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Monday 8 October 2012

Day 133 I Can't Hide From My Shit














I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for belieiving/thinking that I can actually hide from the shit I accept and allow within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not totally realising that all the shit I've tried to hide from within myself doesnt actually stya hidden it's like in me rooted deep as like accepted and allowed suppression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for losing my patience at times while dealing with all the shit I have accepted and allowed within myself throughout the years.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having pushed my shit under the rug so to speak as like a really bad way of cleaning up my shit.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted actually making a self committment of releasing and removing shit as bullshit acceptances and allowances from within myself on a daily basis.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created excuses and justifications for fuck ups as like to excuse myself for making another fuck up as like one more fuck up is no big deal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abdicating my self responsibility to all as one as equal as life by having excused fuckups.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having coped with my shit as like I know I got shit all over the place yet I dont want to remove it all.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not wanting to remove all shit as bullshit acceptances and allowances from within myself as efficiently and effectively as possible.

I forgive myself for having accepted and allowed myself to dwell within the shit that I have accepted and allowed as abuse/separation/fear.

I commit myself to release and remove accepted and allowed bullshit from within myself on a daily basis.

1 comment:

  1. Oooh the picture, lol lol!

    I read through you SF. One point that I've recently uncovered came up: whatever I do, I do it to myself and thus who do I believe that I hide my shit from anyway? I mean, who am I "in debt" to but myself because my acceptances and allowances create the future me.

    Good thing I replied here! This made me realize that I have to look at the "why" within hiding myself as well as the "how". How do I see the situation, which is giving me the reason why I perceive and believe that I have to hide myself (in my case by appearing to be something that I am not).

    Enjoy,
    Lauri

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