Day 763 - What Moves You?

 


Have you ever noticed a pull or a push inside yourself towards or away from something....like a motivation or a lack of motivation to move/participate within something? Like for instance; to get up off the couch and clean the dishes....or getting out of bed and getting going.....or joining in for an activity you've been invited to participate within.

Have you ever noticed that you can actually take a moment and look at the pull/push that exists within you towards or away from participation within a particular point.....This Looking is a Real time Living in the Moment Look....And, within this seeing Here, there exists an opportunity to step out of the polarity flip flop of push/pull energetic definition.  How does this opportunity exist? The first step is in identifying, being honest about the push/pulll bias that exists....and then from here, deliberately challenging oneself to in the moment go beyond the barrier/control of the push/pull resistance that has been created in one's own mind as the programming definition.  It's interesting, because is like a point of swimming, because you are moving into new waters so to speak....it's funny because the water has always been here....and you've always had access to this area of swimming....yet due to the self imposed restraints....self has had restricted access and an accepted and allowed inability to actually express that response and ability and navigate through that space in time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I self-censor my response abilities to express myself and to create a world that is best for all life.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding that every time i submit myself into an accepted and allowed self-submission, as a real self-suppression....by resisting to stand out and direct myself out of being pulled or pushed into or out of something as like a sort of accepted and allowed fight and conflict within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being very very defensive about getting involved within things and participating within things that i am being asked to join in, and take part within.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how defensive i can be within my mind of thoughts/feelings/emotions, and how so much so this has hindered my ability to really listen, look, and hear what is here....because of the accepted and allowed Fear/Defensiveness nature of my accepting and allowed mind conditioning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for tricking myself into my own self-victimization through a sort of buying into the belief of and as my very own justified self-righteous indignation that i have professed to myself as gospel as the making sense of the push/pull experience i find myself in.....and within this...I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really even making sense of myself within my experiences...but rather contain myself in a sort of self-censorship bubble of my very own comfort zone.

I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of fearing to face my own discomfort.

I realize and understand how I have conditioned myself through my mind to self-censor my potential by defining my comfort zone within the spectrum of fear energy knowing control.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to lose control...I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how out of control this world/my life is within and as a result of being influenced to move only be a polarity friction.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing that this very movement is a grand statement of accepted and allowed suppression...lack of understanding.....fear.....self-victimization......mind control.

I commit myself to examining/investigating my self-defined boundaries as like the basis of my self-created bubble shield from all of existence here.

I commit myself to equalizing myself with all Life here.  I commit myself to removing the the conflict from myself as the walls/boundaries i have created as my defense system.

I commit myself to challenge and engage others to break through their self-created bubbles.

I commit myself to the process of self-movement.
I realize myself movement to by like an ongoing stretching of sorts as like it is challenging at times to push myself through my own stiffness/stubbornness/rigidness....and it;s actually like a labored stretch to move beyond the boundary i created myself to be stuck within....so the stretching i see is like a sort of climbing for myself....climbing up and out of self-created suppression/depression in various ways.

I realize this climbing within myself here as like the stretching movement, is so much so a self-direction in the moment....because i notice my body is always telling me where i am sort of out of alignment/strained within myself...and so the stretching movement...and directing myself into participating in different actions in my world, is like a sort of ironing out the kinks/dissonance within myself, as like the making and unfolding of actual potential here.  I commit myself to work/play with the process here of self-movement/self-direction.

Day 762- The Psychology of My Inhumanity in Regards to Christmas

 


Christmas has some pretty cool points about it:

Time with family and friends.

Sharing in activities...from preparing meals...to more recreational and leisurely activities.

Getting and Giving cool material things. The present swapping.

A sense of jovial regard for those in your environment...the well wishing of Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays...to everyone you encounter.


Some considerations about the above points:

These are timeless things...like sort of practical for having the best life here.  And let me be frank, it's not that the well wishing has to be of a merry Christmas....but the general regard of well wishing and being merry towards one another is cool.

The getting and giving of material things. This is cool. Lots of cool things exist. This is also a practical point of regular occurrence...meaning we regularly need things...and we also want things. so making a point of getting what we need and want is cool. Though i think the setup behind it with Christmas is kind of dumb,,,because to me the getting and giving is to be an all the time type thing...as like just one of the practical points within daily existence on planet earth. I mean it is not necessarily the most practical flow of movement on the planet for everyone to bee seeking/needing/wanting the same shit all the time. ( there's a lot of dimensions to consider within the seeking/needing/wanting of things point)  The attention i bring focus to about it....is that it is a sort of manufactured holiday in which the majority populace of the western world has consented to...and it's rooted in capitalistic materialism.  The War of this World in many ways.  It's is the Have's vs the Have knots.  The best celebrations of the holidays are by those that Have Money...the Shittiest celebration of the Holidays are by those who do not have money.

There is a a lot of arguably shitty decorations that are created about the holidays....most of all the shit that is created for the holidays is made by people in 3rd world countries who don't really have holiday's.  The symbolism behind what such events represent is really tragic when you consider how exclusive the Giving and Getting of Christmas is.  It's like a blunt reminder of the realms of disgrace that exist here as human relationships throughout the world.

So, there is a lot of shit in regard to Christmas...there is cool shit too at the surface...as like the on the surface fun to be had...as like the result of being a genetic lottery winner in this world....as like being better off than others within this world....and the peer pressure to participate in the elitist celebration because there is much good cheer about it...lots of desires/addictions to be served as like ok and cool...because it is popular holiday time.
So it's like, ya i like getting stuff...sure i would like to receive all the things that can be given to me....sure i will eat all that delicious food....sure i will have some laughs with family and friends....sure i will go to that christmas party...sounds like it will be fun....sure i will play some christmas games with you guys....sure, i willl bring a xmas dish over to the party....sure i will participate in the gift giving exchange.....sure.....

It's like all this good shit on offer....why wouldnt i want to particpate within it? 

Why would I want to question the whole orchestration of just going allowing with the popular movements?

Why would I question a good thing?

Why would I want to not have this christmas holiday when there is all these things that benefit my self interest...and make me feel good....and are sort of nostalgic to my early child hood memories.

I mean, it's too bad that things suck for many other people....but it would really suck if i didnt have all the luxuries that i have...and so I mean it doesnt really feel good to think about such things...and it's easy to dismiss shit that i don't like, because it gets in the way of the things that i do like.

I mean, why should i have to be the one who really cares or gives a shit...or challenges the acceptances and allowances of things here....when seemingly like everyone around me doesn't really give a shit about doing the same....maybe i will just procrastinate on the points of regard just a little longer...because no one else seems to notice... I mean everyone else around me is wanting to play this game we are allowing here... I mean why not just a little longer go along with this bullshit...Wait? did i just say bullshit?...that must have been a mistake in my vocabulary....because i love Christmas!  It's one of my favorite time's of year...as like the polarization of the year into monumental events...like Christmas being the end of the year big orgasm and capitalistic orgy...the work I slaved away within all year...as being a better paid slave than the many third world slaves...and even winning more money than many of the slaves within the 1st world....I am better than other people because I made more money....and at the same time, I can tell myself that money doesn't matter....that money is not really important here....but it really is in so many of ways...i mean the capacity for a quality life is so much so related to money....but hey...Christmas is a time of Giving/Celebrating...and so i even give a few bucks to charity...you know...because this is the time to be in the spirit of giving....you know, and it makes me feel righteously important like i am a good member of society that is helping to make the world a better place for those that are unfortunate.  Fortunately i am fortunate enough to not have to rely on the charity of the righteously fortunate. I mean it a result of my skill really....people who have things and fortune in this world are truly just more deserving and better than those without such things. I mean, these are the real survivors here....like the winners who would come up winning even if there starting point situation was shittier....it's unfortunate that there is so many losers in this world....but that's just the way things are...and Hey...Somebody has got to be the Best...or close to the Best...so ya...there is the winning team and the losing team....and the player in between that flip flopping between the winning team and the losing team...and so the rosters are not set in stone for most....because most are just not good enough and deserving of real greatness....But hey...that's just the way things are...and well...I am Lucky.


Note:  I have glossed in some strong statements of ridiculousness, that are in fact sarcastic in nature...yet at the same time...this sarcasm is a sort of tragic comedy because it reflects the dark nature of our collective humanity here.

I challenge you to check yourself to see if your found any of my words/statements to be offensive?  I question you to examine the scope of the offense?

Please do Share,  After all, this is the season of Giving!

Merry Christmas!

Day 753 Consistency and Moderation - A Complimentary and Practical Living Arrangement,,,Like a Fine Tune

 



When you take two things that are good and you pair them together, the potential increases....like a good investment....You know this...and I mean the song gets better....it's like adding depth to the pool you are swimming in.  It's fun to begin wading around in shallow waters...like a wading pool....I mean it's a cool place to play around within....though, that is not all there is.  Potential exists beyond the shallow waters of the wading pool.

Word Relations are a lot like the 'wading pool' analogy I present here. Though, that is not all they are.  Like for instance when you pair words together to create the specificity of your sentencing...the potential to increase the depth of your pool exists.  I mean words are like the water to swim with and within. And the words are like the giving ourselves depth to move about in so many ways as the expressions of ourselves that exist within and as ourselves here.

The better we trust ourselves to work and play with our words here....the more expansive our swimming pool gets...and ironically enough our response ability to play and work as our sound expression here, becomes more clear, as a finely tuned clearly defined shape....as we exercise/drive/sculpt/draw our formations together as a reflection of and as our-self standing here as Collaborator...a worker and player here.

So much so, the way I like to look at things here is from the perspective of expansive potential possibility.  This I see is the depth of the water to swim in that exists our Expression/Flow/Opportunity here as Creation Creators.

Movement is Dynamic.

There is a definite momentum to movement.

Words are movement.

Words are moving and standing still as sounds structurally sound. A fascinating surety here indeed. I mean there is a reflexive responsibility about words and at the same time there is a firmness holding on together about words. This seeing about words stems from the branches/roots that are parts/pieces of the Tree of Self/Life here as who we are as Sound.

There is so much more to say....

The orchestra of word arrangements is a timeless classic.


For the moment here, lets pay particular attention and regard to the acknowledgement and appreciation of:

Consistency and Moderation....together in unison....as the complimentary relationship pairing here that bodes well for the composer who combines these harmonies here in playing and working out various notes that make up the masterpiece that is the inevitable Greatness of Life living arrangements Here.



To Be Continued as I provide more specific direction into and as the diving board for the deep dive.

Day 748 - Word Recognition and Exploration

It's fascinating to examine the specifics of our communication. Like for instance, when sharing words with another here, often times, we will pick up...or the other will focus in on a particular "word" within the exchange of many words. By giving attention to the particular word of interest...I have noticed that much potential is possible.

What I mean here, is really taking the time to elaborate and go into the various points of fascination that open up in our communications. Like specifically and for instance, in a most recent text messaging conversation i had.....I had shared many many points with a distant friend/associate....and of all the things i had shared...there was one point that came up as like somewhat of a consumption and a preoccupation. Which is interesting in and of itself, because the question opens up, as to, how often is it that, we are unable to actually practically work with information effectively here?

I mean this is somewhat reflective to the way in which our world exists here. World and Words....notice the paralleled similarities here...I mean in the spelling and the sounding here....Word and World...how closely related in relativity these point are. I mean our words make up the world so to speak as how we speak things so...as a reflection of our action...words in action make up our physical movement...the parts...the mechanics to and as the specifics of and as our motion. The movement and doing as our response abilities here....so much so as our capabilities here to exercise in and as our daily expressed/lived actions.

So, what I would like to reiterate in this sharing here today, is the point that often times, there is a particular moment of reactionary impulsing to particular language that is used...and this is often reflected back to us or another in and as our communication. And within being perceptive to such instances. there is tremendous potential that is possible to open up in and as the moment. Here comes a point of self-honesty in and as the moment of sharing and looking and seeing, and somewhat daring to actually stop and look at what is here to investigate. I have noticed that in many instances, i was some what reluctant to actually stop and bring attention to the word in question that would come up in a moment as like a point of dissonance within myself or the person I was communicating with.

What i have found to be really cool...is that by actually give care to this point...where there is a real sense of regard for the starting point of sharing as caring...and opening up such an instance as an expression and sharing of myself in a way that is cool....because I am giving from and as the principle starting point of "Give as I would like to receive"...and what I have learned within and as this Regard for myself and others is that the development potential that opens up is Awesome in many profoundly unexpected ways. You see, I see....that by making the effort here in and as particular Word recognition, we bridge the gap in and as our communication...and so it's like an enhance of the harmony between parties as like the flow of musical notes as the words we speak to one another being a complimentary aid of assistance and support in all ways Best.

I mean, if you really, really think about words,..Like really really look and see and the movement that comes up in and as how particular words are used and abused....it is really really the truth of and as our substance here....I mean...the words are very much in and as the make up tuning of and as the law of and as how and why we are being here. Interesting, isn't it?

Day 727 - Planting

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my physical body and Beingness as the soil for my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the gardening of my physical body, beingness and mind as the specifics of what I accept and allow to plant within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the practical support within uprooting the plants within myself that are less than what is best for life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the specifics of my mind as gardening tool for my body and beingness here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having disregarded the simplicity of gardening.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Earth as One Garden Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself within and as a Garden Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the interconnectedness of all Life Here within and as the Garden/Earth

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Mind as Specific Tool that is designed to assist and support the best potential growth of myself/body/beingness/garden growth as the epitome of Creation here from the perspective of Oneness and Equality existing together as the starting point of Creation Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing points within my mind, without questioning the practical living application of such things.  I realize and understand the self-responsibility within and as tool maintenance...as the self-responsibility to direct my mind from the starting point of Oneness and Equality as the realization and knowing that what is best for all Life is always best.

I commit myself to self-direction and self-investigation within and as my mind as what I have accepted and allowed. I commit myself to utilize my mind as a tool to support my body and beingness here.

I realize the my body, beingness and mind as a trinity of self-support here from the perspective of Oneness and Equality as what is best for all Life here.

I am grateful for my Body, Beingness and Mind Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which I can utilize my Mind as Creative Tool here to support me within and as my Creative Potential here.

I commit myself to exercising/expressing my creative potential here as what is best for Life.

I commit myself to stand as an example of and as Creative Potential Here.

I commit myself to Creating a Life for myself as Heaven on Earth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted the Creation of Myself as Heaven on Earth Here...manifested as Physical Togetherness Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the birthing of myself here as Heaven on Earth as the Physical process where my mind is merged within and as physicality here as the physical world....where it's like there is no more mental dissonance....that the birthing of Oneself as Heaven on Earth is the end of mental dissonance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having at times judged the birthing process here. I commit myself to breath by breath birth myself as the physical movement manifestation of Heaven on Earth Here.

I commit myself to creative enjoyment within both work and play

Day 723 - When and As I See Myself

When and as I see myself competing with myself as like being split within points of perspective as like having an energy within one direction and also an energy within another direction, I stop and breathe, I see realize and understand the friction that is done onto myself as like an unnecessary heating up within myself that is not really practical and best for my optimum physiology here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being negligent of all the things I see in which I participate within that are not cool as various moments of thought, word and deed.

When and as I see myself resisting to embrace a point/moment here, I stop and breathe, I realize that this resistance towards directing the moment in an optimum way as what is best...is the pivot point so to speak...because this is moment of truth as how I make my vote....as...a vote for what's best for Life...or something less. I commit myself to living the vote for life as what is best for life. I realize that what I have come to accept and allow in many instances is less than what is in fact best for life. I realize it is counterproductive to allow myself to get hung up about my misfortunes...and that in fact by facing all point of myself I turn my weaknesses into strengths....and within this I see and realize how these moments and acceptances and allowances of misfortune can be leverage to assist and support my overall Life fortune here as It is a most definite fortunate thing to take responsibility for my very own misfortune. I realize as I am more and more proficient in sorting through my very own misfortune....the opportunity presents itself as like a renewal point of farming here, where I have the opportunity to give as I would like to receive...and within this, obviously I live to give, as the caring and sharing I am capable of giving because I have first proven the point to be well planted in myself as the seeded solution that has grown into fruition as I embrace myself as the fruits of my own labor.

I commit myself to sharing the fruits of my labor.

I realize and understand that sharing the fruits of our labor is an enormous point of responsibility within consideration and regard for Life as what is best for Life.

When and as I see myself going into a reaction about temperature, I stop and breathe, I see realize and understand myself here as temperature. I realize and understand there is a whole spectrum of temperature. I commit myself to fine tuning my applications of working with various relationship dynamics of myself here.

When and as I see myself reacting to the word Cold, I stop and breathe, I see realize and understand that I am one and equal with the word cold...and to react to myself is in fact a silly way to exist...as a most ridiculously unfortunate experience really.  I commit myself to stopping the war/conflict within myself as a friction to moment of facing/encountering myself here on an external level as words. I realize and understand my self-responsibility here as living words. I commit myself to self-perfection within and as the usage of living words. I commit myself to remediating the misfortunes I have created through incorrect usages of words and the specific associations to words that were out of structural alignment with and as what is in fact best for me as a presentation of all Life here.

I commit myself to letting go of positive energetic reactions in regards to the word Cool.

When and as I see myself creating a buzz within myself as the word cool from the perspective of leveraging a point of dissonance within myself to induce an artificial high, I stop and breathe, I see realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of choosing to play out the reactionary tale of going along for the accepted and allowed ride of Positive energy possession. I see, realize and understand that it is less than what is best to perpetuate oneself existing in positive energy...as I see realize and understand that the positive energy reactionary playout is the unfortunate consequence of so much accepted and allowed shit/waste to exist within and as my potential here.  I commit myself to the exercising of my potential here as the process in expanding the possibilities of my potential here.


To be continued

Day - 712 - Real Time Application...More than a Test Drive

Important Note:

 You may notice that the publication date here is later than blog Day 714. I had written Blogs Day 711- to 714 in Sequence but did not get around posting in that order. Anyways, now you know the flow of how it all came to writing in the structuring of my posts.

Also, the posts are a creative practice play in real time movement moment to moment without the hesitation stand still judgement and doubt. So without a doubt I face myself in the moment as I write and then come back and reflect on my written words to fine tune my garnering of support and assistance for myself as like making my self-nurturing regard a timeless application and process I commit to.

So, If you haven't checked the previous post...ch, ch, ch, check it out. 

Also, like the previous post this post was supported in being initiated by the words of Anu in "Path of the Initiate"

Isn't it interesting how we have so many participations throughout our Lives? I mean, even if you are someone who says they do Nothing all of the time, the reality is that you are actually doing some thing's....we are always participating in some thing's.  I mean, to do absolutely nothing here is really not physically viable...seeing how we live in a physical reality here where Everything is physically here. So, nothing is like a paradox of sorts because of Everything being here....but not really from the perspective that Nothing doesn't exist because Everything exists. I know, things are sounding even more paradoxical. Like multi-verses in the Universe. The mathematics of addition.

The point I am pointing out here, with regards to Nothing, is Everything. Have a look at the process journey to Life here. Letting go of Everything for Everything. A return to nothingness, like a blank slate....fresh canvas. See that an Enormous amount of potential is possible when the starting point has been returned to Nothingness. Look at the self-direction potential. See Always! The support is moving in every direction! Always all ways. Think of like a ball of yarn or the spokes on a wheel. Point of thinking illustrations is to highlight the support and assistance within Always assistance and support as what is best for life. Talk about options and possibilities. Quite the opposite of things being restricted and restrained.

See here how each becomes the Driving operator of Always. This is the process journey to nothingness that supports the enactment of a New World Order....a Living World Order that You would really Like to Design. The manifestation of Heaven on Earth, to be explicitly precise.

The rhetorical question to creating and manifesting Heaven on Earth, is, "Why wouldn't You manifest yourself, the World Here as Heaven on Earth?"

Obviously when the regard for self is realized and the process commitments are clear....the creating and manifesting of Heaven on Earth becomes an Obvious Duh, Of Course....as this is the course/path/trail/kingdom/palace/house/Fortress/Compound/run/slide/jungle gym/play-ground/mountain climber/swimming pool/hot-tub/farm/ocean/golf-course/Ski-Hill/skating rink/obstacle course/PLANET to Plant it...as we Plan it. See the plant and the plan...and the planet here...as the playing with what is here...and using the similarities within things that are good for mutually beneficial and prosperous results. Planning and Planting our nature makes the fruition of our Labor specifically great...as the great nest here is spread far and wide...as the planet greatness...the great nest here for all to live and reside..as the practical living of love made visible as the truest truth of what is real desire..as like what it is to really live for real here. You know, creating the Here in which you are always...as like no matter what,,,You/We are Here as Everything. That's all there is. And the potential comes from nothing as like the return to self creation...as the innocence of self-realized here. The contact with self actualization here. as the hey hello hi I see me here...and I get in to me I see as self-intimacy,

Day 707 - Fun Knee Forgiveness on Inner Jury

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to weigh myself down within holding onto memories/thoughts/feelings/emotions of the past that recycle within my mind that act as like a perpetuating strain and stress on my physical body and negatively influence my ability to walk.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how recycling through the same thoughts/feelings/emotions of and as the past perpetuates a strain on my ability to walk and move effectively here....and I forgive myself for not realizing how my knee injury accident correlates to a buildup of acceptances and allowances within myself that have not been properly dealt with.  I see realize and understand that allowing polarized energies to exist within my mind/body does not support the well being of my body/mind. I commit myself to releasing the energetic nature as conflict/polarity from the relationships that exist within my mind and body. I realize the absurd ridiculousness of holding charges against myself as specific positive or negative energetic resonances the support separation and dissonance from the starting point of Oneness and Equality

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the fun within the injury I can have as like how to make light of the situation and make the best of the situation as what is best support and assistance for myself here.  I realize the absurd ridiculousness of being hard and heavy on myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for questioning the attitude of gratitude in relationship to having injured my knee. I mean this is not the situation that I would have knowingly chose for myself to experience but now that I am within it...I am grateful the opportunity and the chance of self-reflection. Living gratitude has been a process of sorts as I see I have sometimes had the tendency to want to justify an attitude of something less than gratitude...as like a form of disdain and suffering and self-victimization because it seems like that is what I should project in comparing my current situation to past situations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how as a result of holding onto judgement about particular events in the past that I have justified particular attitudes based on an emotion and or feeling reaction as a result of perpetuating points of comparison within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have in the past talked myself out of gratitude as the great living attitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to live gratitude as the greatest attitude unconditionally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have unconsciously superimposed my daily attitude from a starting point of energetic reaction. And within this I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how I can in fact stop the any and all energetic attitudes and actually create the living of gratitude of my attitude here.

I see realize and understand gratitude to be the greatest attitude because gratitude comes from giving and an appreciation for giving....and living gratitude unconditionally means to give to oneself unconditionally as the best giving support and assistance one can in fact give.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding Always in which gratitude as a great attitude is in fact the giving of self-support and assistance here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to have fun in every moment of my knee injury.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying believing that I must be serious and reserve because I have injured my knee.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really knowing how I should express myself within having an injury.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience myself as discombobulated at moments when asked how I am doing within and as my day to day experience of myself within the process of recovering from a knee injury. I see have been confused from the perspective of believing that I shouldnt project myself as being to good or like in such good spirits because of the circumstances that I am dealing with...and because of this make believe fear I see I have created as like believing that if I enjoy my recovery process too much than maybe I will get injured again.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to enjoy the healing process within and as my knee injury.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that if I will be self sabotaging myself in some way if I make a good time out of a what I believe to be shouldn't be such a good time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying a less than my potential greatness experience for myself within and as a result of accepting and allowing myself to live less than "gratitude as the greatest attitude in every moment".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the funny within and as the play time available to me within walking the injury recovery process.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to make the best of my time in every moment,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard my best efforts in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the playful ease of living gratitude as the greatest attitude in every moment as a the way to support and assist the best for oneself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not even considering all the opportunity and potential existent for me in walking the knee healing process.


When and as I see myself faced within a person asking me how I am doing today.....I see realize and understand that it is ridiculous absurd to fear giving an answer that is too great/awesome as like that would then result in potentially accepting future experiences that are less than great and awesome. I realize and understand the irony of trying to rationalize decisions through fear...as like they work out completely in the opposite manner and that which you don't want happens...and it's like a ridiculously absurd experience because it's logically sound to oneself in being illogical....yet one doesnt realize the mindfuck because one is engulfed within it....which is like a vortex of consumption until one is able to take a breath and step out of one's own very self defined entrapment and sentencing. It's funny and ridiculously absurd the trains of thought we ride without even regarding ourselves as the conductor of such a construction.

I commit myself to gratitude as the greatest living attitude.

I commit myself to giving myself the gift of gratitude as my living attitude here.

I see, realize and understand how gratitude is a great attitude enabling effective relationship development and creation..because in living gratitude one can in fact see greatness within oneself and others here.,,,which is key in creation process as one is able to see the value and worth...and the best ways possible.

I commit myself to greatness.

I commit myself to let go of worrying about consequences for being to good or behaving better than is expected of me based on the situations and or conditions I am within.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my very own gratitude within seeing and realizing the energetic mind consciousness construction within and as my thoughts/feelings/emotions.

To Be Continued

Day 705 - Knee Injury and the Inner Jury

This is an introductory post into what will be a series of writing's about myself in relationship to a most recent knee injury I have suffered.

A few points I would like to make note of here that will be focus topic areas of investigation:



Looking at the word Injury...and Inner Jury....and the Inner Journey required as self-reflection upon the build up of acceptances and allowances.


The vocabulary of the knee. There is much vocabulary about the knee that is somewhat foreign to me from the perspective of not being well versed in the specific words/parts of the Knee and Knee area.


Looking more closely at the functioning of the knee as a whole and as the make up of all the individual parts.


The Knee and Structural Resonance Alignment. What does the knee signify in relationship to the Mind...specifically the consequence of an accumulation of energy as Mind Consciousness Systems.


Healing my Knee with Self-forgiveness and Self-responsibility.

Note: I have looked at the structural resonance documents on more than one occasion and my self-forgiveness will be supported directly by the support and assistance I have received within reading the documents. See the link here for specific document in regards to the knee.

I will begin here at the end and work with the beginning in taking care of all points of consideration that require attention. Beginning with a general opening of self-forgiveness as the initial support and assistance recognition to allow the aid in and as my self-corrective process.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the "inner jury" within and as an Injury.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the consequences of unnecessary physical body suffering as a result of accumulated memories within myself from the starting point of feelings and or emotions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the impact of holding onto the memories of the past within my body with the particular charges of emotion and or feeling.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for nor realizing and understanding how in fact memories can in fact crystallize in the body as an accumulation of accepted and allowed energetic possession that kind of like leaches off of the physical body.

I  forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the value of my knee for granted.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the totality of my physical body for granted.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting to a point of regard as a result of unfortunate consequence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being responsible for injuring me knee.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for hurting myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being insincere with the practical living daily regard for my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding all the parts of my knee and how all the parts of my knee relate to all the rest of the parts of my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being inconsiderate and believing myself to have too many physical body parts to be able to in fact regard and consider all my parts.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having thought about regarding all my body parts from the perspective of getting to know all the names of the physical body parts...but to within this regard,  have a reaction of doubt and of the thought/thinking that it is not possible for me to get familiar with the vocabulary of all my body parts...or that it's not practical....even if I would like to know all the vocabulary of which I am made of.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that it is just too difficult for me to be aware of all my body parts.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing making the effort to get to know all my body parts because there is so many body parts I have taken for granted within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the physical body for granted.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that my physical body is just to complicated to really know and understand absolutely.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making excuses as to why it is not likely that I can know and understand myself completely here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be impaired by vocabulary.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the patients required to integrate and develop vocabulary that I am not familiar with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not really know and understand myself/physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having the idea and attitude that it's just kind of impossible to really know and understand everything about the human physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying and distracting myself with excuses as to why I do not need to work as much as I am able to on a daily basis in getting to know my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting daily regard, appreciation, gratitude and consideration for my physical body.l

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to specifically know and understand the totality of my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the self-intimacy required in actually getting to know my whole physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating conflict with my body as a result of how I am participating within my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mistreat my body as a result of not taking self-responsibility for my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not taking self-responsibility for my body with the support and assistance of my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mistreat my mind as a result of not taking self-responsibility for my body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard myself with a mind and body that require regard and consideration equal and one as what is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding what regard and consideration for Everything as Oneness and Equality in fact means.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the physicality of words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to self-correct my misuse of words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the physical self-direction as living actions within as the words as sound here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having conflict within belief about what is possible within and as the Living Words Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for polarizing potential with disbelief, as like making sense out of non sense.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the irrationality within arguing/disagreeing with myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the impact of having even just one point out of physical alignment as Oneness and Equality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how consequences are perpetuated as the fear of more consequences existing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating hardship for myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being negligently unaware and dare I say oblivious to the stress and strain I have done onto my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for struggling with the living of specific regard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding things within being lazy as like not wanting to live the patience required to investigate the detailed specifics of a point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for glossing over specific points.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a prefference for generalizing information as opposed to being specialized in detail as like really specific with information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that it is better to be more specific with information than it is to be less specific with information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare and contrast the point of generalizing information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the patience required to see the detailed specifics of all things here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for glossing over the detailed specifics with regards to the specialized vocabulary about the knee parts in and around the knee as that which contributes to the knee existing here as the knee.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being lazy with language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that I do not require to be a specialized authority of words as the authority of knowing myself here because there exists so many different kind of doctors that specialize in different sections/parts/areas of expertise...and since most people are not master specialists of themselves as like know it alls....why should I be one?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing self-responsibility for myself here as the physical authority of myself here. I forgive myself for justifying a lack of accountability for self-actualization of myself here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making sense of not taking self-responsibility for the authority of knowing myself here because there exists so many different kinds of specialists here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I am not required to be an authority here because there already exists so many different types of authority figures here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created an idea of myself as being anti-authority....and I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of such a notion as like creating a fight with myself internally that is perceived externally within other types of authority here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing the practical possibilities of self-actualization as self-authorization here. Meaning, that self-responsibility is a knowing how to physically direction one self here as all as equals.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the complications that are created within and as the acceptance and allowance of inequality..,,and that accountability and consideration is much easier to process from the starting point of equality and oneness together here as what is best for all Life.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to write myself free everyday.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the consequences of passing up even just one opportunity to write.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the motivation within and as self-forgiveness from and as the perspective of fostering and facilitating the development of new growth...as like creating something that wasnt here before....as like a new opportunity is born.

Day 699 - Discipline

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have mixed emotions/feelings about "discipline"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a friction about Discipline from the perspective where I crave/desire discipline and at the same time I resist and revolt against discipline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating uncertainty within my daily responsibilities as a result of and as my relationship within and as the point of Discipline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself fore resisting to actually purify my relationship and expression within and as the living embodiment of Discipline as I see is in fact best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress myself as the living full potential of and as the word Discipline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create contradictions within myself as the word embodiment of Discipline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the paramount importance of and as the purity of each living word definition within myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to exercise the living of and as Discipline within and as my decisions/movements here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forego disciplined principles in and as my applications for preferred preferences.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to stay committed and determined to stick with a particular discipline as a point of purpose in and as my day to day living.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not even considering the practical living support in making a decision as to enact a practical living purpose for my life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how giving myself a practical living purpose can in fact support the development and effectiveness within and as myself as embodiment of Discipline here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating conflict about discipline to such an extent that I created conflict for my life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the irony within and as reactionary and conflicted word relations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how reactionary and conflicted word relationships reveal to me points of accepted and allowed suppression in my overall character potential ability here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the daily discipline of being specific within and as my word investigations as like my daily barometer in and as the purification of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for realizing and understanding the quality of my life here exists within and as my effectiveness with my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my relationship within and as Discipline ties into and as the quality of my life here as my effectiveness with my vocabulary here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my vocabulary to exist as like nutrients of self-support.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really considering or being systematically diligent in  and as daily investigating the extent of and as my word relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for make believing that my word relationships are all good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the Discipline required to practically live for real.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have in fact feared the practical living of Discipline....and the irony within this as the absurd ridiculousness because I have perpetuated that which I in fact would not like to experience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the specification of our world as our words we know...as specifically as how we have accepted and allowed our words and world to exist.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to examine the negativity within and as my word acceptances and allowances as the emotion that exists within my body about particular words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to investigate the positivity within and as my word acceptances and allowances as feelings that exist within my body about particular words because they feel good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the investigation of and as the positive and negative word associations that I have accepted and allowed within and as my mind/body/being relationship here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the change of our mind/body/being exists within and as our word relations....as it is in fact our word relationships that shape this world relationship...and it is therefore our sound signature in and as what is we accept and allow to exist here...as like our resonant signature and vote of what is and is not acceptable.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be a standing example of and as what is best for all Life in all ways.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing my spoken/written/living word potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of suppressing my spoken/written/living word potential.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the tremendous amount of support that opens of as a result of and as the investigation and purification process of One word.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for coping with words that have been devoid of optimum value and nutritional sustenance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for limiting the assistance and support within and as my word relations.


I commit myself to the purification of my word relationships.

I commit myself to living the purification of my word relationships.

I commit myself to the support and assistance within and as the purification of word relationships.

I commit myself to live the embodiment of practical living word relationships as the epitome of self-living support and assistance as what is in fact best for Life.

I commit myself to share words of support and assistance.

I commit myself to assist and support others to practically live words effectively.

I commit myself to the embodiment of living words.

I commit myself to giving myself purpose within and as the sharing of words here as solutions that can assist and support others to gift themselves access to the development and enactment of untapped potential creation here.

Day 694 - Freedom

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating positive energy about the word "freedom".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a negative energy definition as reaction to realizing and understanding how I created a positive energetic definition about "freedom".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get stuck within and as my word relationships by polarizing them within energies as either being positive/negative/neutral.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how I have perpetuated the polarity play of words within myself as an outflow and energetic reaction of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not recognizing the extent to which freedom exists as kind of an ironic term from the perspective that no real freedom exists within and as the acceptance of a polarized vocabulary from the perspective of having words charged with emotion and or feeling.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of programming that exists within and as my mind consciousness system as a result of and as my individual self-defined emotion and feeling associations to words as the various energetic attachments onto words which perpetuate a polarized disharmony.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the simplicity of freedom existing within and as responsibility...as the ability to express oneself here from and as the starting point of responding and or directing creation as what is best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and recognizing myself as the starting point of creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from and as the word "creation"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of the cosmic joke that is 'fighting for freedom'...because this perpetuates the peace/war polarity...where one perpetuates the other...and is really anything but harmonious.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying to investigate all energetic word relationships that exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making up blame as a defense to why freedom doesn't really exist. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have perpetuated conflict within myself as a result of participating within blame and holding onto the belief that freedom cannot exist.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from and as "freedom"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding freedom from the perspective of freeing myself from my own accepted and allowed enslavement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for looking to create an energy about freedom as a way to generate some sort of feeling or emotion in relation to the experience of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how the seemingly natural reaction when investigating word relationships is to take on the opposite polarity as the believed to be correct/right adjustment and new way of seeing. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of jumping back and forth between positive and negative energy.

When and as I see myself faced with a reaction, I first allow myself to take a breath and actually stop the energetic movement that is existing within myself as the reaction energy...I look at the energy specificity and I see/realize the word associations in relationship to the specific reaction I just experienced....I purify my word relationships here by first recognizing the impurity and then by forgiving the impurity and the particular energetic charge attached to the impurity and then I allow myself to play with the word for a moment as I work out an agreement to live as the word...from and as the perspective of substantiating the best potential for myself and the word here. I commit myself to living words as the best structures of support. I commit myself to specificity with my word selection.

When and as I see myself resisting responsibility.....responsibility from the perspective of seeing and realizing a potential opportunity here.....I take a moment to focus on my breathing a 4 count breath and actually stop my thoughts/feelings/emotions and take a self-honest look at the opportunity of responsibility that is available here for me to jump into and as a point of self-direction. I allow myself the opportunity to move within and as the moment of self-responsibility. I see realize and understand my potential abilities and skills are developed effectively as the outflow of my living and directing myself responsibilities. I realize and understand the ridiculousness of holding back on potential as a result of resisting to push self-responsibility.

I commit myself to living self-responsibility.

I commit myself to developing my talents/skills/abilities as a result of living self-responsibility.

I realize Freedom to exist within and as the living of self-responsibility/self-honesty.

I commit myself to practically living self-responsibility and self-honesty.

When and as I see myself faced with a moment of thought that seems so right, I stop and breathe, I allow myself to forgive my thought...as I see realize and understand the righteousness of thought is a hindrance to a holistic perspective here....I realize and understand the the self-responsibility in directing each and every thought through the application of self-forgiveness.

I commit myself to living self-forgiveness as an expression of Freedom here. I realize and understand self-forgiveness is a tool that is fun to use....when and as oneself realize the awesomeness potential of and as self-forgiveness as the gift giving tool that it is.

Day 690 - What's Best for All: Guiding Me in Thought, Word and Deed

2. Living by the principle of what is best for all - guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome for all. (The Desteni of Living - Declaration of Principles)

This is such a simple point...yet, what I noticed is that it is a point that I had neglected in many instances...because this very attitude and outlook was in direct conflict with my emotional disposition. My thoughts words and deeds did not actually exist in alignment with such a principle.

Regarding such a simplistic, common sense point is cool self-support. My life has changed as a result. Or is it more that I am opening myself up as Life here for real. To actually really live and regard myself and all Life here. 

I would say this is a point that is a work in progress for me as I am playing and working with the point here. I say a work in progress because everyday I am tested in my application of myself here...and I say I am tested, because I face movement within my mind as energetic reactions...where I require to take a split second and actually discern what is in fact best for all...it's not completely automatic...I am substantiating my consistency here as I create myself here as a Living Solution that is best for all.

What is fascinating about this substantiating of my consistency as I create myself here as a Living Solution that is best for all....Is, the fact that I am working my way through the questions that exist within myself...and I am doing this by playing with the answers that I see are best...now here I say is a play...and the work is in the question....because I am a student of my mind at this point...as like I am learning to understand the capacity and potential of my mind...and so I find myself here working and playing as like a complimentary relationship within and as the interconnectedness of questions and answers. The funny thing is, I realize and understand myself as the solution here which is like the trinity of and as "the question, the answer and the solution".  However, I see that I am in the process of self-perfection because I committed to working and playing with my application of What's Best for All.

I very much enjoy the process of working and playing with my self-development here. 

What I find very interesting is how much appreciation I have for playing and working with very basic simplistic points of application.

I see and realize profound greatness to exist within and as mastery of very basic simplistic points of application.

Taking on the point of what's Best for All, is a question, answer in and of itself.

I have realized this,
I am enjoying this,
I am perfecting this,
I am here as this.

What I find interesting is that I am so committed to the basics that I am so content in remaining within and as a constant working and playing here.

As a result of standing within and as the question the answer and the solution..."What's Best for All"

I have developed a level of regard for myself and other's I previously was not familiar with.

I am committed to Living by the principle of What is Best for All - Guiding me in thought, word and deed to always in all ways direct problems to the best possible outcome.



A few notes of interest I would like to jot down here:

Everyone is a problem solver.
Everyone is a Creator.
We create through and as our Questions.
Our problems are the first point in the creation process...because this is where direction and initiative takes form.
By regarding the questions/problems that exist we open up the second phase of our creation process which is in and as the answers...which is a cool work and play with our creativity here. 
See our answers here can be physically substantiated as solutions....solutions being the physical building phase of creation.
Commitment is paramount within the creation process.
Commitment exists in many important ways. Specifically what I would like to bring attention to is the "regard" in relationship to commitment. Commitment is like the substantiating of regard...or if you will, regard is the substantiating of commitment. Commitment within the context of principle here....as, What's best for All.

To Be Continued