Day 467 Self-Honesty, The Point of Daring to Be Different

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for compromising self-honesty within moments of fearing to be different.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to lie to myself within compromising my practical living expression within moments of fearing to express myself, as like fearing to be regarded as different by not accepting and allowing myself to judge myself or others within speaking, as like not fearing what others may think/judge of me in moments of expressed words from and as the starting point self-honesty.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to live self-honesty in every moment from the perspective that speaking up about issues leads to conflict brought towards me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing conflicting and difficult situations within expressing myself vocally without conditions of compromising judgments/fears of consequence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for just wanting to blend in within situations and not make a scene as a being who is standing up and acknowledging the problems that exist within particular situations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for pitying myself and others feelings and emotions, and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for compromising the living of self-honesty as what is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for protecting self-dishonesty/self deception within not questioning self-dishonesty in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the labor involved within investigating the questions of self-dishonesty in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to lose opinions as judgements that others hold of me within high regard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for bullshitting myself within fearing to lose opinionated judgments that other beings hold onto as their perception of me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for tailoring my behavior and actions to be in accordance with the opinions and feelings people project upon me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for limiting my self-expression within fearing to be regarded as brutally offensive within unconditionally expressing myself from within and as the starting point of self-honesty as the realisation of all as one as equal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be a victim of my environment as self-dishonesty.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for convincing myself to participate within and as self-deception.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself neglecting question self-honesty in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to question self-dishonesty in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to question who and how I am in every moment here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to act out acceptances and allowances without questioning my actions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be bold in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be daring in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be programmed within and as self-dishonesty.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting re-program myself in every moment as self-honesty.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for waiting and delaying to program myself as self-honesty in all-ways.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing having righteous ideas about self-honesty.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having thoughts of vengeance and retribution within being self-honest.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making self-honesty to be a fight against self-dishonesty.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for polarizing self-honesty.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for connecting to positive feelings to self-honesty and negative emotions to self-dishonesty.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from self-honesty.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing myself to be separate from self-dishonesty.

I commit myself to establishing myself as the epitome of self-honesty.

When and as I see myself resisting to express myself within and as self-honesty as who and how I am as the realising and understanding as Life as all as one as equal, I stop and breathe, I direct myself expression within and and as self-trust, I dare myself to express myself, I realise that holding myself back from daring to express myself from and as the starting point of equality and oneness is ridiculously absurd.

Day 466 Reacting to Criticism

The point came up today where I was criticized for something I was doing, and I reacted defensively, being offended by the tonality of the criticism coming at me.

I realised I reacted to the point of criticism and the criticism was actually pretty cool support. What bothered me was the tonality of the person speaking.

A similar situation happened later that day with the same individual, and I allowed myself to be bothered by their mood, getting defensive and returning some offensive marks from the point of reacting within myself.

I realise it is ridiculously absurd for me to take anyone's emotions or feelings personally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for limmitting my ability to hear and receive support.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having difficulty taking supportive criticism when a being is speaking to me from within a starting point of frustration, irritation, agitation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for projecting blame towards the being giving me criticism,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mimic the emotional projection that was directed at me, back at the person who initiated emotion within their tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for spiting myself and another within mimicking behaviour that I do not think is acceptable behaviour and it is not how I would like to be treated.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying treating another being not how I would like to be treated because they treated me in a way that I would not like to be treated.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self righteous within my handling of the situations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the necessity in creating a self corrective script of support for myself after the first criticism happened where I had a reaction.  I realise and understand that, even though in a moment when I understand why and how a situation played out....that it is still a cool point of support as a a means of prevention being the best cure, for me to create a script as an effective remedy for handling a similar experience in the future, as like creating the necessary insurance for myself to not repeat a patterned behavior of self imposed limitation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to victimize myself within reaction to the tonality in which I was spoken too.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not slowing myself down with breath in the moment the reaction came up within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for immediately going into defense mode as like ready to fight.

When and as I see someone is agitated/frustrated/annoyed/angry with me, I stop and breathe, I realise and understand that taking the emotions personally is not going to assist and support myself in practically dealing with the situation. I direct myself to listen to the being speaking, without taking offense to their emotion, and I allow myself to direct the situation with common sense.

When and as I see myself being tempted to react with emotions, I stop and breathe and I realise and understand that my ability to learn and expand myself is compromised within choosing to have emotional reactions.  I direct myself to see what it is I can learn from the situation.

When and as I see myself on the verge of projecting projecting an emotional tonality towards another, I stop and breathe, I realise and understand that this is not how I would like to be treated, I realise and understand that it is not cool for me to behave in ways that I would not like to be treated, regardless if I am being treated in ways that I would not like to be treated.

I commit myself to treating others with my words how I like to be treated with words.

I commit myself to not taking offense to people's tonality.

I commit myself to creating a self-corrective script immediately after I realise a pattern I wish to prevent from happening in the future.

I commit myself to stop verbally abusing people.

I commit myself to assisting and supporting the diffusion of emotional reactions by embracing all emotional reactions projected at me and not taking the emotional projections personally.

I commit myself to stop allowing emotions/feelings to influence my stability.


I realise and understand that I will be tested many, many , many times to make sure I stop accepting and allowing myself to be influenced by emotions and feelings.

I realise and understand the ridiculous absurdity of accepting and allowing myself to mimic behaviour that I realise and understand is unacceptable and should not be tolerated.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself  to participate within behaviour I realise and understand to be unacceptable.

When and as I see myself about to participate within behaviour that I realise and understand to be unacceptable and not to be tolerated, I stop and breathe, I direct myself to smile, as I realise and understand I just stopped myself from accepting and allowing myself to tolerate abuse within myself.

Day 465 Information Manipulation

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be manipulated by information as a result of blindly trusting information because I read it or hear it from what I believe to be a reliable source.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having believed the education system to be a reliable source of information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing the news papers and the mainstream media to be a reliable source of information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not considering the word reliable as re-lie-able.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to investigate points of information further as a means of cross referencing information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for obsessing about information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get tangled up in conspiracy theories.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be addicted to conspiracy theories.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking information personally with personal reactions as emotions and or feelings as forms of accepted and allowed judgment in relation to information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being vulnerable to information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting frustrated and irritated with information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for becoming angry about information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting upset and angry about information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being discouraged by information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting overwhelmed by information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing for avoiding to investigate information I have a resistance towards.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being addicted to information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for time looping within patterns of information constructs that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto emotions and or feelings about.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding information as potential points of assistance and support.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for sabotaging myself within relationships of information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding myself as an information processor.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself creating layers of judgement about points of information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to logically manipulate myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for for being neglectful within the information I share.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self-righteous within sharing information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that there are greater authorities of information than myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the practical starting point of working with information as investigating all things and only keeping what is good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the huge amount of support that exists here for me within every moment as points of self-reflection/self-investigation within and as the vast amounts of information that exist here within and as each moment I am breathing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that information is something that only exists as separate from me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having difficulty working with lots of information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to work with lots of information as a point of further developing myself as an informed being.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having judged being informed as an egg shape as something not as good as I believe myself to be.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting information that I regard as difficult.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a spectrum of relations as character reactions towards information as energetically charged conflicted friction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing conflicted friction within information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting stuck within energetically polarized information.


I commit myself to utilizing information as a point of learning.

I commit myself to garnering assistance and support from all information here.

I commit myself to realising and understanding all the assistance and support here as information.

I commit myself to communicating and directing information as assistance and support as the starting point principle of creation which is equality and oneness.

I commit myself to sharing information as as a point of giving as I would like to receive.

Day 464 Language Relations

Language is a cool program of communication.  I am taking the opportunity here to share some self-forgiveness as points of self-realisation have opened up within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being judgmental about language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to another being's judgments about language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for polarizing language with positive and negative energies.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be influenced/hypnotized by positive and negative energetically charged language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be controlled by polarized judgments about language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted to learn and expand my understanding of language programming.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being intimidated by language I do not understand.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience myself as inferior to hearing language I do not understand.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being intimidated by language I don't understand.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not believing that I can easily learn to communicate new language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doubting my abilities to speak french.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self-righteous about language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking I don't need to know more languages than english because english is the business language of the world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating reasons and excuses as to why it's not important for me to be able to speak fluently any language other than english.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to taking it personally the tonalities I hear when people communicate with a language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting to the tonality of irritation and frustration.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding accountability for my tonality in each moment of language communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the blatant disregard for others around me when and as I did not specifically direct my tonality within and as how I would like to express myself within speaking words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense/defense when another being takes offense/defense to the way I am communicating words within a language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating abuse within language communication within allowing myself to communicate from a starting point of separation/polarity friction energies.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to share language communication of words with others I don't know.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding language as primarily with words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I have allowed myself to be influenced and controlled by body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being fearful and intimidated by other being's body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to regard and understand my own body language in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to doing a thorough investigation of body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to ask myself more questions about my body language in particular moments, as a way of learning what I mean within my body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to take responsibility and accountability for my body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to communicating with people who are expressing body language of being closed off and reserved within themselves.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to communicate with people who are expressing fear/paranoia/anxiety within their body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for avoiding people with particular body language from the perspective that I believe them to be deliberately expressing that particular body language and that they are unwilling and unable to change their body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for extensively judging being's body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense with being's body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being offensive within my body language as a point of polarity friction energy within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be defensive within my body language as point of polarity friction energy within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how extensively I have reacted to other being's body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being fearful within my body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I have influenced others within and as my body language self expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to be a master of language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating conflict and friction within myself towards being a master of language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting confused within myself as a result of resisting to regard and listen to my own language in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the importance of knowing my language whether it is verbal or non verbal.

I commit myself to language.

I commit myself to knowing and understanding body language.

I commit myself to expressing body language.

I commit myself to self-direction as what is best for all life within language expressions.

I commit myself to playing with language applications.

I commit myself to testing and investigating language.

I commit myself to stop fearing language.

I commit myself to directing language from the staring point of Equality and Oneness.

When and as I see myself facing a point of fearing someone because of their body language, I stop and breathe and I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of fearing someone's body language.

When and as I see myself fearing someone because of their specific spoken language used, I stop and I breathe, I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of fearing someone because of their specific spoken language used. I direct myself to remove the point of reaction within myself through self-reflection, self realisation, and self-forgiveness.

When and as I see myself resisting to ask a question about language because I don't understand, I stop and breathe, I direct myself to ask my question about language so that I can understand. I realise and understand the power of Life support and assistance within asking questions from the starting point of advancing learning and understanding.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding or considering that language is everything as specific sound signatures because everything that is physically here is a structured sound signature.

I commit myself to knowing structured sound signatures.

I commit myself to encompassing myself within and as the sound signature of Equality and Oneness together forever.

Day 463 Walking the Talk

Today I was telling someone how I am getting over a cold by examining any built up suppression's within myself.  Like examining any areas where I allowed myself to be stressed about particular living situations...and if I held onto stress and did not in fact physically release the points of stress/strain on my physical body. I also shared the point of how it is interesting that our human physical body is always communicating to us our acceptances and allowances.

My friend pointed out how she too was getting over a cold, and how she examines her communication as a point of support and self correction. Specifically looking at the point of talking not being practically aligned with walking...as walking the talk so to speak.

When she mentioned this point I had an aha moment as this is a very simplistic way to examine one's behaviour.

I noticed in particular how I had been talking lots of about having to do school work, and saying that I got to do school work...and in so many instances I was not doing my school work.  I realised the school work had been a point of stress for me....but I didn't consider that I wasn't walking my talk so to speak...and I had considered other points on the surface more so before I got to the point of my attitude towards doing my school work as a root cause of having accepted and allowed stress within my physical body to accumulate to a point of getting a cold.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to talk about doing things without actually doing things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not being accountable to my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting responsibility within my communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to hold myself accountable for the words I speak.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for allowing myself to neglect fully living my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for contradicting myself within my words by saying one thing and then doing another thing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the consequences I place onto my physical body as a result of being out of alignment with my talking and walking as a point of unison within and as physical living actions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating reasoned excuses and justifications for me to accept and allow myself to discredit/disservice practically living words as what is best as a point of self directive self support.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted to unconditionally give honor, dignity, and integrity to physical living words in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for acting in opposition to living words as a point of self-empowerment and self-directed support as factors enabling me to be highly effective and efficient in my day to day living.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for lacking discipline within my communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the importance of structured discipline within and as communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for compromising the living of words as what's best for Life within allowing myself to place importance within my feelings in the moment as a point of accepted and allowed reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give weight to reactions and not realise and understand the extent to which every little feeling I hold onto as a polarized energy is in fact a point of stress, as like added weight/pressure I am accepted and allowing myself to force on to my physical body as a point of strain.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being irresponsible in every moment of communication as a result of not valuing myself and my words as oneness and equality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for communicating as less than Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I had accepted and allowed myself to be communicating as less than life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abusing myself through words by not accounting for every word I speak.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to devalue my words by not realising and understanding the life value of each and every word I speak.

When and as I see myself making an excuse and justification within my mind as an avenue for me to escape living the words I have spread out for myself as a path of support and assistance to walk up as the practical living of words, I stop and breathe, I direct myself to walk my talk, I realise the self support within walking the talk and not accepting and allowing doubt as a mental road block to exist as time loop to keep me cycling in conflict friction as polarized energies existent within myself.  I realise and understand that as I walk and talk words as a point of self-commitment I am in fact giving/gifting myself the opportunity to express and live myself here as living words.

I commit myself to walking the talk.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that by talking about something I make the walking less of a walk....and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to physically walk.  I realise that physically walking a point is the only way to move.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I could walk a point effectively through creating a polarized energy about a point and that the emotional/feeling buzz as my intnetion would be enough of a push/buzz to get me to walk a point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for always looking for and trying to find a short cut or an easier way to do things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to give my best effort into everything I do...and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for misplacing my effort by putting so much effort in trying to figure out ways to avoid using as much effort.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how much more effortless the walking of my talking would be if I do not allow myself to put effort into trying to find a short cut as like a point of instant gratification as a like somehow being able to get the reward/big payout without putting in all the effort.

I realise and understand the effort required within walking the talk.

I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of misplacing effort within trying to avoid doing things.

I realise and understand the fruits of my labor are dependent upon the effort I put into my labor and that by avoiding my best efforts, I am sacrificing the quality of the fruits I may bear.

I commit myself to giving my best effort into harvesting the fruits of my labor.

I realise and understand my words are the seeds that bring into fruition my harvest.

I commit myself to harvesting my best efforts from the seeds of my words.

I realise and understand my words as both a seed and a fruit and that the quality is determined in and as the starting point of creation as Equality and Oneness as what is best for life....and therefore I know and understand that by planting the best seeds I insure the best results.

Day 462 Attitude Part 2

Continuing from my previous post.




I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within and as the point of attitude in relation to things based on the starting point of judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating attitude about the picture presentation I see of myself when I look in the mirror....and within this...i see and realise the the absurd ridiculousness of judging my picture presentation and making up and or perpetuating any sort of impression about myself based upon what I see.

Like for instance, I was just in the washroom taking a piss...and  I made a point of checking out my stomach...as like how does my stomach look....like do I like the way my stomach looks today...and within this I laughed at how ridiculous my thought process is as what I am giving attention to within myself...I see and realise how ridiculously absurd it is to look at pictures...whether it be a picture of myself or another (which is essentially just another formed self-reflection) and make up feelings and or emotions within myself as like yup, this is the verdict this is my judgment here in this moment and this is now my energetic experienced energy buzz...I mean that's like wow...what a trip....wow...like hmm whats going on within me when I see this or that.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a bad attitude about my stomach.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for coping with attitude on a daily basis, by like checking my attitude in the mirror as a point of vanity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being resistant to move along breath by breath within my university studies.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a relationship towards seeing where I must be stimulated in producing a positive energy experience, or I have difficulty staying focused and awake.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist looking at things that don't give me a positive energetic experience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating abuse by deliberately choosing to disregard that which I regard as unpleasant.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not wanting to deal with all the shit that is here because I am more concerned about that which gives me a particular energetic experience of bliss.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I created relationship attitude towards things from the perspective of generating an experience within myself as an impression....and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how forming impressions towards things is a clear indicator of accepted and allowed separation within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the challenge of walking process from the perspective of stopping all forms of energetic addiction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for pitying myself within accepted and allowed attitudes towards things here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying separation as accepted and allowed judgment by resisting to let go of attitudes and impressions about things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the emotional attitude that exists within me when I am agitated by anyone's attitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking anyone's attitude personally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking my attitude seriously in any particular moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be controlled by attitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I just have to create like this positive attitude where I can be on a high no matter what.\

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that if I am not on a high than I am on a low.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing conflicting attitudes withing myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having changing attitudes as like an emotional roller coaster of high and low altitudes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the point of an everyday constant and consistent attitude as equality and oneness as what's best for life, as a point of gratitude...as I see and realise the gratitude as the epitome of a great attitude,  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being inconsistent with the living of of gratitude as a great attitude.  I realise and understand the point of gratitude as a great attitude.

When and as I see myself accepting anything less than gratitude as a great attitude, I stop and breathe, I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of accepting anything less than gratitude as a great attitude. I realise and understand the point of constant and consistent support I give and enable myself to receive within and as the employment of gratitude as the great attitude.

I commit myself to gratitude as a great attitude.

Day 461 Attitude

"At it to do"


Attitude:
(n)

1. The way a person views something or tends to behave towards it, often in an evaluative way.
2. A theatrical pose created for effect (especially in the phrase "strike an attitude)
3. A position of the body indicating mood or emotion.
4. Informal a hostile manner..."don't give me attitude, my girl"
5.(Engineering/Aeronautics) the orientation of an aircraft's axes in relation to some plane, especially the horizontal.
6. (Astronautics) the orientation of a spacecraft in relation to its direction in motion.
7. Performing Arts/Ballet) Ballet a classical position in which the body is upright and one leg raised and bent behind.

(source: http://thefreedictionary.com/attitude)


The reason i am looking at the word attitude is because the point has come up in relation to completion of a university course.  I've written about this point before...and I've mentioned points that relate to my attitude about doing the university course...but I don't think I every took responsibility about the point of my attitude in relation to walking this particular university course into completion...and it's been very difficult for me.  I've had a terrible attitude about the course.  I've tried to ignore my brutally negative attitude about the course and just get through it...but I see the point of responsibility in gifting myself the release and ease of posture, like the release of stress and tension on my body as a result of trying to do something while holding onto a brutally negative attitude about doing so.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I have placed stress and tension on my body as a result of holding onto a brutally negative attitude about the university law class I am taking.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how my brutally negative attitude about the university course jurisprudence has been an accepted and allowed form of judgement that has been a hindrance to my  movement and progress withing the program.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being stubborn in my attitude about the university course jurisprudence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being brutally negative in attitude about the university course jurisprudence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for self sabotaging my individual progress within the jurisprudence course.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to effectively participate within the jurisprudence course while accepting and allowing myself to carry a contaminated definition of the word jurisprudence in relationship to and as the university course I am taking...and within this I see and realise how my attitude reflect contamination in regards to the course itself as polarized energetic judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying and believing it to be fine for me to hold onto such judgement within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being righteous within self judgement about the university jurisprudence course.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the irony that has been unfolding here as consequence within and as the fact that jurisprudence is the science and or philosophy of law...and the point of irony here...is that I did not understand the law of my being as what I have accepted and allowed within my words, which is the basic structured formation of the law of my being here.


to be continued

Day 460 Skiing and Golf

I'm here to open up some some self-forgiveness in relationship to the words "skiing" and "golf".  Both words carry a very positive charged energy within myself.  I see and realise that I have allowed myself to obsess about skiing and golf within my mind as a point of imagination day dreaming.  I see and realise how some times I have become less effective within daily doings as a result of my accepted and allowed word relations with "skiing" and "golf".  Both words, due to the strong positive polarity charge I have accepted and allowed within myself have become like a chemical drug high experience within myself...as a form of escape from physical reality.  I see and realise how anytime I'm looking for a break from my immediate daily participation's, my mind can easily come up with anything golf or skiing related, and my attention is adverted from practical living responsibilities...and I have often just gone into the indulgence of following my train of though about a particular aspect of golf or skiing....whether it be about technique, performance, equipment, places to play, prices, locations, training, etc...etc.

So the point I see here is that it is my self-responsibility to release the positive energetic charges that exist within myself in relationship to both the word "golf" and the word "skiing".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining "golf" with positive energy and associating the words, great, good, excellent, awesome, amazing, fun, I love it, I really like it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining "skiing" with positive energy charges and associate the words, great, good, excellent, awesome, amazing, fun, I love it, I really like it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I created a possessive relationship with the words "golf" and "skiing" as a result of creating strong emotions and feelings about "golf" and "skiing"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the consequence I have created within my Life as a result of holding onto such strong positive energy charges in relation to the words "golf" and "skiing".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I have distorted my reality of living words as a result of accepting and allowing positive energy charges upon the words "golf" and "skiing"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having compromised practical daily living as a result of accepting and allowing myself to create positive energetic charges in relationship to the words "golf" and"skiing"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I how I compromise my well being within accepting and allowing contaminated word relationships.  I realise and understand the word is the word and making a word out to be more than it is, fuels conflict and polarity friction within my vocabulary as my building blocks here in physical reality.   I see and realise the point that by accepting and allowing some words to be more valuable within energetic charge, creates and enables some words to be regarded as less valuable.  I realise and understand that creating an energetic self-defined value system in relationship to words is not necessary and nor is it in my best interests, as this creates scenarios where I distort my ability to operate at my highest levels of effectiveness here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I must create positive energies in relationship to words that represent activities I enjoy participating within.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for manipulating my daily participation's and responsibilities within allowing myself to day dream and obsess about skiing and golfing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having feared to let go of positive energetic charge in relationship to "skiing" and "golfing" out of fear that I will be losing my self created positive energy experience, and within this believing that I will no longer like participating within skiing or golf if I don't have a positive energetic experience attached to it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the practical support within keeping my word relationships simple.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for unnecessarily complicating my word relationships with emotions and feelings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having brought emotions and feelings into the words "skiing" and "golf"

Definition of Skiing:  The action of travelling over snow on ski's, especially as a sport or recreation.

Definition of golf: A game played on a large open air course, in which a small hard ball is struck with an assortment of clubs into a series of small holes in the ground.


When and as I see myself beginning to think about golf or skiing within doing a particular task, I stop and breathe, I direct myself to stay on task and I realise how I had created a pattern within my mind to use words I had created positive energetic associations to act as like distraction codes within myself that induce mental preoccupation that take me out of physical reality and put me into the realm of mental masturbation.  I realise and understand that the same principle exists with associating negative energetic charges onto particular words.  I realise and understand it is my self-responsibility to purify my vocabulary as the law of my being here as Equality and Oneness.


I realise and understand how easily it is to be controlled and manipulated through word relationships.

I realise and understand how sales work based upon word relations.  I realise and understand that becoming highly effective with words makes me a great sales person.

I realise and understand that everyone is essentially a sales person...and we are constantly selling ourselves on what we will or won't do based upon our accepted and allowed vocabulary and our particular judgments/definitions/values/energies in relationship to our vocabulary.

I commit myself to investigating my vocabulary.

I commit myself to purifying my vocabulary.

I commit myself to using my mind as a tool to see where and how my vocabulary has been contaminated.

I commit myself to strengthening my vocabulary.

I commit myself to fixing my vocabulary.

I commit myself to removing complications in my vocabulary.

I commit myself to being a master of words.

I commit myself to educating people about the importance of vocabulary.

Day 459 Import-Attributing Desires and Feelings

"Thus we have to see our emotional life as made up largely of import-attributing desires and feelings, that is, desires and feelings which we can experience mistakenly..........But once we admit that our feelings are import-attributing, then we admit the possibility of error or false appreciation.  And indeed, we have to admit a kind of false appreciation which the agent himself detects in order to make sense of the cases where we experience our own desires as fetters. How can we exclude in principle that there may be other false appreciations which the agent does not detect? That he may be profoundly in error, that is, have a very distorted sense of his fundamental purposes?" 

(Charles Taylor "What's Wrong with Negative Liberty?" P.425-427)


Some interesting perspective can be garnered from Charles Taylor's words:


How do I know I am living a purposeful life and that I don't have a very distorted sense of what is fundamental purpose?


Am I afraid to investigate the facts about myself that may be unpleasant and harsh from the perspective of realising and understanding errors and mistakes?


If I avoid investigating the possibility of error within myself, how can I have any integrity and dignity?


Does it make a difference to me how many other people are living a life of very distorted senses of fundamental life purposes?

Day 458 Every Little Thing That We Do

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the extent of impact as how I have been influenced by words.  Like for example, I've been working through a mind construct within Desteni I Process Pro and I was looking at this particular memory where I don't seem to have any energetic reactions to the event in question...yet at the time I was a relatively young child...and I see how the particular incidences resonated within myself...and I mimicked the character persona that was being presented to me, much much later on in my life.  I see and realise how the emotions/feelings within the words I heard imprinted in me in such a way that this caused a point of influence in shaping my future behavior.  It's like the point imprinted in me...and I just activated the point years later by taking on as a character personality for me to play within forging my character persona within my environment.

I had no idea to the extent at which I have been influenced throughout my life.

I mean I didn't even have any strong reactions to the event in which I am referring.  This is a wow moment for me, because this strengthens my understanding within and as the point of self-responsibility within standing as equality and oneness as the living words.


I am grateful to be walking self-correction in a systemic structured fashioned manner through the education I am receiving at Desteni.  I suggest You check out the Desteni I Process Lite which is a free introduction training course that will prepare you for the Desteni I Process Pro, If You dare!

Day 457 The Consequence of What We Don't Do

For the last little while I had only really been considering the consequences of my actions.  I wasn't really considering the point of consequence for what I wasn't doing.  This point seems more of an in my face acknowledgement because if I just focus on the things I am doing well, well that's gonna be a good consequence so to speak...while kind of missing the point of seeing the neglect and disregard in my reality as a result of the consequence where I didn't act in particular moments.

Not doing something is an action to...so it's never really that I am not doing anything...


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for ignoring and disregarding the consequences of what I haven't been doing.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the consequences within not doing things as the point of accumulation.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having allowed points to accumulate within myself as a result of doing anything about the points within myself.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the extent to which I am required to respond within directing a point that exists within myself.  I realize and understand that it is my responsibility to make sure any and all points that I am looking at that exist within myself are not energetically charged...or if they are that I am required to labor the release of energy, so that I can prevent consequence from building up within my physical body.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which I was accepting and allowing myself to look at all these different points of decisions with mild energy associations, without considering the consequences for not clearing the charges I was accepting and allowing to hold on to.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for stressing my body within holding onto all sorts of mild energy charges with regards to making some future living decisions that would not be made immediately but would require me to assess and consider many variables over an indefinite period of time.  I realize and understand the point of making sure to release all energies around a point...and also I see and realize the point of making a decision to not make a decision for an indefinite amount of time.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how ridiculous I have been with regards to decision making process with regards to holding onto particular energies about various points....as I see realise and understand the consequences of my actions have resulted in my physical body manifest flu like symptoms with a whooping like cough and some sinus congestion.  I see and realize how the strain/stress of the different energies with regards to all the different variables in the decision making process have contributed to my experience today...and I realise and understand the point of prevention is the best cure.


When and as I see myself looking at points within myself with regards to making decisions as various variables...or just in general relationship points, I stop and breathe, I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of choosing to accept and allow particular energies/feelings/emotions to stay in tack with regards to the points, I direct myself in releasing the energetic attachments because I realise and understand that holding onto energetic attachments about points of relation is abusive to my well being as it acts as stress on my physical body as a result of the accepted and allowed mind mentality.


When and as I see myself not doing anything about a particular point that I realise, I stop and breathe and I direct the point as responsibility for all Life as what's best for all Life is best for me.

Day 456 Physical Body Talk

The physical body is always communicating.  The physical body is an instrument of communication.  The human body exists as a result of communication.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to pay attention to my human body physical communication.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having many times just kind of ignored symptoms as specific human body communications because symptoms didn't seem severe.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to pay attention to communication unless I regard the communication as "severe"


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that I don't have to pay that close of attention to things that are not in a severe state....because of the belief that things don't need to be fixed if they are not "severe"


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having limited my ability to regard physical body communication from the perspective of not really paying the much attention unless the I believe the human physical body symptoms to be severe.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having waited in many instances for myself to be in a severe situation before acting/moving myself.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing the communication understanding of prevention is the best cure and within this understanding it's important to regard and monitor as like take note of all communication that is existing within oneself/environment/world.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the extent to which communication is everything.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the interconnectedness of communication as sound-expression.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having neglected to take care to make sure all words that exist within me are planted from and as a starting point of equality and oneness as the roots of creation here as what is best for Life.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having neglected non-verbal communication.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to thoroughly investigate my non verbal physical reactions.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the extent to which I am making a statement in every moment as physical body communication.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the human body as the point of self-honesty.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how my physical body assists and supports me to understand Life physicality as Oneness and Equality.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having had a bad attitude about physical body communication as like not really seeing and understanding the significance of self-maintenance/government.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding my physicality as a point of self-governance.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to see physical body communication as a result of distracting myself with what I hear.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the extent of what it means to see and hear here.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have difficulty with common sense in some moments.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted to listen to listen to my physical body communication.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking my human physical body for granted.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to realise and understand the profound magnificence of my human physical body.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking my physical human body of profound magnificence for granted.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing the awesomeness which is is the human physical body as sound agreements working/playing together from the starting point of what is best for the whole body is best for me.   I realise and understand the point that each part contributes to the whole connection and that each part is integral in being the best.



Thank You!



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