Day - 712 - Real Time Application...More than a Test Drive

Important Note:

 You may notice that the publication date here is later than blog Day 714. I had written Blogs Day 711- to 714 in Sequence but did not get around posting in that order. Anyways, now you know the flow of how it all came to writing in the structuring of my posts.

Also, the posts are a creative practice play in real time movement moment to moment without the hesitation stand still judgement and doubt. So without a doubt I face myself in the moment as I write and then come back and reflect on my written words to fine tune my garnering of support and assistance for myself as like making my self-nurturing regard a timeless application and process I commit to.

So, If you haven't checked the previous post...ch, ch, ch, check it out. 

Also, like the previous post this post was supported in being initiated by the words of Anu in "Path of the Initiate"

Isn't it interesting how we have so many participations throughout our Lives? I mean, even if you are someone who says they do Nothing all of the time, the reality is that you are actually doing some thing's....we are always participating in some thing's.  I mean, to do absolutely nothing here is really not physically viable...seeing how we live in a physical reality here where Everything is physically here. So, nothing is like a paradox of sorts because of Everything being here....but not really from the perspective that Nothing doesn't exist because Everything exists. I know, things are sounding even more paradoxical. Like multi-verses in the Universe. The mathematics of addition.

The point I am pointing out here, with regards to Nothing, is Everything. Have a look at the process journey to Life here. Letting go of Everything for Everything. A return to nothingness, like a blank slate....fresh canvas. See that an Enormous amount of potential is possible when the starting point has been returned to Nothingness. Look at the self-direction potential. See Always! The support is moving in every direction! Always all ways. Think of like a ball of yarn or the spokes on a wheel. Point of thinking illustrations is to highlight the support and assistance within Always assistance and support as what is best for life. Talk about options and possibilities. Quite the opposite of things being restricted and restrained.

See here how each becomes the Driving operator of Always. This is the process journey to nothingness that supports the enactment of a New World Order....a Living World Order that You would really Like to Design. The manifestation of Heaven on Earth, to be explicitly precise.

The rhetorical question to creating and manifesting Heaven on Earth, is, "Why wouldn't You manifest yourself, the World Here as Heaven on Earth?"

Obviously when the regard for self is realized and the process commitments are clear....the creating and manifesting of Heaven on Earth becomes an Obvious Duh, Of Course....as this is the course/path/trail/kingdom/palace/house/Fortress/Compound/run/slide/jungle gym/play-ground/mountain climber/swimming pool/hot-tub/farm/ocean/golf-course/Ski-Hill/skating rink/obstacle course/PLANET to Plant it...as we Plan it. See the plant and the plan...and the planet here...as the playing with what is here...and using the similarities within things that are good for mutually beneficial and prosperous results. Planning and Planting our nature makes the fruition of our Labor specifically great...as the great nest here is spread far and wide...as the planet greatness...the great nest here for all to live and reside..as the practical living of love made visible as the truest truth of what is real desire..as like what it is to really live for real here. You know, creating the Here in which you are always...as like no matter what,,,You/We are Here as Everything. That's all there is. And the potential comes from nothing as like the return to self creation...as the innocence of self-realized here. The contact with self actualization here. as the hey hello hi I see me here...and I get in to me I see as self-intimacy,

Day 698 - Discipline...More than A feeling...

Isn't it interesting that when and as we examine ourselves and the world we see that so many things are bass ackwards!

Looking at the point of Discipline and the early advent of discipline in the education system, you see that children were Hit, or beaten with a strap as a form of punishment for misbehavior....the disciplinary action was to act as a form of fear controlling measure.

looking at fear controlling measure....I see how I have been influenced and controlled through fear throughout my life to varying degrees.

Sometimes I was in such fear that I denied the actuality of my reactions being a total polar opposite movement as like taking the other side of the coin to project a superiority stance as a way of covering up the accepted and allowed insecurity within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for polarizing my relationship with and as the word Discipline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for existing within a relationship wuth Discipline from the perspective of fighting fear....where I am using discipline as like a point of trying to convince myself of behaving in particular manners and at the same time rebelling against my said desire behavior.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating stagnation in my effective application of sorting myself out so to speak as the structural alignment of myself as the purification of and as my being here sound.

I forgive myself ofr accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the irony within and as practical living applications from and as the perspective of my word acceptances and allowances are being directly exposed/revealed to me to see the actuality of myself here...and where i REQUIRE SELF-CORRECTION....SELF PERFECTION...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for complicating the truth of myself by avoiding to face and correct it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of limitations I create for myself as consequence of accepting and allowing myself to be controlled by fears.....and that these fears are revealed as a spectrum of momentary reactions that come up within my mind as thoughts/feelings/emotions....both positive and negative.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself ofr having problems in being able to practically able to live daily consistency within myself as a result of giving credence to the thoughts/emotions/feelings that come up within my mind to the point of possession/belief ,,playout where abdication of self-direction.,..self correction happens

Day 637 Tree Planting Introduction and Chapter 1

OK, So, I am here in Vanderhoof British Colombia at the moment in a motel apartment.  I am tree planting for the next three months. Staying in a motel apartment while tree planting is considered luxurious accommodations. Most people who go tree planting stay in a bush camp somewhere in the middle of nowhere...meaning when you get home from work...you got to your tent...camping...camping sounds cool when you doing it in the middle of somewhere or when it is somewhat short lived as like a little vacation....but, when it is snowing off and on the first couple of weeks of the season...camping loses some of it's appeal...not to mention the shower setup in a bush camp...where maybe the first dozen...if that...get a warm shower...from the make shift shower trailer...and then everyone else is stuck with cold water...or just neglect the shower point all together because it's cold outside at night..and you just are soooooo tired that you cant be bothered. Oh ya, I mentioned I am in motel apartment...this is somewhat of a dream tree planting contract...the kind of contract...I heard rumors about in my earlier seasons...that just seemed almost too good to be true.

It's been said before that your body goes through a sort of metamorphosis in the beginning of a tree planting season...as a result of the fact that you will be repetitively using all sorts of muscles that you would otherwise not ever really exert to the extent that you do while tree planting all day.

I believe it was in the late 1950's in Canada, There was a, I believe a Supreme Court ruling that stated tree planting was cruel and unusual punishment for prisoners...(I will verify the facts here if I decide to publish...a book deal about tree planting...)

This is my tenth year tree planting.

I tree plant for the money.

What's funny about after finishing a tree planting season is that you feel fantastic...like strong as ever...beaming with a sense of accomplishment as a result of persevering through the various weather elements and encountering everything nature has to offer...pushing and expanding your physical body limits...socializing with all sorts of people...sharing the tree planting experience....OK, so this isn't the funny part....what's funny about all these things...is that..after having faced adversity so to speak...lol...I am calling tree planting adversity...and...OK..so after you walk/move through tree planting/adversity...you kind of want to do it again...well I have...and I have seen many others experience this very same tendency...I have seen people absolutely commit to finishing the season and then being like that's it that's all, declaring that they will never do it again...only to come around...and and by the end of the season kind of wanting to do it again...

The interesting thing about tree planting is that it really illustrates lots of life lessons:

Some of the lessons include:

Self-discipline

Self-determination

Self-Worth

Self-trust

Self-honesty

Self-forgiveness

Time-management

Master of Efficiency

Master of Emotions

How to Co-exist with others

Self-Confidence

Sharing Words of Support

Laughter

Story telling

Being Silly

There are so many life lessons that I have garnered as a result of tree planting...I am making note here as a a way to stimulate/instigate my memory and also give you an idea of the kind of support I have garnered from the work that I have done and am doing...Also...and this is a big Also...because here, the main point of my sharing here is to illustrate the point and fact that it is within whatever you participate within on a daily basis for some consecutive time that you are able to garner such assistance and support and life lessons if you will...I mean class is in session everyday we are here within the lesson that is always referred to as "Today"

OK, let me tell you what's going on with me at the moment:

"I am sore as fuck"

"I am experiencing new muscle soreness that I have not previously experience before"

I just finished my second day of tree planting...I forced myself to make a note of writing a sharing here as what is going...I took a little cat nap before I began this sharing here because my hands and fingers were too sore/tired earlier to type...I gotta get going soon to bed here...well I am in bed...but I know my body needs as much time as possible to rest as I very strained/sore all over the place.

Oh ya, it snowed out today. I was working for about 10 hours outside today. The temperature was kind of warm for snowy weather...I was actually quite pleased that it was snowing and not raining because...the snow was melting pretty immediately...and it being cold enough for snow...seemed to me that I would get less wet from the snow...than I would have been getting had it been a few degrees warmer and a very cold rain...fascinating what a difference a few degrees makes...nature really exemplifies this point well...the minute difference make all the difference.....as like it is an accumulation of all the minutes that make the day..its funny how I say "mi-nute"..and minute..yet I initially spell them the same way...

So, I did not want to go to work today at all...when I woke up this morning new body parts were sore that weren't sore when I went to bed. I had all the excuses/reasons/justifications lined up as to validate myself in not requiring to show up for day 2 of tree planting.

My girlfriend insisted on turning the lights on this morning before I was ready to get up. That kind of pissed me off.

I am sharing a place with my girlfriend and another dude...living quarters are a little tired.

My girlfriend is mildly annoyed with me at the moment as I type here in bed...understandably so,,its 1030 pm and we gotta be in the truck ready to go at 645am..and she is sore as fuck and tired as fuck...

Patience is key, especially in tree planting environment...not taking offense to any body;s emotions...because oh did they happen from time to time...it;s like...well...you know what it;s like when you or somebody you know gets all fired up about something.

So, while I was working today, I recalled how a good buddy of mine, his dad mentioned that we should write a book about our tree planting adventures/stories...something or other along those lines...and ya...that's a great idea....so my plan here is to write every day for the next 90 days or so as however long the tree planting season ends up going...

SO, i took some video footage in camp a few years ago...well maybe a few years ago...plus a another one or so...anyways I wanted to put a tree planting reality show together...so I had so much interviews done with people...also so much camp lifestyle and culture footage...it was a bush camp that I was in...pretty big camp...some wild parties...some time off in the city in between contracts...young and old people...all sorts of shenanigans...

Someone I was in contact with earlier this year was seemingly real close to aligning with a tv production company to make the reality show happen...don't know what happened...I was waiting to receive my contract in the mail actually...because apparently deals had been mad...and ya...I was picked to be one of the "characters profiled in the show"...it was joked about in all seriousness that doing this show...would get me my own action figurines in walmarts across north america...and that it would make it a lot easier for me to book stand up comedy gigs..

Anyways this was more of an opening of things up introduction than a chapter one...though I will stick with my title heading for now...

And stay tuned for more story development and insightful sharing/caring/laughter/intrigue...and so much more...

Oh, ya before I say good night...allow me to say "welcome" and "your welcome" as I bring you inside the world of tree planting without actually having to go through the experiences yourself...yet hopefully I will give you much support in the process here for you to employ in your own persona daily doings...as you know...well maybe you don't know yet...but everything in life is a lot like tree planting...there i said it...and I'm sure I'll say it again...anywho...tonight I bid you adieu.

Day 612 Beginning a New Day

Within beginning my morning movement, I have noticed that when first moving myself to lets say the washroom,..I have caught myself existing within my mind just kind of automatically thinking about yesterday and what I did and didn't do. What's interesting about this is it is like a carrying of a dead weight. Like, to a certain extent, having held onto self-judgement from my previous day(s) and carried it forward with me to today...and what is interesting about this is that within my mind I have been automatically indulging within this thinking...and justifying this behaviour within the belief that I am analytically really studying myself. What is interesting about this...is that, it has become quite self-evident to me that I am not being as effective as possible within my evening before I go to sleep...specifically making sure I am not carrying any energetic baggage with me from the past into the future. Obviously, I realize and understand that this is a process and it is my self-responsibility to face points as they come up and prevent these same point from coming up in the future.

What I have also noticed is that I have allowed myself to be distracted within myself as a result of thinking about the past. It's like going into a vortex...and the vortex seems interesting because it's about yourself...and you don't realize how you get stuck in time and really lose your time because whether you realize it or not your resonating within this energetic buzz/trance that is directly related to the vortex that you're within. And interestingly enough, what I have noticed and realized is that there is always a point of self-awareness...where I choose to enter the mind vortex and choose to step out of the mind vortex.

What's interesting to me is that within accepting and allowing myself to practically live the application of 'gratefulness', I can in fact see the point of self-realization that I had previously not seen/realized/understood. What is interesting about this, is that here exists the humbling nature of the process of self-realization and self-perfection.

What's interesting to me is that going into the trance like state within my mind where I am just kind of totally in my head and out of my body, is that it is always a choice...and interestingly enough...I have justified making this choice on many occasions within the seemingly logical reasoning that I have a few minutes to kill/burn/spare. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the ridiculous absurdity of justifying and logically reasoning that I have a few minutes to kill/burn/spare...where I can indulge within my mind as like just drifting off...day dreaming...thinking....not realizing and understanding the expensive cost paid by the physical body for such entertainment in mind.

To be Continued