Day 793 - Mind Superior Royalty

“I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to lock myself up within my word relationships in such a sneaky and deceptive manner of self-trickery that I resist to even speak or write about it....because the pain of self-condemnation as an Inferior and an Imbecile is heart breakingly embarrassing to myself as Mind Superior Royalty who is Superior to such characterizations and behaviours.”

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize nor understand the significance of my words and world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist taking authority for my world and words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abdicate direction to misalignment within and as my word and world relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to dismiss the extent of my errors and suppression within and as my relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize nor really extensively investigate myself within and as my words as the science and structured signs of myself here as how I have specifically created myself to be exactly as I am in this moment here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize nor understand how I created my world through and as the specific impressions i created within and as the words within myself and how it is my words that are in fact very questionable always as my words are the explanation to why my world is exactly the way it is. I realize my words are not valid as an excuse of justification for why and how I am here within and as the world. I realize who and how I have existed within and as the world as been an excuse and justification, in a way, my ignorance and incompetence, a lack of Life regard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for seeking stimulation externally to charge myself internally as how I have conditioned my preferences within my mind for feeding off of my physical body from day to day.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to trust within my thinking as how to best feed off my body for energetic highs and lows as to give me the perfect chemical concoction i desire in the moment to satisfy a seemingly internal and external craving for more and more consumption.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the addiction i have created within and as my mind to feed off myself, my life, all life as an energetic kick back. Conflict.

Tension for the attention.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to crave the continuous pulsation of tension within my body to feel something, because without a constant stressing and straining in way of engagement i have an experience of being unfulfilled.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to get my fill of consumption, a point of tension in creating rifts, conflict, as various forms of self-abuse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize how extensively integrated my conditioned behavior and personality is for destructive self-abuse...and therefore world abuse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to get real, make the daily commitment to deconstruct my constructions of word/world relationships that i exist in and as separation to.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fuck around with actually living words for real and creating myself and world as I would like.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make believe that really investigating myself within and as Words is something that is not totally necessary....is entertaining and enjoyable but at the same time a lot of effort and work and therefor avoidable and personally i rather go about this process of word/world entanglement in a less than organized and structured manner because the task and process is overwhelming to me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become overwhelmed with the process of word and world entanglement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that i must think of everything before i can really do anything.\

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for holding myself back from playing and working on Potential developments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how One in fact goes about Creating.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist being totally self-honest with myself here and that I haven't understood Creation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear looking inferior to others in my understanding, knowledge and application of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to penalize myself within and as a result of conditioning myself to be controlled through fear of not Knowing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize the process of Know thy Self, is to in fact stand in the face of Not Knowing, and to from here, Walk, take the steps to: Investigating, Learning, Asking Questions, play and work with things so that I know.

Day 642 Tree planting chapter 6 - physical enjoyment in the movement, beyond money...but is money...

Tree planting chapter 6 - physical enjoyment in the movement, beyond money...but is money...

Today I had a bit of a special mission type of day where I was required to move around from one area to another area...meaning I had to do a bunch of driving to go to various specific work site locations...now as a result I had less time available to plant than I have had on previous days and also nobody else was faced with these exact circumstance...the point of money came up in regards to my mood and attitude.

What is interesting here...is that I have noticed in the past how I have allowed myself to become emotional at the prospected fear of losing money...losing out on making more money...and what is interesting here...is that becoming emotional is a hindrance on self-movement here. I have noticed many times as I have allowed myself to get caught up in my mind while tree planting...that my effectiveness/concentration/focus./awareness/timing and coordination diminishes...and sometimes I stumble/trip...slow down...and overall become less effective  and efficient in the work I am doing...what is interesting about this here...is that as I allow myself to commit to the actual physical movement of just moving myself without any emotion and or feeling connotations...but just move me as like a sport activity competition...in which I am "willing" myself to excel at my very best potential...I am in fact  operating in a state of flow..."Self-directed flow zone", where I am totally immersed within my physical body...and I am really enjoying the seemingly effortless movement of myself...as like a point of style/grace/elite-performance...and the funny thing here is that I am actually giving my full effort/force for the seemingly effortless look...which is interesting...because I am committing my actions all the way here...and what is interesting also about this point, "in and as the importance of self-movement beyond emotions"...is that,  It is in fact, "money" in and of itself...because...that is true self-expression here...and true self-expression will be rewarded as the fruits of our labor...and from my personal experience within tree planting and also my writing here...is that as I allow myself to trust myself and I commit to directing the "will" within myself to actually move...that I am quite good at achieving fantastic results as a result of and as my self-commitment...self-dedication....and self-discipline..

I see here that this is a very important concept/point/understanding...that our self-movement here determines our reality...especially the state of our affairs/business/relations here.

I mean,

We can look at this at a personal, interpersonal and universal level...you see how your personal life is a result of your movement and participations within yourself as like what you accept and allow yourself to participate within yourself/mind/body/world/words.

 The interpersonal reflects and indicates the extent of our relationships with others that are cultivated and developed through and as our labored participations within them...I say labor...because it is focused work/play...that is seemingly effortless....yet that is because there is a full commitment of focused effort here...and thus our relationships with others...how we interact with others...is a result of how we act with our self here...so there is an interconnection and relation between our personal and interpersonal relationships...which therefore makes it easy to see and realize the extent to which our universal relationships exists here...as our self here in and as the universe...as a point of existence here...as like our sound...I mean who we are as the universe...big picture is a reflection of our personal and interpersonal...I mean it s interesting to see the state of world affairs through and as the eyes of self-realization and self-reflection...meaning that nothing can be separate from me here for real....because I am not really separate from anything here.

So, it is important to stop emotion and feeling as a source of self-movement...because the effectiveness of self-expression and fantastic results is therefore suppressed within and as the body energy output that is generated in feeding and maintaining a particular energetic vibration within the body as the activity is participated within...this is a result of the mindfulness in thought...meaning the  attention and deliberate participation within thoughts...is feeding the physical body stimulation...like there is a mental connection with the physical connection...and the more the mental condition and the thinking is indulged within while trying to excel to the best of one's abilities within a physical activity...the success within that physical activity will be strained and limited by one's own fear/mind/lack of focus and self-discipline.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which I am self-responsible for my physical body self movement here...and that it is me who determines my effectiveness..and the quality of my self-expression as a result of opening myself up to being able and capable of sharing myself as so much more than the limitations of thoughts feelings and emotions.

I see/realize and understand to access and get money...it is in fact effortlessly easy as put in my effort/self-movement,  I allow myself to focus on getting specifically and exactly what I want...however I see and realize the important point here...is that business...and self-expression is not about being emotional...that me as who I  really am...exists way beyond the energetic fear of thought feeling and emotion...and that the crucial ingredient in practical living the process here, is,  self-trust in the self movement here...and the dedication to keep moving..keep focusing...stop discouragement...self-trust...it is all about self-expression here...

What is cool about self-expression here...is that this is "you" sharing with all the "me's" here...and it's all "me"...and it's all "you" here...which means there is a togetherness agreement here....meaning that we share the same truth and trust here...as like this is both of our estate's here...and so when and as one expresses oneself here from within and as a state of flow...as like in the zone...like the physical here zone...which is the place here where and as our sound transference ripples in such a way as like the most awesome assistance and support ever.

Day 541 Christmas Elite

In my last post a few points came to surface where I see that I have had the attitude of a super elitist. I made point of things like"I don't want to be vacationing when everyone else is vacationing"...thinking about over crowding within doing activities like skiing or snowboarding for example. Looking further into the point I questioned the point...and see the fun in sharing holidays with lots of other people...well basically sharing time in general with lots of others is cool...it doesn't have to be holidays/vacation...just sharing time together is cool. The point comes up like attention, attention this is the situation here on earth,,,All Life Time is shared here together. I mean WOW. We are all sharing this lifetime here on earth together.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the significance of sharing a Life Time with All Life Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the fact that all Life Time is shared.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to share my Life Time in Service of what is Best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the interconnectedness of Life Time here on Earth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be selfish with my time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking and believing that my time is separate from your time and that this is no real interconnectedness within all our Life Time here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being reluctant to share my Life Time here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for treating my Life Time as like mine and deliberately focusing on my self-interests with my time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my Life Time responsibilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for harboring a super elitist attitude of believing I deserve more free time than others and that I should just be grateful and happy that I have more free time than others within our shared reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging how people spend their Life Time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being angry at how I have spent my Life Time thus far.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging my Life Time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being ashamed of my Life Time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for hiding from the shame in my Life Time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not wanting to face the Shame within my Life Time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that if I do not face every point of shame within my Life Time then I cannot in fact change for real in this Life Time.

I commit myself to face the shame in my Life Time.
I commit myself to change for Real in this Life Time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that time is mine within and as my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to work overtime to make the changes required for what is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abusing time within focusing and desiring participation within self-interested pursuits.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to keep attention upon self interested pursuits of happiness and at the same time hope and wish that the labor required to manifest heaven on earth can just be magically done/completed like some sort of instant gratification.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how when I blame the super elite for not doing enough I am really blaming myself for not doing enough to make myself in and as the world a better place.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to do less than enough to make myself and the world that which is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as less than what is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking of myself as better than the best.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be in conflict/friction with what is best for all Life Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame within deflecting responsibility and accountability for what is best for all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for half assing Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for beating myself up within facing the brutality I have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for brutally abusing Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting to think that I played no role in contributing to the brutal abuse here on Earth.

When and as I see myself disregarding the preciousness of time, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand that every moment of time counts within the accumulation of moments of time to see what is accepted and allowed within time. I realize the practicality in living the principle of what is best for all Life. I realize my self-responsibility in committing this Life Time to what is Best for All Life Time.

When and as I see myself blaming the super elite, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand this is the point of superiority I have accepted and allowed to exist within my ego frame of mind. I commit myself to stop suppressing my ability to see with real eyes what is here as Life.  I commit myself to dedicating my Life Time to what is best for all Life.

I commit myself to Life.

When and as I see myself resisting to work overtime for what is best for all Life, I stop and breathe, I commit myself to working overtime as what is best for all Life. I commit myself to working in service of what is best for all Life.

I commit myself to servicing Life assistance and support.

I commit myself to stop distracting myself from servicing Life assistance and support.

I commit myself to accepting and allowing myself to exist as what is best for all Life.

I commit myself to doing what is best for all Life.

When and as I see myself focusing my attention upon self interested activities, I stop and breathe, I make sure I am not distracting myself from any point of practical living assistance and support. I commit myself to aligning myself in and as the interests of what is best for all Life. I commit myself to stop separating myself from the best interests of all Life Here.