Day 470 Programmed Limitation

Today I was outside walking with Daisy the Dog.  I noticed a peculiar thing, sometimes when I see other people in the distance, I have a defensive reaction where I want to avoid communication and interaction with them.  I looked at this point, and saw how I was educated from an early age about the point of not talking to strangers....and that this point was re-enforced throughout the years...and also the consequences being ingrained to me...that children were abducted because they talked to strangers....which further re-iterated the point that you shouldn't talk to people you don't know because people you don't know could be bad.  I was always looking at the point of how there has been an ingrained paranoia with regards to social interaction as a result of the indoctrinated programmed etiquette/ruling behaviour guidelines of not communicating with strangers.

What's interesting about the point of strangers, is that everyone is a stranger until the person is known.

So, what the fuck?  Being indoctrinated not to talk to strangers, is a very very limiting behaviour pattern.  That is a hindrance to social interaction, perpetuating a fearful paranoia type of existence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being naturally defensive towards people I don't recognize.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting in paranoia to people I don't know personally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within a state of fear while in proximity to people I regard as strangers.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding people I don't know as a potential threat to my well being.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the extent of ridiculousness that has escalated within social interaction as a result of the indoctrinated education of "don't talk to strangers"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the extent of paranoia that existed within me as like an ingrained self-defense protection mechanism with regards to "strangers"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having in many instances resisted pushing the point of communication and interaction with "strangers"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing strangers doing harm to me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing a stranger's judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for prescribing to the social etiquette that it is best not to engage people I don't know.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for sometimes being uncomfortable engaging a 'stranger' in conversation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to censor my communication abilities out of fear of the possible consequences of talking to strangers.

I forgive myself for fearing to express myself to strangers, out of fear that I may suffer an unfortunate consequence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear and be paranoid about consequences.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing programmed limitation.

I commit myself to de-programming self-imposed limitations.

I commit myself to expressing myself free from fear.

I commit myself to stop fearing people.

I commit myself to stop being paranoid about people.

I commit myself to stop reacting defensively/offensively to people.

When and as I see myself reacting defensively or offensively to a person, I stop and breathe, I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of such actions as a point of accepted and allowed programmed limitation. I look at the point within me and link it to a memory that validates this programming response.  I remove the emotion/feeling from the memory that was re-enforcing the particular patterned behaviour of self imposed limitation within myself. I direct myself to smile as a point of comfort and relaxation as I see the funny within the ridiculousness of what I had accepted and allowed.  I realise the lack of fun within being bound to  reacting defensively or offensively.


When and as I see myself immediately wanting to avoid interaction with people I see while walking with Daisy the Dog, I stop and breathe, and I direct myself in having interaction with the people I see while walking with Daisy the Dog.


When and as I see myself being paranoid in relationship to strangers, I stop and breathe, I smile, as I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of allowing myself to exist within a state of perpetuated fear/paranoia.