Day 485 Memory Lane

So, the point kept coming up within me about having a cigarette. And for awhile, I couldn't figure out why. So I started investigating the point, asking myself questions, and I had a particular idea about smoking, as this specific energetic experience of myself while smoking, and I had defined this point as like ultimate satisfaction, and so it had been suppressed in me for a long time, this yearning for a cigarette as a feeling of this righteous satisfaction...and what's ridiculous about this is that I see that this was just created within my mind about my relationship to smoking...like that I had held onto this point within myself of this positive feeling sensation of righteous satisfaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I created this yearning within myself as like longing for an energetic experience of righteous satisfaction within smoking a cigarette.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating the idea in my head that smoking a cigarette is a point of giving me the feeling experience of righteous satisfaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making the experience of having a cigarette more than just the experience of having a cigarette.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how one little particular energetic impression within an memory can cycle within me as an unresolved issue until I face the memory and effectively release myself from the bondage of energetic possession.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted to dig through all the memories that exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not always sourcing points of thought/reaction/feeling/emotion back to earliest memory experience within myself as a practical point of sorting out the timeline within myself so that I have an effective framework to deconstruct memories of myself within and as characters of various forms of energetic possession.

When and as I see myself facing a re-occurring thought, I stop and I breathe, I source the feeling/emotion of the thought back to the earliest memory I can recall in regards/relations to the thought, and I utilize this a point of frame working reference to walk the timeline in releasing the points of energy within myself. I realize and understand the process of unfolding the layers of energetic possessions within memories as the necessary remediation for and as the law of me being here as the point of self-responsibility within taking accountability for my acceptances and allowances that disregard the harmonious balance of oneness and equality together as a whole unisonrelationship agreement starting point of creation.

I commit myself to learning from my thoughts.

I commit myself to meticulously investigation my memories and releasing ideas as polarized energetic experiences.

I commit myself to effectively using my memory as practical assistance and self support .