Day 795 - I Manipulate with Justification

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate myself in my world through Justification where I am existing in and as a sort of Ignorance of my living of and as the word JUSTIFICATION.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to self-sabotage myself and my participation within my world within and as the execution of JUSTIFICATION to make sense of my accepted and allowed abdications of my best potential living here as Life made manifest as the realization of myself as All as One as Equal.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how I create JUSTIFICATION as a form of Defense and Offense I administer regularly to aggressively hold myself within a state of Suppression. I realize this shows to me how deceptive I am, because within this I play dumb as a point of Inferiority, pretending I do not know what I am really doing to myself and others as I use and abuse my words specifically for a sort of reactionary play out of the truth of myself acceptances and allowances.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist slowing down within and as Vulnerability and Patience to investigate the usage of my words to be sure that I am standing clear in and as the meaning and the specificity of my share.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be so careless within and as JUSTIFICATION.


I realize the shame within and as the way I have lived Justification.


I realize the travesty of my living and understanding of how to best express Justification.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to Weaponize Justification within myself where it's always been used from the starting point of me existing here on the field of battle, playing out my inner conflict and superimposing my suppression/depression onto the world as how I manipulate myself and others into the point of Inferiority.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the fear within and as my usage of Justification, where it has been my accepted and allowed, Inferiority and Inadequacy in me that has kept me Justifying....where I created this Need within myself to Explain my Reactions as my actions, to Justify my self-righteousness as someone who is ok, or even better than ok, someone who is good and is even in fact admirable.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to superimpose deceit within my structuring of words.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the origins of the trauma from my childhood as the source memories of myself physically integrating/learning how to Defend and Attack myself with Justification.



I commit myself to exposing the ridiculousness of Justification used from the starting point of making sense and rationalizing the explanations of failure without being asked and or questioned about such things.



I commit myself to question myself and others in and as the usage of Justification.


I commit myself to show how Justification is an effective tool in and as Manipulation.


I commit myself to use Justification as a tool of self-support in questioning my acceptances and allowances....and to from here be Vulnerable and Intimate with myself in going deep into the discomfort within and as my body...and from here, access the memories of my past where i accepted and allowed suppression as a result of not realizing nor investigating the specificity of my reactions.

Day 429 Why You are so Stupid?

This is a continuation to my previous blog entitled, Stupid.

After having written my blog I went through a process of self induced stupid experiences. I had some reactions come up within me as various forms of self-judgment with regards to writing the blog "Stupid".  I was worried and concerned about what others might think of me taking on the topic of stupidity...and also I feared that I was exposing myself as stupid and that what I was doing is kind of stupid and that I'm way off course by bringing up the point of calling people stupid...like to make any sort of inference that it could be actually a nice gesture to call people stupid...is somewhere I shouldn't go.

I see that writing about stupid and my stupid education is a way of facing my own stupidity and breaking down the stupidity barriers as system patterned programming that is stupid.

The fact that I had some reactions about exposing and undressing the point of stupidity reveals to me that this is a point of resistance I am required to push through and transcend all self imposed stupidity.

What brought me to the starting point of writing about stupid was the question about stupid in fact being a practical teaching aid of support...like specifically using the word stupid to assist and support myself and others in seeing points of stupidity as like what the fuck!  What's interesting about doing something stupid is that when you're so immersed within a point of stupidity it's like you're in a trance and snapping out of a moment of stupidity can be difficult at times. I mean, I see that we humans have been educated to be stupid...as like stupid organic robots...functioning off of reactions...like a bunch of chickens with our heads cut off.

I also see the point and practical responsibility for each human to face and self correct our accepted and allowed stupidity. This is obviously quite a process because we've been designed and programmed to be pretty fucking stupid...and therefore realising who and what we are may being experienced in a plethora of stupid ways because the truth stings like a swift kick in the ass.

I see and realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of  self judgement...and I've been walking a process to stop all forms of self judgement within myself...and as I have explained at the beginning of this post, I was self judging myself about taking on the point of stupidity. What I'm doing is stopping reactions that occur within me and making self corrections about the reactions as the means to prevent myself from going into a stupidity vortex as like being stuck within the out flowed consequence of a reaction...as like losing myself for a moment within a reaction.

So the point came up within me...I realised and understood the stupidity as like absurd ridiculousness...as like a fear mind fuck...and I realised and understood the ridiculousness of stewing within the point. I've come to utilise moments of reaction as a point of cross reference within myself as like an aha moment...as here is a point that I can work with...as like something that hasn't been completely sorted out within myself.  I see and and realise and understand the practical support in utilizing a reaction as a point of resistance that I am required to push...as the means necessary to facilitate my strength training in integrity and accountability as a human being who is removing stupidity bit by bit.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing being regarded as stupid...I realise and understand that fear as a mental fear...is a stupid mind fuck and is totally ridiculous...and that by reacting further to the point of fearing to be regarded as stupid...which is a reaction in itself...as like choosing to compound stupidity/fear within myself. I realise and understand that I am not interested in compounding and perpetuating stupidity/fear within myself...and I realise and understand myself responsibility in facing every single point of stupidity/fear within myself...as I see and realise this to be the necessary process...as the way to actually take care of myself...and give as I like to receive...and expand my potential abilities to make the world as a whole free from stupidity.

When and as I see myself waiting to take action on a point of self correction...as like remedying a point of stupidity, I stop and breathe...I direct myself in letting go of the point of stupidity...I have a chuckle as I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of procrastinating on a point of stupidity...as like wow, I see and realise how crazy it is to in any capacity to be like..."oh there's a point that's totally not cool that's existing in me and I am capable and able to direct the point now in a way that's totally awesome...but nah i think I just going to be totally fucking stupid for a little bit long...there's comfort in stupidity...being smart is hard work...stupid is easy..." What the fuck.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing to be stupid in moments as like thinking that stupid is a form of safety avoidance of work and responsibility...as like protecting me as ego...thinking that me as an ego is so smart...as like I am a superior being within my mind as ego...and I am winning the competition against other ego's because I am so stupidly smart.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to confront stupidity in all capacities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for ignoring and disregarding stupidity and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I was dismissing and ignoring the stupidity that exists within myself and that by ignoring and disregarding the stupidity I see in others...was like an indicator that I am accepting and allowing the same relationship within myself...which is not cool...which is stupid in fact.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how stupid it has been for me to fear my own stupidity..as like I see and realise and understand what a total mind fuck this is.

There's a really good point of fearing My own stupidity that I will begin within in my next blog as an example and illustration which further exposes the absurd ridiculousness of fear...and that creating particular fears is in fact stupid.

Cheers and stay tuned for an example of stupidity that I believed to be totally brilliant.......

Day 419 Word Accountability

Day 419 Word Accountability

The point came up today where I was talking to my brother and we were talking about all sorts of different types of work and I said to him that politics interests me….and within this, he said to me that I better remove a bunch of the things I have posted online. My brother had mentioned this to me before…and I was kind of thinking about it…but this time…I said no that won’t be happening. I see the future of politics as an arena of transparency. I told my brother that I’m here to expose myself as a person…not trying to hide myself…and that if someone wants to bring up something I posted…whether it was from yesterday or a long time ago…and If I see a point of correction within what I have said/shared…I will take accountability for my words and speak about the point in question…and perhaps give added context as like a way to add to myself as a story of interest as like a way showing and exposing myself as a Being of integrity as a Being here who is not afraid of judgement as a Being who’s not interested in the slander game…not worrying about being slandered as a result of being exposed as a Being who is open and does not keep secrets…as I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of leading a top secret life from the perspective of being paranoid about who and how I am expressing myself.

So within my sharing here today, I’d like to take the opportunity here to share some self-forgiveness in relation to hiding and being paranoid/fearful about being exposed on the internet as a Being who’s walking a process of self-correction, as someone who’s interested in the manifestation of heaven on earth…and as someone who’s removing the skeletons from the closet as like the dead weight within having held onto acceptances and allowances that were not aligned in accordance within and as the principles of equality and oneness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that if I am serious about politics and being in the media that it is important that I censor myself and hide who I am and what I am all about.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing what others think about me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having feared others trying to manipulate and slander my name.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that it’s natural to be paranoid and fearful of others  looking to exploit and slander others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that if I want to be involved in politics that I have to be fearful about be screwed over as like believing that I need to have different lives…as like a private life and a public life…and that they must remain separate and secret…because if my private life were to be also public…than there would be total transparency.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I have participated within the fear of total exposure and keeping things secret and hidden…as a result of being fearful/paranoid about exposing/sharing myself as to say this is who I am and this is what I have done…and this is what I am doing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the connection of the point of transparency within individual beings as like a point of intimacy and support that facilitates nurtures, fosters, enhances and increased learning abilities and potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having held onto judgment about publicly exposing myself as a being walking a process of self-correction, as a being who is committed to self-perfection.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the assistance and support in leaving a track record as like written documents of writing process of self-transformation as like the visible evidence here that I am accountable for my actions…as like showcasing all my faults in a way…as to say, like hey look…when and as I see a point that requires self-correction within myself, this is what I do…this is how I stop and prevent that problem from occurring again…this is how I live self-improvement…this is what I am committed do and this is what kind of being I am here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing global exposure as like being examined by lots of people…as like reading all my words and checking out my history as my story as me being and becoming a point of authority as I take ownership as an author/Life creator here who realises and understand the principles of Oneness and Equality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the totally ridiculous absurd nature of fearing total exposure from and as a starting point of just being frightened, startled and timid about people knowing all the details of my Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the ridiculous absurd nature of celebrity culture and fans from the perspective of people obsessing about celebrities lives…and within this I forgive myself for not realising and understanding the correlation of fear of exposure…as like exposure had become like a huge thing in this world because there is so much fear around exposure and making a mistake…that reality TV shows are edited and scripted and politicians have a whole team the works to regulate the image of the president/prime minister…as like having all this guidance on how to act…it’s like being a politician in a wealthy nation in the world…is like being a Hollywood actor starring in a dramatic role…as like constantly having to check the script to see what is required to be said…and how one should project themselves about each particular scene within the political production process.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding myself as an example and teacher for politicians as like how a politician operates as totally fucking awesome!

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having spent so many years being frustrated and annoyed and angry with politicians and the political system…and within this not realising and understanding how I was deflecting my own abilities and capabilities as like my responsibility to take on the responsibilities of becoming the example of what a politician should be like, by becoming the practical living example that can be copied and emulated as like showing and saying here is the recipe formula for being a totally fucking awesome politician….this is the best way to do it…and be it….here I am and this is what and how I stand here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising my image and likeness to politicians in this world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to take accountability as the role of responsible politician here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from and as the role of politician.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not voting and supporting myself as the best political candidate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for waiting for and desiring for other political candidates to be exposed as great examples of being a totally fucking awesome politician.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how much fun potential is available to me here within accepting and allowing complete transparency within and as my commitment to self-perfection through the process of self-realisation and self-corrective actions.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding how much easier it is to walk process of self-correction when there is complete transparency…as like the networks of support are opened up and there is total access to assistance and support everywhere...because I am opening myself up to being here everywhere as like totally exposed nothing to hide…as like a being who realises and understand transparency to be the key of good governance.

When and as I see myself fearing to express and share myself, I stop and breathe and I make a point of pushing through the resistance/fear/mental barrier/ and I express myself as the expression of sharing and transparency as like this is who I am here and this is what I am about within and as the principles of Oneness and Equality.

When and as I see myself reacting in fear to another being’s fears/concerns/worries/doubts….I stop and breathe…I assist and support the being being’s worries and fears to dissipate and be released as I do not accept and allow myself to be consumed within a reaction…and therefore I direct the point…as like planting the necessary seeds of support within the being…as I realise and understand the seed of assistance and support are my living words  as the principled sound foundation of equality and oneness….and I realise that words as seeds of assistance and support will grow within other beings…because they are in my same image and likeness as like my fellow mates as part of team life  as like members of the human division as like another You is Me man…so I care to share because I see and realise my responsibilities for the well-being of my teammates.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having neglecting my teammates as like fellow members of the human division on Team Life…as like I realise and understand that is ridiculously absurd to hold a grudge against any of my mates…and that judging any of my mates for their actions and mistakes is absurd ridiculousness because I realise the point of forgiving and forgetting as like the best living attitude here.

I commit myself to the best living attitude here as forgiving and forgetting.

I commit myself to becoming a teacher for the course, “how to be a totally fucking awesome politician”

I commit myself to realising and understanding and expanding myself as a totally fucking awesome politician.

I commit myself to transparency.

I commit myself to good governance as I realise the starting point of good governance starts within me as the law of my being here and that is my self responsibility to purify the law of my being as Equality and Oneness.

I commit myself to giving the best criticisms and chirps to my fellow political candidates as my fellow mates as all here in the human division as members of Team Life.