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Sunday, 31 March 2013

Day 297 Black Sheep of The Family








I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe myself to be the black sheep of the family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take abusive family comments personally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire at moments to participate in energy wars of words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take the bait and spew venom as like treating my family how they treat me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react within myself with a little bit of dissapoint at the amount of verbal attacks directed towards myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that participating within behaviour that is unjust and foolish is unjust and foolish and less than what I am capable.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand my family acts as the testing point of myself stability within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowin gmyself to not realise and understand that my family is assisting and supporting me with education in the only ways they know how.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from my family and for lacking empathy in moments of verbal abuse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that my family knows not what they do.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to regard myself as different than the rest of my family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to holdon to a point of self righteous superiority within myself in relationship to my family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself as intellectually superior to my family.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise the importance of standup comedy in moments of intense family hecklers as being firm in my directness in exposing the ridiculousness of scenarios.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have judged myself for being firm in standing up for myself and not giving into temptation to participate within energy wars as emotional shit talk.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that I am the family teacher as is the family my teacher.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forget self responsibility as a family teacher here always as what is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react to family memebers tonalities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand the importance in untilising any reaction to a family member's tonality as a point of support.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have desired and wished soo much to help everyone in my immediate family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forget that walking process as the journey to Life is a process that occurs in space and time which is a consequence test of patience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forget that as I am walking process as the Journey to Life, I am being tested on my application of oneness and equality in every moment here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that I am in the testinng phase with specific regared to testing my applications of myself as practical living in real space and time here as the Life Solution of Equality and Oneness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have forgot the importance of breathing in moments when more than one person was attacking me with self righteous comments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have existed within brief instances of fear while being verbally attacked.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that as I become more and more effective with my vocabulary, with specific regards to my relationship with words as equality and oneness, my self stability expands as consequence of self-discipline as like a disciple of life as what's always best.

2 comments:

  1. I am a black sheep too. I hate it.

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