Day 577 Positive Voice Tonalities Self-Correction

Continuing from my previous blog entries within the blog series "positive voice tonalities"


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for self-victimizing myself within working with small children.


When and as I see myself self-victimizing myself by judging working with small children as being a burden and hardship/challenge, I stop and breathe, I see working with children as a cool opportunity of support and assistance. I realize and understand the tremendous learning opportunity that is available within and as self-reflection and self-introspection. I realize and understand the attitude of gratitude within and as the work I do. Icommit myself to stop limiting myself and and my potential abilities to do excellent work by taking on judgments that self-victimize myself and my relationship with others in the process. I commit myself to stop self-victimizing myself with judgement. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of self victimizing myself with judgement.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the actions and responses of small children personally.


When and as I see myself taking the actions and responses of small children personally, I stop and breathe and allow myself to have a laugh for a moment at my own expense as I see and realize the momentary ridiculous absurdity of my acceptances and allowances. I commit myself to stop taking peoples actions and responses personally. I commit myself to standing within a point of physical stability so that I am able and capable of directing all reactions and responses.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be self-righteous in relationship to small children.


When and as I see myself being self-righteous in relationship to small children, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand that this is totally not cool and is most unacceptable behaviour, I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of such particpations. I take full self-responsibility in releasing myself from the restraints of self-righteousness. I commit myself to stopping to accept and allow self-righteousness within myself. I realize and understand that self-righteousness in relationship to others promotes and reflects accepted and allowed separation within myself. I commit myself to self-correcting all point of accepted and allowed separation within myself.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how abusive it is to deliberately make a point of speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality to children.


When and as I see myself reacting in a high pitch positive energy voice tonality, I stop and breathe, I take a moment to start again, I take a moment to see and realize the ridiculous absurdity of my momentary mistake within and as reacting within and as a point of positive energy higher pitch voice tonality. I commit myself to use my voice as a point of self-expression as the sounding of words as who I am within and as self-expression as LifeEquality and Oneness. I realize and understand the suppression of my voice/sound within and as I react in a moment as either positive or negative energy. I realize and understand that it is not about me trying to be in a neutral voice which is like an in between of positive and negative as like a mixed reaction. I commit myself to developing my sound self-expression as the presentation of the self-realization of Life Equality and Oneness.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the nastiness of speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality.


When and as I see myself speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the nastiness of speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality. I take self-responsibility and self-accountability to self-correct the situation and prevent the continued play out of manifested separation. I commit myself to purifying my sound as equality and oneness. I commit myself to sound self-expression here.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame within reacting to children by speaking to them in a higher than normal voice tonality.


I commit myself to stop reacting to children. I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing separation within myself towards children here. I commit myself to equalizing myself with children here. I commit myself to educate others about the ridiculous absurdity of speaking to children within and as a point of positive energy.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for going into the nice guy character construct in relationship to children where I believe I do not have a connection with them and I have to earn their validation and approval through speaking from a starting point of positive energy.


When and as I see myself going into the nice guy character construct in relationship to children because I believe I do not have a connection with them and I have to earn their validation and approval through speaking from a starting point of positive energy, I stop and breathe, I direct myself to speak from a point of natural sound physical stability, I realize and understand children I see to be me in and as another Life here, I commit myself to stand equal and one with everything I see here, I commit myself to stop doubting myself in relationship to others here, I commit myself to my self-validation as self-trust and self-honesty here. I commit myself to stop seeking approval. I commit myself to approving myself as what is best for Life.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how equally fucked it is to speak to children in a negative or positive energetic voice tonality.


When and as I see myself energetically speaking to anyone, I stop and breathe, I commit myself to ground my sound in and as physical stability as my self-expression here as sound that cannot be bound to the limitations of energy conflict/friction, I commit myself to communicating effectively and efficiently with profound clarity. I commit myself to play with what I say. I realize and understand the ridiculously absurd nature of communicating from a point of positive or negative energy. I commit myself to purifying the nature of my communication here as Life Equality and Oneness.

Day 576 Positive Voice Tonality Self-Corrections

Continuing from my previous to blog postings:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating emotional turmoil within myself by deliberately going into positive energetic voice tonalities as a way to make connections and keep the peace.

When and as I see myself believing that I need to go into positive energetic voice tonalities as a way to make connections and keep the peace, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand how within this particular mindset I am perpetuating the war/peace conflict/friction as a result of believing positive energy is the answer for negative energy...while not realizing and understanding the fact that positive energy is manufactured ans secreted from the negative energy that exists within myself and that by buying into the participation and reasoned need to go into positive energetic experiences with my voice, I am compromising myself and others as a result of not standing within and as sound stability. I commit myself to stop justifying and reasoning the belief/need to exercise participation within positive energetic reactions as the only way for me to keep the peace and make connections with others. I realize and understand the self-sabotage and absurd ridiculousness of the self-manipulation tactic of compromising physical self-stability for the desired positive energetic reaction. I commit myself to stop sacrificing physical sound stability by believing that I can effectively support and assist another by existing within the conflict/friction voice tonality of positive energy.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to the learning ability of small children.


When and as I see myself taking offense to the learning ability of another, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand I have patience, and that by taking things personally is to in fact disregard my patience which is ridiculously absurd and in fact self-compromising to physical sound stability. I realize and understand that any time my patience is tested by me taking offense to something and having a restlessness come up within me, that there is a point of self-improvement opening up where I can gracefully assist and support myself to re-align my effectiveness within and as the point as the measure of prevention is the best cure...so that I no longer enable myself to fuck with myself by taking offense to another being's process/learning ability. I commit myself to letting go of the urgency to resist patience in moments where my patience is a practical living point of support and assistance. I realize and understand the practicality of living patience as a point of support and stability for my process of self-perfection as equality and oneness here. I commit myself to exercising my patience within process participation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having moments where I reacted as a point of impatience with the young children I was working with today.

When and as I see myself starting to generate a reaction within myself as a point of impatience, I stop and breathe, I hold the point within myself, I look at the point, I seen and realize the consequential absurd ridiculousness of choosing to perpetuate the existence of such a point within myself, I make the decision to terminate the point by looking into the origins of the point and making the decision to forgive myself and create a script of preventative measures to fine tune my alignment within and as the principle starting point of equality and oneness. I commit myself to stopping to breathe and hold the points of energetic instability within myself as I take self-responsibility and self-accountability for that which I have accepted and allowed that is not in the best interest of Life here.

Day 575 Positive Voice Tonality Self-Corrections

Continuing from my previous post:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for using a positive energetic voice tonality as a point of self-automated defense and coping mechanism.



When and as I see myself reacting with a positive energetic voice tonality as a point of self-automated defense and coping mechanism, I stop and breathe, I ground my sound in physical stability, I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of charging up my voice within and as a higher pitch positive energetic tone, I realize and understand the internal and external abuse within communicating from a starting point of energetic reaction. I commit myself to communicating from the starting point of sound physical stability as the recognition and understanding of Equality and Oneness Here.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to manipulate children by using a positive energetic voice tonality.



When and as I see myself attempting to manipulate someone by using a positive energetic voice tonality, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand I am able to be much more effective in assisting and supporting learning comprehension by speaking/communicating in a lower voice tonality, grounded in physical stability. I realize and understand that I am able to to play with my communication by playing with the range of my sounds and voice tonalities. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of justifying the participation within particular energetic voice tonalities from and as the starting point of reaction/conflict/friction within myself. I realize and understand voicing reaction is in fact a self-suppression of self-expression....where as specifically directing the sound of my tone within communication is in fact a cool point of self-expression as physical sound stability here. I commit myself to play with and as my sound self-expression here. I commit myself to experimenting with my communication. I commit myself to let go of fear within and around communicating. I commit myself to being a sound communicator.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to strain my physical body within reacting to children by speaking to them in a higher pitched positive energetic voice tonality.


When and as I see myself separating myself from children I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of separating myself from and as the equality and oneness with children here. I realize and understand the practical living support within and as the point of "You is me in another Life" I commit myself to seeing and participating within and as the practical living of the statement, "You is me in another Life". I commit myself to removing the separation I have created towards children here. I commit myself to removing the separation I have created towards others hers.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doubting my effectiveness to communicate with children in a a low grounded physically stable voice tonality.


When and as I see myself mind fucking my effectiveness to communicate with children in a low grounded physically stable voice tonality, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand I am capable and able to do so. I realize and understand I have in fact proven to myself that I am able and capable of doing so. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of creating justified and reasoned doubts within myself as like an excuse to exist within a point of reaction as opposed to standing within and as the living practicality of what is best for Life here. I commit myself to standing in and as the living practicality of what is best for Life here. I commit myself to gracefully step out out of mind fucks when and as I see myself momentarily engaged within a mind fuck. I commit myself to giving myself stability when and as I face moments of temporary instability. I commit myself to the process of self-perfection. I commit myself to/as effective communication.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that people require to be persuaded and influenced with positive energetic voice tonalities.



When and as I see myself believing that I require to influence someone with a positive voice tonality, I stop and breathe, I see and realize that I do not require to encourage energetic friction within and as my communication with fellow beings here. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of trying to forge connections through and as the process of conflict and friction energies within myself where I do not in fact stand one and equal with the being I am communicating. I commit myself to regarding all beings here one and equal. I commit myself to stop looking to persuade and influence people with positive energies. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of influencing myself and others with positive energy. I realize and understand the abuse and disregard for Life within channeling/spewing positive energetic responses within my communication here.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing people having temper tantrums.



When and as I see myself fearing someone having a temper tantrum, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the practicality within stopping this fear immediately, as I see and realize how fearing someone having a temper tantrum in fact perpetuates inner turmoil within myself and in fact in no way practically supports myself or the other being in which I am communicating with. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of fearing reactionary responses. I commit myself to immediately directing reactionary responses with grace, care and gentleness as I commit myself to becoming a real gentle man who cares for and regards all Life here as a care taker for what is here and what is to come here.


To Be Continued

Day 574 Positive Voice Tonality

So I was working with a whole bunch of 5 year old children today and I noticed a peculiar thing where I would speak in a slightly higher pitch towards them when I was trying to get their attention and tell them or show them how to do something when they had been distracted. It's interesting because I was aware of how I was sounding out my words...and I was kind of like what the fuck...and it was somewhat difficult for me to talk to them in a lower voice tonality. 

What is interesting about this is that I noticed my effectiveness in communicating/directing the points of learning comprehension was most effective when I made the effort to make sure I spoke to them in a low physically grounded voice tonality.

What's interesting about the higher pitch voice tonality...is that I noticed I was speaking in that pitch as a point of reaction...where I would go into the I'm a super nice positive friendly guy personality...and within this...I would speak from within a starting point of positive energy, and the intent of doing this was that there was a belief within me that I would forge and or strengthen a connection with the children through the use of sounding really positive within my energetic responses.

What's interesting about this is that I noticed how today was more challenging/stressful than usual as I had many moments with the little guys where I was seeking out their approval. I mean its kind of funny and ridiculous to see how I would go into this nice guy construct of like "ya you can agree with me and you can listen to me...because just listen to how nice my voice is when I'm talking to you...don't you think I'm so nice and friendly..."

What's interesting about this is that I've made some bullshit associations with going into positive energetic voice tonalities as a point of making approval/validation with others....specifically little children.

What's also interesting about today is that I really played with how I spoke to the kids in some moments...where I made a point of really speaking in a low voice...and what's interesting is that the kids were so much more responsive to me with the lower my voice tonality. It's like so ridiculous in a way because...when I would be "trying to be all positive in my voice tonality" it was a struggle for the kids to comprehend what I was saying...and I would have to repeat myself and establishing comprehension with the children was much more difficult.

I see here how also the point of positive voicing tonality would come out as a consequence to having negative reactions within myself...where I wouldn't necessarily be particularly pleased with the child...and then it's like I would speak in a way of sucking up to them because I feared them having there own temper tantrum...and so believing that I got to be super positive with them as a preventive means to them having temper tantrums.

And what is interesting and ridiculously absurd about my particpations in fearing the children being emotionally distraught and having temper tantrums is that I was having so many little temper tantrums within myself and in a way was trying to cope/manage my own emotional inner turmoil.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for using a positive energetic voice tonality as a point of self-automated defense and coping mechanism.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to manipulate children by using a positive energetic voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to strain my physical body within reacting to children by speaking to them in a higher pitched positive energetic voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doubting my effectiveness to communicate with children in a a low grounded physically stable voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that people require to be persuaded and influenced with positive energetic voice tonalities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing people having temper tantrums.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating emotional turmoil within myself by deliberately going into positive energetic voice tonalities as a way to make connections and keep the peace.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to the learning ability of small children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having moments where I reacted as a point of impatience with the young children I was working with today.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for self-victimizing myself within working with small children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the actions and responses of small children personally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be self-righteous in relationship to small children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how abusive it is to deliberately make a point of speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality to children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the nastiness of speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame within reacting to children by speaking to them in a higher than normal voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for going into the nice guy character construct in relationship to children where I believe I do not have a connection with them and I have to earn their validation and approval through speaking from a starting point of positive energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how equally fucked it is to speak to children in a negative or positive energetic voice tonality.

To be Continued

Day 562 Starting Point of 'Investigate'

In a way we are always here as investigative detectives. What is interesting about this perspective is that even though we are always here within and as investigative detectives...our effectiveness existing as the best investigative detectives is compromised and suppressed when and as our starting point is not clearly aligned within and as the starting point of Oneness and Equality.

The starting point of 'Investigate' became clear to me today as I was faced with challenging work related circumstances and I allowed myself to form some personal self-righteous judgments and take the challenging work related circumstances personally. Within this, the point of self-reflection is required. Within and as the principle of Oneness and Equality, self-reflection is always here. 

It's interesting to see how we can compromise being the best investigative detectives within taking things personally and not wanting to question why particular things become so challenging for ourselves. Like for instance the particular challenges I was faced with was primarily within my ability to place myself within and as the shoes of others. I created such difficulty for myself as a result of clinging to particular biased/judgement/assumptions/beliefs/opinions that really hindered my physical well being...and within this I was missing the pertinent points/opportunities/clues/gifts that were available here for me to see. What's interesting about this is that as a result of automatically creating these biased judgments/assumptions/beliefs/opinions...I was blocking myself from having access to myself-investigation/education here. Consequently, I allowed myself to accumulate stress as a result of perpetuating thought within my mind to support the initial biased judgments/assumptions/beliefs/opinions I formed as like automatic reactions within beginning this particular work assignment.

The points in particular the opened up that I was resistant to see within myself, related to parents catering to children's desires and children just wanting to have their way no matter what. Also the point of self-entitlement/self-regard...and not realizing how I was being triggered by this point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how if I let even one moment of automated backchat within my mind be accepted and allowed within myself without further investigation, that the backchat will continue to accumulate and build so that I am able to see it in a bigger manifested presentation of consequence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I created 'challenging circumstances for myself' as a result of my inability to effectively self-reflect upon the nature of my backchat within moments while working. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having just wanted to shutdown and go to sleep as like to re-set my mind and forget about the points I faced within my day today that require further investigation so that I can re-align myself from and as the starting point of Equality and Oneness and and prevent myself from ever perpetuating a similar instance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking personally what I see and within this utilize this as my self-righteous bias to feel validated in forming and perpetuating automated backchat about the particular circumstances I am witnessing and participating within.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to realize and understand the mind processes I am witnessing and participating within in any give moment. I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how my mind is the point of self-reflection for me to see what and how I have polarized my physical well being here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to face the point of myself as a child being spoiled within my parents catering to my every desire...or almost every desire.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being irritated/frustrated and annoyed in seeing children being persistent in doing everything they can to get there way within fulfilling their individula desires.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame that exists within me as a result of seeing and realizing how ruthless I have existed within primarily focusing myself here on the obtainment of my momentary desires while totally disregarding everything else within my environment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting angry/irritated/frustrated and annoyed with facing the nasty acceptances and allowances that have existed within myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abusing myself within playing out the self-automated defense coping systems for not wanting to face the nasty acceptances and allowances that have existed within myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a self-automated defense coping systems for not wanting to face the nasty accpetances and allowances that exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the scope of irony that exists within creating self-automated defensive coping systems within myself. I realize and understand how I have perpetuated that which I have resisted and fighted against...and within this if anything have only ever validated the nasty acceptances and allowances that exist within myself within accepting and allowing myself to passively accept and allow myself to play out and perpetuated automated backchat as the automated defense coping system.

I realize and understand my effectiveness in my ability to physically express myself here in and as the standing of what is best for all life within and as the principle of Oneness and Equality is a breath by breathaccumulation....because it is is in each moment of breath that I make the decision of what I accept and allow to exist within myself. I realize and understand myself-responsibility within witnessing self-automated backchat within myself to investigate the origins through the process of self-investigation. I realize and understand that self-forgiveness and self-corrective statements are required in these particular incidences. I realize and understand backchat is like an accident/incident that is happening within my mind and that is my self-responsibility to investigate and report the accident/incidents...as I realize it is myself-responsibility to prevent the accident/incident from perpetuating into a more sever problem and situation...and within taking self-responsibility for myself in the moment...I revive myself here as Life...bit by bit...piece by piece....breath by breath...as I realize I am in the midst of an ongoing process/investigation of self-realization as I walk the journey to life in and as the purification of the law of my being here as Equality and Oneness.

To Be Continued