Day 585 Self-Satisfaction Corrections

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating judgments about self-satisfaction and amusement.





When and as I see myself creating energetic judgments about self-satisfaction and amusement, I stop and breathe, I purify my vocabulary by removing the positive/negative energetic charges associated to the words "self-satisfaction" and "amusement". I realize and understand how points come up within my mind as a self-reflection of the conflict that exists within and as my vocabulary from and as the perspective of having associated positive/negative energetic charges upon words. I realize and understand it is myself-responsibility to purify my relationship with words back to a point of equality and oneness where the words stand pure and innocent here. I realize and understand how detrimental it is to exist with a contaminated vocabulary. I commit myself purifying my vocabulary. I commit myself to stop sabotaging myself within and as the acceptance and allowance of existing within and as the restraints of a contaminated vocabulary as a result of a reluctance to face the initial memory impressions I formed to particular words as thought/feeling/emotion energy resonances from and as within a point of conflicting friction.






I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how within investigating a point of introspection I have a tendency to polarize my findings as like right and or wrong within and as positive and negative energies.






When and as I see myself creating a versus scenario within and as my self-investigation/introspection, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand this is a flag point within myself where I am standing within and as a point of conflict...experiencing the pull and push of both energies existing within myself, I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of justifying and validating both the positive and negative energies within myself. I commit myself to practically applying the tools of self-forgiveness and self-corrective applications to facilitate my release from and as self imposed energetic enslavement. I commit myself to stop getting lost within and as the pull/push of positive/negative energies. I commit myself to remaining stable within sorting out various energies within myself by remembering to breath...and slow myself down with breath. I realize and understand that it ability to see what is here clearly is suppressed when and as I forget to slow myself down with breath. I realize and understand the base nature of my programmed conditioned mind is to move quickly within and as energetic reactions/stimulation as positive/negative/neutral energies. I commit myself to sorting out the energetic layers within and as my mind consciousness system.







I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for seeking self-satisfaction within creating a labeled self-definition/judgement upon a point with a polarity friction/conflict energy.






When and as I see myself aligning self-satisfaction within creating a labeled self-definition/judgement upon a point within a polarity friction/conflict energy, I stop and breathe, I see realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of continuing within such a capacity, I see realize and understand the urgency within stopping myself and self-correcting my structural resonance alignment here as I realize that to perpetuate a polarity friction/conflict energy within myself in any capacity is not cool as it is in fact self-harm. I realize and understand what I accept and allow within myself is a resulting reflection of what I would like and want for others to have...and so I realize and understand the self-responsibility in giving myself the best caring support and assistance in purifying the nature of my relationship here as by becoming one and equal with Life. I commit myself to becoming One and Equal as Life here manifested in physicality.

Day 577 Positive Voice Tonalities Self-Correction

Continuing from my previous blog entries within the blog series "positive voice tonalities"


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for self-victimizing myself within working with small children.


When and as I see myself self-victimizing myself by judging working with small children as being a burden and hardship/challenge, I stop and breathe, I see working with children as a cool opportunity of support and assistance. I realize and understand the tremendous learning opportunity that is available within and as self-reflection and self-introspection. I realize and understand the attitude of gratitude within and as the work I do. Icommit myself to stop limiting myself and and my potential abilities to do excellent work by taking on judgments that self-victimize myself and my relationship with others in the process. I commit myself to stop self-victimizing myself with judgement. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of self victimizing myself with judgement.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the actions and responses of small children personally.


When and as I see myself taking the actions and responses of small children personally, I stop and breathe and allow myself to have a laugh for a moment at my own expense as I see and realize the momentary ridiculous absurdity of my acceptances and allowances. I commit myself to stop taking peoples actions and responses personally. I commit myself to standing within a point of physical stability so that I am able and capable of directing all reactions and responses.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be self-righteous in relationship to small children.


When and as I see myself being self-righteous in relationship to small children, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand that this is totally not cool and is most unacceptable behaviour, I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of such particpations. I take full self-responsibility in releasing myself from the restraints of self-righteousness. I commit myself to stopping to accept and allow self-righteousness within myself. I realize and understand that self-righteousness in relationship to others promotes and reflects accepted and allowed separation within myself. I commit myself to self-correcting all point of accepted and allowed separation within myself.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how abusive it is to deliberately make a point of speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality to children.


When and as I see myself reacting in a high pitch positive energy voice tonality, I stop and breathe, I take a moment to start again, I take a moment to see and realize the ridiculous absurdity of my momentary mistake within and as reacting within and as a point of positive energy higher pitch voice tonality. I commit myself to use my voice as a point of self-expression as the sounding of words as who I am within and as self-expression as LifeEquality and Oneness. I realize and understand the suppression of my voice/sound within and as I react in a moment as either positive or negative energy. I realize and understand that it is not about me trying to be in a neutral voice which is like an in between of positive and negative as like a mixed reaction. I commit myself to developing my sound self-expression as the presentation of the self-realization of Life Equality and Oneness.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the nastiness of speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality.


When and as I see myself speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the nastiness of speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality. I take self-responsibility and self-accountability to self-correct the situation and prevent the continued play out of manifested separation. I commit myself to purifying my sound as equality and oneness. I commit myself to sound self-expression here.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame within reacting to children by speaking to them in a higher than normal voice tonality.


I commit myself to stop reacting to children. I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing separation within myself towards children here. I commit myself to equalizing myself with children here. I commit myself to educate others about the ridiculous absurdity of speaking to children within and as a point of positive energy.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for going into the nice guy character construct in relationship to children where I believe I do not have a connection with them and I have to earn their validation and approval through speaking from a starting point of positive energy.


When and as I see myself going into the nice guy character construct in relationship to children because I believe I do not have a connection with them and I have to earn their validation and approval through speaking from a starting point of positive energy, I stop and breathe, I direct myself to speak from a point of natural sound physical stability, I realize and understand children I see to be me in and as another Life here, I commit myself to stand equal and one with everything I see here, I commit myself to stop doubting myself in relationship to others here, I commit myself to my self-validation as self-trust and self-honesty here. I commit myself to stop seeking approval. I commit myself to approving myself as what is best for Life.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how equally fucked it is to speak to children in a negative or positive energetic voice tonality.


When and as I see myself energetically speaking to anyone, I stop and breathe, I commit myself to ground my sound in and as physical stability as my self-expression here as sound that cannot be bound to the limitations of energy conflict/friction, I commit myself to communicating effectively and efficiently with profound clarity. I commit myself to play with what I say. I realize and understand the ridiculously absurd nature of communicating from a point of positive or negative energy. I commit myself to purifying the nature of my communication here as Life Equality and Oneness.

Day 576 Positive Voice Tonality Self-Corrections

Continuing from my previous to blog postings:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating emotional turmoil within myself by deliberately going into positive energetic voice tonalities as a way to make connections and keep the peace.

When and as I see myself believing that I need to go into positive energetic voice tonalities as a way to make connections and keep the peace, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand how within this particular mindset I am perpetuating the war/peace conflict/friction as a result of believing positive energy is the answer for negative energy...while not realizing and understanding the fact that positive energy is manufactured ans secreted from the negative energy that exists within myself and that by buying into the participation and reasoned need to go into positive energetic experiences with my voice, I am compromising myself and others as a result of not standing within and as sound stability. I commit myself to stop justifying and reasoning the belief/need to exercise participation within positive energetic reactions as the only way for me to keep the peace and make connections with others. I realize and understand the self-sabotage and absurd ridiculousness of the self-manipulation tactic of compromising physical self-stability for the desired positive energetic reaction. I commit myself to stop sacrificing physical sound stability by believing that I can effectively support and assist another by existing within the conflict/friction voice tonality of positive energy.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to the learning ability of small children.


When and as I see myself taking offense to the learning ability of another, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand I have patience, and that by taking things personally is to in fact disregard my patience which is ridiculously absurd and in fact self-compromising to physical sound stability. I realize and understand that any time my patience is tested by me taking offense to something and having a restlessness come up within me, that there is a point of self-improvement opening up where I can gracefully assist and support myself to re-align my effectiveness within and as the point as the measure of prevention is the best cure...so that I no longer enable myself to fuck with myself by taking offense to another being's process/learning ability. I commit myself to letting go of the urgency to resist patience in moments where my patience is a practical living point of support and assistance. I realize and understand the practicality of living patience as a point of support and stability for my process of self-perfection as equality and oneness here. I commit myself to exercising my patience within process participation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having moments where I reacted as a point of impatience with the young children I was working with today.

When and as I see myself starting to generate a reaction within myself as a point of impatience, I stop and breathe, I hold the point within myself, I look at the point, I seen and realize the consequential absurd ridiculousness of choosing to perpetuate the existence of such a point within myself, I make the decision to terminate the point by looking into the origins of the point and making the decision to forgive myself and create a script of preventative measures to fine tune my alignment within and as the principle starting point of equality and oneness. I commit myself to stopping to breathe and hold the points of energetic instability within myself as I take self-responsibility and self-accountability for that which I have accepted and allowed that is not in the best interest of Life here.

572 Self-Interest Corrective Alignment

When and as I see myself resisting to question myself-interests, I stop and breathe, I question myself-interests, I realize the fact that there is insight to be garnered within questioning myself-interests here. I realize and understand why a hesitance as a form of resistance exists with specific regards to questioning myself-interests...because if I in fact question myself-interests here, I will in fact open up the opportunity for myself to see my conditioned programmed reality as how I have self-defined myself here. I realize and understand within daring to look at my acceptances and allowances here, the opportunity exists for me to take self-responsibility for my acceptances and allowances by removing all acceptances and allowances that are not totally awesome. I realize and understand my the pre-programmed nature of my mind/ego is to self-destruct my physicality...and therefore the point of revenge of the ego exists within my base programming as like a self-automated defense mechanisms to impulse/stimulate me within my mind to resist going there within my mind to actually see what it is I am perpetuating within myself that is totally and completely ridiculously absurd. I realize and understand how the nature of my mind consciousness system is to be motivated and moved by stimulation/fear/energy as like a particular buzz/shock/stress/strain induced upon my physicality...as like a cracking the whip upon myself as like a mind/body master/slave relationship. I realize and understand my self-commitment in equalizing my mind/body relationship here. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of existing within a master/slave relationship as the mind to the body. I commit myself to stopping the inequality within and as my mind/bodyrelationship here. I commit myself to asking myself the difficult questions that directly challenge my programmed conditioned nature. I commit myself to utilizing resistance as an indicator to see where I am required to investigate/explore more.

When and as I see myself trying to over simplify the intricate complexity of my mind, I stop and breathe, I face the intricate complexity of my mind by utilizing the process of simplicity by working/looking at one point at atime and within this accumulating the points as like doing the basic mathematical accounting in counting each point and seeing the various connections that are formed and related as a result of the plethora of acceptances and allowances within myself. I realize and understand the practicality in keeping things simplistic within working with information by having a basic structured approach/methodology as how to systematically walk/work through point one by one until I am done. I commit myself to a basic simplistic approach/methodology in walking/working through my mind of acceptances and allowances one by one until I am done. I commit myself to stop trying to over simplify things as like a point of trying to create a shortcut within and as the desire to avoid/fear doing the labor within totally understanding the intricate complexity of my mind. I commit myself to practical living basic simplicity within as myself expression here. I commit myself to simplicity in design. I commit myself to Life simplicity.

When and as I see myself desiring/seeking out stimulation/entertainment/distraction, I stop and breathe, I question why I am looking to be stimulated/entertained/distracted, I investigate the full extent of my question, I look to see what I am resisting, I face my accepted and allowed resistance, I make the decision to no longer accept and allow the point of resistance within myself, I realize and understand myself responsibility as self-directive decision maker here, I realize and understand the point of self-determination/self-will within and as the self-responsibility and self-accountability of practically living self-directive decision making here. I commit myself to the self-responsibility and self-accountability within and as the practical living self-directive decision making process here. I realize and understand my self-governance as the law/rules of my being here is stemmed and rooted in my effective efficiency and ability to practically live self-directive decisions. I commit myself to practically living self-directive decisions that are in alignment with and as the principle of equality and oneness as what is best for all Life here. I realize and understand that what is best for all Life here starts with what is best for myself here. I realize and understand my decision to align myself as what is best for all Life here. I commit myself to becoming what is best for all Life here. I commit myself to giving myself what I would like to receive. 

When and as I see myself fearing to let go of my impulsed desires, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the principle of what is best for all Life takes precedent over my impulsed desires, I realize and understand I have made the decision to give myself the best Life support and assistance and that this is a labor intensive self-directive decision that requires relentless continuous constant and consistent participation as my self-disciplined routine of the simplicity of one breath at a time. I commit myself to stepping out of mind reliance mental reality and into practical living physical reality participation. I commit myself to establishing a practical living self-disciplined creative structural approach for the birthing process of myself here as Life.

Day 469 Director and Conductor of the Symphony

I've come to see and realise that each being is the director and conductor of the symphony.  What I mean is that every physical being is sound expression. Each of us is the director of the movement of our sound.  I mean, sure we can allow our movements to be influenced as a result/consequence of our acceptances and allowances...which is like an accepted and allowed resistance within ourselves....which in turn, makes our ability to move and express ourselves limited.  I've been working on releasing the accepted and allowed programmed conditioning that has existed within me as emotion and feeling reactions. It's really quite ridiculous when you investigate/question your every emotion/feeling reaction.  It's fascinating to see how we have been conditioned instruments so to speak.  Like our how to speak, is so conditioned...I mean the language we learned is part of the programming...and there can be influential reactions within language that trigger reactions within ourselves.  What's interesting is that everything is learned. What's interesting about everything being learned is that, I for one, in many incidences, didn't really think about what I was learning. I mean I was learning before I was thinking, now that I think about it...lol.

The point I'd like to share here is that our ability to really play is dependent upon our ability to use resistance as a life road map....as the point of realising that resistance exists as a form of reaction so to speak, as an emotion/feeling/thought.

What I am saying is that, to enable ourselves the ability and opportunity to have free range within our self expression, is dependent upon our ability to face our accepted and allowed programming restraints/conditions that have been installed within on us throughout the years beginning at birth....and have been re-enforced throughout time without our really understanding what the fuck is going on.

I mean, if you have a look, in most instances you have a reaction, it's like an automatic response...that automatic response is the result of particular programmed conditioned acceptances and allowances as a reflection of and as self-defined judgement. Individualized as each persons programming is based on how we have related and reacted to stimuli/others within out environment.

Like if you consider the point that everyone is the director and the conductor of sound/energy and we are always emitting/admitting our expression as our acceptances and allowances, and we are out of tune...I mean we aren't tune within and as a harmonious union of what is pure awesome, than our sound is less than, as like a fraction of our actual potential, which is in fact a reflection of conflicted friction within ourselves...as like the mathematical division of a loss taking place.

So, imagine, everyone is a musical instrument broadcasting/playing/expressing sound all the time...like a constant resonance is taking place...and all the time....the resonance frequency is out of whack...like there's always some sort of distortion....I mean that's like a constant storm always brewing and getting worse....and we just keep perpetuating it....not realising and understanding that it is in fact the way we are accepting and allowing ourselves to exist that is creating a situation that just keeps getting worse.

I mean, if you have a look...it's like a generally slow destruction....with humans....well arguably faster and faster destruction...as if you examine human behaviour throughout history....it is clear that we are getting faster and faster at consuming ourselves/the planet.

You would think based upon our natural learning ability...as like ability to learn with an effortless ease...that we would just keep getting better and better.....not worse and worse...so to speak....I mean, look at most people when they die...it's because the body has failed....really old people look like zombies kind of...you know...it's like the skin is barely fastened on the body....I mean, so many old people in old age homes....where there totally fucked up...waiting to die basically...like so many various ailments...existing within a limited ability that has generally become more and more limited throughout time....I mean that's fucking brutal...

Could this brutality be because it's been collectively self-induced?

Meaning everyone is spewing garbage at one another?

Like our tuning has always been way off?

I mean, that we humans as a species of Life never got the message loud in clear in and as our sound expression?

So, our existence here in time has been our compression of consequence....as our sounds becoming more and more dense....condensed...as our con...as we have conned ourselves throughout time to believe anything but the truth of ourselves/reality?  Even going so far as to dismiss and diss as like to vomit with grotesque and dismissive language onto anyone who standsup amongst the disaster here, and is like hey, there's a problem here....kind of like Dorothy in the wizard of oz....trying to inform others of the message....take warning....precaution...we have a serious storm a brewing that isn't getting any better....onto we weather the perfect storm...as like recognizing/realising/understanding the consequences of our actions/reactions/acceptances and allowances....and take accountability as our self-responsibility in being the weatherman here as the determining factor of the nature of things...as we in fact are the things here...and when we do the accounting and count everything...1+1+1+1.....until we have added all the 1's together...forming a total of everyone/everything....as all of existence here....like the puzzle/equation/words/sounds/puzzle pieces of ourselves here....like the Mr Humpty Dumpty's who had a great fall from the brick wall of common sense understanding, forgetting and contaminating the basic elementary principles of a solid foundation of oneness and equality together forming the perfect sound formation as that which is always best and most triumphantly excellent because what is totally bodacious for You is totally bodacious for me as the enforcement practical living of the best insurance policy of giving what we like to receive. The epitome of the win/win equation/situation/experience/Life

OK, so my point of my sharing here today is to look at Ourselves here today within and as the words "director of the symphony"

Symphony=an elaborate musical composition for full orchestra, typically in four movements, at least one of which is traditionally in sonata form.

Sonata form=A form of a movement consisting of three sections, the exposition, the development, and recapitulation, often followed by a coda.

Exposition=A setting forth of meaning and intent. A statement or rhetorical discourse intended to give information about or an explanation of difficult material. An act or example of exposing.

Development=A significant event, occurrence or change.

Recapitulation=An act or instance of summarizing the main points of something. The repetition of an evolutionary or other process during development or growth.

Coda=The concluding passage of a piece of movement, typically an addition to the basic structure

Director=One that supervises, controls, or manages.

Conductors=Are made of materials that electricity can flow through easily. These materials are made up of atoms whose electrons can move away freely.


Note and Pro Tip: Self-Forgiveness is the point of structured creativity that enables self-direction and conduction of the symphony of harmonious balance in epic proportions. The giving You are are in assistance and support for.

Day 461 Attitude

"At it to do"


Attitude:
(n)

1. The way a person views something or tends to behave towards it, often in an evaluative way.
2. A theatrical pose created for effect (especially in the phrase "strike an attitude)
3. A position of the body indicating mood or emotion.
4. Informal a hostile manner..."don't give me attitude, my girl"
5.(Engineering/Aeronautics) the orientation of an aircraft's axes in relation to some plane, especially the horizontal.
6. (Astronautics) the orientation of a spacecraft in relation to its direction in motion.
7. Performing Arts/Ballet) Ballet a classical position in which the body is upright and one leg raised and bent behind.

(source: http://thefreedictionary.com/attitude)


The reason i am looking at the word attitude is because the point has come up in relation to completion of a university course.  I've written about this point before...and I've mentioned points that relate to my attitude about doing the university course...but I don't think I every took responsibility about the point of my attitude in relation to walking this particular university course into completion...and it's been very difficult for me.  I've had a terrible attitude about the course.  I've tried to ignore my brutally negative attitude about the course and just get through it...but I see the point of responsibility in gifting myself the release and ease of posture, like the release of stress and tension on my body as a result of trying to do something while holding onto a brutally negative attitude about doing so.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I have placed stress and tension on my body as a result of holding onto a brutally negative attitude about the university law class I am taking.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how my brutally negative attitude about the university course jurisprudence has been an accepted and allowed form of judgement that has been a hindrance to my  movement and progress withing the program.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being stubborn in my attitude about the university course jurisprudence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being brutally negative in attitude about the university course jurisprudence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for self sabotaging my individual progress within the jurisprudence course.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to effectively participate within the jurisprudence course while accepting and allowing myself to carry a contaminated definition of the word jurisprudence in relationship to and as the university course I am taking...and within this I see and realise how my attitude reflect contamination in regards to the course itself as polarized energetic judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying and believing it to be fine for me to hold onto such judgement within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being righteous within self judgement about the university jurisprudence course.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the irony that has been unfolding here as consequence within and as the fact that jurisprudence is the science and or philosophy of law...and the point of irony here...is that I did not understand the law of my being as what I have accepted and allowed within my words, which is the basic structured formation of the law of my being here.


to be continued