Within investigating the relationship dynamics I have with various people I am ashamed to see how I have limited the development of many prosperous life expanding relationships as a result of my accepted and allowed self-judgment. It's interesting to see how one's ability to have fulfilling relationships with beings is directly related to the point of "judgement". Specifically what I mean about judgement here, is with particular regards to one's personalized vocabulary. See, What I have noticed about myself is that my relationship with each and every word within myself reflects and illustrates my practical living effectiveness in and as my ability and capability in developing quality relationships with people in my reality. Meaning, if there is energetic polarization in my vocabulary...this is going to cause an inability for me to have genuine, effective, substantial, fulfilling, substantial, rewarding, supportive, assisting, and profoundly great relationships without self-imposed strain, tension, frustration, anger, irritation, and cognitive dissonance.What is interesting to see here is how "justification" is a primary word of the individualized ego mentality of mind that has contributed in justifying my very own self-validated and self-defined vocabulary restraints.Here's a little example and story to clarify the significance and importance of proper vocabulary alignment:So, the word "alcohol"...I created many negative energetic charges in relationship and association to the word alcohol. Meaning I created an extensive amount of resistance around this particular word...to the point where for the most part I would disregard the majority of humanity who associate themselves with liking to drink alcohol. The consequence of such behaviour was the result of and as self-righteous justification. Interestingly enough within my mind, I believed my self-righteous justification to be logically reasoned within my mind as making sense because of how the word "alcohol" was accepted and allowed to exist within myself. What is interesting about the word "alcohol" and my experience with the word "alcohol"...is that basically I was holding onto extensive self-judgement/tension/strain in relationship to the word "alcohol"...where I in fact flip flopped from having initially regarded"alcohol" with positive energy.See, my initial relationship with alcohol was from the starting point of regarding "alcohol" as something to do that is cool and is a way for me to have added courage within and as my socializing and expressing myself towards others...to the point where I in fact at one point in time regarded alcohol as my "liquid courage" and it was a social lubricant for me...making socializing a seemingly more natural process...because I had recognized that I had had some difficulty with socializing because I was at times shy and timid.What is interesting about all this is that I never regarded the anger and frustration I harbored in relationship to this point. You see, because years later, I totally changed my stance about alcohol and my identity in relationship to alcohol. Also, I saw that I did not require alcohol to be comfortable within my own skin and that I did not see my initial relationship with alcohol as cool...as like, it was a form of a crutch...granted, I see and realize how a crutch can be a temporary point of assistance and support. To Be Continued:
So I started to look at the word plays that exist within the word 'investigate'. I didn't have any real expectations about how many words I would find. As I started to investigate the word investigate, I was surprised that I continuously was seeing more and more word plays. I've played with words before and and many times there has not been so many words continuously being visible to me. Somewhat ironic that there is so many words to investigate that exist within playing with the letter makeup of 'investigate'. This really does exemplify the point of doing a thorough investigation. I mean like it's an ongoing thing in a way that is continuously monitored/surveillanced until there is certainty on the point...and even then when everything is believed to be known about the investigation...it's possible that new evidence can surface...like it was there the whole time...but it went undetected as it was not seen or realized...which poses the question, if we only know what we know...and we realize we only know what we know...what if we didn't know that we ever knew anything...and in a way if nobody knows anything than..well that's a serious like what the fuck situation...because 'know' is to realize and understand what it means to be a wonk...which is someone who is studious and hard working and takes an excessive interest in the minor details of political policy. What I am showing here is that to investigate a person is accumulating the knowledge that is here to know...and the knowledge is always here...it's within the accumulation and how we can effectively put the accumulation of fact into application that are best for all Life. Like the fact of the matters here on planet earth for example reflect that there is a serious lack of wonk going on because each person here reflects the representation of our political process as how we have politicized our self suppression as all life here...due to our lack of investigation....which has resulted from our inability to really look and question what is existing here and ask questions within looking at what is here. It is really quite simple when you consider that all that is required for our world to be effectively ordered/organized in ways that are best for everyone here would be to actually look and see everything here...and make the best placement assessments as how we can best support everything here. This can obviously be done through asking lots of questions about things.
it's interesting how the little things make all the difference. Like for instance I re-read my previous blog post before writing this one...and I re-read the blog immediately after I had wrote out a whole bunch of word plays for the word 'investigate'. What I am illustrating here is that upon re-reading my previous blog, I made a few minor spelling and grammar adjustment and the way the blog reads is now opening up more dimensions to see. What's interesting about this is that the adjustments were relatively minor as there was a couple of word adjustments...and some punctuation changes. Though everything that is quite minor is really also quite major from the perspective of oneness and equality and the fact that each part is a contributing part to the whole...and within this, the understanding exists here that every role played here is one and equal in being a role played here.Polarity can be quite the mind fuck when trying to get to clarity on something...as like deciphering sides...though it's kind of funny to look at deciphering sides...because if you rub away both sides...what are you left with?...Nothing...what's in the middle/inside of 2 sides...well when the sides are gone there is nothing left in the inside because the siding is gone and now all is in the outside...as like the inside and the outside become harmonized...as like the walls of division become removed and we are able to see and realize our own opposition...and when there is no more barriers/gates blocking out our opposition...all of a sudden there is no more polarity war of conflict friction as like all the rubbing has been rubbed out...as like no more need to mental masturbate...Investigate what is here and see clear.Much to investigate here...This blog on my process of the word "investigate continues"I Implore You to Investigate!Investigate…invest ate, gate, stage, tag, saint, stage, sin, given, gave, gives, invite, state, sign, gist, it, vine, vines, tin, ten, nest, neat, eat, eaten, eats, seven, testing, gain, vestige, ive, in, at, taste, gates, vest, I, naive, nave, save, saving, age, see, sea, seen, tit, tits, is, sing, vein, veins, seat, stat, get, gets, gin, invitee, teen, teens, ages, taint, taints, tan, sage, vane, vast, vie, ignite, ingest, gene, eave, eve, eves, titan, titans, tease, teasing, vegan, teat, neatest, vegans, seeing,
