Day 718 - Removing the Ego from Greatness, the Grounding Process

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into the point of big ego as a result of having good results within particular points of sharing/performance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thirsting for the recognition as the praise within a job well done as like mastery in execution.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mentally masturbate accepted and allowed suppression into a transmuted experience of Superiority that feels so good from the perspective of getting myself high within and as my very own self-induced trite.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the psychic vampirism within and as the accepted and allowed big ego reaction as getting high as a result of the actions/responses others share.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking the ultimate life and living is within and as the established status position within the world system as recognized fame and fortunate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying the inferiority which fuels the attitude of ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the self-righteousness within ego as like believing that I am entitled to a positive high energetic buzz.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the pain and trauma as the self-inflicted self-abuse that exists within and as the reactionary play out of ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for bouncing around in reactionary polarity play as character personifications as either big or small ego...based upon the judgement of sizing myself up in relationship to others here as my ego competition for ultimate supremacy here as like the KingOfTheCastle, the One Winner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted to examine the reactionary positive energy high or big/super ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing the solidarity here as the relationship with all my peers here as the various reflections of myself as One and Equal as Everything here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a dissonance within myself as an ego personality that is incomplete that cannot relate to all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying the abuse of greed as ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self-righteous in fighting for my very own limitation as the result of being defensive in relationship to other ego's here/

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for participating in sports and activities from the starting point of ego as like the encouragement of dissonance within myself for the potential moment of bliss that may result from existing as the great one winner for a brief moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard all Life here within and as a result of being preoccupied with my own ego status in relationship to others ego status.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to thrive of the misfortune of others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being blinded within positive energy participation as a like a form of mental masturbation into a daze,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stumble and fumble around within a haze of positive energy feelings of disregard for the actually status and state of World affairs.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing accounting responsibility for myself as an able bodied being that is here that can support the stopping of bullshit here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the propagated ego hero character that exists within our world that is like the status acceptance and allowance agreement that abusing life for an experience is is what this world is all about.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for just wanting to be a part of the big ego story here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring and regarding to be well accepted and regarded by others as a result of doubting myself and believing that I can only trust myself if I have the trust of many others believing in me.  I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how fake this believed trust to be, when one rationalizes one's very own state of mind from a starting point of dissonance in relationship to Everything here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowiing myself to encourage the continuation of cognitive dissonance in our shared world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for limiting my potential expressions here within the justification that it feels good to win at the expense of another feeling bad in loosing and that is just the way things are...so the decision is either abuse or be abused. I realize the absurd ridiculousness of the mentality of apathy, lack of self-trust, lack of self-confidence, and the lack of empathy and remorse.

When and as I see myself going into a energetic high experience in and as reaction to receiving positive feedback, I stop and breathe, I see the specifics of the point that exists as a dissonance within myself...I forgive myself for accepting and allowing such a dissonance to exist inside myself as the acceptance of myself as less than life here. I realign myself as self-regard as I care to make sure I effectively remove the contamination in my vocabulary and within this I reestablish the terms of agreement here as what is best for all life from the starting point of myself existence here as Oneness and Equality.  I realize and understand I am in the midst of the birthing process of myself actualization here as All as One as Equal. I commit myself to the humbling gratitude in seeing/realizing and physically learning to stand and walk and move in always that are best for all of Life here.

I commit myself to stopping apathy.

I commit myself to living self-trust.

I commit myself to living self-confidence.

I commit myself to empathy.

I commit myself to compassion and remorse.

I realize the practical application of not allowing myself to be consumed within any point, because that is not practical in supporting my ability to live responsibility here.

I commit myself to exposing the ridiculousness of the ego games here.

I commit myself to educate on the character dynamics of ego.

I commit myself to stop perpetuating our culture of psychic vampirism.

I commit myself to removing the ego from Greatness and grounding myself within the earth here as commitment to Life.

Day 657 - Self-Responsibility, The Buried Treasure

Here I am with an abundant of opportunity to move and dictate the manifestation of my destiny...and the funny thing is...it's difficult for me to create direction for myself...like knowing that I can do whatever I want...and that because I have such potential...I see there is this responsibility that I have...yet it's interesting that I say that there is this "responsibility that I have"...yet it's like I have not fully realized and understood this word and point of "responsibility" that I have, and know, and am able to exercise it as much as I want....and, really living this point/word "responsibility" that I have and own.

See, what I am learning more and more on a daily basis is this "responsibility" in which I am in fact the owner....to be more specific...the "responsibility" that I have and own is "Self-Responsibility".

The funny thing here is that even though I know I got/have it(Self-Responsibility)....What has become apparent to me as like me taking on the Self-responsibility for myself here as my own parental figure...and go figure...I have been learning how to walk the point of self responsibility for myself here.

See it's interesting because I see myself enjoyment coming from actually living my self-responsibility. the interesting thing is...is that I so often was seeking this self enjoyment outside of myself...like making the starting point about a particular condition and state of experience...when all in all...I see here...me the director of and as the point of my Self-responsibility.

So, I'm more and more aware of when I am neglecting my potential to live self-responsibly...as the knowing and understanding of myself responsibilities...because what is interesting here is like self-responsibility is in fact a way to work and play in the best possible ways...and well when I neglect my self-responsibility...I neglect living/existing here in the best possible ways...and If i am not existing here in the best possible ways...what the fuck is that all about...if and as I am in fact able to be here in the best possible ways...exercising the best abilities available...making the most of myself/situations here...the point of bettering myself and this world...because of the point that I can always be making my best better...and thus I am always becoming better than my previous best...like an ongoing  fine-tuning perfection/harmony/play/heaven here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting my best possible ways of existing/expressing/creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself form self-enjoyment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the disservice I do to myself when I resist my very own self-enjoyment from moment to moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing the self-enjoyment of myself from moment to moment to seem like a very difficult challenge at times...and like seemingly beyond comprehension.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the simplicity of my self-enjoyment being rooted in and as my response-ability to honor my self-honesty and self-trust here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for complicating the simplicity of and as my individual self-enjoyment from moment to moment as the author that I am all-ways here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for postponing greatness within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing my greatness in potential abilities here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the bare minimum approach within self-responsibilities..as like a poverty type mind set...as like just enough to get by in coping with my unjust acceptances and allowances

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for compromising and sacrificing my best potential for the point of coping with unjust acceptances and allowances.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating a poverty type mind set as a result of fearing to take on the status standing here as Self-Empowered Man of Self-Responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for working and playing in ways that are less than the best for myself and all life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for excusing responsibility for lethargic behavior.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for validating and justifying lethargic tendencies within myself.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the ridiculous absurdities of holding myself hostage within lethargy when it is in fact possible for me to do almost anything...as like giving myself whatever direction/future I would in fact like.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being reluctant to actually commit everything of myself here to my future here

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have neglected to give everything of myself to the future of myself here.

I forgive myself for myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my self-responsibility is like an investment and insurance into and as my future well being.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to really give a shit about my future well being.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having caste judgement upon my relationship within and about "responsibility"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to take self-responsibility for myself in every moment here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that taking self-responsibility for myself here in every moment is the point of actually taking ownership of my life and living here in every moment as the epitome of what is in fact best.

I commit myself to the epitome of what is in fact best.

I commit myself to taking ownership of my life and living here in every moment.

When and as I see myself being reluctant to do/give myself what is the best support/assistance...I stop and breathe...I have an aha moment as "yes", I see here and realize the opportunity I am presented with...and I welcome myself into and as the movement of receiving. I realize and understand the "movement of receiving". I see and realize and know that I cannot receive what is best for myself if I do not commit myself to moving myself into the point I wish to receive.

When and as I see myself faced with a point/gift I am resistant/apprehensive about receiving/getting...I embrace the fortune that I am bestowed...I commit myself to receiving the golden platter of support that is here for me...I realize and understand that sometimes it is quite a labor-full process in digging up the buried treasure...I see, realize and understand myself process journey to life as a digging and uncovering of buried treasure...as like it's all sorts of new discoveries of myself that I had previously mistakenly misplaced/buried/hidden.

I commit myself to the self-revealing process of my physical abilities/applications.

Day 582 Self-Satisfaction?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within and as the single mindedness of me as ego, not realizing and understanding the singularity of me primarily existing as separate from everything else here.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have existed within my self-confined self-interest as a singularity separate from everything else here.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not live the self-realization of and as the interconnectedness of everything here.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being resistant to exploring the my self-intimacy within the question, "Is it not each individual's self-responsibility to direct our individual self-stimulation....self-satisfaction...and amusement?"


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for existing within relationships from and as the starting point of stimulation from and as the perspective of being a distraction and a point of creating the illusion ofchoice/freedom.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for be abdicating self-responsibility as a result of existing within and as relationships of stimulation from and as the starting point perspective of distracting myself from myself by fearing to investigate the nature of my thoughts/feelings/emotions.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify existing within relationships from a starting point of fear/distraction/stimulation.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create self-manipulated logical reasoning as to why the meaning of my existence should revolve around this singular point of and as self-stimulation.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making self-stimulation to be a point of conflict as either "right" or "wrong".



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating judgments about self-satisfaction and amusement.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how within investigating a point of introspection I have a tendency to polarize my findings as like right and or wrong within and as positiveand negative energies.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for seeking self-satisfaction within creating a labeled self-definition/judgement upon a point with a polarity friction/conflict energy.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for utilizing the point of self-satisfaction as a coping mechanism as a way in which I could justify that I've done enough and that I do not require to push myself harder.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating the experience of self-satisfaction as a positive energetic experience within myself that can be identified as a reward and rewarding.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within the frame of mind and belief that I require to be recognized with rewards because I have completed work/jobs/tasks/activities/performances/achievements/accomplishments.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of making myself believe that I reached the required level of complacency in order to be compliant as a self-righteous superior ego frame of mind and thus I can rest and relax because that is the reward of self-satisfaction that I am kind of like on a vacation because i don't require to push myself to do more because I am self-satisfied and believe I've already done enough.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abdicating self-responsibility within and as my relationship to and as the the point of self-satisfaction. I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how I buried my actual potential for self-expression within and as the point of self-satisfaction because I made self-satisfaction to be a point of positive energy experience which cannot exist without more and more negative energy within myself.



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within the point of giving up from and as the perspective of validating the giving up experience as a result of creating a justification of self-satisfaction

Day 581 Self-Intimacy within the Question

Continuing from my previous blogs:

"Is it not each individual's self-responsibility to direct our individual self-stimulation....self-satisfaction...and amusement?"


I see here how in the phrasing of this question I was existing within the single mindedness of me as ego. Me as a self-interested singularity if you will...me as primarily separate from everything else here. Me within theacceptance and allowance that each being here exists within this starting point of self-confined self-interest as a singularity separate from everything else here. Obviously this mental framework is ridiculously absurd because there is self-evident interconnectedness with everything here.

There was some resistance within myself to exploring the self-intimacy of the question here.

Within examining this particular question, I looked at the point of self-stimulation as the means to generating self-satisfaction and amusement. Within looking at this I did not really want to regard the point that stimulation is an abdication of self-responsibility from and as the perspective of being a distraction and a point of creating the illusion of choice. Also within this point, I see how the justification has existed within myself to see a self-manipulated logical reason as to why the meaning of my existence should revolve around this singular point of and as self-stimulation. It is shameful to see that my preoccupation has been self-satisfaction and amusement.

I was looking at the point of self-satisfaction within our shared reality as a coping mechanism as a way in which one can justify that enough effort/work has been done...that there is a point of complacency as a point of acceptance within self that aligns within the mentality/belief that I deserve a reward now because I am done and satisfied with my performance/achievement/accomplishment and thus I am self-satisfied because I have made myself believe within my mind that I reached the required level of complacency in order to be compliant as a self-righteous superior ego frame of mind...and thus I can rest and relax because that is the reward of self-satisfaction that I am kind of like on vacation because I don't require to push myself to do more because I am self-satisfied...

So here I see self-satisfaction linked to a point of giving up...from a certain perspective...because it's like agreeing that I will not keep open the self-investigation any longer because I am satisfied with the result I have already receive...and I found what I was looking for and therefor if I find anything else...it will most likely be in direct conflict with my expectations and ego frame of mind as what I am looking for within and as amusement/stimulation.

So, obviously I do not particularly like to see and regard self-satisfaction as a grand illusion as the justified reason for an experience of greatness within myself. I mean I am kind of ashamed to see how I worked so hard to convince myself of my own justified self-satisfaction while abuse perpetuates itself everywhere as a reflection of the inherent system which I am a part. So I mean to see and realize that self-satisfaction is totally bullshit when considering that to be totally satisfied about anything when even a single point of suffering exists here is a cop out and total disregard for the well being of life...as like this is to say ya I am satisfied with disregard for the well being of all Life here...because hey check out what I've done...I've self-glorified my individual personification within and as the reward center of my mind and therefore I have validated and excused any doubt that indulging within various relationships from a starting point of self-stimulation and amusement is questionable activity.

I see here how the makeup of me here is in fact rooted within and as systems of self-stimulation. I see here how self-stimulation is like a point of amusement. Like there is an excitement component movement to it.

To be Continued