Day 613 Self-Forgiving a New Beginning

Continuing from my previous post Day 612 Beginning a New Day




I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to make sure when and as I go to sleep at night, I take the time to assess my day within and as how I participated, specifically investigating any trigger points as emotions/thoughts/feelings that came up that were not directed in the moment.

I commit myself to assessing my day before going to sleep as a point of self-responsibility in insuring my future well being...I see/realize/understand this to be a point in making sure I start my new day with a clean fresh start.

I commit myself to preparing my new new today with a clean fresh start.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for carrying around dead weight as like the baggage of my previous days thoughts/feelings/emotions as like unresolved points of energetic conflict that exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the amount of time I have wasted within mind as a result of indulging within whatever comes up within my mind as like just kind of going into the vortex of my mind without and specific practical self-directive application to facilitate self-corrective applications.

I commit myself to specifically applying self-forgiveness and self-corrective applications when and as I go into the depths of my mind to investigate my memories.

I commit myself to taking self-responsibility for my memories.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wallowing within my memories.

When and as I see myself wallowing within my memories as like a point of self-indulgence and neglect and resistance to really taking self-responsibility in moving myself within and as the point of self-forgiveness, I stop and breathe, I say, "I am here"...I forgive myself in relationship to the point in question in which I see/realize/understand that I separated myself from. I commit myself to prevention as the best cure...and within this I see/realize/understand the practical living self-responsibility in re-scripting scenarios for when and as I am faced with a specific point...I have a structured platform of support outlined to assist and support me in stopping participation within and as a point of self-sabotage/self-suppression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for carrying dead weight around within and as the justification that it is necessary to hold onto thoughts/feelings/emotions about the past as specific memories that playout within my mind over and over again. I see/realize and understand the practical living assistance and support in self-forgiving myself the thoughts/feelings/emotions that replay within my mind. I see/realize and understand how the thought/feeling and emotions that replay within my mind are reflecting to me the point of self-responsibility I require to enact for myself...as I see/realize/understand that thoughts/feelings/emotions that replay within my mind reveal to me where I have in fact abdicated my practical living self-responsibility. I commit myself to practical living self-responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for logically reasoning and justifying that I have a few minutes to spare/burn/kill and therefore I can indulge within my mind as like a form of entertainment as like a daydreaming/tripping in my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not regarding the physical body consequences for drifting off within my mind as like a form of entertainment and distraction from and as practical living physical self-responsibilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to plan out my escape from practical living physical self-responsibilities within justifying that I have a few minutes to spare/burn/kill within indulging within the depths of my mind as a like form entertainment and distraction from and as my immediate participation within physical reality.

When and as I see myself deciding to drift off within my mind, I stop and breathe, I say, "I am here" I direct myself in facing the point of avoidance by looking at and seeing what I was in fact attempting to avoid, I take self-responsibility for my acceptances and allowances, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from myself, I self-correct my manifested separation by re-structuring my behaviour programming from within and as the starting point of prevention is the best cure. I commit myself to and as self-perfection.

Day 612 Beginning a New Day

Within beginning my morning movement, I have noticed that when first moving myself to lets say the washroom,..I have caught myself existing within my mind just kind of automatically thinking about yesterday and what I did and didn't do. What's interesting about this is it is like a carrying of a dead weight. Like, to a certain extent, having held onto self-judgement from my previous day(s) and carried it forward with me to today...and what is interesting about this is that within my mind I have been automatically indulging within this thinking...and justifying this behaviour within the belief that I am analytically really studying myself. What is interesting about this...is that, it has become quite self-evident to me that I am not being as effective as possible within my evening before I go to sleep...specifically making sure I am not carrying any energetic baggage with me from the past into the future. Obviously, I realize and understand that this is a process and it is my self-responsibility to face points as they come up and prevent these same point from coming up in the future.

What I have also noticed is that I have allowed myself to be distracted within myself as a result of thinking about the past. It's like going into a vortex...and the vortex seems interesting because it's about yourself...and you don't realize how you get stuck in time and really lose your time because whether you realize it or not your resonating within this energetic buzz/trance that is directly related to the vortex that you're within. And interestingly enough, what I have noticed and realized is that there is always a point of self-awareness...where I choose to enter the mind vortex and choose to step out of the mind vortex.

What's interesting to me is that within accepting and allowing myself to practically live the application of 'gratefulness', I can in fact see the point of self-realization that I had previously not seen/realized/understood. What is interesting about this, is that here exists the humbling nature of the process of self-realization and self-perfection.

What's interesting to me is that going into the trance like state within my mind where I am just kind of totally in my head and out of my body, is that it is always a choice...and interestingly enough...I have justified making this choice on many occasions within the seemingly logical reasoning that I have a few minutes to kill/burn/spare. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the ridiculous absurdity of justifying and logically reasoning that I have a few minutes to kill/burn/spare...where I can indulge within my mind as like just drifting off...day dreaming...thinking....not realizing and understanding the expensive cost paid by the physical body for such entertainment in mind.

To be Continued

Day 598 Morning Rhythm Self-Corrections

When and as I see myself regarding my morning as whether I have to go to work or not, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand that my morning exists as the beginning of my day and within this that there is so much potential opportunity to do things for myself within and as my morning here. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of limiting my outlook on my morning within and as only focusing on whether or not I have to get up early. I commit myself to exercise and utilize the potential opportunities that exist within and as my mornings...and within this I commit myself to effectively planning out my mornings in a structured way where I give myself the time to spend doing self-supportive things that I like to do. I commit myself to making a habit of enjoying my morning time.

When and as I see myself dreading the morning, I stop and breathe, I face the points of resistance in relationship to the morning, I realize and understand that I enjoy doing things for myself within the morning and that I have in fact an extra mini little day when I get up early in the morning. I commit myself to giving myself extra mini little day's by creating the habit of continuously rising out of bed early in the morning. 

When and as I see myself manipulating my mornings with fear and desire, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of such particpations, I have a laugh and walk the self-correction in real time, I commit myself to expanding my self-expression here by living my mornings as a point of self-support that exists beyond emotions and or feelings. I commit myself to living the word "morning" without any emotions/feelings, as I realize the morning is the morning without any feelings and or emotions and that my self-expression is born when in fact I allow myself to exist beyond the self-imposed limitations of emotions/feelings.

When and as I see myself making justifications about my morning to induce myself within an particular feeling/emotion, I stop and breathe, I see and realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of such participation, I commit myself to let go of the self-imposed limitations within the moment as a point of real-time practical living self-responsibility. I commit myself to being and becoming creative with the time I am able to spend within and as my morning. I commit myself to giving myself things I would like to receive within my morning. I commit myself to doing things I would like to do within my mornings. I commit myself to looking forward to every morning. I commit myself to liking every morning. I commit myself appreciating my mornings. I commit myself to being grateful for my morning.

When and as I see myself creating conflict about my morning, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of self-sabotaging my morning as a result of following within a negative backchat that came up within my mind about my morning. I commit myself to stop self-sabotaging my morning. I commit myself to realizing and understanding the awesomeness of the morning and within this the equality and oneness within and as the word morning and how here exists the constant consistency as the living words morning awesomeness equality and oneness.

When and as I see myself creating difficulty for myself in the morning, I stop and breathe, I have a laugh out loud and smile as I realize and understand I am the creator here and that it is myself-responsibility to create that which is best for Life as I am Life here. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of creating that which is less than what is best for myself. I commit myself to creating and giving myself that which is best for myself as I realize and understand that I like to receive that which is best for myself here. I commit myself to giving myself the best assistance and support.

When and as I see myself creating conflict between morning and night, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of creating a battle between morning and night, I commit myself to practically living the words morning, day and night as the simplicity of the words they are without attaching/associating any feelings/emotions about the words. I commit myself to practically living the morning, day and night. I commit myself to allowing my morning to compliment my day and night...and allowing my day to compliment my night... I commit myself to allowing my night to compliment my morning and day. I commit myself to practically living the word compliment(s)/complimentary as a point of assistance and support. I commit myself to the realization and understanding that all words are inherently equal and that every word is a point of assistance and support. I commit myself to assisting and supporting myself with the effective living of words from and as the starting point of oneness and equality and the self-realization that self-expression within and as the living of words exists beyond energetic associations to words as either positive/negative/neutral energies. I commit myself to making sure my vocabulary is harmonized within and as the starting point of oneness and equality. I realize and understand the ridiculous absurdity of disharmony.

Day 597 Morning Rhythm

I have noticed a couple patterns that have been playing out with regard to my participation within the mornings. I'm either go go go...or slow slow slow. It's interesting and ridiculous because in both particular scenario's the rhythm of my movement is justified/enforced by the force of my feeling/emotion. Like for instance when it's go go go...it's because if I don't I will be late for work because I give myself only so much time in the morning so that I get myself moving quickly. This mentality has created the opposite effect if I do not require to go to work early in the morning...where it's like I go into a rebellion character acting out because I believe/feel like...and I'm being influenced by my feelings and emotions to just kind of doddle around.

What's interesting about all this is that I see and realize how I respond in directing my morning movements is a result of what I am giving myself to receive.

I see here how I would like to forgive myself for what I have accepted and allowed myself to receive from myself in relationship to morning movement/flow/direction/participation/practicality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining my mornings in relationship to whether or not I am going to work...work from the perspective of it being labor in which I will be paid for.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how the relationship associations I have created within my vocabulary about I see and perceive the morning have had a direct effect in my ability to function to my utmost potential within and as the morning time here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fucking with myself in the morning from the perspective of using fear to motivate myself into movement and getting up in the morning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that only fear can motivate and stimulate myself into action.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for calibrating my morning routine to levels of fear.,,,and within and according to the established levels of fear...I will co-ordinate my movements.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for aligning and hard-wiring my morning's with fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making my decisions and choices to move myself within the morning entirely based upon fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be conditioned according to fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating polarity within my mornings as a result of comparing and judging which morning it is based upon which day of the week it is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating conflicting values in relationship to the morning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for manipulating and self-sabotaging myself within and as the "morning".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for polarizing morning within and and as positive and negative energy associations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my participation within creating conflicting outlooks about the morning has influenced my effectiveness in the morning from and as the perspective of my sound stability in the morning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself of redefining the morning as good or bad and within this associating good with positive energy and bad with negative energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring for all my mornings to be filled with positive energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating negative energetic experiences for myself within the morning as a result of channeling and desiring positive energetic experiences in the morning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have difficulty facing in the moment the point of my acceptances and allowances and within this...forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for accepting things that compromise my best interests from and as the starting point of Oneness and equality as that which is best for all Life is best for me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating conflict within myself between day and night.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for deliberately using fear as a motivational point of movement for myself within my morning/day/night.

To Be Continued

Day 595 Mourning Morning!

So,

Mourning sounds like Morning.

Mourning is what people typically do when someone they like/love dies.

Is it possible every time you wake up from sleeping, You die a little bit more?

I've heard it said that sleep is the cousin of death.

Interesting how many many many people are challenged by the waking up in the morning point.

Interesting how the word relationship to Morning may be be impacting how the practical living of the word Morning is put into application. It's like if a word exists within ourselves with a particular programmed behaviour condition/reaction/energy that can result in us not realizing and understanding why some things are so seemingly difficult.

The word "Morning" is a word I have not taken the time to really investigate and play with for myself within and as a point of self-in-to-me-I-see...hehehe....self-intimacy!

So,

As part of my playing around with the Morning I am taking it upon myself to begin my writing exploration and self-forgiveness process/applications...and self-corrections in the morning as a way of playing with me here in the Morning.

So,

More Ning!




To be continued