Day 576 Positive Voice Tonality Self-Corrections

Continuing from my previous to blog postings:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating emotional turmoil within myself by deliberately going into positive energetic voice tonalities as a way to make connections and keep the peace.

When and as I see myself believing that I need to go into positive energetic voice tonalities as a way to make connections and keep the peace, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand how within this particular mindset I am perpetuating the war/peace conflict/friction as a result of believing positive energy is the answer for negative energy...while not realizing and understanding the fact that positive energy is manufactured ans secreted from the negative energy that exists within myself and that by buying into the participation and reasoned need to go into positive energetic experiences with my voice, I am compromising myself and others as a result of not standing within and as sound stability. I commit myself to stop justifying and reasoning the belief/need to exercise participation within positive energetic reactions as the only way for me to keep the peace and make connections with others. I realize and understand the self-sabotage and absurd ridiculousness of the self-manipulation tactic of compromising physical self-stability for the desired positive energetic reaction. I commit myself to stop sacrificing physical sound stability by believing that I can effectively support and assist another by existing within the conflict/friction voice tonality of positive energy.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to the learning ability of small children.


When and as I see myself taking offense to the learning ability of another, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand I have patience, and that by taking things personally is to in fact disregard my patience which is ridiculously absurd and in fact self-compromising to physical sound stability. I realize and understand that any time my patience is tested by me taking offense to something and having a restlessness come up within me, that there is a point of self-improvement opening up where I can gracefully assist and support myself to re-align my effectiveness within and as the point as the measure of prevention is the best cure...so that I no longer enable myself to fuck with myself by taking offense to another being's process/learning ability. I commit myself to letting go of the urgency to resist patience in moments where my patience is a practical living point of support and assistance. I realize and understand the practicality of living patience as a point of support and stability for my process of self-perfection as equality and oneness here. I commit myself to exercising my patience within process participation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having moments where I reacted as a point of impatience with the young children I was working with today.

When and as I see myself starting to generate a reaction within myself as a point of impatience, I stop and breathe, I hold the point within myself, I look at the point, I seen and realize the consequential absurd ridiculousness of choosing to perpetuate the existence of such a point within myself, I make the decision to terminate the point by looking into the origins of the point and making the decision to forgive myself and create a script of preventative measures to fine tune my alignment within and as the principle starting point of equality and oneness. I commit myself to stopping to breathe and hold the points of energetic instability within myself as I take self-responsibility and self-accountability for that which I have accepted and allowed that is not in the best interest of Life here.

Day 575 Positive Voice Tonality Self-Corrections

Continuing from my previous post:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for using a positive energetic voice tonality as a point of self-automated defense and coping mechanism.



When and as I see myself reacting with a positive energetic voice tonality as a point of self-automated defense and coping mechanism, I stop and breathe, I ground my sound in physical stability, I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of charging up my voice within and as a higher pitch positive energetic tone, I realize and understand the internal and external abuse within communicating from a starting point of energetic reaction. I commit myself to communicating from the starting point of sound physical stability as the recognition and understanding of Equality and Oneness Here.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to manipulate children by using a positive energetic voice tonality.



When and as I see myself attempting to manipulate someone by using a positive energetic voice tonality, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand I am able to be much more effective in assisting and supporting learning comprehension by speaking/communicating in a lower voice tonality, grounded in physical stability. I realize and understand that I am able to to play with my communication by playing with the range of my sounds and voice tonalities. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of justifying the participation within particular energetic voice tonalities from and as the starting point of reaction/conflict/friction within myself. I realize and understand voicing reaction is in fact a self-suppression of self-expression....where as specifically directing the sound of my tone within communication is in fact a cool point of self-expression as physical sound stability here. I commit myself to play with and as my sound self-expression here. I commit myself to experimenting with my communication. I commit myself to let go of fear within and around communicating. I commit myself to being a sound communicator.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to strain my physical body within reacting to children by speaking to them in a higher pitched positive energetic voice tonality.


When and as I see myself separating myself from children I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of separating myself from and as the equality and oneness with children here. I realize and understand the practical living support within and as the point of "You is me in another Life" I commit myself to seeing and participating within and as the practical living of the statement, "You is me in another Life". I commit myself to removing the separation I have created towards children here. I commit myself to removing the separation I have created towards others hers.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doubting my effectiveness to communicate with children in a a low grounded physically stable voice tonality.


When and as I see myself mind fucking my effectiveness to communicate with children in a low grounded physically stable voice tonality, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand I am capable and able to do so. I realize and understand I have in fact proven to myself that I am able and capable of doing so. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of creating justified and reasoned doubts within myself as like an excuse to exist within a point of reaction as opposed to standing within and as the living practicality of what is best for Life here. I commit myself to standing in and as the living practicality of what is best for Life here. I commit myself to gracefully step out out of mind fucks when and as I see myself momentarily engaged within a mind fuck. I commit myself to giving myself stability when and as I face moments of temporary instability. I commit myself to the process of self-perfection. I commit myself to/as effective communication.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that people require to be persuaded and influenced with positive energetic voice tonalities.



When and as I see myself believing that I require to influence someone with a positive voice tonality, I stop and breathe, I see and realize that I do not require to encourage energetic friction within and as my communication with fellow beings here. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of trying to forge connections through and as the process of conflict and friction energies within myself where I do not in fact stand one and equal with the being I am communicating. I commit myself to regarding all beings here one and equal. I commit myself to stop looking to persuade and influence people with positive energies. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of influencing myself and others with positive energy. I realize and understand the abuse and disregard for Life within channeling/spewing positive energetic responses within my communication here.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing people having temper tantrums.



When and as I see myself fearing someone having a temper tantrum, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the practicality within stopping this fear immediately, as I see and realize how fearing someone having a temper tantrum in fact perpetuates inner turmoil within myself and in fact in no way practically supports myself or the other being in which I am communicating with. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of fearing reactionary responses. I commit myself to immediately directing reactionary responses with grace, care and gentleness as I commit myself to becoming a real gentle man who cares for and regards all Life here as a care taker for what is here and what is to come here.


To Be Continued

Day 574 Positive Voice Tonality

So I was working with a whole bunch of 5 year old children today and I noticed a peculiar thing where I would speak in a slightly higher pitch towards them when I was trying to get their attention and tell them or show them how to do something when they had been distracted. It's interesting because I was aware of how I was sounding out my words...and I was kind of like what the fuck...and it was somewhat difficult for me to talk to them in a lower voice tonality. 

What is interesting about this is that I noticed my effectiveness in communicating/directing the points of learning comprehension was most effective when I made the effort to make sure I spoke to them in a low physically grounded voice tonality.

What's interesting about the higher pitch voice tonality...is that I noticed I was speaking in that pitch as a point of reaction...where I would go into the I'm a super nice positive friendly guy personality...and within this...I would speak from within a starting point of positive energy, and the intent of doing this was that there was a belief within me that I would forge and or strengthen a connection with the children through the use of sounding really positive within my energetic responses.

What's interesting about this is that I noticed how today was more challenging/stressful than usual as I had many moments with the little guys where I was seeking out their approval. I mean its kind of funny and ridiculous to see how I would go into this nice guy construct of like "ya you can agree with me and you can listen to me...because just listen to how nice my voice is when I'm talking to you...don't you think I'm so nice and friendly..."

What's interesting about this is that I've made some bullshit associations with going into positive energetic voice tonalities as a point of making approval/validation with others....specifically little children.

What's also interesting about today is that I really played with how I spoke to the kids in some moments...where I made a point of really speaking in a low voice...and what's interesting is that the kids were so much more responsive to me with the lower my voice tonality. It's like so ridiculous in a way because...when I would be "trying to be all positive in my voice tonality" it was a struggle for the kids to comprehend what I was saying...and I would have to repeat myself and establishing comprehension with the children was much more difficult.

I see here how also the point of positive voicing tonality would come out as a consequence to having negative reactions within myself...where I wouldn't necessarily be particularly pleased with the child...and then it's like I would speak in a way of sucking up to them because I feared them having there own temper tantrum...and so believing that I got to be super positive with them as a preventive means to them having temper tantrums.

And what is interesting and ridiculously absurd about my particpations in fearing the children being emotionally distraught and having temper tantrums is that I was having so many little temper tantrums within myself and in a way was trying to cope/manage my own emotional inner turmoil.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for using a positive energetic voice tonality as a point of self-automated defense and coping mechanism.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to manipulate children by using a positive energetic voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to strain my physical body within reacting to children by speaking to them in a higher pitched positive energetic voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doubting my effectiveness to communicate with children in a a low grounded physically stable voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that people require to be persuaded and influenced with positive energetic voice tonalities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing people having temper tantrums.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating emotional turmoil within myself by deliberately going into positive energetic voice tonalities as a way to make connections and keep the peace.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to the learning ability of small children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having moments where I reacted as a point of impatience with the young children I was working with today.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for self-victimizing myself within working with small children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the actions and responses of small children personally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be self-righteous in relationship to small children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how abusive it is to deliberately make a point of speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality to children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the nastiness of speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame within reacting to children by speaking to them in a higher than normal voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for going into the nice guy character construct in relationship to children where I believe I do not have a connection with them and I have to earn their validation and approval through speaking from a starting point of positive energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how equally fucked it is to speak to children in a negative or positive energetic voice tonality.

To be Continued