Day 784 - "Let me Tell You"

Communication is a really fascinating endeavor, Isn't it?

I mean, an Endeavor can be regarded in a Plethora of ways, can't it?

Where am I going here with my focal point?

Let me tell You:

I've become aware that in many instances I have communicated from a starting point of "Let me Tell You", with a specific emphasis on the positive feeling or negative emotion that comes up within me connected to a desire to say my piece about whatever the point in question happens to be.  In many instances, my telling is a suppressed form of sharing....because my starting point has often been conflicted to some extent.  Not always, but in many instances...Like, specifically when there is an urge to say something...You know, that experience of I got to tell you this now...like oh man, i was triggered by something you said and now i got to let you know what i think about that.

And within this starting point of "let me tell you", there's a whole range of emotion and feeling reactions.  Some of them are subtle and some are intense, and some are somewhere in between subtle and intense.

Who really cares about the quality of communication anyways?  I mean, isn't the most important thing that we just say whatever it is that comes up within ourselves?  You know, like, we are all just shit shooters....shooting shit at each other and making a big deal about shit that isn't really substantial but is just inflated shit that has no real core depth about it...you know, that surface and petty bullshit being flung around.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to speak from a starting point of being worked up within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to thing the importance of what i have to say is determined by the energetic build up inside myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard the quality of my communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to self-sacrifice quality of words for quantity of words...as like in a way sexualizing my vocabulary and just wanting to get a rise in a way....so it's like how many times times can i get off, a rise, feel an energetic high and get a release with what i say.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the extent to which i have justified speaking a sort of venom within my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify spewing shit/venom because of the experience within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to recycle participation within energetic mindfucks within myself.  I realize my capacity to effectively live the accounting for my words here, because i am here within and as my words everyday.  I realize my responsibility to investigate the purity of my words and sounds.

I commit myself to purity in thoughts, words and deeds.

I commit myself to investigatng the purity of my thoughts, words and deeds.

I commit myself to listening to the quality of my sound.

I commit myself to substantiating the equality and oneness of myself here.  I realize my sound in and as my words is a cool cross reference check point.

Day 659 - Creation and How to Make it Happen

I've noticed an interesting thing within my life in terms of creating things for myself. That being in many instances I require to "just go for it" and some instances even "dare myself to go there".

Why do I say "just go for it" and "dare myself to go there"?

I've noticed that within myself, fear has been a mitigating factor...a controlling factor really....a deal breaker...something that superimposes me to not actually want to create/express myself beyond my current status of acceptances and allowances.

Lets look at how I started dating my first girlfriend: She was a girl who I didn't really know all that well...other than that she played some sports at the high school I attended and that I was attracted to her looks and the fact that she was interested in sports. Also, we both had the same english teacher....I had the teacher first period...and she had the teacher second period...and oh ya....our lockers were near by one another.

So, what is interesting here is that we would cross paths within our day and we kind of looked at each other but didn't say anything to each other. This went on for a little bit. I decided that I wanted to talk to her and get her phone number so I could further get to know her because She was interesting to me. Anywho, I planned to talk to her and tell her I had been noticing her around and that I would like to get her phone number.

Interestingly enough, when the time came to actually say hi to her and share with her what I planned to say...its like I panicked...and was faced with this wall of resistance...nervousness....fear...doubt...uncertainty as to whether or not I would get her number. It's like I was paralyzed in actually moving the point and seeing if I could make something happen here...


So, after having accepted and allowed myself to back out of daring to express myself to her...I decided to make a plan that I would do it at this specific time in the future...because I believed it to be when I would next cross paths with her as our schedules normally intersected at this specific duration within the school day. However, as opportunities are often presented unexpectedly, I was back to my locker unexpectedly after an exam...and she too was at her locker...this was not in my planning...I wanted more time...I wasnt ready I believed to actually face her in communication according to my mind of my acceptances and allowances....

I saw the point of resistance/hesitance/ingrained fear here...and I decided to just go for it...I mean I already even had it all planed out as to what I wanted to say to her.

So, I did get her phone number.

I wouldn't have got her phone number if I didn't "make it happen".

Though, now I was faced with the point of actually calling her....which was a fearful thing to me at the time...I mean it's really some irrational fear here...like fear of rejection...fear of things not working out as I would like them to. Though what is interesting about this is that...by not doing anything...I am stuck within the point of nothing really happening/developing.

So I decided to just go for it..despite experiencing some anxiety/fear/nervousness/resistance about doing so,

I made it happen by dialing her phone number and calling her.

It really isn't that physically demanding to dial a phone number...though I had made the experience seem like an arduous task.

Calling her a second time was easier than the first time.

After talking on the phone I decided to ask her on a date.

I made it happen by asking her.



So from my example sharing here, can you see how I created a relationship? Do you see how I "made it happen"?

In looking specifically at the creation process, it's a physical movement...a communication...a specifically structured self-willing expression of oneself here.


I like the statement: "Ask and you shall receive"

This does not necessarily mean you are going to get what you ask for....but it does in fact mean you will get a response/feedback....whether it is the response you are looking for or it is not.  The practically of asking questions is that we "Create" process and progress which assists and supports further development/creation.

Say you are wanting to ask someone for help but you fear them neglecting to help you....well, ironically enough you are not helping yourself by not asking for help. In fact you are getting exactly what it is you don't want by accepting and allowing the fear that you don't want to take precedence over the potential of the possibility of making what it is you do want to happen.


Another example:

Creating an activity for myself and others:

Often after school I would arrange road hockey games. I really liked to play hockey as a child. I would call up every friend in the neighborhood to see who was interested in playing hockey. I would tell my brother to call all his friends in neighborhood to see who wanted to play hockey.

I made the decision that I wanted to play a game of hockey.

I took the "initiative" to facilitate the happening of the hockey game.

I made it happen.


What's interesting to see here within this hockey game example is that prior to me making the call....no one else had taken the "initiative" to making a hockey game happen. It's not to say, nobody wanted to play hockey...because in fact many people often played when I would make my round of calls to see who was interested in taking part in the game.


Let's now look at another example in regards to organizing social endeavors:

So, there was a time when I felt jaded about being the guy who was always making the plans for things to happen....and so I decided that I didn't want to take the "initiative" anymore and that I would just accept invitations or reject invitations to social endeavors that someone else put in the time to orchestrate.
What I noticed within this approach is that I was making a big deal about taking "initiative" and "making things happen"...and that I was being quite stubborn in neglecting the CREATION of Awesomeness.


Another example:

How I met my second girlfriend:

So, I noticed that I was generally neglecting to really genuinely express myself to girls in which I was attracted to....like the point of fear/self-consciousness/nervousness existed...

So, I decided that I am just going to go for it and be outward in my self-expression and that I am totally fine with whether or not my self-expression is well regarded. I figured this to be a cool point, because I was sharing myself and not holding myself back...and therefore I was CREATING the opportunity for something to develop and unfold by daring to exist within the unknown of a moment/situation...and that by taking this approach...I would have no regrets because I actually wouldn't be able to wonder about if  I actually went where I resisted going...or did what I resisted doing...or said what I was really thinking..

So, I was out at the pub this very night....and I had actually written about how I do not need a relationship with anyone and that I am perfectly content with being a single dude here....yet at the same time I was kind of seeing that by having a solid relationship with myself, the potential exists to have a solid relationship with anyone...and so, I was kind of thinking that I don't need a "special" relationship with One person....I can have relationships with all sorts of girls.

Anywho, as I was heading outside for a smoke, this girl caught my attention as we were crossing paths...and it was quite crowded and loud within the pub...and as we were in the midst of crossing paths, I decided that I would put my hand out and say and gesture "high-five" to her. She went for my high-five...and when she did, I gently squeezed her hand and moved inward and looked her in the eyes and said, "i just wanted to tell you that I thing your beautiful"...and then I let go of her hand and continued on my way out of the pub to have a smoke.

As I was coming back into the pub...it just so happened that the girl saw me...and she yelled to me "High-five"...and we locked eyes for a moment...and I was happy to see her and her outgoing response towards me...and I decided to go for a hug....and we hugged and after we chatted for a good little while and we found out that we had some common interests and that we were both in the midst of reading the same book.

The interesting thing about this example is that nothing would have developed here if I did not take the initiative to "make something happen". We dated for a good two years.


OK, another example:

So, I had been playing around within the point of stand up comedy and I had been writing stuff and also sharing what I thought was so awesome...specifically, "the Science of Awesome"....So, the "Science of Awesome" for those who haven't been privy to being educated within this Science:

'Do You Know why Awesome is so Awesome?'

'Because it's Awe So Me!

'You Know, because Awesome is always, all ways AWE-SO-ME'....and that's why when you say and see something that is Awesome, You are like, AWE, that is SO, ME! AWESOME! Because there is always Some Awe with Awesome....and it Takes One to Know One...and TAG, You're It!...and that's why the More You Know Awesome, the More You are It....because that's fucking Awesome....and when You Get it....You Got it!  Get it? Got It! Good!

"Do you know why Good is so Good?"

"Because Good is like God....But, with an Extra O.....And that is why multiple O's are so Good. Because it's like good god ohhhh god that's Gooooooooood.

"Get it, Got it, Good!"

"Fucking Awesome"

"Awe Ya"


Lol, pardon my silliness.


Ok, back to my story...about stand up comedy and the sharing of the Science of Awesome....

So, I had shared this science with many, many, many people....and the science was well received....I mean it is pretty fucking awesome.

Anywho, so I know the Science of Awesome is Awesome...I mean I wrote the science....and it had been peer reviewed countless times....

I remember being at the comedy club one time and I shared the science with a bunch of comedians that performed that night...I wasn't performing that night...but had took the initiative to shoot the shit with the comics afterwards and express my enjoyment about their performances. So, we get to joking around and I share my bit about Awesome and Good...and the comic I regard as the most talented in the bunch...tells me that I'm on another level than him....that this is some holy shit...

So, I get cool feedback from the comics as a result of making/taking the initiative to compliment their performances. I end up leaving the club with all the comics and going to one of their places to continue joking around...

So, cool learning and sharing's opened up as a result of making a point of expressing myself..

Note: I didn't know how things would unfold within expressing myself...however, it is cool to see how cool opportunities are often synonymous within creating the space to express and articulate ourselves.

Ok, the story continues....

So, a comedian I had been really enjoying at the time was coming to town.....I decided I was going to share the Science of Awesome with him...and basically wow him to the point where he's going to give me an opportunity to fast track myself within the world of stand up comedy....

So, I see the dude's show...and I am face to face with him after the show shaking hands....and I......

accept and allow myself to be influenced by fear/resistance....and I hold back from sharing the Science of Awesome with him.

How Unfortunate.

What a tragic comedy really...

There was potential in that moment to share the Science of Awesome with a comic I regarded as pretty fucking awesome...and I feared not getting his approval.


So,


When we allow ourselves to stand within and as the starting point of Creation/Expression Here...there exists no loss...fear of loss.....because we are Giving Everything we Got to Give in that Moment as the unconditional expression/movement/creation of ourself Here....and we are in fact living up to Our Potential.....Which, in and of itself,.....

is.....


Pretty Fucking Awesome!

Day 577 Positive Voice Tonalities Self-Correction

Continuing from my previous blog entries within the blog series "positive voice tonalities"


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for self-victimizing myself within working with small children.


When and as I see myself self-victimizing myself by judging working with small children as being a burden and hardship/challenge, I stop and breathe, I see working with children as a cool opportunity of support and assistance. I realize and understand the tremendous learning opportunity that is available within and as self-reflection and self-introspection. I realize and understand the attitude of gratitude within and as the work I do. Icommit myself to stop limiting myself and and my potential abilities to do excellent work by taking on judgments that self-victimize myself and my relationship with others in the process. I commit myself to stop self-victimizing myself with judgement. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of self victimizing myself with judgement.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the actions and responses of small children personally.


When and as I see myself taking the actions and responses of small children personally, I stop and breathe and allow myself to have a laugh for a moment at my own expense as I see and realize the momentary ridiculous absurdity of my acceptances and allowances. I commit myself to stop taking peoples actions and responses personally. I commit myself to standing within a point of physical stability so that I am able and capable of directing all reactions and responses.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be self-righteous in relationship to small children.


When and as I see myself being self-righteous in relationship to small children, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand that this is totally not cool and is most unacceptable behaviour, I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of such particpations. I take full self-responsibility in releasing myself from the restraints of self-righteousness. I commit myself to stopping to accept and allow self-righteousness within myself. I realize and understand that self-righteousness in relationship to others promotes and reflects accepted and allowed separation within myself. I commit myself to self-correcting all point of accepted and allowed separation within myself.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how abusive it is to deliberately make a point of speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality to children.


When and as I see myself reacting in a high pitch positive energy voice tonality, I stop and breathe, I take a moment to start again, I take a moment to see and realize the ridiculous absurdity of my momentary mistake within and as reacting within and as a point of positive energy higher pitch voice tonality. I commit myself to use my voice as a point of self-expression as the sounding of words as who I am within and as self-expression as LifeEquality and Oneness. I realize and understand the suppression of my voice/sound within and as I react in a moment as either positive or negative energy. I realize and understand that it is not about me trying to be in a neutral voice which is like an in between of positive and negative as like a mixed reaction. I commit myself to developing my sound self-expression as the presentation of the self-realization of Life Equality and Oneness.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the nastiness of speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality.


When and as I see myself speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the nastiness of speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality. I take self-responsibility and self-accountability to self-correct the situation and prevent the continued play out of manifested separation. I commit myself to purifying my sound as equality and oneness. I commit myself to sound self-expression here.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame within reacting to children by speaking to them in a higher than normal voice tonality.


I commit myself to stop reacting to children. I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing separation within myself towards children here. I commit myself to equalizing myself with children here. I commit myself to educate others about the ridiculous absurdity of speaking to children within and as a point of positive energy.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for going into the nice guy character construct in relationship to children where I believe I do not have a connection with them and I have to earn their validation and approval through speaking from a starting point of positive energy.


When and as I see myself going into the nice guy character construct in relationship to children because I believe I do not have a connection with them and I have to earn their validation and approval through speaking from a starting point of positive energy, I stop and breathe, I direct myself to speak from a point of natural sound physical stability, I realize and understand children I see to be me in and as another Life here, I commit myself to stand equal and one with everything I see here, I commit myself to stop doubting myself in relationship to others here, I commit myself to my self-validation as self-trust and self-honesty here. I commit myself to stop seeking approval. I commit myself to approving myself as what is best for Life.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how equally fucked it is to speak to children in a negative or positive energetic voice tonality.


When and as I see myself energetically speaking to anyone, I stop and breathe, I commit myself to ground my sound in and as physical stability as my self-expression here as sound that cannot be bound to the limitations of energy conflict/friction, I commit myself to communicating effectively and efficiently with profound clarity. I commit myself to play with what I say. I realize and understand the ridiculously absurd nature of communicating from a point of positive or negative energy. I commit myself to purifying the nature of my communication here as Life Equality and Oneness.

Day 576 Positive Voice Tonality Self-Corrections

Continuing from my previous to blog postings:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating emotional turmoil within myself by deliberately going into positive energetic voice tonalities as a way to make connections and keep the peace.

When and as I see myself believing that I need to go into positive energetic voice tonalities as a way to make connections and keep the peace, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand how within this particular mindset I am perpetuating the war/peace conflict/friction as a result of believing positive energy is the answer for negative energy...while not realizing and understanding the fact that positive energy is manufactured ans secreted from the negative energy that exists within myself and that by buying into the participation and reasoned need to go into positive energetic experiences with my voice, I am compromising myself and others as a result of not standing within and as sound stability. I commit myself to stop justifying and reasoning the belief/need to exercise participation within positive energetic reactions as the only way for me to keep the peace and make connections with others. I realize and understand the self-sabotage and absurd ridiculousness of the self-manipulation tactic of compromising physical self-stability for the desired positive energetic reaction. I commit myself to stop sacrificing physical sound stability by believing that I can effectively support and assist another by existing within the conflict/friction voice tonality of positive energy.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to the learning ability of small children.


When and as I see myself taking offense to the learning ability of another, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand I have patience, and that by taking things personally is to in fact disregard my patience which is ridiculously absurd and in fact self-compromising to physical sound stability. I realize and understand that any time my patience is tested by me taking offense to something and having a restlessness come up within me, that there is a point of self-improvement opening up where I can gracefully assist and support myself to re-align my effectiveness within and as the point as the measure of prevention is the best cure...so that I no longer enable myself to fuck with myself by taking offense to another being's process/learning ability. I commit myself to letting go of the urgency to resist patience in moments where my patience is a practical living point of support and assistance. I realize and understand the practicality of living patience as a point of support and stability for my process of self-perfection as equality and oneness here. I commit myself to exercising my patience within process participation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having moments where I reacted as a point of impatience with the young children I was working with today.

When and as I see myself starting to generate a reaction within myself as a point of impatience, I stop and breathe, I hold the point within myself, I look at the point, I seen and realize the consequential absurd ridiculousness of choosing to perpetuate the existence of such a point within myself, I make the decision to terminate the point by looking into the origins of the point and making the decision to forgive myself and create a script of preventative measures to fine tune my alignment within and as the principle starting point of equality and oneness. I commit myself to stopping to breathe and hold the points of energetic instability within myself as I take self-responsibility and self-accountability for that which I have accepted and allowed that is not in the best interest of Life here.

Day 574 Positive Voice Tonality

So I was working with a whole bunch of 5 year old children today and I noticed a peculiar thing where I would speak in a slightly higher pitch towards them when I was trying to get their attention and tell them or show them how to do something when they had been distracted. It's interesting because I was aware of how I was sounding out my words...and I was kind of like what the fuck...and it was somewhat difficult for me to talk to them in a lower voice tonality. 

What is interesting about this is that I noticed my effectiveness in communicating/directing the points of learning comprehension was most effective when I made the effort to make sure I spoke to them in a low physically grounded voice tonality.

What's interesting about the higher pitch voice tonality...is that I noticed I was speaking in that pitch as a point of reaction...where I would go into the I'm a super nice positive friendly guy personality...and within this...I would speak from within a starting point of positive energy, and the intent of doing this was that there was a belief within me that I would forge and or strengthen a connection with the children through the use of sounding really positive within my energetic responses.

What's interesting about this is that I noticed how today was more challenging/stressful than usual as I had many moments with the little guys where I was seeking out their approval. I mean its kind of funny and ridiculous to see how I would go into this nice guy construct of like "ya you can agree with me and you can listen to me...because just listen to how nice my voice is when I'm talking to you...don't you think I'm so nice and friendly..."

What's interesting about this is that I've made some bullshit associations with going into positive energetic voice tonalities as a point of making approval/validation with others....specifically little children.

What's also interesting about today is that I really played with how I spoke to the kids in some moments...where I made a point of really speaking in a low voice...and what's interesting is that the kids were so much more responsive to me with the lower my voice tonality. It's like so ridiculous in a way because...when I would be "trying to be all positive in my voice tonality" it was a struggle for the kids to comprehend what I was saying...and I would have to repeat myself and establishing comprehension with the children was much more difficult.

I see here how also the point of positive voicing tonality would come out as a consequence to having negative reactions within myself...where I wouldn't necessarily be particularly pleased with the child...and then it's like I would speak in a way of sucking up to them because I feared them having there own temper tantrum...and so believing that I got to be super positive with them as a preventive means to them having temper tantrums.

And what is interesting and ridiculously absurd about my particpations in fearing the children being emotionally distraught and having temper tantrums is that I was having so many little temper tantrums within myself and in a way was trying to cope/manage my own emotional inner turmoil.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for using a positive energetic voice tonality as a point of self-automated defense and coping mechanism.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to manipulate children by using a positive energetic voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to strain my physical body within reacting to children by speaking to them in a higher pitched positive energetic voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doubting my effectiveness to communicate with children in a a low grounded physically stable voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that people require to be persuaded and influenced with positive energetic voice tonalities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing people having temper tantrums.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating emotional turmoil within myself by deliberately going into positive energetic voice tonalities as a way to make connections and keep the peace.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to the learning ability of small children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having moments where I reacted as a point of impatience with the young children I was working with today.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for self-victimizing myself within working with small children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the actions and responses of small children personally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be self-righteous in relationship to small children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how abusive it is to deliberately make a point of speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality to children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the nastiness of speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame within reacting to children by speaking to them in a higher than normal voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for going into the nice guy character construct in relationship to children where I believe I do not have a connection with them and I have to earn their validation and approval through speaking from a starting point of positive energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how equally fucked it is to speak to children in a negative or positive energetic voice tonality.

To be Continued

Day 465 Information Manipulation

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be manipulated by information as a result of blindly trusting information because I read it or hear it from what I believe to be a reliable source.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having believed the education system to be a reliable source of information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing the news papers and the mainstream media to be a reliable source of information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not considering the word reliable as re-lie-able.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to investigate points of information further as a means of cross referencing information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for obsessing about information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get tangled up in conspiracy theories.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be addicted to conspiracy theories.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking information personally with personal reactions as emotions and or feelings as forms of accepted and allowed judgment in relation to information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being vulnerable to information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting frustrated and irritated with information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for becoming angry about information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting upset and angry about information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being discouraged by information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting overwhelmed by information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing for avoiding to investigate information I have a resistance towards.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being addicted to information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for time looping within patterns of information constructs that I have accepted and allowed myself to hold onto emotions and or feelings about.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding information as potential points of assistance and support.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for sabotaging myself within relationships of information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding myself as an information processor.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself creating layers of judgement about points of information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to logically manipulate myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for for being neglectful within the information I share.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self-righteous within sharing information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that there are greater authorities of information than myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the practical starting point of working with information as investigating all things and only keeping what is good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the huge amount of support that exists here for me within every moment as points of self-reflection/self-investigation within and as the vast amounts of information that exist here within and as each moment I am breathing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that information is something that only exists as separate from me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having difficulty working with lots of information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to work with lots of information as a point of further developing myself as an informed being.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having judged being informed as an egg shape as something not as good as I believe myself to be.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting information that I regard as difficult.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a spectrum of relations as character reactions towards information as energetically charged conflicted friction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing conflicted friction within information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting stuck within energetically polarized information.


I commit myself to utilizing information as a point of learning.

I commit myself to garnering assistance and support from all information here.

I commit myself to realising and understanding all the assistance and support here as information.

I commit myself to communicating and directing information as assistance and support as the starting point principle of creation which is equality and oneness.

I commit myself to sharing information as as a point of giving as I would like to receive.

Day 464 Language Relations

Language is a cool program of communication.  I am taking the opportunity here to share some self-forgiveness as points of self-realisation have opened up within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being judgmental about language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to another being's judgments about language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for polarizing language with positive and negative energies.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be influenced/hypnotized by positive and negative energetically charged language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be controlled by polarized judgments about language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted to learn and expand my understanding of language programming.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being intimidated by language I do not understand.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience myself as inferior to hearing language I do not understand.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being intimidated by language I don't understand.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not believing that I can easily learn to communicate new language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doubting my abilities to speak french.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self-righteous about language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking I don't need to know more languages than english because english is the business language of the world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating reasons and excuses as to why it's not important for me to be able to speak fluently any language other than english.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to taking it personally the tonalities I hear when people communicate with a language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting to the tonality of irritation and frustration.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding accountability for my tonality in each moment of language communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the blatant disregard for others around me when and as I did not specifically direct my tonality within and as how I would like to express myself within speaking words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense/defense when another being takes offense/defense to the way I am communicating words within a language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating abuse within language communication within allowing myself to communicate from a starting point of separation/polarity friction energies.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to share language communication of words with others I don't know.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding language as primarily with words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I have allowed myself to be influenced and controlled by body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being fearful and intimidated by other being's body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to regard and understand my own body language in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to doing a thorough investigation of body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to ask myself more questions about my body language in particular moments, as a way of learning what I mean within my body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to take responsibility and accountability for my body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to communicating with people who are expressing body language of being closed off and reserved within themselves.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to communicate with people who are expressing fear/paranoia/anxiety within their body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for avoiding people with particular body language from the perspective that I believe them to be deliberately expressing that particular body language and that they are unwilling and unable to change their body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for extensively judging being's body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense with being's body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being offensive within my body language as a point of polarity friction energy within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be defensive within my body language as point of polarity friction energy within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how extensively I have reacted to other being's body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being fearful within my body language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I have influenced others within and as my body language self expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to be a master of language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating conflict and friction within myself towards being a master of language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting confused within myself as a result of resisting to regard and listen to my own language in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the importance of knowing my language whether it is verbal or non verbal.

I commit myself to language.

I commit myself to knowing and understanding body language.

I commit myself to expressing body language.

I commit myself to self-direction as what is best for all life within language expressions.

I commit myself to playing with language applications.

I commit myself to testing and investigating language.

I commit myself to stop fearing language.

I commit myself to directing language from the staring point of Equality and Oneness.

When and as I see myself facing a point of fearing someone because of their body language, I stop and breathe and I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of fearing someone's body language.

When and as I see myself fearing someone because of their specific spoken language used, I stop and I breathe, I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of fearing someone because of their specific spoken language used. I direct myself to remove the point of reaction within myself through self-reflection, self realisation, and self-forgiveness.

When and as I see myself resisting to ask a question about language because I don't understand, I stop and breathe, I direct myself to ask my question about language so that I can understand. I realise and understand the power of Life support and assistance within asking questions from the starting point of advancing learning and understanding.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding or considering that language is everything as specific sound signatures because everything that is physically here is a structured sound signature.

I commit myself to knowing structured sound signatures.

I commit myself to encompassing myself within and as the sound signature of Equality and Oneness together forever.

Day 463 Walking the Talk

Today I was telling someone how I am getting over a cold by examining any built up suppression's within myself.  Like examining any areas where I allowed myself to be stressed about particular living situations...and if I held onto stress and did not in fact physically release the points of stress/strain on my physical body. I also shared the point of how it is interesting that our human physical body is always communicating to us our acceptances and allowances.

My friend pointed out how she too was getting over a cold, and how she examines her communication as a point of support and self correction. Specifically looking at the point of talking not being practically aligned with walking...as walking the talk so to speak.

When she mentioned this point I had an aha moment as this is a very simplistic way to examine one's behaviour.

I noticed in particular how I had been talking lots of about having to do school work, and saying that I got to do school work...and in so many instances I was not doing my school work.  I realised the school work had been a point of stress for me....but I didn't consider that I wasn't walking my talk so to speak...and I had considered other points on the surface more so before I got to the point of my attitude towards doing my school work as a root cause of having accepted and allowed stress within my physical body to accumulate to a point of getting a cold.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to talk about doing things without actually doing things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not being accountable to my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting responsibility within my communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to hold myself accountable for the words I speak.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for allowing myself to neglect fully living my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for contradicting myself within my words by saying one thing and then doing another thing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the consequences I place onto my physical body as a result of being out of alignment with my talking and walking as a point of unison within and as physical living actions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating reasoned excuses and justifications for me to accept and allow myself to discredit/disservice practically living words as what is best as a point of self directive self support.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted to unconditionally give honor, dignity, and integrity to physical living words in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for acting in opposition to living words as a point of self-empowerment and self-directed support as factors enabling me to be highly effective and efficient in my day to day living.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for lacking discipline within my communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the importance of structured discipline within and as communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for compromising the living of words as what's best for Life within allowing myself to place importance within my feelings in the moment as a point of accepted and allowed reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give weight to reactions and not realise and understand the extent to which every little feeling I hold onto as a polarized energy is in fact a point of stress, as like added weight/pressure I am accepted and allowing myself to force on to my physical body as a point of strain.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being irresponsible in every moment of communication as a result of not valuing myself and my words as oneness and equality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for communicating as less than Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I had accepted and allowed myself to be communicating as less than life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abusing myself through words by not accounting for every word I speak.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to devalue my words by not realising and understanding the life value of each and every word I speak.

When and as I see myself making an excuse and justification within my mind as an avenue for me to escape living the words I have spread out for myself as a path of support and assistance to walk up as the practical living of words, I stop and breathe, I direct myself to walk my talk, I realise the self support within walking the talk and not accepting and allowing doubt as a mental road block to exist as time loop to keep me cycling in conflict friction as polarized energies existent within myself.  I realise and understand that as I walk and talk words as a point of self-commitment I am in fact giving/gifting myself the opportunity to express and live myself here as living words.

I commit myself to walking the talk.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that by talking about something I make the walking less of a walk....and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to physically walk.  I realise that physically walking a point is the only way to move.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I could walk a point effectively through creating a polarized energy about a point and that the emotional/feeling buzz as my intnetion would be enough of a push/buzz to get me to walk a point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for always looking for and trying to find a short cut or an easier way to do things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to give my best effort into everything I do...and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for misplacing my effort by putting so much effort in trying to figure out ways to avoid using as much effort.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how much more effortless the walking of my talking would be if I do not allow myself to put effort into trying to find a short cut as like a point of instant gratification as a like somehow being able to get the reward/big payout without putting in all the effort.

I realise and understand the effort required within walking the talk.

I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of misplacing effort within trying to avoid doing things.

I realise and understand the fruits of my labor are dependent upon the effort I put into my labor and that by avoiding my best efforts, I am sacrificing the quality of the fruits I may bear.

I commit myself to giving my best effort into harvesting the fruits of my labor.

I realise and understand my words are the seeds that bring into fruition my harvest.

I commit myself to harvesting my best efforts from the seeds of my words.

I realise and understand my words as both a seed and a fruit and that the quality is determined in and as the starting point of creation as Equality and Oneness as what is best for life....and therefore I know and understand that by planting the best seeds I insure the best results.