stimulated by money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have moved through my life within a limited capacity as a result of having an emotional attachment to money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having reacted in a spiteful manner to the realization that I have existed within an emotional attachment towards money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being spiteful towards myself in trying to rebel against my emotional attachment to money...by deliberately being careless with my money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing my money movement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting to avoid spending my money as much as possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing my money movement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having desired to be reckless with my money in hopes that I will get a big reward for taking a big risk.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring big amounts of money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing big amounts of money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how ridiculously absurd it is to fear money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for treating money as separate from myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having defined money to be my artificial life force.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for restricting/resisting my access to money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a relationship with money based upon self interest.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to let go of the desire for more money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that the desire for more money is the necessary motivation in order to make receiving more money possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that I do not in fact require to desire having more money in order for me to be one and equal with receiving/inheriting more money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking I must be deceptively clever in order to receive more money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doubting my ability to give myself more money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for running away from more money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting to avoid the responsibility that comes with having more money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the responsibility that comes with having more money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which my relationship with money has been ridiculously absurd.

Day 604 Prioritizing My Life Business

So,

I see/realize/regard/understand that my every moment participation here is a reflection/presentation/consequence of Myself/Life/Business/Here.

So,

I see/realize/understand how I have negated to regard the significance and magnificence of my every moment participation here.

So, 

I see/realize/understand how I have taken for granted Myself /Life/Business/Opportunities that exist here from moment to moment.

So,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and hiding myself form the fact that my behaviour from moment to moment is a reflection/presentation of Myself/Life/Business/Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting the mindset of business.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the dynamics of "Business".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing to ignore points of potential business within my reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for seeing business as a point of responsibility that I would like to minimize.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for minimizing my business responsibility and potential here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to expand my business/responsibility here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the correlation between business and personal self-responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Life/Business/Opportunity I have been bestowed with here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making excuses/justifications/reasons to restrict/suppress/diminish Myself/Life/Business/Talent/Opportunity/Creativity Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the the significance and magnificence of giving myself Business/Responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how to give myself Everything I want.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for restricting my access to Everything I want.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself believing that I cannot have Everything I want.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being hesitant about giving myself everything I want.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to give myself Everything I want.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for hiding from the Quest of Questioning Everything I want.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for restricting and blocking the assitance and support of others giving me Everything I want.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being spiteful towards myself and others within resisting to seeking out help in getting Everything I want.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to commit to self-direction I see/realize/understand to be valuable Life/Support/Assistance that will enhance my practical living reality here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to utilize all resources I have at my disposal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resistance to utilizing resources.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to take short cuts and skimp out on the cost benefits to and as the investment within and as my well being here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being a cheapskate with my money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for undervaluing physical life labor here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and uderstanding how undervaluing my physical life labor here reflect and presents the example of how the world exists within and as a point of life suppression...where life is not regarded to be valuable and is in fact drastically undervalued.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for drastically undervaluing Myself here...and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for devaluing Life as a result of not realizing and understanding the starting point of and as Life Equality and Oneness.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to really mind my business.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to examine all the dimensions of what it in fact really means to "Mind My Business"...and within this question My Opportunities/Resources available within Minding My Business.



To Be Continued.