Day 362 Making the Most of My Time Here
I’d like to make the most of my time. I've had difficulty
recently doing school work and working on DIP assignment after a long day of
tree planting. For instance, today I got home a bit earlier than normal…like was
only an eleven hours at work…and I had a sit down for a little bit…and I said
ok, I can work on my assignment for about an hour than I can eat…then I can do
some school readings. I started watching the hockey game on tv and back-chatted
to myself ok I’ll watch the first period than I ‘ll do a half hour of working
on my assignment before I make dinner…I was getting sleepy watching the hockey
game…and decided I would have a power nap…so I could work on my various study
commitments. I got up made dinner…ate kind of slowly…checked back in on the
hockey game while I ate…sat back down and watched the hockey game...which ended
up going into double overtime…it’s now bed time and I’m writing my blog.
I see that I should be pushing myself to do more work even
though I am tired after doing physical labor all day…like the school work and
the Desteni I Process work is more mental work than physical work…and doing
some is better than none.
I see how it’s a problem that I have accepted and allowed
myself to be influenced by backchat as like justifications and excuses to
postpone self-directed movement and this is not cool at all. This is ridiculous
absurd self-sabotage.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
postponing University studies and DIP studies after work because of the
justification/excuse that I am too tired and that I don’t want to do anything…I
just want to lay down until I fall asleep.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being
reluctant to push through the resistances I have to doing work after I finish
work…as like to make myself working all the time…as like utilizing all my
waking hours to work.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
justifying needing free time away from work when I have so much work to do at
the moment.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
having resistance to doing my school work and DIP work after working all day
planting trees.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
thinking that I will be able to catch up on my studies later…like when I have a
day off from tree planting…and within this I forgive myself for accepting and
allowing myself for neglecting and not considering the chores/errands I require
to do on my day off from tree planting that cut into the time I think I will
have to play catch up for not doing a bit of work each evening after tree
planting.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
justifying not pushing myself as hard as I can do do as much work as I can
after tree planting.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not
giving myself gentle pushes to do school work and DIP work after tree planting.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not
realising and understanding that the hardest part in establishing consistency
is getting started and keeping the momentum going with one breath at a
time…like riding a bicycle….as it starts with one push and then another and
another and another….and whoa it’s like I am able to coast and remain in balance….and
then I can push some more and accelerate my application/speed and cover more
ground faster and faster.
I realise I am here in this one Life and it’s like today is
always this one opportunity to push myself to my limit…like to operate at my
best…doing my best work…working as much as I can.
I realise the point of expansion here in pushing myself to
do more when I think about not wanting to do more.
I realise the initial pushes are the hardest because it’s
like me on the bicycle from a stand still position….and within this….I realise
and understand that waiting to push myself or the pedal on the bicycle…doesn't
making the push any easier…if anything there’s a disadvantage to waiting in the
sense that many miles were lost in time that could have been spent pushing and
accelerating in speed as the result of consistent pushing.
I commit myself to push myself.
When and as I see myself back-chatting within myself about
what I can do instead of my responsibilities, I stop and breathe and push
myself into self-directive action as immediately immersing myself within and as
a point of self-responsibility,,,,such as my chores, errands, school studies,
and DIP/
I commit myself to push myself to accelerate my movement
within and as the principle of what is best for Life.
I commit myself to developing acceleration within Journey to
Life Process.
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