Day 297 Black Sheep of The Family

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe myself to be the black sheep of the family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take abusive family comments personally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire at moments to participate in energy wars of words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take the bait and spew venom as like treating my family how they treat me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react within myself with a little bit of dissapoint at the amount of verbal attacks directed towards myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that participating within behaviour that is unjust and foolish is unjust and foolish and less than what I am capable.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand my family acts as the testing point of myself stability within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowin gmyself to not realise and understand that my family is assisting and supporting me with education in the only ways they know how.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from my family and for lacking empathy in moments of verbal abuse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that my family knows not what they do.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to regard myself as different than the rest of my family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to holdon to a point of self righteous superiority within myself in relationship to my family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself as intellectually superior to my family.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise the importance of standup comedy in moments of intense family hecklers as being firm in my directness in exposing the ridiculousness of scenarios.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have judged myself for being firm in standing up for myself and not giving into temptation to participate within energy wars as emotional shit talk.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that I am the family teacher as is the family my teacher.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forget self responsibility as a family teacher here always as what is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react to family memebers tonalities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand the importance in untilising any reaction to a family member's tonality as a point of support.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have desired and wished soo much to help everyone in my immediate family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forget that walking process as the journey to Life is a process that occurs in space and time which is a consequence test of patience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forget that as I am walking process as the Journey to Life, I am being tested on my application of oneness and equality in every moment here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that I am in the testinng phase with specific regared to testing my applications of myself as practical living in real space and time here as the Life Solution of Equality and Oneness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have forgot the importance of breathing in moments when more than one person was attacking me with self righteous comments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have existed within brief instances of fear while being verbally attacked.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that as I become more and more effective with my vocabulary, with specific regards to my relationship with words as equality and oneness, my self stability expands as consequence of self-discipline as like a disciple of life as what's always best.

Day 296 The Gift of Self-Expression Commitment Statements

I commit myself to Gifting Self Expression Here as Life beyond Fear.


I commit myself to practically living Self Expression Here as Life beyond Fear.

I commit myself to becoming Life as orgasmic self expression always as the raw hereness of being here always all ways from the simplicity of moment to moment management.


I commit myself to becoming self responsibility as what is always Best for Life.


I commit myself to self-correction when and as I see an opportunity for self-correction.

I forgive myself for accepting accepting and allowing myself to rape myself with fear.

I commit myself to facing every point of fear within myself.


I commit myself to tracing the origins of all my conscousness thought back to fear as the root source coding of and as mind consciousness programming.


I commit myself to becoming an Author of Life as always what's best for all Life as knowing and living the principle starting point of Creation as Oneness and Equality.

I commit myself to living the simplcity of the Equality eqautions of 1+1=2.


I commit myself to making sure I always understand the Equality equation in practical living application Here.


I commit myself to keeping what's good and recycling what's bad so that Everything is always acounted for as the simplicity of 1+1 Equality and Oneness equation of what is always best for Life.


I commit myself to sounding self forgiveness and self corrective statements and self commitment statements as living words Here.


I commit myself to stabilizing myself within and as Living Words.


I commit myself to sharing ScienceOfAweSoMe experiments.


I commit myself to sharing the ScienceOfAweSoMe.


I commit myself to embracing the simplicity of walking daily process applications within self honesty, self trust and self forgiveness as like the father, the son and the holy spirit = A Man Here living the prayer as always the best applications Here as obvious Common Sense.



I commit myself to living service of what's Best as Always All Ways Here Life as the beginning and the end



I commit myself to Life Service.



I commit myself to Living self-responsibility as Life Service



I commit myself to equalizing myself in the Beginning and the End so that I remain Equal and One Here always as what's Best for Life



I commit to knowing what it means to be Here as Life birthed from the Physical



I commit myself to keeping all things simple with application of Equality and Oneness Equation of 1+1=2



I commit myself as the Journey to Life Here



I commit myself to Life simplicity



I commit myself to realising and understanding that the Journey to Life is through the valley's of the shadow's of death untill Death is faced and transceneded.


I commit myself to using what is Here as assistance and support in manifesting Heaven on Earth in all ways.


I commit myself to living the principle, "Fuck Fear" as a tool of support in always facing Fear with integrity and dignity as a means of Fear Prevention Here. LOL aha HA HA! Got It!


I commit myself to Serendipidious Fortune as Eternal Life

I commit myself to MyKey Here as Assistance and Support always Best.


I commit myself to knowing each Being Here as the Key to Life as the way to break through boundaries of limitations and the suppression patterns of perpetuated abuse


I commit myself to sharing the normality of the Equality and Oneness Equation.


I commit myself to not hold judgement.


I commit myself to realising the heaviness of holding onto judgement as an unnecessary burdenful cross to bear.



I commit myself to reaping what is sown as the Planter and Receiver of Life.


I commit myself to Keep Sowing Seeds of AweSoMe


I commit myself to self discipline and patience


I commit myself to instilling and installing Life as what is Always Best Here as Equality and Oneness.





I commit myself to the Dance of Life as the willing way as the Will of I Am as Who and How always equate within the simplicity of the mathematical common sensical equation of certainty as always counting what's best as 1+1...till each point as what is best is tilled as the garden and planted in always, insuring and securing an excellent result installed as the sequential programming playout of unravelling the seeing of DNA as How We sow the seeds We wish to reap.





I forgive myself for accepting and alloiwng myself for not realising the profoundness within the statement, "Becareful as full of care for what You wish for....because what you wish is what you get as how You say it so and sow it is said as the seeds said sowed so We Know because OUR Wish is OUR Command as what is Best is all ways given as Life Like to receive...as the ways is always all ways all right as fucking right on, spot on perfection perfect timing as the rythym of sound perfection symetry within the silence to hear our cells Here as parts of ourselves working together in sound uni-son as the starting point principle Creation, Equality and Oneness, Our Saving Grace, as All Ways Protected Here.




I commit myself to the profoundness with the statement,"Becareful as full of care as what You wish for...because what You wish is what You get as how You say it so and sow it is said as the seeds said sowed so We Know becauce OUR Wish is OUR Command as what is Best is all ways given as Life like to receive...as the ways is always all ways all right as fucking right on, spot on perfection perfect timing as the rythym...rhythm of sound perfection symmetry within the silence to hear our cells Here as parts of Ourselves working together in sound unison as the starting point principle Creation, Equality and Oneness, Our Saving Grace, as All Ways HERE

Day 295 The Gift of Self Expression

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have repeatedly denied myself access to the Gift of Self Expression Here as Life beyond Fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that I justified/validated/excused any self responsibility for self imposed limitations within myself as thoughts/judgements/reasons/rational/logic for not acting in the best interests of Life as practically living the gift of Life as orgasmic self expression always as the raw hereness of being here always all ways from the simplicity of  moment to moment management.

I forgive myself for accepting accepting and allowing myself to rape myself with fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted tracing the origins of all my consciousness thought back to fear as the root source coding of and as mind consciousness programming.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have held myself hostage from life as like resisting myself the Gift of Self Expression Here in every moment as who I am from and as the starting point of creation as Equality and Oneness as an individual Author Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand how mind consciousness programming knows all the tricks as all the accepted and allowed knowledge and information as the coding that can fersure induce a mindfuck as tried tested and true in the past and that without documenting existence here as an Author of Life from the starting point of Equality and Oneness....well Holy Fucking Shit....there's a serious fucking problem...because without proper documentation as a scientific experiment as the science of Awesome as awe-so-me-ness in full exposure detailed outlined in self forgiveness and self corrective statements as a sounding of Self responsibility Here.....removing the Bad and keeping the good....in fact recycling the bad through self forgiveness...then holy fucking shit...we got a major terroist equation here as the math that doesnt add up as what is always best as one plus one.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have neglected the the utter simplicity of walking daily process applications within self honesty, self trust and self forgiveness as like the father the son and the holy spirit of religion as the prayers I utilise as tools of support as parts of myself in application always as what is best Here.

I forgive myself not realising and understanding the significance of the statement, "the father, the son, the holy spirit, A-Man" from the living perspective of self honesty, self forgiveness, self trust in becoming self realised and self corrected as a Man here that is always best as in Living service of what's Best as Always All Ways Here Life as the beginning and the end and the end and the new-beginning because a new is always birthed at the end of a beginning because it's always the beginning of the end...as the equality and oneness in the end is the beginning and together merged as absolute awesomeness as Fuuuuuuuuuck Ya, Life everlasting Here, mathematically sound as 1+1 structured simplicity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have surpressed self expression as consequence of fearing to give up self induced restraints and limitations as egoic realms of polarity equated scenarios of energetic reactional friction as always an unbalanced scenario as consequence of the great division/separation of fears.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have resisted sticking to basics as like keep it simple stupid.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to complicate the simplicity of walking process of Equality and Oneness as the Journey to Life Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having fought for complexity and difficulty in understanding as consequence of delusional reasoning in beliefs as consequentially profound logical self induced manipulations that I blamed in self righteous indignation as the reasoning as to why I know it all as the knowledge and information as consciousness enslavement that keeps me trapped within the automation fear coded realms of consciounsess as like living in search of the anomally as the way to break the code as the patterns of perpetauted abuse while mostly sleep walking the way there hoping for any opportunity of serendipidious fortune as having stumbled through a mis-take as an accidental leap of faith in walking self trust and saying, "Fuck Fear"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand each being here as the key to Life as the way to break through the boundaries of limmitations and the suppression patterns of perpetuated abuse as the holy shit realisation as the mathematical annomally as the common sense simplicity of 1+1=2. LOL

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge the journey to Life every step of the way and not realising the ridiculousness of such applications as inherent restraints in potential progress being made as the way created forwards out of fuckedness as the real next step taken as the beginning and the end and the end of the beginning because a process as  Life commitment has be instilled and installed as what is always Best Here, Yesterday, Today, and Tomorow.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge the legs of my journey to Life as the position and situations of myself here as I move myself as the dance of Life as the willing way as the will of I Am as who and how always equate within the simplicity of the mathematical common sensical equation of certainty as always counting what's best as 1+1...till each point as what is best is tilled as the garden and planted in always, insuring an excellent result installed as the sequential programming playout of unravelling the seeding of DNA as how we sow the seeds we wish to reap.

I forgive myself for accepting and alloiwng myself for not realising the profoundness within the statement, "Becareful as full of care for what You wish for....because what you wish is what you get as how You say it so and sow it is said as the seeds said sowed so We Know because Your Wish is my Command as what is Best is all ways given as Life Like to receive...as the ways is always all ways all right as fucking right on, spot on perfection perfect timing as the rythym of sound perfection symetry within the silence to hear our cells Here as parts of ourselves working together in sound uni-son as the starting point principle of creation, Equality and Oneness, Our Saving Grace, as All Ways Protected Here

Day 294 Delusional Character

"If You don't like a person or You judge a person according to who You believe they are. Remember You are Believing They are That. You have not gone through the actuality of what happens in a person and to dare to have that idea about a person is absolutely delusional."

Bernard Poolman


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not like a person according to who I believe they are.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge a person according to who I believe they are.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that in not liking a person or judging a person according to who I believe they are, I am believing they are that.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to project illusions of belief.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand the actuality of what happens in a person.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that to have a judgment about a person without going through the actuality of what happens in a a person and to dare to have that idea about a person is absolutely delusional.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing mysellf to have constantly particpated in absolutely delusional behaviour as consequences of making judgements about people and specifically not liking people because of who I believe them to be.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that is is delusional to put anyone before myself in process of self realisation...like thinking and believing that I can really help anyone before I've helped myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that it's funny to have a/one realisation about something and than taking on personal of self righteous moral authority as like to look at others and see the point I just realised within themselves...what's so ridiculous about this,...is not realising the mirrored self reflection of only seeing what I am...and it's like projecting another to be just what I see is fucking crazy....because, I mean a minute ago I didn't have realisation and saw totally different.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise the delusion from a starting point of self interest as the desire to share and tell about how  I see and judge shit to be as like a means of getting recognition and validation for my mind consciousness system as an enlightened television.

I forgive myself fro accepting and allowing myself to have desired to be an enlightened television.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to preach delusion as an enlightened mind conscious television.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that creating any fear is in fact delusional.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand how I have perpetuated fear within myself as consequence of cycling between the energies of fear and love as polarity frictioned conflict.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing delusional particpations as blame.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand how delusional it is to react within polarity energies to anything.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself  to have made transcending fear polarities as quite the process.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to lose myself in moments of delusion/fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that I am responsible for accepting and allowing delusions/fears within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to particpate within fears/delusions within myself and not deliberately eradicate fears/delusions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to hide and ignore fears existent within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand how delusional it is to try and hide from fears that exist within myself when in fact I am that one that created the fears in the first place and therfore it is myself responsibility to release/forgive myself for accepting and allowing the fears in the first place...and within this process realise the ridiculousness of fear as like the fare to pay as consequence for being here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand fear as the fare I tax upon myself exponentially as consequence of trying to hide my debts and to not realise the accepted and allowed abuse I do unto myself and others as consequence of burning myself with fear that I justify as the fare for being here becuase I believe this to be fair.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand how delusional it is to justify abuse as fair.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to tax myself exponentially with fear as like a compounding interest I believe to be in myself interest.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to delude myself into thinking that holding onto fear was in my self interest.

I forgive myself  for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand how delusional my particpations here in this world have been.

I forgive myself fro accepting and allowing myself to have denied my accepted and allowed delusions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to nor realise and understand that my backchat as consciousness has been delusional.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand my imagination within and as consciousness has been delusional.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand my behaviour within and as consciousness has been delusional programming

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand the delusions of mind conciousness programming as the the source code of consciousness programming being fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have been delusional in my relationships here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have desired to particpate within family delusions as a way of being part of the group.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compromise myself within delusions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understand the power of belief in creating delusions if the starting point origin is fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that positivitywithin myself has been like a double illusion as like deluding myself from the roots of evil as fear within myself as the negative energies.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to to have built layers of delusion as like illusions of grandeur as self defense/protection mechanisms to keep me from seeing the truth of myself as darkness/evil/nothingness.

I realise  the ridiculousness of accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand the positivity within myself has been like a double illusion as like deluding myself from the roots of evil as fear within myself as neagtive energies.

I realise the ridiculousness of accepting and allowing myself to compromise myself with delusions.

I realise the ridiculousness of being delusional.

I realise the ridiculousness of justifying delusion.

I realise the self deception within delusion.

I realise the origins of delusion as being rooted in fear.

I realise the ridiculousness of not liking people based on a belief I am holding about that person.

I realise the ridiculousness of holding onto a judgement about a person without understanding the actuality of what goes on within a person.

I realise myself responsibility in stopping all delusions within myself and assisting and support others to stop all delusions within themselves.

I realise I cant practically assist anyone to release delusions from within themselves unless I have practically released all delusions from within myself.

I realise the ridiculousness of a self righteously moral superior persona rooted in fear as the desire to serve.

When and as I see myself not liking someone or judging someone based upon a belief/idea I have about them, I stop and breathe as I realise the ridiuclousness as like total fuckedness of such and accepted and allowance as being absolutely delusional.

When and as I see myself starting to judge someone by forming ideas/thoughts about them as beliefs to hold within myself about them...I stop and breathe and I realise the ridiculousness of going there within mind consciousness participations. I forgive myself for my mind consciouness accetped and allowed particpations rooted in fear.

Day 293 Educational Writing with Scholarly Sources

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get irritated and frustrated about the style of writing required of me within my undergraduate university classes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing mysyelf to get mildly upset, irritated and frustrated that I am required to have predominatly scholarly sources when writing essays.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel restricted and restrained writing as consequence of university guidelines and regulations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take the university guidelines and regulations personally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to writing school papers from a starting point of self interested preference.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create conflict friction within myself about academia and scholarly work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to write with a fuck you attitude as like saying fuck you to scholarly writing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have resistance towards scholarly writing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to view myself as separate from scholars and academics.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to regard myself as superior to scholars and academics.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to whine about the fuckedness of scholarly bullshit.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to play the role of being victimized as consequence of particpating within scholary bullshit as university education.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience myself as being tortured by committing to walk university coursed into completion.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make a big deal about scholarly bullshit.

I forgive msyelf for accepting and allowing myself to react to my family when they tell me to just bite the bullet and do what the university requires.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take offence that my familly memebers would say to me just suck it up and bite the bullet.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for accepting and allowing myself to define the statement, "bite the bullet" as negative in energetic charge and being a statement of submitting to victimization as like rape/torture.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that as I stabilize myself within myself I do not require to bite the bullet as I can actually enjoy myself as I move through my work...as I become the epitome of self enjoyment as who and how I am here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wallow within self righteous indignation towards university undergraduate participations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe I take such offense towards university particpation is because I regard myself as soooo smart.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to rebell against post secondary education.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to waste time resisting doing school work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fuck with myself as consequence of resisting university essay writing.

I realise the ridiculousness of university writing.

I realise the ridiculousness of scholary sources

I realise the ridiculousness of taking university experiences personally.

I realise the ridiculousness of having emotional tantrums about moving through the work.

I realise the ridiculousness of creating justifications and excuses as reasons to delay moving through the work.

I realise I am capable and able to move through university work swiftly, dilligently, effortlessly.

I realise I am able to complete my assignments within a fraction of the allotted time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stress myself out about university work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear less than perfection with regards to my work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing failure within university studies as consequence of not being in compliance with university standards and regulations.

I realise the ridiculousness of academic suicide as like deliberately writing in a way that will put my academic survival at risk of failure/denial of a passing grade.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to reagrd myself as an academic activist as like someone who is here to educate the educators on the 'what the fucks' of education.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist the work involved within going through lots of scholarly sources in writing academic papers.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to dwell upon the seemingly useless work required of me in moving through university course requirements.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to look for short cuts as ways to cheat the university system so that I can just get through it without requiring to do all the work.

I realise the ridiculousness of my relationship to university essay writing.

I realise that if I focus on writing my university assignments and just getting them done I will get the done with effortless ease and I will be getting them done without a constant plaguing mindfuck of reacting in judgement to the ridiculousness of the task at hand.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wallow within backchat about the task/challenge/work/assignment that I am required to complete.

When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself to mindfuck myself about the task at hand, I stop and breathe...i realise the ridiculousness of midfucking myself. I smile to myself as an intimate joke. lol.

Day 292 Delusional

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have been delusional.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand how delusional I was being while in the trance of delusion.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mask delusional behaviour with positivity and love.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have resisted seeing accepted and allowed delusional behaviour.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have disregarded discernement within being delusional.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that delusion is a consequence of accepting and allowing fear within oneself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that delusion is consequence of fearing to take self resposnsibility and face the actuality of self here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand delusional persona as a personality defense system to avoid seeing the truth of oneself as what has been accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto delusional beliefs because of desire.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding delusional behaviour is a consequence of desire which is a consequence of fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that all fucked up delusional behaviour is rooted in fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to delude myself from facing the fear within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand the extent of delusional behaviour existent within humanity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being angry with myself for particpating within delusional behaviour.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have not realised and understood my delusional behaviour as consequence of a big ego as self righteous superiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have blamed my delusional behaviour on my big ego as self righteous superiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define my ego as as big and of self righteous superiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as consequence of realising that I was unable to see my own delusional behaviour as consequence of participating within and as self righteous superiority as a big ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have blinded myself withing and as self righteous superiority as big ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have feared facing all accepted and allowed delusions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand the ridiculousness of my accepted and allowed delusions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have been religious about my delusions as consequence of accepting and allowing myself to perpetuate a big ego as self righteous superiority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blind myself from the truth of myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to buy into delusions of grandeur.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to delude myself within ignorance is bliss and subimitting to the desire to just have high positive experiences.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to delude myself within thinking that I understand everything.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to delude myself within my ego as consciousness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to delude myself within self righteous projections.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have encouraged delusional behaviour within others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear delusional people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have resisted stopping delusions as consequence of fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have jusitify and validate fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have fought to keep delusions in tact.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have attacked people who tried to assist and support me in realising my delusional behaviour.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have feared facing points of weakness within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have resisted self imporovement as consequence of delusional frame of mind as self righteous big ego behaviour.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have suppressed self expansion and exporation as consequence of holding on fears/delusions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have deluded myself into buying into positivity as consequence of desire to manipulate reality for my personal self interest.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand how greedy behaviour is delusional.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist facing the roots of all evil.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the roots of all evil.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear facing myself as the roots of all evil.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand the extent of the evil programming.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to distance myself from self responsibility for the roots of all evil.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to delude myself within self righteous superiority in thinking of myself as a pure being who is of good intentions and better than those who are evil....and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise the nastyness of good intentions as being rooted in evil disguised as sweeet.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have deluded self responsibility here as what is best for Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have deluded myself stability within energetic polarity friction

Day 291 When Desire Becomes Overwhelming

Check out the link by the Atlanteans, "When Desire Becomes Overwhelming"
https://eqafe.com/i/mmcdonald-when-desires-becomes-overwhelming-atlanteans-support-part-66

This recording strengthened my understanding as the realisation that overwhelming desire is rooted in fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that being motivated to do things from the starting point of desire is fear based and is not a practical way to live.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to move from and as the starting point of fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify the existence of fear as consequence of following desire.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that choosing to follow desire as reasoning and justification is fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise believing that desire is an answer and a solution is in fact a point of self compromise as accepted and allowed limitation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compromise practical living here as Life as what is best for all Life here as consequence of choosing to acceptina and allow desire to exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto desires within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that fearing to let go of desires is ridiculous because that is a choosing to accept and allow fear within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself burden myself with guilt and sorrow as consequence of accepting and allowing fear within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have judged myself for having desires.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have been hard on myself in walking the process out of desired self interests.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience shame as consequence of having given into the temptation of desire/fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be controlled by desire/fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have limmited my ability to do what is necessary to bring forth a world that is best for all Life as consequence of focusing on self interests as personal desires.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard Life as consequene of personal desire.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard Life as consequence of fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to dismiss the importance of releasing all desires.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand the self compromis of holding onto even just one desire.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have abused myself by holding onto desires and dismissing the importance of releasing any and all desires.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that I cannot do whatever it takes to bring forth a world that is best for all Life is I hold onto even one desire within myself as personal self interest preference over the principle starting point of Life creation here as equality and oneness as what is best for Life is what is always best.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separare myself from and as the equality and oneness equation as what is best for all Life is always best.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having feared facing all my mistakes as accepted and allowed fears and desires.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be ashamed of having existed within so many personal desires and focused so much time on living out personal desires.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have been so selfish and irresponsible in chasing after desires and living in the moment for the fulfillment of my every desire.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be jealous of people fulfilling desires that I wished to fulfill.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have wished to be in the shoes of another who is seemingly fulfilling more desires than I have...and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard the abuse I and other I's have created as consequence of desire.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be so greedy in focusing attention upon the fulfilment of desires.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that being motivated by desire is a valid way to exist.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have disregarded the harm in moving in accordance as desire here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have been asleep to the harm and abuse I have supported within the world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have justified and perpetuated abuse as consequence of a greedy self righteous thirsting appetitie for satisfying cravings for desire.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have justified murder, rape and all inhumane acts as consequence to living out self interested desires.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have perpeutated a bad example here as a result of acting in self interest as following through with desires.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard all the people on the planet that are suffering as consequence of having no money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have wasted money within the pursuit of selfish desires.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have abused my time here in the pursuit of desires.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have supported others in their pursuit of selfish desires.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have validated others self desires by saying, "cool, right on"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have suppressed compassion, integrity and dignity as consequence of being focused upon desire.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have focued the attention within my mind on desires.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have abused the relationship with my mind as consequence of indulginf in the imagination of desired fantasies.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have fucked the gift of Life here as consequence of selfish greedy desires as all desires are in fact greedy and selfish.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to regard myself as a failure as consequence of accepted and allowed abuse.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have limited myself from doing whatever it takes to realise everything about myself as Life here and walk all required self corrections as consequence of holding onto self judgement as guilt as being a failure as having done harm.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that it is myself resposnsibility to alleviate myself from harm as like self perpetuated torture of existing within fear as consequence of accepting and allowing any and all desires.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fuck with fear as consequence of accepting and allowing myself to believe I could manipulate fears to serve my self interests as like a way to achieve my desires/dreams from a starting point of greedy self interested indulgences.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be pure evil as consequence of existing within the starting point of fulfilling self interested desires.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to avoid looking in depth within myself to the extent to which I have focused on self interested behaviours.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be disgusted with myself for what I have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to victimize myself within seeing all the abuse I have caused within reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having feared to see the extent of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have resisted work as the labour required to facilitate change that can stand the testaments of time as what is always best for Life.

I forgive myself fro accepting and allowing myself to have neglected breathing as a means of practical support in  moving through and releasing any and all desires.

I realise the self responsonsibility in releasing myself from any and all desires.

I realise it is myself responsibility to stop and breathe when and as desire comes up within my mind.

I realise and understand it is a lengthy process that requires immense self discipline in working through all my accepted and allowed programming as self itnerestes self imposed limitations.

I realise I am capable and able equalize myself as Life.

I realise my resolve in making a commitment to myself to walk process till it is done.

I realise I am determined to take self responsibility in all ways best as what is always best for Life.

I realise the ridiculousness of desire as a fearful induced mindfuck.

I realise the abuse desire breeds.

I realise myself responsibility in educating others on the nastyness of desire.

I realise the end of desire is the beginning of Life made visible.

When and as I see myself contemplating desire within myself, I stop and breathe and I say till here no further as I realise the fuckedness associated with desire...I harness my breath as Life supporting physicality and I realise and understand my commitment to Life as what is always best.

When and as I see myself thinking about how to fulfill desire, I stop and breathe and I say till here no further as I realise the fuckedness associated with desire...I harness my breath as Life supporting physicality and I realise and understand my commitment to Life as what is always best.

I commit myself to sharing my process of self realisation and self correction as the way and means to becoming Life made visible as what is always best.

Day 290 Compassion

I was looking at the word compassion and I wanted to share some considerations about the word compassion and also open up some self forgiveness in relationship to myself and having suppressed the living of the word compassion.

Compassion: come-pass-I-on....Like saying, "Share Me"..."I'm the compass as the way"...."so use me as an example marker guidleline way to see that You too have and hold compassion because compassion is always passed onward"

'Doing whatever it takes to bring forth what's best as equality and oneness here.'

'Moral compass as what is always best for all Life here'

Compassion is treating others the way you would like to be treated as that which is always best for Life.

Compassion results from self intimacy.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have resisted living compassion in every moment here.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding that compassion is not possible when possessed within consciousness thought/feeling/emotion

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have neglected compassion in favour of overwhelming justification as self righteous upholding.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have confused compassion with moments of self righteous justifications.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to confuse compassion with overwhelming desire linked to self righteous justification.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist humbleness within compassion.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have limited compassion to a nice guy construct.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise the directive principle within compassion as self trust.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have self sabotaged the ability to see and understand compassion as consequece of holding onto desired self interests.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that compassion is always the easy thing to do.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that real compassion as a moral compass as what is always best for all Life here will test one's structural allignement and integrity as programming design here....and through compassion any accepted and allowed weakness will be exposed and made visible so that change is possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist the awesomeness of compassion as giving as I would like to receive that which is always best.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have neglected self resposnibility and integrity and dignity as a human being who lives compassion always as living word that is always physical structured sound.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have communication as consequece of disregarding compassion in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to live compassion in every moment of self expression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear judgement as consequence of living compassion.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding that I can assist and support myself in transcending all fear with compassion as a means of honouring self trust as the way and the key to self honesty as always equality and oneness.

I realise the awesomeness of compassion.

I realise each word stands alone as the living word.

I realise self responsibility in compassion as the integrity and dignity to do what is always best.


Integrity: integrate it why.....integrate everything as why and how it is best always, so that what is best is always obvious common sense. Can be gritty as laboured awesomeness...job well done...whatever it takes.

Dignity:  Digin-it-y....know why you're digging....like understanding why you're working....working with dignity=clarity in the dark....always finding the way as what is best.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have suppressed integrity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have suppressed dignity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think I know integrity and dignity without really checking myself as integrity and dignity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have resisted strengthening myself in words as giving life to myself so to speak as living words that can stand the tests of time as what is best.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have resisted examining the meaning within all words so that I can fin and keep what is best and therefore share what is best as living words in practical application.

I forgive myself for accpeting and allowing myself to forget how much I enjoy as in joy I am as a word worker. Like a word smith...lol

I realise the awesomeness of the Jesus message of, 'investigate all things and throw away what is bad and keep what is good'

I realise the signifigance as the sign fragrance as like the signature you can always see with even just a glance of living words

I realise Life in words.

When and as I see myself seeming to be lacking integrity, dignity and compassion,...I stop and breathe....I realise the awesomeness of myself as living words and I realise the ridiculousness of suppressing myself as living words.

When and as I see myself abusing words within myself as backchat consciousness thinking....I stop and breathe...I face the abuse and I specifically forgive myself for accepting and allowing such abuse within myself. I take a moment to look at the ridiculousness of abusing words within  and as consciousness backchat...and I see the ridiculousness of beliieving freedom to exist within consciousness.

Day 289 Slow Down and Laugh

Slow down and take the time to laugh. There's so much funny happening all the time....the funny is everywhere always. We are the starting point of funny...and what I've realised is that we miss the funny when we are moving to quick within consciousness...as like missing the joke/funny because we are always the butt of the joke....because were always at the starting point of funny. When were racing within our minds as consciousness mind systems were on auto pilot and auto pilot is like serious business in the sense that time is money...and consciousness works like a fear pandemic always worried about losing value/profit and so the realms of consciousness thinking are made out to be rational and justified within consciousness automation...but the starting point of consciousness particpations is fear....and the emotional and feeling spectrum is just degrees of fear as like fear formed derivatives on a sliding scale...and wooooooooooooooooow...I mean wow, this is ridiculous.

Funny that it takes one to know one and were always the starting point of it.

Funny that we try to be rational about our emotions when the truth of the matter is our emotions are irrational.

Funny how serious we are about our emotions and feelings within moments of thought possession that we don't realise our stoner behaviour as like the mind fuck we self induced upon ourself as the result of our thinking as the ink that stained us.

Funny how most people don't want to be the butt of the joke when the fact of the matter is,  everyone is the butt of the joke and no one is asshole free...but nobody wants to be an asshole...yet everyone is an asshole...and everyone knows an asshole...and most don't think there an asshole....I mean what a bunch of fucking asshole we are.

There's so much fun and funny available all the time and we fucking miss it when were fucking ourselves in the mind...like mindfucking within consciousness and we become total assholes as we regurgitate our automated thoughts that are fuelled as fear formed derivatives...that oh shit! We missed the funny and brewed some shit..an explosion from our asshole as consequence of mindfucking,..which is brutal because consciousness mind fucking as like emotional reactions and feelings is likehaving to really take a shit but you don't want to stop clenching your asshole because you fear what might come out...and so there's like this crazy ridiculousness happening within you....and on the outside your trying to play everything like it's all good man...no problems here.....and I mean what's so ridiculous about this....is that everyone is playing charades and shit is always soooooooo fucking obvious....the only time shit isnt obvious is when you don't realise what a joke you are...and then, sorry to say it...but, you're a sad joke...as were a tragic comedy when we don't realise our own ridiculousness.

Our shared reality is a tragic comedy.

Come die.....comedy.....come dieing....come dy....cum dye....like a cum stain....a tragic cum stain...lol...comedian...comes dieing...co-medium...like the see'r that see's the truth of me and you....co-median...media con...con media...comedian exposes the media con's and all the fake icons...comedy...ejaculation death....come colour....coulour commentary....picture painter...

A tragic comedy is a cum stain

It's obvious that the global laugh count is way down....like way down...because a lot of bad jokes are being played out on a daily basis....and were mindfucking the shit out of ourselves as we don't realise the irony in how were mining the shit out of the planet...as were being a bunch of fucking assholes in playing out bad jokes over and over again...as consequence of the automated concsiousness mind fucking pandemic...............
The situation here is a real energy crisis and everyone with money is a real energy slut...and everyone without money just wants to be an energy slut.....it's like the dream is to be able to be wasteful....like look at Dubai...I mean what an ass load of diarrhea...the consequences of tooo much asshole fucking...a seriously shitty situation

The initial intent of my writing this blog here today was to make not  of the point that laughter and funny can be used as a point of support in walking process of self realisations and self corrections as utilizing self as the starting point of ridiculousness and seeing the funny within self in all ways ridiculous without judgement....which brings forth holy shit realisations as like aha moments...holy shit...I fucking get it...because I got it...I mean I'm just looking and really examing my shit...and once you understand shit, you can share shit and expose shit and fuck with shit in ways which are best for all Life in accelerating the process of self realisation and self correction....because shit is totally fucked....and were the fuckers that are responsible for creating the best most awesome excellent shit....so that all shit is dignified in all ways and we can actually say Earth is some real heavenly shit...like holy fucking shit.

Talk about a sanitary place to live....nothing but heavenly shit....holy shit that's fucking awesome

Equal Money System is the way through Equal Money Capitalism as an opportunity for capitalism to evolve into some legendary shit which is best for all Life here.  Only a total fucking asshole who doesnt realise the their a total fucking asshole would disagree.....which just means those who know their shit gotta share their shit as like the aha moments as holy fucking shit a World where all Life supported as equality and oneness in living application is totally fucking awesome as like the best shit ever!

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand myself as a consciousness mind fucking asshole who doesnt see the ridiculousness of my acceptances and allowances as like total shit...unless I slow down and breathe and become aware of the breathing process as the grounding/earthing/birthing process of and as Life birthed from the physical through aha moments of laughter as self realisations as consequence of seeing the laboured ridiculousness and labouring the self corrections as the best eternal shit....as like aha I got it...holy shit that's fucking awesome...shit that can stand the test of time as like the new legendary copperlites/dinosaur like shit.

I realise the ridiculousness of not slowing down and becoming aware of my breathing and enabling laughter as the best medicine for being here as the best consequence for seeing common sense as aha moments of clarity as self expansion and self discovery

When and as I see myself mind fucking within consciousness, I stop and breathe...making sure that I slow the fuck down and take the time to have a laugh at myself as consequence of accepted and allowed ridiculousness as the butt of the joke here as a tragic comedy...LoL..I realise laughter is the best medicine in fostering in developments as what is best for all Life here as aha moments are key and each hold the key to aha I got it I see....cooooooooooooool.

Day 288 Creating a New Wake Up Pattern

So, a little while ago I worte a blog about 21 day natural sleep experimentation. I put the blog series on hold because I wanted to observe my sleeping and waking up from sleep patterns and behaviours.

In examining my waking up from sleeping, I noticed a particular pattern where I accept and allow backchat immiediately and I desire to sleep more...it's been like an automatic reaction upon waking up...as like an, 'ahhhh what time is it....i'm going back to sleep regardless of what time it is" I see that I would use the time reference within my backchat as a reasoning justification to sleep more as like believing it ok for me to get more sleep. I see also that I have been greedy about my sleep as it's become ingrained within myself that I don't like getting up and moving myself about upon first natural waking up experience. I've recognised that upon waking up, I go into this feeling of, "I don't feel like beginning my day yet"...or "I'm not ready yet...just a bit more time".

Recently I have had the fortune or misfortune of "not having to get up immediately" meaning there wasn't an immediate money obligation at the beginning of my day. Within reading my words that I have just written about "not having to get up immediately", I see that my words indicate accepted and allowed abdication of self responsibility of what is best for all Life here. I recognize that I was creating, and accepting and allowing an excuse as reasoning and justification as a way to logically manipulate myself into a behaviour pattern of self interested emotion/feeling indulgences. I also realise the misfortune I created as apparently being fortunate for, "not having to get up immediately"

I forgive  myself for accepting and allowing myself to be influenced and directed by backchat/reaction/emotion in the morning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to sleep more.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be greedy about sleep indulgences.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to always indulgence in extra sleep atleast a couple of times after my initial natural wake up in the morning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to finally begin my day's after accepted and allowed emotional turmoil as backchat greedy self interestetedc desires indulgences for more sleep.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe myself fortunate to have the opportunity to be greedy and selfish in wasting my time by over indulging within sleep.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have been at the mercy of my backchat in the morning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be disapointed and angry with myself for indulging within my backchat in the morning and choosing to sleep more when I was initially capable and had the opportunity to get up and begin daily living applications of assistance and support here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience shame and regret for giving into backchat with regards to the sleep point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give into emotional energies with regards to waking up and the desire to sleep more.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist the physical self movement in getting up in the morning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to put on extra weight as consequence of physically weighing myself down as consequence of being greedy in consuming more sleep time than I need and therfore giving into fear energies as like fearing to get going and wake up and actually live.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have been stubborn in really seeing how negligent I have been with regards to sleep in maximizing my time efficiencty here as process of self realisations and self corrections.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that utiliziing self forgiveness in the morning when the backchat comes up is a cool motivating force to assist and support me in dropping the weight of excess restraints holding me back from living self expression here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand the wight of waiting get heavier and heavier and that moving through the resistance of waiting gets more and more physically challenging as conseqeunce of the weight piling on from waiting.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to utilize self forgiveness imediately in my morning rises as a point of self support enhancement as the measns necessary to practically living words.

I realise the self support I am giving to myself by pushing myself to jump up in the morning and begin moving into self forgiveness applications as backchat presents itself.

I realise I am capable and able to say, "till here no further do I accept and allow myself to be greedy with sleep and given into temptation as the desires to over indulge because that's what I feel like doing as consequence of accepting and allowing resistance to waking up and facing myself today.

I realise myself responsibility in waking up and facing myself today.

I realise there is not a moment to waste in process of self application here.

I realise I don't have time to waste indulging within greedy self interested desires.

I realise I am committed to walking process of daily self realisations and self corrections as practical living words as self support life enhancement here as I embrace equality and oneness as the starting point of creation.

I realise the will I am am as the way forward in making a choice/decision as what is best for all Life here and walking the choice/decision as what is best for all Life here.

I realise myself responsibility in sticking to self commitments as a means of living the words integrity and human dignity.

I commit myself to integrating integrity as all ways best.

I commit myself to human dignity as dignified livinng for all Life here.

I commit myself to utilizing the tool of self forgiveness in assisting and supporting myself to kick starting my day.

I commit myself to living words as Life support and assistance here.

I commit myself to creating a new wake up pattern that is in the best interest of Life.



When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself to think/backchat about giving into temptation/greedy self interest to go back to sleep...I stop and breathe, I jump out of bed and I begin self forgiveness application and self correction as I realise the power of living words.

Day 287 Making the Most of My Time

What does it mean to be making the most of my time?







Realizing that I have opportunity here to walk process of self correction as moving from self interested behavior to learning to act in ways that are always measurable as what is best for all Life here as equality and oneness.

Utilizing the opportunity here within time to practically physically apply self corrections as what is best for all Life here as equality and oneness.

Living words as equality and oneness.

Assisting and supporting the transformation process in bringing forth an Equal Money System.

Understanding everything about the mind.

Equalizing myself with the mind.

Purifying my vocabulary.

Moving through the Desteni I Process as efficiently as possible.

Self Expansion as consequence of practical living equality and oneness as starting point of creation.

Moment to moment management as practical application of self forgiveness and self corrective statements.

Realizing every moment is an opportunity where everything and anything is possible.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have wasted so many moments of time here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear not having enough time to accomplish everything I want to accomplish.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to dwell about time and never having enough time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have existed within and as a greedy relationship towards time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have wasted so minutes in time as consequence of accepting and allowing myself to fear not having enough time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stress about time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge time and judge myself within time with feelings and emotions as like value indicators of my self worth here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have compromised Life value here as consequence of accepting and allowing Life to be at the mercy of my feelings and emotions in the moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to utilize feelings and emotions to direct me as a means of following self interested desires regardless of the consequences.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect the importance of myself here in time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect the magnificence of myself here in time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to limit the importance of myself here in time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to limit the magnificence of myself here in time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be unmotivated in working as hard as I am physically capable of working to bring about a world that is best for all Life here as quick as possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to allow myself to delay process of equality and oneness as consequence of not pushing myself as hard as as far as I am capable and able to within every moment of opportunity I am breathing here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize the gentleness in consistently and constantly giving myself a push to do my best always as living from and as the starting point of equality and oneness as the realization understanding of common sense as what is best for all Life

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be reckless with time as a precious gift given to me here as Life time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wait in time as like procrastinating on tasks and responsibilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be distracted and manipulated by self interested activities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist seeing the importance of effective time management down to the smallest detail.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wasting my time imagining what I could of done that I didn't do but maybe I would like to do from and as a point of self interest.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to put myself in situations where I am trying to catch up in getting things done in time before time runs out.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stress about being in a race against time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard the importance of the human race here as like time trials.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize the urgency of the human race to race towards solutions that are best for all Life here as planet Earth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect the importance of the human race in assisting and supporting the maintenance and well being of planet Earth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have not been as specific as possible in making sure I am clear in expressing the importance of time management and efficiency in practical living applications.

I commit myself to making the most of my time.

I commit myself to becoming and living the solution of equality and oneness as time management and efficiency as a practical application of self support and self expansion.


When and as I see myself not making the most of my time, I stop and breathe...I realize the Life opportunity here within time and I make sure to re-align myself to equality and oneness and walk process of establishing equality and oneness in always till it is done and only equality and oneness remain.

Day 286, "Just Living the Dream"

Read, "Creation's Journey to Life day 73: Living the Dream is the Purpose of Life" http://creationsjourneytolife.blogspot.com/2012/06/day-73-living-dream-is-purpose-of-life.html

After having read this blog, I recalled how for many years, my go to line and outlook was that, "i'm just living the dream" that the point of me being here was to make sure that I'm always doing fun stuff...so that people could look at my Life and be like,"man, you're life is like an awesome dream,...so cool".

Also, recently I've been questioning my starting point within some applications here...as like,"am I making the decision here from and as the starting point of what's best for all or am I trying to convince/deceive myself into believing that my self interest is what's best for all?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist choosing to immediately examine my Life participations within and as analysing whether I am regarding what is best for all Life here or not.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to keep the dream alive as self interest.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fuel the drive to keep the dream alive with positive feeling energies as like a self stimulating mind buzz that makes it easy to indulge into imgagination as desired fantasy playout.

forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be lost within dream land.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to battle between physical reality and dream land.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think coming to earth from dream land is difficult.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being an abuser that doesn't really give a shit about making an impacting difference as what's best for all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that purposeful living is living the dream as always feeling good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate my state of being to becoming high on Life as like always feeling good as chasing and fulfilling desires as like operating from the starting point of, just living the dream.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think that just living the dream is cool and desirable and bad ass like rebllious and smart and the fun thing to do.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be reluctant to letting go of, just living the dream as purposeful living here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard all Life here in favour for self interested feeling experiences.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become influced by positive feeling energy experiences as like motiviation and inspiration for purposefull living as, 'just living the dream.'

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to think jsut one more time will I operate from and and as the starting point of, "just liiving the dream"..."I won't be able to live the dream forever....so might as well take advantgae of the dream while I can."

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand that operating from and as the starting point of, "just living the dream"...is like taking Life hostage as consequence of accepting and allowing self to be a terrorist in opposition of what is Best for all Life as equality and oneness here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to regard myself as a superior human being who is just smarter and more clever than other human beings and that is why I am fortunate to have chased and fulfiiled desires while most people are slaving away.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deceive myself into thinking that other people are just losers because they couldn't figure out a way to, "just live the dream and focus of good feelings"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be an emotional/feeling vampire as like an energy slut as someone who follows and chasers after good feelings and so called cool experiences as like that which people regard as cool and place lots of value wihtin.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abdicate self empowerment for change as the starting point of what is best for all Life here as consequence of justifying and supporting the attitude of desire fulfillment as, :just living the dream"



I commit myself to further investigate this topic of , "just living the dream"


When and as I see myself about to make a decsion from the starting point of, "just living the dream"...I stop and breathe, I realise the ridiculousness of participating within this manner. I take a moment to look at the abuse as inhumanse suffering that results from the attidue, "just living the dream"

Day 285 Funny Clarifications Like Gay Shit Here

Stupid-Funny is a ridiculously bad joke.

Stupid-Funny is total non sense.

Stupid-Funny is quite popular within society which reflects society as Stupid-Funny.

Stupid-Funny operates on the premise of the more ridiculously stupid the more funny it is.

Stupid-Funny occurs when common sense is lacking or is portrayed to be lacking.

Stupid-Funny is smart-funny because everyone is smart in getting the stupid-funny.

Diversifying Funny is like less and less funny for those who really like stupid funny because everyone gets/connects to stupid funny because everyone knows stupid shit.

You don't really have to be smart to get stupid-funny because there's nothing to get because you already funny, stupid...I mean stupid, funny.....

Trying to be smart is stupid-funny.

Trying real heard to be smart is stupid-funny....like, think hard retard....

Trying to be clever is stupid-funny.

Being clever is stupid funny because the processes involved with being clever is stupid-funny because there's nothing funny about being clever...I mean there's nothing clever about being clever.

If you can see the stupidity that's funny.

Stupid-funny can be a real sensitive thing because the biggest of ego's will be challenged. (again, think hard retard...lol...no don't really..)

Stupid-funny is a smart assed meets dumb assed collision.

Television is stupid-funny.

Stupid-funny is everywhere here on earth.

Stupid-funny is feared here on Earth.

Controlling stupid-funny is serious business.

Stupid-funny is like fucking WOWWWWWWWWWW, REALLY.....are YOU Fucking Serious?

Stupid-funny is like abra ka fucking dabra...holy shit, WOW, Reallyy? fucking fuck that's funny....stupid....but funny....fucking stupid funny.

Stupid-Funny is a great point of interconnectedness amongst all humanity here...because were all so fucking obviously it....and everyone is so fucking funny, it's stupid....like the stupid-funny capabilities and abilities existing here is ridiculously intelligent.

Stupid-funny is founded in human intelligence.

Some of the most intelligent human beings are so ridiculously stupid, it's funny.

Does stupid fuck funny or does funny fuck stupid...either way: stupid-fuck is funny and funny-fuck is funny.

Being Smart is like knowing all of the stupid-funny because you get it because you're the epitome of funny as like the all encompassing funny that when people don't get it, they think you're stupid....because there's a disconnect between funny and stupid......and stupid people don't know there stupid.....and that's why you gotta be smart to understand all the stupid-funny here...because there's a lot of stupid funny here...as it's a dumb ass versus smart ass type of competition going on where the emphasis is on the type of ass in the spelling as how we spell asshole? I mean really were all just a bunch of assholes....maybe we should be referred to as asshole....that's like a holy shit realisation though....and maybe I've said to much and..............wow the suspense as wow really I tell it so, so you know like k now of the now know won k wonk kwno kwon no know ok know,,,lol...I play with the stupid funny....

So much stupid funny to play with it's ridiculously funny....lol

The amount of time it took me to emit the mite to write the me ti of time as the ti me together as the supid-funny as like wow the stupid funny is made out in a way that is not only smart it's clever in the strategy of cunning linguistics to phrase and rephrase the saying so of how we lasso it so with and as ourselves existing here as stupid-funny assholes wow.

King of the castle were all a bunch of fucking assholes.

Go figure were all assholes and the holy whole shit of it all as like the almighty shit as like our final physical hurrah at the moment of death is our physical shit....like holy fucking shit...physicality here is all about us being fucking assholes....fucking Gay

It's stupid funny that gay is projected as a derogatory term in popular western society even though there is gay rights and shit....like gay means happy or dudes fucking in the asshole according to the dictionary....or it can have a total opposite meaning...as like being the most horrible negative thing for a straight male...as like admitting you're a fucking asshole who is afraid to get fucked in the asshole is stupid funny....like its a pretty serious condition....I mean I know....because I have no preference for getting fucked in the asshole.

Is that the Pandora's box of human society? Every Single Human is fucking Gay asshole because were all capable whether it is our preference or not...because the fact of the matter is we all have fucking assholes and we all use our assholes....whether we use our asshole for fucking has been a matter of personal preference...

Perhaps if there was more fucking in the asshole there would be less of a constipation epidemic....and there would be more of a holy shit realisation...as all the shit would be self evident as consequence of all the asshole poking around.....like fuck....rumour has it that the almighty g-spot is in the asshole

Fucking asshole

Stupid-Funny

Fucking Gay Shit Here


Pardon my irritable bowls as I wrote out this raw script like a raw go release upon the porcelain bowl as I pushed myself real hard to get my shit out clear and it's like I was struggling in the beginning but I kept a constant pressure....and than all of as sudden I just erupted with the lyrical gay glow of a true holy shit fucking asshole man as I say I like to play with what I say and I'm just clarifying some of the stupid-funny here as I smart ass my way while dumb assing a show case of ingenuity as the in gene as like the genetics you wanna self replicate as wow the stupid matches the funny which is smart and is beyond any level of intelligence as equality and oneness awesomeness here.....

Fuck,

I know,

I'm an asshole

stupid-funny

lol

get it...

lol

got it

Wow

ridiculous

like crazy ridiculous.....

yup

Day 284 Self Righteous Backchat

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate and believe in self righteous backchat.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become addicted and obsessed with self righteous back chat.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be become consumed with self righteous backchat.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be influenced by self righteous backchat.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire to follow and act/play out self righteous backchat.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding the process that is required in effectively moving through all programmed dimensions of self righteousness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to to generate feelings and emotions connected to self righteous backchat.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify self righteous backchat as a necessary defense and protection controlled system.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deny the obvious common sense fact that backchat is rooted in fear as self interest.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realise and understand self intrest as a great illusion that enables a mirage of mindfucking.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fuck with my relationships here and dealing with practical physicality as consequence of accepting and allowing myself to be influenced and directed by backchat.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe in self righteous backchat as justified logical reasoning that seems best.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to logically manipulate myself with self righteous backchat.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to like the energy connected to self righteous backchat as like making me feel a sense of superiroity for the suppressed inadequacy within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress and burry inadequancy within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deceive myself and others with backchat particpations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe there is anything honest about backchat.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate sharing's of backchat as a means of getting what I want.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give attention to cerain particular forms of backhcat and therfore consequentially create unnecessary problems for myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disempower physical stability as consequence of accepting and allowing myself to particpate within backchat.

I realise the ridiculousness of submitting to self righteous backchat.

I realis the ridiculousness of not considering backchat as a form of self righteousness.

I realise self righteousn backchat is not in the best interest og myself here as equality and oeness as what is best for all Life.

I realise the self discipline in letting go of of self righteous backchats as like making a decision to not give into temptations as various self righteous backchats.

I realise the point of self direction in forgiving myself for accepting and allowing myself to wait to release self righteous backchat.

I realise the ridiculousness of holding onto and waiting to deal with and take care of self righteous backchat.

I realise the ridiculousness of letting self righteous backchat brew within the mind.

I reallise the instability that exists as consequences of accepted and allowed self righteous backchat.

I realise my role of self responsibility in letting goof and releasing all points of self righteous backchat.

I realise letting go of all self righteous backchat may seem difficult.

When and as I see myself thinking about backchat as like wheter or not I should follow through with backchat I stop and breathe and I direct myself to forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold onto point of self interested desires. I realise the ridiculousness of operating from and as a starting point of self interested desires.

When and as I see myself waiting for more backchat to come up within myself as like a reasoning and justification to act in a particular way, I stop and breathe and I realise the ridiculousness of wanting and desiring to operate accoriding to to self righteous backchat. I realise the ridiculousness of pereptuating and fuelling backchat within myself. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perpetuate self righteous backchat.

When and as I experience myself to be overwhelmed with backchat, I stop and breathe, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing specific backchats and I find the fear root connection and I go into forgiveness on initial fear construct and I realise the ridiculousness of accepting and allowing myself to be influenced and directed by backchat.

When and as I experience dout within myself as consequence of particpating within backchat, I stop and breathe...I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mind fuck myself with doubt as consequence of accepting and allowing myself to particpate within and as self righteous backchat.