Day 721 - Is Embracing the Cold a Key in Physical Body/Mind Awareness Here?

I've been exploring Cold Water therapy.  It's a fascinating process. I suggest googling, "Wim Hof" aka, "The Ice Man".

The focus of this blog here today is to remove any energy within myself with regards to "Cold".



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to associate fear and a general resistance towards the cold as like not wanting to get cold when and as I am warm.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding Cold as separate from myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a energetically polarized relationship between Hot and Cold,...where Hot is a positive thing and Cold is a negative thing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating Warm with a mild positive energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating the word Chilly with the word bad and also 'not being good' and with a generally accepted negative energetic charge.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having positive energetic experiences within myself as a general point in regards to warm and hot temperatures and also a generally negative energetic experience towards cold temperatures....or as like a bit less good than warm/hot temperatures.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself dismissing the therapeutic support for the body within working with Cold.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the generally accepted ironies within society/cultural-norms about temperature and specifically the words, "Cold" and "Hot".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Irony about the specifics accepted within North America culture about catching a "Cold" as like a type of sickness/flu...and not realizing the irony within a typical "Cold" where one may get "Hot" in the process....which is kind of funny in the process....because it seems like a bit of a balancing act here.....where it's like You have a Cold and thus You get Hot in the process as like the body's way of balancing out the internal temperature within oneself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I am able to have influence on my body's ability to regulate temperature as a result of and as my connection here with breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the self-investigation into the nature programming conditioning of the mind consciousness as a result of seeing the extent of my automatic bodily reactions to Cold as like an ingrained Fear point that has been developed and conditioned overtime as a result of and as the way I have conditioned my mind and body here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a survival mentality relationship towards temperature and the specifics of weather...where there is a point of dissonance within myself with regards to the specifics of Temperature and Weather Conditions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for accepting and allowing Weather and Temperature to exist as points that are separate from me to a certain extent as like regarding myself as somewhat inferior to Temperature and Weather.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having been somewhat conditioned throughout the years in my environment to fear the elements to a certain extent as like a matter of survival.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how self-expression can in fact be suppressed in regards to the Elements here as a result of and as the specifics of our emotion/feeling about things and also as a result of accepting and allowing particular points of knowledge and information about things, without actually questioning it for oneself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of the suppression that exists here in our world as a result of and as Word Relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for conditioning my perspective about reality based upon what other people say.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blindly accept points as truth because many people believe them to be truth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having subscribed to the logical rational that if many people are saying something is so, than it must be true and that I do not really require to investigate the point myself because clearly it is true....otherwise so many people wouldn't believe it to be so.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the fuzzy logic at play within and as the general acceptances and allowances of just following along with the crowd....as like not really considering that everyone within the herd is potentially also using this exact same fuzzy logic....which in a way makes everyone within the group a kind of lemming where it's like the blind leading the blind all the way into and as their very own self-demise.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to face the Herd mentality in society/culture here,...even when as as I have tested a point and proven it for myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for conditioning myself to not like to have to deal with directing the Herd on points of realization that are not commonly realized or understood.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being rather self-righteous in keeping my self-realizations and insights to myself as like a sort of coping mechanism with the patience required to communicate points effectively to people who currently do not understand said things/points.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be impatient in word/though/deed as like reacting to the Weather/Temperature of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a hard time fathoming the interconnectedness with bodily well being and breath awareness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a negative energetic reaction towards the words "meditate" and "meditative"...and also for associating these words with various mental masturbation practices...and generally thinking that anyone who meditates is engaging in the egoistic practice of stroking one'es own ego...and that the whole meditation thing is always rooted in the desire for more positive energetic experiences.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the physical body/mind process of self-awareness as Everything Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for assuming that in being born here in this shared reality of ours, that everything is taken care of for me and that I don't really have to do anything...and that I can do whatever I want because Everything is taken Care of.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for blindly assuming that the authorities of Science are accurate in and as what they say to be true.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from and as Science.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to doubt the validity of and as myself as here as the very empirical evidence of and as Science.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created dissonance and opposition in regards to the words Science and Scientists...as like making believe these words to be points of and as self-righteous governing authority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the scientific process of and as my mind/body relationships here as like the signs and symbols that exist within and as me here that are working together in playing their parts.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing and disregarding the creative ability of and as each individual part/life that makes up and supports the inner-workings of my Body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of support always all ways available here within as as the serendipitous interconnectedness of and as the willingness and openness to investigate the possibilities that open up within and as the king of Questions....meaning, where Oneself realizes and understands the self-regard within and as the AsKing...asking of Questions here...as the Self-Authority Governmental Science Investigation and Discovery Journey here...as the growing prosperous potential expansion and development.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the interconnectedness of and as Structural Resonance Alignment within and as the AsKing of QuestIons here as being a point of self-reflection of as as the tune that I am sounding/reflecting here....and how within this process....the answer/solution/question is being mirrored back at me within and my participations within our Shared External Reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a dissonance between my internal reality and my external reality here....where there has been a generally accepted disregard and cover-up operation of avoidance as like a procrastinating neglect of exercising the daily practical living of the extent of self-responsibility required to exist here as a constant and continuous Life Force.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the blockage from and as the extent of oneself existent within and as the air of Ego...as the colorful energetic spectrum of feeling/emotion energy as the range from Inferiority to Superiority.....

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the temperature exchange within oneself as the participation within and as as energetic reactions, from the shortness of breath to the ineffective blood circulation of various degrees of accepted and allowed fear.


To Be Continued

Day 558 Facing Myself In My Dream

So the point came up within my dream this morning where I was faced with seeing an individual who I knew who was causing havoc for another individual that I knew. The individual who was bothered by the havoc beingcaused was trying to discourage and scare the being into stopping to participate in their actions of havoc.

An opportunity presented itself where I could confront the being who was somewhat possessed in causing havoc without the other individual being aware that I was confronting the being who was causing havoc. It's interesting that I wanted to confront the being causing havoc without the other individual realizing this. A point came up where I didn't want either individual to know that I knew both of them.

When I confronted the being who had been causing havoc for the other being...I approached the being in such a way where the being did not know that I knew what had been transpiring previously. Also the point came up where I resisted being totally straight up with the being, as like I didn't want to offend the being...but just wanted to present myself as a nice guy that he knows...and in a way just kind of distract him from his previous course of actions. Interesting though that within doing this...the being directed his attention towards another point of abuse...though arguing a lesser self-inflicting form of abuse...and I kind of side stepped around tackling that issue head on from the perspective...that I just kind of moved the conversation along without really acknowledging the point of fuckedness/abuse. The situation/conversation was over rather quickly and I was asking myself afterwards, like what the fuck?...Why did I side step some issues here? The short answer is Fear. Fear of uncertainty within another's reactions...fearing the reactions of another...minimizing the possibility that I would really be required to stand in stability and direct the situation.

I see here how this reflects myself not having the courage to full out face myself in every moment. This is unacceptable behaviour. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be controlled by fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing losing face with individuals who have conflicting relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being two faced.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have allowed havoc to exist within myself as a result of mulling over points of fear that exist within me with regards to speakingdirectly and frankly with others in every moment of my communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for deliberately glossing over issues/points that require my perspective/assistance/support that I fear standing alone within.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to stand alone within and as my stance in every moment here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for always trying to keep the peace with particular individuals I have a casual relationship with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to bring forth any intimacy within casual relationship acquaintances. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to make known my various relationship connections to various beings within my reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing secret relationships to exist within me as a result of judging the various individuals that I am in relationships with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how I have lacked the commitment in the depth of the relationship to myself as a result of fearing to address any particular issues that come up within conversation with another being.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being very sensitive to criticism/reactions/defensive comments.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take personally defensive comments/criticisms/reactions.

I forgive myself for not realizing how I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse myself within offending myself by holding onto a negative energetic charge in relationship to points of self-judgement as comments/criticisms/reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to come across as offensive and attacking another being's character persona within being direct and and speaking frankly within communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how offensive I have been treating myself within the acceptance and allowance of fearing to come across as offensive. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have been attacking myself within being fearfully defensive/offensive within comments/criticisms/reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to ignore comments/criticisms/defensive/offensive behaviours.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how ridiculously absurd I have existed within communication as a result of accepting and allowing the polarity of offense and defense to exist.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for existing as the justification of fear character within excusing self-responsibility in releasing/self-correcting all polarity relationships that exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as the nice guy character construct as coping mechanism and as an avoidance for facing the fear/conflict/friction that exists within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing fear/conflict/friction to exist within myself as a result of resisting to take self-responsibility for the fear/conflict/friction that I see and realize exists within myself. I realize and understand myself responsibility in directing these situations through self corrective measures. When and as I see myself faced with a point of fear/conflict/friction, I stop and breathe, I direct myself to transcending the point in the moment by facing the point head on within and as the stability of my self-trust here. I realize and understand that I am capable and able to walk through and transcend any point of fear/conflict/friction that exists within myself as I have already proven this to myself countless times. I realize and understand the structured systemic way in which I can practically self-correct myself and transcend any and all points of fear. I commit myself to using a practical living systemic approach in transcending every point of fear/conflict/friction that I am faced with seeing within a moment.

I commit myself to continue to utilize my dreams as a point of assistance and support in accelerating my application within and as the journey to Life.

I commit myself to making the most out of the opportunities I am presented with here within and as I walk the journey to Life.

I commit myself to sharing myself without fear within communication.

I commit myself to self-integrity and self-compassion and self-regard, and self-dignity within communication.

I commit myself to stop coping with my existence here.

I commit myself to stand within and as the stability and the directive principle of Oneness and Equality as I walk my process Journey to Life.