Day 795 - I Manipulate with Justification

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate myself in my world through Justification where I am existing in and as a sort of Ignorance of my living of and as the word JUSTIFICATION.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to self-sabotage myself and my participation within my world within and as the execution of JUSTIFICATION to make sense of my accepted and allowed abdications of my best potential living here as Life made manifest as the realization of myself as All as One as Equal.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how I create JUSTIFICATION as a form of Defense and Offense I administer regularly to aggressively hold myself within a state of Suppression. I realize this shows to me how deceptive I am, because within this I play dumb as a point of Inferiority, pretending I do not know what I am really doing to myself and others as I use and abuse my words specifically for a sort of reactionary play out of the truth of myself acceptances and allowances.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist slowing down within and as Vulnerability and Patience to investigate the usage of my words to be sure that I am standing clear in and as the meaning and the specificity of my share.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be so careless within and as JUSTIFICATION.


I realize the shame within and as the way I have lived Justification.


I realize the travesty of my living and understanding of how to best express Justification.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Weaponize Justification within myself where it's always been used from the starting point of me existing here on the field of battle, playing out my inner conflict and superimposing my suppression/depression onto the world as how I manipulate myself and others into the point of Inferiority.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the fear within and as my usage of Justification, where it has been my accepted and allowed, Inferiority and Inadequacy in me that has kept me Justifying....where I created this Need within myself to Explain my Reactions as my actions, to Justify my self-righteousness as someone who is ok, or even better than ok, someone who is good and is even in fact admirable.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to superimpose deceit within my structuring of words.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the origins of the trauma from my childhood as the source memories of myself physically integrating/learning how to Defend and Attack myself with Justification.



I commit myself to exposing the ridiculousness of Justification used from the starting point of making sense and rationalizing the explanations of failure without being asked and or questioned about such things.



I commit myself to question myself and others in and as the usage of Justification.


I commit myself to show how Justification is an effective tool in and as Manipulation.


I commit myself to use Justification as a tool of self-support in questioning my acceptances and allowances....and to from here be Vulnerable and Intimate with myself in going deep into the discomfort within and as my body...and from here, access the memories of my past where i accepted and allowed suppression as a result of not realizing nor investigating the specificity of my reactions.

Day 497 Living Hypocrisy

Hypocrisy: The practice of claiming to have higher standards or more noble beliefs than is the case.

Synonyms of Hypocrisy include: sanctimoniousness, sanctimony, pietism, piousness, affected piety,  affected superiority, false virtue, cant, humbug, pretense, posturing, speciousness, empty talk; insincerity, falseness, falsity, deceptiveness, deceit, deceitfulness, deception, dishonesty dissembling, dissimulation, duplicity, imposture, two-facedness, double dealing; informal phoneyness; pharisaism, tartufferie.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing for perpetuating Hypocrisy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing Hypocrisy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting Hypocrisy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing myself to be separate from Hypocrisy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as not part of the Hypocrisy that is here.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding myself within and as the word hypocrisy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself neglecting to account authority/responsibility/accountability for remediation of myself as a living Hypocrisy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to hide from my accepted and allowed hypocrisy within self deflection methods of blame.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the hypocrisy of blame.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the hypocrisy of judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my Hypocrisy Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to face myself as Hypocrisy in every moment Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying my living Hypocrisy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to justify Hypocrisy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for enabling Hypocrisy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to escape Hypocrisy through the practicing of Blame.

I commit myself to stopping the Hypocrisy that exists within myself as I realize and understand that my inner reality reflects the outer reality, and that by stopping and preventing Hypocrisy within myself I can assist and support the facilitation of stopping and preventing the re-occurrence of Hypocrisy within our shared Outer Reality.

I commit myself to investigating all facets of Hypocrisy so that I stop all facets of Hypocrisy within myself and utilize prevention as the best cure as the way to insure Hypocrisy never exists again.