Day 735 - Self-Forgiveness

Self-forgiveness is a Profound tool of and as creation here. It's the epitome of self-actualization. A noble application. A mark of greatness, compassion, consideration and the highest regard. The greatest gift really.

Let me explain.

All Life, is Self-Forgiveness.


What?


Where is the Life?


If all Life is Self-Forgiveness....what the fuck is going on?


Humans are running a muck in the what the fuck fear control and scare tactic programming that prevents the living actualization of Self-Forgiveness Integration.

The interesting thing here is that We Got it to Give.

The interesting thing is that typically our shared world reflects that we have been conditioned to not want to Give...even though we got it to give. There is a lot of irony within this reflection....

Lets look at Money for a moment as a reflection of human reflection on the understanding and realization of self-forgiveness. If you look at all the money in the world and each countries expenses and the standard of living and quality of life of all people here....it is easy to see that as a whole, the world is in Debt.  What is debt really but the charges against Life...the burden as like how things have been overdrawn....as like making laws on top of laws that perpetuate a dissonance that is a sort of self-perpetuating motion.

Obviously Debt Forgiveness is a real thing. Obviously the starting point regard for Money can change from that being of debt/slavery/suffering/overdrawn....to, Life excellence in the best of possible ways always all ways...with, an emphasis on creative potential development and encouragement as the what we got to give contribution that perpetuates itself as a constant fine tuning of a fine design that is complimentary in and as the greatest regard for Life as All Existence Here. A caring is sharing if you will....

Lets look at Self-Forgiveness....Why Self-Forgiveness? what's the deal with Self? who is Self? How many Selves are there here? Notice any sound similarity to Cells within and as the Selves? Is their Life potential always all ways within and as the various Selves? Does the starting point of any and all Selves originate from and as the same source of Self Here?  Is Self Everything?  How many reflections of Everything are there? Is that a specific number? Would it be easy for the practicality of Life regard to reflect the total number of Everything back to number One? All as One?  All is One? One and Equal? Oneness....One nest and Equal It Why?  Equal I's Here as Everything is I?  But Why?  Why Not?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the canvass of self acceptances and allowances that are less than what is best for all life here, represent the debt we are accepting and allowing here as our self-defined canvass being as overdrawn...and it is in fact our very own self-responsibility to Forgive the debt that we have created within ourselves as the markings that have been overdrawn on our canvass here as the think in which we think that has stained our accountability to the practicality in living as Self-Responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and and understanding the tax system relationship here and self-forgiveness as like a parallel reflection of human regard/disregard for and as our actual Life and the Lives of each One here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as a Life accountant so to speak as like each word being a sound foundation in sewing the regard necessary in and as the garden which is our planet we in fact are plants on planning the ways in which we grow and spread ourselves out over space and time as a result of and as the sewing seeds as the sound foundation which reflects our networking communications here as our place here within and as the community which is Our Self Here in the Garden/Heaven which begins within and as our Self/Life as our very substance and creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for at times deviating away from the profound simplicity in and as the magnificence of seeing and looking at the principle starting point law of Creation as, "Oneness and Equality"

I commit myself to the starting point law of Creation as "Oneness and Equality"

I commit myself to share the simplicity within as as the garden of Oneness and Equality.

I commit myself to substantiating myself here within and as the Garden of Oneness and Equality Here.

Day 617 Re-Writing Creation

By facing and self-correcting the nature of my accepted and allowed reactions, I am birthing myself here as new creation potential...because within self-correcting my reactions, I am taking self-responsibility for my creations here that are not cool that have been sustained within and as my every justified energetic reaction...as like believing that I could not help myself...which is an interesting wording in and of itself...because in seeing a reaction as justified...it's like a push/pull kind of situation...where it's an act of spitefulness...as like well I'm going to react here because I was challenged...and the whole ridiculousness here is not ever really self-reflecting and seeing self as the source of everything here.

When and as I see myself having a reaction, I stop and breathe, I say, "I am here". I commit myself to investigating with specificity the nature of my reaction. I commit myself to seeing the detail within and as the point of reaction. I commit myself to tracing back the originating memories that link to the point of reaction that has presented itself to me. I commit myself to self-correcting myself suppression/separation from and as the starting point of and as Life Oneness and Equality. I commit myself to seeing/realizing/understanding the gift/present of and as moments of reaction because of the self-reflection potential here. I commit myself to enacting and utilizing self-reflection potential here. I commit myself to stop allowing myself to get stuck within and as a point of reaction. I commit myself to immediately seeing the necessary self-correction required within and as a point of reaction. I commit myself to giving myself the ability to create my Life as I would like to create my Life. I commit myself to taking self-responsibility for Creation. I commit myself to self-realizing what it in fact means to stand as Creation Here. 

I commit myself to seeing/realizing/understanding the who and how within as Creation.

I commit myself to Creation as what is always best for Life.

I commit myself to Creating what is always best for Life.

I commit myself to stop and change creations that I have self-realized to be less than what is always best for Life.

I commit myself to always taking self-responsibility for self-realizations.

I commit myself to support and assisting myself in purifying my Creation Here.

I commit myself to stop fearing my ability to create here.

I commit myself to stop creating and perpetuating fear.

I commit myself to assist and support myself and others in stopping to create separation.

I commit myself to exposing the absurd ridiculousness of manifested separation...as like perceived separation.

I commit myself to authorizing my abilities as a Creator here.

I commit myself to standing within and as self-authority here as self-creator here.

I commit myself to self-creation.

I commit myself to self-authorization.

I commit myself to self-responsibility within and as self-creation and self-authorization.

Day 551 Teacher Student Relations

I experienced a little bit of agitation, frustration, annoyance and irritation within teaching ski lessons today.

The scenarios's that triggered these incidences were when a student or students were causing the rest of the class to wait upon them. What bothered me was that the student or students seemed to have no regard for how their particpations effective the rest of the class.

I see how in these particular incidences I briefly allowed myself to take the events personally and go into a form of reaction/judgement where I victimized myself as a result of the particular events unfolding.

Also I see how I directed blame towards the students in thinking that they ought to know better.

I see how in the particular incidences I lacked empathy and consideration. I see how I momentarily disempowered myself by taking the unfolding of the events personally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the self-victimization of myself within taking the unfolding of events personally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying agitation, frustration, irritation and annoyance as a result of participating within the blame and judgement of accepting and allowing myself to be triggered/stimulated by people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for existing within and as the superiority character within participating as a ski instructor/teacher.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have created a cognitive dissonance towards my students within taking on a superiority personality as being the teacher/instructor. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the equality within student/teacher relations and that I am in fact always both the teacher and the student as like I am also learning from the students as the students also stand within and as the role of teacher.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting annoyed, frustrated, angered and irritated within the incidences where I assumed/believed/perceived that the students ought to know better. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as the student within these particular incidences and how I know better that to judge/assume and create a form of logical self-manipulation within myself as a way to justify and validate separation and the abuse of energetic accumulation within myself. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being inconsiderate towards my students within thinking they ought to know better. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for projecting blame, anger, agitation , frustration, annoyance and irritation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being spiteful and self-righteous within thinking that my students ought to already know these particular things and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resistance to educating and informing others about things I believe and perceive that they ought to already know and understand. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying resentmenttowards my students as a result of having accepted and allowed myself to participate within emotional energetic reactions towards my students.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being selfish within my relationship with others within not fully wanting to give up superiority/inferiority relationship and place myself within their shoes as one and equal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have created moments of temporary hardship/burden in relationships with others as a result of not placing myself within and as the shoes/position of the being. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame within being resistant/reluctant to place myself within and as the shoes/position of all beings within and as this world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being spiteful and self-righteous within neglecting to place myself in the position of each and every single being here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for only sometimes placing myself in the position of other being here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame of only sometimes regarding the equality of Life here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being shameful and spiteful towards the equality and oneness of all Life here.

When and as I see myself looking at another being as separate from myself, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand there is a point of cognitive dissonance here as accepted and allowed manifested separation, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a rift/separation between myself and another being here. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness in perpetuating experiences of cognitive dissonance. I commitmyself to removing all experiences of cognitive dissonance within myself.

When and as I see myself considering being angry, irritated, annoyed, agitated or frustrated, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the disservice I do to Life within accepting and allowing myself to abuse life within the energetic reactions of anger, irritation, annoyance, agitation and frustration. I look to reflect upon the point within myself and see how a moment of opportunity opened up where a particular event/scenario unfolded as a lesson for me to learn from within seeing and realizing where/how/why self-correction is required within myself with specific regards to a particular point. I commit myself to walk the specificity of self-correction with specific regards to a particular point. I commit myself to utilizing the lessons/opportunity that are presented to me here in every moment to self-perfect my standing here within and as the equality and oneness of Life.

When and as I see myself formulating logical assumptions within my mind about others as like what I think/believe/perceive, I stop and breathe, I return the points within myself as I realize and understand this thinking/believing/perceiving is specific to what I have accepted and allowed to exist within my mind...and that it is my self-responsibility to remove the limitations of my thinking/believing/perceiving about others within myreality. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of rationalizing and perpetuating the justification of judgement as a necessary thinking/believing/perceiving mechanism necessary to self-define others within a limited view. I realize and understand that holding onto limited views about others reflects that acceptance and allowance of self-suppression within myself. I commit myself to stop all forms of self-suppression within myself. I commit myself to investigate all forms of self-suppression. I commit myself to stop and prevent self-suppression within myself.

I commit myself to valuing and regarding All Life Equally.

I commit myself to Equality and Oneness within and as Teacher/Student....Student/Teacher relations.

Day 444 White Collar

I've been watching this show called, "White Collar" which is about a con expert who specializes in fraud and theft.

As a result of watching the show, the point has come to mind that there is so much effort that goes into committing forms of fraud/theft....and the point that if as much effort when into planning cons as planning the necessary steps for a new world system that would be best for all Life here, than we would in fact have a perfect system in place.

It's interesting to consider that everyone here is a part of the ultimate con which is our world systems in place...as like the daily living as the rules and regulations about how commerce functions...as like it is OK for a system to exist which deliberately results in extreme exploitation of Life.

If we look at our individual participation within the ultimate con it's about self interested accommodations at the expense of everyone else...as like fuck it as like as I get my reward/prize/loot than whatever else happens...that's just part of the con game...and everyone is responsible for making sure they got what they need...and if they don't...then well there's just not that smart and deserve to get conned because it's a survival of the fittest mentality...where if you are not ruthlessly deceptive than you are the victim or ruthless exploitation which is like justified as this is just how things work...it's part of Life...it's how Life functions...

Someone said to me the other day in reference to humans survival instincts as like survival of the fittest and harming other life as a means of self subsistence...to just look at the animal kingdom and see that they do the same type of things as humans....

I asked this person if they considered that it was self evident that humans are the dominant species on the planet on account of our deceptive ruthlessness as like looking at the effects of humanity on planet earth...and within this to consider that the animal and insect kingdoms are a reflection of the human kingdom from the perspective that the human kingdom is like the parent to the animal and insect kingdoms as like a point of care and support...and within this to see that we are doing a really brutal job of providing stable living conditions for all animals and insects here....I mean, as humans...were not working together within the functioning of our designed global systems......

These insights have forced me to challenge my own participation's here and to see how my starting point has always been about my own personal amusement and just really about sustaining a good life for myself without really regarding all Life around me...which is totally absurd...and so,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting all Life within the decisions I make.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for expecting someone else to be accountable for figuring things out and working towards a better world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting a world that's best for all Life...but thinking that I can continue to exist as a representation of disregard for all Life by just focusing on self interested pursuits for my own personal amusement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that if I just care a little bit about all Life here...and do a little bit to support all Life here...than I am OK to continue to leverage the ultimate con that is in place for my benefit at the expense of those who weren't as ruthless and deceptive as I was.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding myself as a con man as a result of myself leveraging a good life within a system that is totally corrupted...and neglecting to really contribute ways that are best to alleviate the corruption in the current system so that a new world order can be created that assists ans supports all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not wanting to see my behaviour and participation's as ruthlessly deceptive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to always operate from the starting point of what's best for all Life...because that goes against me pulling a fraudulent act where I am able to benefit self interested pursuits that is totally legitimized as acceptable and regarded as OK within existing in this world as part of the ultimate con game being played/pulled.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to limit my intelligence and abilities/capabilities to contributing to the creation of a world that is best for all Life because I am able to exist within the current con game with effortless ease...as like a person who is able to get by within the ultimate con and satisfy self interested indulgences/desires.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not wanting to see and understand my starting point for existing here as being rooted in self interested indulgences/desires as like points of preoccupation to distract me from existing a person of the highest integrity and dignity, as like a person who will do whatever it takes to create the necessary planning for the implementation of a new world order which supports the living well being of all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding what a waste of time it is to be here and to not regard what is best for all Life at all times...and to be actively participating in looking at the problems that exist here by creating solutions as the necessary problem solving as the necessary actions required to put a stop to the ultimate con game.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to juggle ego self interest and have compassion for all Life...as like playing both sides of the fence...I realise and understand the middle road as the greatest deception...and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking a middle road approach within being a part of the ultimate con existing here as the ruthless exploitation of life for self interested benefit as like the pursuit of individual happiness at the expense of keeping other individuals hostage from the pursuit of happiness...and I realise and understand that to make a life for myself where I am able to just indulge in self interested pursuits and not give a shit really about the world around me, like not really do anything to be actively remedying the problems that exist, is in fact an indication of a mental disorder as like a total disassociation as Life which is in fact to exist here as like a waste of space an resources.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting my resourcefulness in assisting and supporting the facilitation of a new world order which honors and values Life with integrity and dignity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for expecting others to be accountable for Life before I should have to be accountable for Life...and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for waiting to dedicate my every breath to becoming Life as what's best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being resistance to changing in all ways that is best for life...out of fear that I will get screwed in the ultimate con game existing here as a result of giving up participation within and as contributing player in the human deception.

I commit myself to stopping the human deception which is the disregard for all Life.

I commit myself to aligning myself in ways that I can be resourceful in assisting and supporting the facilitation of a new world order which is best for all Life here.

I commit myself to stop limiting myself from being resourceful and creative in bringing forth solutions that are best in solving the problems that exist here.

I commit myself to giving myself integrity, dignity and honor as the words necessary to becoming the living accountability and responsibility as what's best for all  Life.

I commit myself to actively solving problems as like making problem solving a life vocation as the self-realisation that problems require solutions that are best for all Life here...and that I am capable and able of solving problems with the basic mathematical simplicity of 1+1=2 as common sense understanding and reasoning.