Day 680 - Genuine Interest

 



"It is the individual who is not interested in his fellow men who has the greatest  difficulties in life and provides the greatest injury to others. It is from among such individuals that all human failures spring."  Alfred Adler


This is a point I have found myself guilty of from time to time. For the most part, I am fascinated in learning more about the specifics of the interests of others. However, I have noticed that from time to time, I can be quite disinterested and dismissive and rather quick to cast judgement. It's deplorable really. You know, it can happen so quick....You see someone at a party or function...and You disregard them because of the way they are dressed...or because of something you heard them say...or you have already formed an overall characterization of the individual based on how you have framed your interpretation of them in relationship to you...and have judgmentally decided that they are not a worthwhile connection for you to foster here....a real disregard taking place here....Or....this has happened in particular instances....where I dismissed myself as not being of enough caliber to associate myself with the likes of that which interests me in getting to know further. Strange relations...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having allowed relationships with others to suffer as a result of disregarding the other person....persons.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a self-interested attitude about relationships...where the relationship with another is strictly to feed my self-interest,,,and that we are in relationship because of this particular point of agreed upon interest and or obsession.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having great difficulty developing relationships with others who do not share my primary self-interests and or obsessions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for negating the development of relationships through common mutual interests as a result of getting stuck within the particulars of differentiating interests.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being selfish in taking the time to get to know the overall character of another.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being heavy in judgement in relationship to myself and others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying and judging whether or not it is appropriate for me to show interest in another from the perspective of whether or not another's body language is suggesting to me that they are open and inviting.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to communicate with the types of people who do not present themselves as open and inviting.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for presenting myself as disinterested and the complete opposite of open and inviting.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying and validating myself within being close minded and unapproachable.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying others to be stuck...and fucked in their own close mindedness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being rather dismissive of the overall potential of humanity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to take the initiative to get to know someone who has resistance and is apprehensive about opening themselves up.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being inconsiderate of others who are somewhat close minded.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have existed as rather close minded from the perspective of being dismissive of those who I define as not being totally aligned with my thoughts and interests.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating dissonance in relationship to other people as a result of having reactionary judgement to the particular actions of participation I witness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting my learning potential in moments of dismissiveness where I allow my reaction in a particular moment to get the better of me...and I therefore justify the perpetuation of dissonance in relationship to the person I am in immediate proximity to and towards.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging and justifying my status standing of character as being of less than  enough caliber to actually associate with the likes of such and such characters.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which the superiority and inferiority interplay of relationships can only exist to the extent to which I accept and allow it to exist within myself....and therefore whenever I am triggered by a particular point of superiority of inferiority, the opportunity is being presented to me as the gifting chance to remediate the relationship disagreement within myself...and therefore my outer world as the mirror of my inner reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the problematic nature of self-interest from the perspective of only really regarding the desires and interests of oneself as being totally and completely separate from the desires and interests of others....to such an extent where the belief exists that it is best to ignore others because that is how I have chosen to treat myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for ignoring others as a result of making believe that I actually want to ignore myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for ignoring myself.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding myself within looking at others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for ignoring the support and assistance of others as being integral to the best interest of myself and others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to share interests.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for encouraging selfishness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying selfishness to exist in a polarity relationships to selflessness...as like the marker of either being rich or poor...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a polarized dissonance as a result of my relationships towards the words "rich" and "poor".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating rich with superiority and poor with inferiority...and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating the continuance of a split/divide between character personas as a result of how I have allowed the word relationships to exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that in fact the best wording and world potential exists in and as each and every single being.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which my word relationship characterizations have influenced the state of worldly affairs in which exist both inside and outside of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be limited by emotion and or feeling energetic reactions. I realize how I am able to in fact learn from every emotion and or feeling energetic reaction as a part of the learning process realization in understanding Self here.

When and as I see myself neglecting to regard the interest of another, I stop and breathe...I re-focus my attention upon the interest and service of another...as I see realize and understand the desire to serve...and I see and realize how living in a way that is giving is in fact in the best interest of all Life Here.

I commit myself to Live in a way that is the Best giving to Life.

I realize and understand the effectiveness of relationship agreements is within and as the interest of each other.

I realize and understand that sharing is caring, regardless of whether or not the particular sharing is well received in the moment of sharing.

I realize and understand that We exist here within a time where we are actually learning how to share and care effectively...and that throughout history there has been a polarized dissonance towards sharing and caring.....Sharing and Caring being synonymous key elements to effective harmonious get together's as the key to our Life together here on planet Earth as the way in which best serves the desired interest of all Life Here.

I commit myself to support the development of Life potential.

I commit myself to sharing and caring for Life.

I commit myself to utilizing my vocabulary effectively and efficiently to assist and support the flourishing of Life potential.

I commit myself to enjoying the Creation process.

I commit myself to enjoying the process Journey to Life as What is best for all Life here.

I commit myself to relationship mastery in all ways best for everyone.

Day 672 - Waiting for Life to Happen

I just listened to "Waiting for Life to Happen". I suggest clicking on the link to the interview. There was a lot of cool points brought through within the recording.

To make a point of sharing a point that has come through in relationship to my living is the point that "Nothing moves unless I move"...meaning that,...Unless I directly move apply myself within particular points...than nothing is going to happen....

To further elaborate on the point....it's like waiting around for opportunity to come knocking on my door....or going out and making opportunities happen by doing things...whether it be as simple as knocking on people's doors....or it be sending a long time friend a message....or making a few phone calls....or setting up a facebook event. The point I am sharing is that there is so many ways to make things happen in one's life....it really is as simple as just doing things.

This point resonates well with me....because I have participated in polarity extremes here....where I have gone from making lots of things happening...to making somethings happen....to resisting/avoiding to make anything happen really. I confused myself in this point as a result of having created a resistance towards the point of "Initiative" and "Responsibility"...where I went into judgement and comparison about these things from a starting point of self-righteousness where I ultimately victimized myself in holding myself back from taking initiative and responsibility for creating events/participations/plans for myself. I went into the point of resistance to planning and responsibility and initiative to such an extent....that I was treating each day as like...well I'll just see what happens....and what opens up. All the while, not realizing that I was resisting to actually create openings and opportunities for myself because I basically had put myself as being dependent upon my emotion/feeling in the moment...and also being rooted in the point of fear of commitment....so....therefore not much foresight into the logistics of planning and mapping out the effective use of my time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing the practicality of living the words "Initiative and Responsibility" in relationship to making things happen within my life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the commitment to actually walk the process in space and time in order to actually manifest/create that which I would like to make happen.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing directive creative control of my life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding my creative potential in and as the living of my life here....from and as the perspective of the attitude and notion of, "I'll just wait and see what happens..."

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a dissonance towards life happening from the perspective of forgetting to understanding reflect upon the fact that my life and ability to see and relate here is a result of and as how I am participating internally and externally here....meaning that all is a self-reflection here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the mentality of just waiting for life to happen to be as a resulting consequence of living in fear/anxiety/lack of self-confidence/self-worth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of my potential to create the Life I want to see here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resistance to actually take responsibility for my life and the happening of my life here in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abdicating responsibilities for my life being here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being hesitant about actually moving myself here in this world....from the perspective of daring to explore and experiment here without the fear of making a mistake.

When and as I see myself resisting to actually live the words "Initiative and Responsibility" , I stop and breathe, I see realize and understand the value as practical living life support within and as the knowing of "Initiative and Responsibility"

I commit myself to further sharing the words "Initiative and Responsibility" in my writing as a framework to support and assist the practical living of life here from and as the starting point of knowing and understanding oneself existing here as a Creator, equal and one.

I commit myself to stop shifting responsibility and initiative away from myself.

I commit myself to stop fearing to make mistakes within actually taking on initiative and responsibility within the beginning stages of new projects/developments.

I commit myself to walk through the fear/resistance I face within face new experiences that are uncomfortable and also when the outcome is uncertain.

I commit myself to giving myself the time to effectively plan my life and day to day living effectively so that I can actually live my life to my fullest potential...and make the most of my time here.

I commit myself to becoming more effective with my regard and considerations about time.

I commit myself to cherishing and valuing every single moment of my time.

I commit myself to dedicating my time to noble and worthy causes that are to the benefit of all life here.

I commit myself to structuring my practical living from the principle of what is best for all life is in fact best for me.

Day 517 Cool Creation

continuing from previous blog

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself for taking a stand of self-responsibility within and as cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to take accountability for my expressions here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that cool cannot be created within particular situations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing cool to be a conditional term.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be conditionally cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for deciding to remain within conditions of cool as like self imposed restraints as a result of the mental frame worked judgments that act as like bars/veils that keep me from seeing/realizing the extent of cool that is possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for submitting myself to acts of frustration for lack of cool here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting to think and believe that I am all cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding cool as a point within self-expression as a looking at things and forming an agreement within oneself as to how to participate in a particular moment as like having the harmony of mind and body physicality here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing coolness as a point of self trust.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be an example of cool potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that I am responsible for granting myself access to myself as cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that by suppressing coolness within myself I am accepting and allowing a coolness suppression throughout existence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the suppression of coolness throughout existence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having extensively feared being uncool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be uncool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for deciding to be uncool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for deciding it is easier to be uncool than it is to be cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to spite myself within disregarding my coolness potential in self expression as the self-realization that coolness in self-expression is a point of self-agreement within and as physical participation as the point of living equality and oneness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing the starting point equation to all creation here as oneness and equality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for deciding I don't have time to be cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that what is cool is not really cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having decided to try to act cool from within a starting point of doing things that don't seem cool but are regarded as cool...like copying/mimicking pop culture as what I see in movies and television that is portrayed as cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to program cool based about judgement from television and movies.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as the creative force of cool as like the author and authority of it as I write it so as how I paint/say/speak it so as an expressor professor.

To be Continued

Day 505 Fishing For Reactions

I was at the comedy club tonight checking out a show. It was a real nice venue where the stage was real close to the audience, in a not too big of a room that had about 200 people. I liked the set up in that people were packed into the place.

A few judgments came up in me this evening as points of self-reflection:

Laughter used as a point of reaction as like reacting to the comic just saying something shocking/surprising/distasteful/vulgar/inconsiderate.

Comic fishing for the laughter as a point of reaction to just saying something shocking/surprising/distasteful/vulgar/inconsiderate.

Comic talking shit about another person.


I realize and understand that these are all tactics used within the arena of stand up comedy. I understand the judgement has come up within me because these are all things I have done. I've done all of these things a lot.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fishing for laughter as a point of reaction to just saying something that is regarded as shocking/surprising/distasteful/vulgar/inconsiderate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for laughing from within and as the starting point of reacting to hearing something shocking/surprising/distasteful/vulgar/inconsiderate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fishing for laughter from others by talking shit about another person.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for laughing as a reaction to someone talking shit about someone else.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress my potential to share real funny within desiring to receive reactionary laughter that can be regarded as funny.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for make believing funny out of making fun of others as like forms of put-downs.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating the starting point of ridiculousness away from myself as within making fun of somebody else.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging the audience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as the audience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging comedians.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself as a comedian.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to take it personally when I see a comedian doing a bit that I don't think is very good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for placing expectations upon stand-up comedians.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for mind fucking with myself about comedy/stand up comedy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging the various tactics used within the craft of stand up comedy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place myself in competition with other stand up comedians.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to regard myself as superior and inferior to other stand up comedians.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing stand up comedy to be just a big ego dick swinging competition.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting to comics getting emotional.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting emotional doing stand up comedy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to talk shit about stand up comedians.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to talk shit about myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get jealous and envious of stand up comedians.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to put in the time working on my stand up comedy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making excuses and justifications as to why I have been neglecting the point of stand up comedy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be disappointed with myself for slacking off on the point of stand up comedy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have mind fucked myself with regards to stand up comedy within and as the result of accepting and allowing myself to indulge within backchat as self imposed limitation in and as the form of excuses/justification/avoidance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself for fishing for reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fishing for reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining fishing for reactions as something bad and negative.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for feeling guilty for having triggered so many reactions in so many people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I must try to avoid triggering reactions in people at all times.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting to reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing for taking reactions personally within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be ashamed of all my reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be embarrassed of all my reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be disgusted by my reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting high off of reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for feeling powerful within generating/triggering reactions within myself/others.



To be Continued

Day 460 Skiing and Golf

I'm here to open up some some self-forgiveness in relationship to the words "skiing" and "golf".  Both words carry a very positive charged energy within myself.  I see and realise that I have allowed myself to obsess about skiing and golf within my mind as a point of imagination day dreaming.  I see and realise how some times I have become less effective within daily doings as a result of my accepted and allowed word relations with "skiing" and "golf".  Both words, due to the strong positive polarity charge I have accepted and allowed within myself have become like a chemical drug high experience within myself...as a form of escape from physical reality.  I see and realise how anytime I'm looking for a break from my immediate daily participation's, my mind can easily come up with anything golf or skiing related, and my attention is adverted from practical living responsibilities...and I have often just gone into the indulgence of following my train of though about a particular aspect of golf or skiing....whether it be about technique, performance, equipment, places to play, prices, locations, training, etc...etc.

So the point I see here is that it is my self-responsibility to release the positive energetic charges that exist within myself in relationship to both the word "golf" and the word "skiing".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining "golf" with positive energy and associating the words, great, good, excellent, awesome, amazing, fun, I love it, I really like it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining "skiing" with positive energy charges and associate the words, great, good, excellent, awesome, amazing, fun, I love it, I really like it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I created a possessive relationship with the words "golf" and "skiing" as a result of creating strong emotions and feelings about "golf" and "skiing"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the consequence I have created within my Life as a result of holding onto such strong positive energy charges in relation to the words "golf" and "skiing".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I have distorted my reality of living words as a result of accepting and allowing positive energy charges upon the words "golf" and "skiing"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having compromised practical daily living as a result of accepting and allowing myself to create positive energetic charges in relationship to the words "golf" and"skiing"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I how I compromise my well being within accepting and allowing contaminated word relationships.  I realise and understand the word is the word and making a word out to be more than it is, fuels conflict and polarity friction within my vocabulary as my building blocks here in physical reality.   I see and realise the point that by accepting and allowing some words to be more valuable within energetic charge, creates and enables some words to be regarded as less valuable.  I realise and understand that creating an energetic self-defined value system in relationship to words is not necessary and nor is it in my best interests, as this creates scenarios where I distort my ability to operate at my highest levels of effectiveness here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I must create positive energies in relationship to words that represent activities I enjoy participating within.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for manipulating my daily participation's and responsibilities within allowing myself to day dream and obsess about skiing and golfing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having feared to let go of positive energetic charge in relationship to "skiing" and "golfing" out of fear that I will be losing my self created positive energy experience, and within this believing that I will no longer like participating within skiing or golf if I don't have a positive energetic experience attached to it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the practical support within keeping my word relationships simple.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for unnecessarily complicating my word relationships with emotions and feelings.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having brought emotions and feelings into the words "skiing" and "golf"

Definition of Skiing:  The action of travelling over snow on ski's, especially as a sport or recreation.

Definition of golf: A game played on a large open air course, in which a small hard ball is struck with an assortment of clubs into a series of small holes in the ground.


When and as I see myself beginning to think about golf or skiing within doing a particular task, I stop and breathe, I direct myself to stay on task and I realise how I had created a pattern within my mind to use words I had created positive energetic associations to act as like distraction codes within myself that induce mental preoccupation that take me out of physical reality and put me into the realm of mental masturbation.  I realise and understand that the same principle exists with associating negative energetic charges onto particular words.  I realise and understand it is my self-responsibility to purify my vocabulary as the law of my being here as Equality and Oneness.


I realise and understand how easily it is to be controlled and manipulated through word relationships.

I realise and understand how sales work based upon word relations.  I realise and understand that becoming highly effective with words makes me a great sales person.

I realise and understand that everyone is essentially a sales person...and we are constantly selling ourselves on what we will or won't do based upon our accepted and allowed vocabulary and our particular judgments/definitions/values/energies in relationship to our vocabulary.

I commit myself to investigating my vocabulary.

I commit myself to purifying my vocabulary.

I commit myself to using my mind as a tool to see where and how my vocabulary has been contaminated.

I commit myself to strengthening my vocabulary.

I commit myself to fixing my vocabulary.

I commit myself to removing complications in my vocabulary.

I commit myself to being a master of words.

I commit myself to educating people about the importance of vocabulary.

Day 438 Sound Play with How You Say Words

I'd like to make a point of playing more with sound as I speak words.  Sometimes I noticed my words seemed rushed within speaking like I am not present within myself enough...and am missing out on really expressing myself within and as how I sound out the words I speak/say within communication.

The other day I noticed how I was speaking so quick and so much that I became out of breath and my mouth was all dried out...like I was a little charged up with excitement energy within speaking...and as a result I see how I missed out the opportunity of really taking the time to play with how I say what I say as the sound expressions I am within words.  I see that it is necessary for me to slow down within communication to really allow myself to be effective with playing with the sounds of words and to actually make the most out of each word I speak as a living expression of who and how I am as a physical being.

I realise and understand that if I am too much in my mind while communicating that there is virtually no physical sound play within myself....that the words I speaking are just a result of an energetic charge as a feeling/emotion outflow based up the reactions I am accepting within myself.

So, I'd like to move into more sound awareness as embodying the living of words as like a taking self responsibility for how I direct the saying of each word.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to neglect the awesomeness of playing with sound as I communicate/speak/say words as who and how I am expressing myself in the moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising that I must not rush myself in speaking/communicating/saying things, as I realise that I am not in a rush to get my words out as like I realise myself as the point of sound/music and that I require to be patient within myself...as like it is from within as as self-stability that I really enable myself to play and have fun with and as communicating words/sounds.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having limited the playing with what and how I say what I say within and as a result of existing within my my mind as thoughts/feelings/emotions...as like various forms of energetic possessions.  I realise and understand that being possessed within the mind as accepted and allowed thought/feelings/emotions, takes me out of self awareness as the ability to play with what I say as the physical sound play that I am....and therefore, when and as I see myself speaking without an inner enjoyment within my expressing myself through and as words....I stop and breathe...and I realise and understand that a lack of inner enjoyment/satisfaction within and as communication, reflects to me/is an indication that I am lost within my head and am accepting and allowing myself to be moved by energy friction within myself...as opposed to me directing me as sound physical movement as the play of me within and as what I say...as like realising and understanding myself as the music/musician/orchestra/conductor/singer/speaker/professional orator, as self-responsibility as the living words here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how a lack of total self fulfillment within and as the speaking of words is a result of accepting and allowing myself to be inhibited/suppressed...like tied down within myself...as a result of allowing myself to choose to be focused on feelings/emotions as various forms of fear...because feelings/emotions are the reflection of fear energies...as the spectrum between the positive and the negative...and within accepting and allowing energetic possession within myself as feeling/emotion...it's like a strain on my physical body...as opposed to playing/directing/moving sound within myself as how I make the sounds within and as the words I speak....as like this is in fact a point of self nourishment and is in fact no strain/stress as to play is like an effortless joy from the perspective and consideration that an effortless joy is without the conflict/friction-ed energy

I commit myself to stop holding myself back in communication sound play as how I say words from moment to moment.

I commit myself to realising myself as the conductor/self director of words...as like realising myself/ my body as a musical instrument so to speak...as I have many organs of self expression as I am an organism...note that an organ is a musical instrument....and looking at the point of organisms...it's like here as a an organism is a result of the accumulation of many organisms/organs working together as like the synchronization/complimentary sound relation agreements to play and make the best sounds possible...as my self stability as a physical body is and as the reflection to a unification within and as the parts that exist within me all working together as like a sound alignment.

I commit myself to enjoying myself as sound self expression.

I commit myself to the realisations of playing within and as sound.

I commit myself to stop...Like, capital STOP participating in mind energy possessions that suppress my ability to play with and as sound.

I commit myself to harmonizing all words within myself as Oneness and Equality.

I commit myself to expanding my effectiveness as communicating as the living words...as like the sounds that I am within what and as I say...so that what I say is clear and to the point and is so fucking obvious...because it easy to see what I mean because if you listen to what I say it will enable you to see clear because the way I say what I say is clear as like clear sound self expression as specific and to the point as like very precise and accurate as being on point/on key as like the key is me within and as the words/sounds I make and how I make and create the expressions that I am from moment to moment.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having worried so much about playing with and as what I say and how I say what I say as a result of accepting and allowing self-judgement within myself...and I see and realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of such behaviour as like wow why the fuck hold on to fear as like a self imposed kicking my own ass from the inside out...as like worrying about what others think of me sounds because of me thinking about me sounds as the various energetic possession states of consciousness as like the spectrum of feeling and emotion from the highest high energy to the lowest low energy....and I realise and understand that till here no further is this how I choose to live...as I realise it is not real living to exist within and as an energetic spectrum of emotions and feelings...but more like a self induced prison sentence that is determined by the wrath of self-judgement.

When and as I see myself looking at another...and reacting within fear within myself....I stop and breathe...and I realise I'm not interested in fucking myself in a way that I would not like to fuck myself...as like I realise and understand the total fuckedness of fear as a vast spectrum or polarized energies as emotions from the lowest of the low to the highest of the high. I realise and understand that expressing myself as a low sound or a high sound within and as self awareness is not in fact energy induced/charged within and the result of friction within my body...because I am in fact playing within myself as the starting point of creation as sound manifest physicality.


I suggest taking this opportunity to play with and as sooooooooooooounnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnd!

Also, I express gratitude for the gift I received from Eqafe...which is The Crucifixion of Jesus - Part 39