Day 721 - Is Embracing the Cold a Key in Physical Body/Mind Awareness Here?

I've been exploring Cold Water therapy.  It's a fascinating process. I suggest googling, "Wim Hof" aka, "The Ice Man".

The focus of this blog here today is to remove any energy within myself with regards to "Cold".



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to associate fear and a general resistance towards the cold as like not wanting to get cold when and as I am warm.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding Cold as separate from myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a energetically polarized relationship between Hot and Cold,...where Hot is a positive thing and Cold is a negative thing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating Warm with a mild positive energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating the word Chilly with the word bad and also 'not being good' and with a generally accepted negative energetic charge.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having positive energetic experiences within myself as a general point in regards to warm and hot temperatures and also a generally negative energetic experience towards cold temperatures....or as like a bit less good than warm/hot temperatures.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself dismissing the therapeutic support for the body within working with Cold.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the generally accepted ironies within society/cultural-norms about temperature and specifically the words, "Cold" and "Hot".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Irony about the specifics accepted within North America culture about catching a "Cold" as like a type of sickness/flu...and not realizing the irony within a typical "Cold" where one may get "Hot" in the process....which is kind of funny in the process....because it seems like a bit of a balancing act here.....where it's like You have a Cold and thus You get Hot in the process as like the body's way of balancing out the internal temperature within oneself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I am able to have influence on my body's ability to regulate temperature as a result of and as my connection here with breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the self-investigation into the nature programming conditioning of the mind consciousness as a result of seeing the extent of my automatic bodily reactions to Cold as like an ingrained Fear point that has been developed and conditioned overtime as a result of and as the way I have conditioned my mind and body here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a survival mentality relationship towards temperature and the specifics of weather...where there is a point of dissonance within myself with regards to the specifics of Temperature and Weather Conditions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for accepting and allowing Weather and Temperature to exist as points that are separate from me to a certain extent as like regarding myself as somewhat inferior to Temperature and Weather.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having been somewhat conditioned throughout the years in my environment to fear the elements to a certain extent as like a matter of survival.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how self-expression can in fact be suppressed in regards to the Elements here as a result of and as the specifics of our emotion/feeling about things and also as a result of accepting and allowing particular points of knowledge and information about things, without actually questioning it for oneself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of the suppression that exists here in our world as a result of and as Word Relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for conditioning my perspective about reality based upon what other people say.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blindly accept points as truth because many people believe them to be truth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having subscribed to the logical rational that if many people are saying something is so, than it must be true and that I do not really require to investigate the point myself because clearly it is true....otherwise so many people wouldn't believe it to be so.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the fuzzy logic at play within and as the general acceptances and allowances of just following along with the crowd....as like not really considering that everyone within the herd is potentially also using this exact same fuzzy logic....which in a way makes everyone within the group a kind of lemming where it's like the blind leading the blind all the way into and as their very own self-demise.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to face the Herd mentality in society/culture here,...even when as as I have tested a point and proven it for myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for conditioning myself to not like to have to deal with directing the Herd on points of realization that are not commonly realized or understood.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being rather self-righteous in keeping my self-realizations and insights to myself as like a sort of coping mechanism with the patience required to communicate points effectively to people who currently do not understand said things/points.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be impatient in word/though/deed as like reacting to the Weather/Temperature of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a hard time fathoming the interconnectedness with bodily well being and breath awareness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a negative energetic reaction towards the words "meditate" and "meditative"...and also for associating these words with various mental masturbation practices...and generally thinking that anyone who meditates is engaging in the egoistic practice of stroking one'es own ego...and that the whole meditation thing is always rooted in the desire for more positive energetic experiences.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the physical body/mind process of self-awareness as Everything Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for assuming that in being born here in this shared reality of ours, that everything is taken care of for me and that I don't really have to do anything...and that I can do whatever I want because Everything is taken Care of.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for blindly assuming that the authorities of Science are accurate in and as what they say to be true.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from and as Science.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to doubt the validity of and as myself as here as the very empirical evidence of and as Science.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created dissonance and opposition in regards to the words Science and Scientists...as like making believe these words to be points of and as self-righteous governing authority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the scientific process of and as my mind/body relationships here as like the signs and symbols that exist within and as me here that are working together in playing their parts.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing and disregarding the creative ability of and as each individual part/life that makes up and supports the inner-workings of my Body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of support always all ways available here within as as the serendipitous interconnectedness of and as the willingness and openness to investigate the possibilities that open up within and as the king of Questions....meaning, where Oneself realizes and understands the self-regard within and as the AsKing...asking of Questions here...as the Self-Authority Governmental Science Investigation and Discovery Journey here...as the growing prosperous potential expansion and development.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the interconnectedness of and as Structural Resonance Alignment within and as the AsKing of QuestIons here as being a point of self-reflection of as as the tune that I am sounding/reflecting here....and how within this process....the answer/solution/question is being mirrored back at me within and my participations within our Shared External Reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a dissonance between my internal reality and my external reality here....where there has been a generally accepted disregard and cover-up operation of avoidance as like a procrastinating neglect of exercising the daily practical living of the extent of self-responsibility required to exist here as a constant and continuous Life Force.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the blockage from and as the extent of oneself existent within and as the air of Ego...as the colorful energetic spectrum of feeling/emotion energy as the range from Inferiority to Superiority.....

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the temperature exchange within oneself as the participation within and as as energetic reactions, from the shortness of breath to the ineffective blood circulation of various degrees of accepted and allowed fear.


To Be Continued

Day 720 - Income Tax

I think Income Tax is total fucking bullshit.  From my perspective it is a total scam.  This blog here today is not an investigation of the law in which exists in regards to Income Tax.  This blog here today is in regards to the emotions I have accepted and allowed to exist as a Reaction to Income Tax.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get angry about "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for projecting blame in regards to the existence of "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting frustrated about "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting emotionally frustrated with people who believe "Income Tax" makes sense.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience myself as being victimized by "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self-righteous in regard to "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being impatient within communicating with others about "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to people who do not give a shit about "Income Tax" and just pay somebody to take care of it for them.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that "Income Tax" is total fucking bullshit.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking "Income Tax" is a scam.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that forgiving myself for something doesn't make the point more or less true but in fact it is a point of self-responsibility in removing the dissonance between oneself and the point. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to let go of the negative energy within myself in regards to Income Tax.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created difficulty for myself in releasing the negative energy associated with things that are negative.  Within this, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that if I were to get rid of the negative energy about such points than perhaps the point would be mistakenly disregards as not negative anymore.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for conditioning myself to think and see in and as reactions where it's like I have become accustomed to associate a positive or negative energetic value with the words/things I see.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing making mistakes as a result of releasing myself from negative or positive energetic possession.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of fearing to let go of the positive/negative energy experience/reaction to things in this world because then things would no longer be the same. Within this, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have been fearing change.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to change energetic relationships out of fear that I don't know what will come of them and to a certain extent all I have ever known is relationships from the starting point of reaction as energetic experience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I allowed the words "income tax" to exist as negative energy triggers within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for placing myself in conflict with the words "income tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of placing myself in and as a war of words....where I am in a state of flux with regards to words as either a positive or negative or neutral reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining reaction to exist as something that is bad that is negatively charged, even though reactions can be positive energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a neutral energetic reaction towards "Income"...and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a negative energetic reaction towards "tax".


To Be Continued

Day 719 - Information Automation and Integration

Information is Everything.  We are It. Tag.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating feelings and or emotions as reactions to seeing/reading particular bits of information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for categorizing information within myself within and as a spectrum of energy as like an aura/field that I artificially invested into as a sort of belief/idea/judgement that spawned out of my initial reactions within and as my first meeting/introduction to said bit of information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how much opportunity exists in every moment to face my acceptances and allowances as the particular energy dynamics I exist within as Information/Word relationships.  I realize and understand that I can specifically feel the energetic definitions within myself.  I realize and understand that as I participate in my day to day living my reactions to and from particular points of information is automated as like the why or why not of point's of attraction....like/dislike...energy feedback,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging the energy feedback I experience within myself as I am discovering parts of myself that I wasn't really aware of what and how I was existing within and as the point. I realize vulnerability is required in opening self up to see what one has kept hidden from awareness.

I forgive myself forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist slowing myself down at times when the potential exists for me to go into deeper investigations within myself and garner new insight and awareness about what I have been accepting and allowing within and as mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the process from consciousness to awareness is not a sometimes things, but is in fact here always in and as all ways.

I realize that by listening to my voice in each moment of participation I can hear exactly what it is I am accepting and allowing within myself as I speak each word...and that the sound is specifically structured as a direct point of feedback which indicates any particular energetic energies/mind possessions.

I realize that my body movements are indicators of the acceptances and allowances within myself and that specifically the unconscious body movement in relation to participating with others in my environment are very revealing into and as the nature of my acceptances and allowance.  I realize there is so much communication support available here to read.  I realize the support within reading the information existent here as various dynamics of physical body support. I realize and understand that information also exists here as like the energy body....where it's like from the body this energy has been manufactured as particular resonances that are rooted in the pain/conflict/abuse/friction/trauma of not realizing and understanding oneself here as One and Equal with Everything.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of trying to hide and or distract myself from specific acceptances and allowances that I know I can investigate/explore more and that will lead to new found awareness within myself that I have been resisting to be/become/exercise/express/live as part of my individual response abilities here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I create and perpetuate confusion within myself and restrict my ability to excel in and as self-mastery in managing/directing my reality as a result of splitting my focus from time to time...where I accept and allow a resistance to totally commit to looking at and opening up one point....and moving through that one point completely, before I go into the next point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking and believing and fearfully living within and as the automation of having many things on my mind from time to time...and within this allow myself to get discombobulated in my ability to function at an elite level of mastery and performance as an expression of excellence in and as each application/participation/task/activity I direct myself within and as.

I realize and understand the simplicity of focus on one point at a time as the Key to excellence in the specifics of performance of the activity/task/sport/work/play/writing...

I realize and understand the support we give to our self-development as the point of awareness and self-mastery when and as we commit ourself to existing within and the one point.  Meaning, if we are giving a lecture....we are immersed within and as the sharing of ourselves as the lecture...present within the point completely...here for everyone participating in receiving the lecture you are giving.  Another example is in playing a sport...where you commit yourself to moving within and as the point as response abilities to perform where the mind is engaged as a tool/map of support to aid in looking/seeing what is the best move/play to perform/exercise...and this is, with practice becomes a continuous dance and flow where it's a total working play...where you playing is a result of the work that you are doing as the player working here as the one reading/process/seeing/looking/directing the point at hand here.

I commit myself to enhancing my specificity in working with One point at a time.

When and as I see myself attempting to work with too much at once, I stop and breathe, have a smile as the realization of knowing what uselessness it is in trying to do too much at once...especially from the perspective of fear....where the application of fucking yourself by taking on too much at once becomes a sort of righteous justification that is motivated through fear.  I look at the various points that I am trying to juggle that is causing this confusion of how to best move myself...I simplify the mathematics of the points within myself and establish a clear specific number one point and then I begin with it and from there into the next point...and so with this approach I create a plan as how to best move through a series of points that were initially regarded as a big conglomeration of points all variously connected without any specific structured ordered direction for best application.  I realize I am capable of accomplishing many more tasks and performing the specifics of each and every task at a level of greatness that cannot be achieved within myself when I don't commit myself completely to the narrowness of focus, from and as the perspective of staying present in the moment with just the one point.  I realize my effectiveness in moving points becomes an acceleration point where I am able to begin directing the next point as I finish the previous one....where there is a relationship from going from one thing to the next and as I get detailed into my awareness specificity as i go from one move to the next I can enjoy the detailed specifics of my application.

I commit myself to enjoying the detailed specifics of my application/process here from consciousness to awareness.

Day 718 - Removing the Ego from Greatness, the Grounding Process

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into the point of big ego as a result of having good results within particular points of sharing/performance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thirsting for the recognition as the praise within a job well done as like mastery in execution.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mentally masturbate accepted and allowed suppression into a transmuted experience of Superiority that feels so good from the perspective of getting myself high within and as my very own self-induced trite.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the psychic vampirism within and as the accepted and allowed big ego reaction as getting high as a result of the actions/responses others share.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking the ultimate life and living is within and as the established status position within the world system as recognized fame and fortunate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying the inferiority which fuels the attitude of ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the self-righteousness within ego as like believing that I am entitled to a positive high energetic buzz.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the pain and trauma as the self-inflicted self-abuse that exists within and as the reactionary play out of ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for bouncing around in reactionary polarity play as character personifications as either big or small ego...based upon the judgement of sizing myself up in relationship to others here as my ego competition for ultimate supremacy here as like the KingOfTheCastle, the One Winner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted to examine the reactionary positive energy high or big/super ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing the solidarity here as the relationship with all my peers here as the various reflections of myself as One and Equal as Everything here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a dissonance within myself as an ego personality that is incomplete that cannot relate to all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying the abuse of greed as ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self-righteous in fighting for my very own limitation as the result of being defensive in relationship to other ego's here/

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for participating in sports and activities from the starting point of ego as like the encouragement of dissonance within myself for the potential moment of bliss that may result from existing as the great one winner for a brief moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard all Life here within and as a result of being preoccupied with my own ego status in relationship to others ego status.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to thrive of the misfortune of others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being blinded within positive energy participation as a like a form of mental masturbation into a daze,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stumble and fumble around within a haze of positive energy feelings of disregard for the actually status and state of World affairs.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing accounting responsibility for myself as an able bodied being that is here that can support the stopping of bullshit here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the propagated ego hero character that exists within our world that is like the status acceptance and allowance agreement that abusing life for an experience is is what this world is all about.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for just wanting to be a part of the big ego story here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring and regarding to be well accepted and regarded by others as a result of doubting myself and believing that I can only trust myself if I have the trust of many others believing in me.  I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how fake this believed trust to be, when one rationalizes one's very own state of mind from a starting point of dissonance in relationship to Everything here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowiing myself to encourage the continuation of cognitive dissonance in our shared world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for limiting my potential expressions here within the justification that it feels good to win at the expense of another feeling bad in loosing and that is just the way things are...so the decision is either abuse or be abused. I realize the absurd ridiculousness of the mentality of apathy, lack of self-trust, lack of self-confidence, and the lack of empathy and remorse.

When and as I see myself going into a energetic high experience in and as reaction to receiving positive feedback, I stop and breathe, I see the specifics of the point that exists as a dissonance within myself...I forgive myself for accepting and allowing such a dissonance to exist inside myself as the acceptance of myself as less than life here. I realign myself as self-regard as I care to make sure I effectively remove the contamination in my vocabulary and within this I reestablish the terms of agreement here as what is best for all life from the starting point of myself existence here as Oneness and Equality.  I realize and understand I am in the midst of the birthing process of myself actualization here as All as One as Equal. I commit myself to the humbling gratitude in seeing/realizing and physically learning to stand and walk and move in always that are best for all of Life here.

I commit myself to stopping apathy.

I commit myself to living self-trust.

I commit myself to living self-confidence.

I commit myself to empathy.

I commit myself to compassion and remorse.

I realize the practical application of not allowing myself to be consumed within any point, because that is not practical in supporting my ability to live responsibility here.

I commit myself to exposing the ridiculousness of the ego games here.

I commit myself to educate on the character dynamics of ego.

I commit myself to stop perpetuating our culture of psychic vampirism.

I commit myself to removing the ego from Greatness and grounding myself within the earth here as commitment to Life.

Day 717 - The Order of Things

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a warped sense of order from the perspective of disregard for and as the Equality and Oneness of all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that if things are ordered in a particular way than they cannot be regarded and ordered in another way that is equally great.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating orders as like codes and commands within my mind from a starting point of conflict and friction where the point of war is encouraged as a polarized energetic work and play that is out of sync.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing my ability to remediate myself as the words that exist within me and that come up inside me from moment to moment as thoughts, words, deeds.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being selective in establishing a value order of worth to the words/thoughts/deeds that come up within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to over value and under value the equality and oneness of the relationships as words/thoughts/deeds that exist within and as me here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself play out bodily reactions as my thoughts/words/deeds as like having a mind and personality of their own as like separate from who I really am...which is kind of interesting in and of itself, because for a dissonance to exist in thought/word/deed as mind/body//being relationship here than this is quite ridiculously absurd. I mean it's like a triangle trying to move in one direction together by always pulling and pushing against each point as like never creating a continuous harmonious and melodic flow.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to delay my continuous application on points of self-regard as the responsibilities that are mine to deal with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting the order of my things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating disorder in myself and this the world as a result of being poorly informed and having consequences manifest as a result of my very own acceptance and allowances of misinformation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating disorder within myself here as a result of misinformation and disinformation.

I forgive  myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my full living potential has been out of order and it is my self-responsibility to put myself back in order as the restoration of and as my full potential ability and response ability as the love made visible as become the working action as the play write right rite here as the hearing is clear in and as the sound that is me. I realize and recognize the sound that is me is rooted in and as the epitome of me as Oneness and Equality....a sound so here that is always here no matter what...a sound so here that is always sewing and is sown here that this sound as who and how I am here exist beyond a physical body yet the sound is express as the physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and regarding my Sound mind here as who I am beyond a quantum mind and body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the pulse of my sound here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of the embodiment of sound within and as the form in information.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing and fearing my sounds. I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of fearing my sounds....because I am my Sound...and to make a statement acceptance and allowance of existing in fear of my own sounds is to accept the sound/disharmony resonance as like a less than wholeness of myself as sound here....this is like to break myself into pieces...as to accept myself as less than who I am....to make myself but a derivative of myself...that is continuously conditioned into new conditioned restraints which make the derivative of the derivative less and less...as a cycle of confinement within and which the belief is perpetually justified that escape is a valid option...when in physical fact you all it...as everything here...so to create a separateness as like a great big mess is a bit of a discombobulated message as like not realizing how and why oneself deconstructed/constructed oneself here.

I see realize and understand the irony of not realizing what you are doing in the moment as you flow in the moment doing what you are doing...and here I see how great potential and great consequence exists...because from the perspective of certainty and uncertainty working here at the same time...and what is real is always a point of self-honesty...the question as the king....because the king is asking....so in asking you stand as the self-authorization for total regard or disregard...and either way the starting point of creation/self-here is Oneness and Equality, so TAG we are always It...and learning/studying our action and participation and looking at ourselves always, makes what is clear clear...because we always make it...because we are the one's that made everything up in the first place. And therefore each has already won as firts place...so as the king of asking the question you are right and wrong in the moves we make and regardless of the amount of right turns or wrong turns it is a matter of reading the words here and looking and sounding the in form as the information here as the self-reflection as who and what we are.

I commit myself to working and playing with myself/world here as what is best for myself/Life/world/earth/Mind/Body/Being Here.

Day - 712 - Real Time Application...More than a Test Drive

Important Note:

 You may notice that the publication date here is later than blog Day 714. I had written Blogs Day 711- to 714 in Sequence but did not get around posting in that order. Anyways, now you know the flow of how it all came to writing in the structuring of my posts.

Also, the posts are a creative practice play in real time movement moment to moment without the hesitation stand still judgement and doubt. So without a doubt I face myself in the moment as I write and then come back and reflect on my written words to fine tune my garnering of support and assistance for myself as like making my self-nurturing regard a timeless application and process I commit to.

So, If you haven't checked the previous post...ch, ch, ch, check it out. 

Also, like the previous post this post was supported in being initiated by the words of Anu in "Path of the Initiate"

Isn't it interesting how we have so many participations throughout our Lives? I mean, even if you are someone who says they do Nothing all of the time, the reality is that you are actually doing some thing's....we are always participating in some thing's.  I mean, to do absolutely nothing here is really not physically viable...seeing how we live in a physical reality here where Everything is physically here. So, nothing is like a paradox of sorts because of Everything being here....but not really from the perspective that Nothing doesn't exist because Everything exists. I know, things are sounding even more paradoxical. Like multi-verses in the Universe. The mathematics of addition.

The point I am pointing out here, with regards to Nothing, is Everything. Have a look at the process journey to Life here. Letting go of Everything for Everything. A return to nothingness, like a blank slate....fresh canvas. See that an Enormous amount of potential is possible when the starting point has been returned to Nothingness. Look at the self-direction potential. See Always! The support is moving in every direction! Always all ways. Think of like a ball of yarn or the spokes on a wheel. Point of thinking illustrations is to highlight the support and assistance within Always assistance and support as what is best for life. Talk about options and possibilities. Quite the opposite of things being restricted and restrained.

See here how each becomes the Driving operator of Always. This is the process journey to nothingness that supports the enactment of a New World Order....a Living World Order that You would really Like to Design. The manifestation of Heaven on Earth, to be explicitly precise.

The rhetorical question to creating and manifesting Heaven on Earth, is, "Why wouldn't You manifest yourself, the World Here as Heaven on Earth?"

Obviously when the regard for self is realized and the process commitments are clear....the creating and manifesting of Heaven on Earth becomes an Obvious Duh, Of Course....as this is the course/path/trail/kingdom/palace/house/Fortress/Compound/run/slide/jungle gym/play-ground/mountain climber/swimming pool/hot-tub/farm/ocean/golf-course/Ski-Hill/skating rink/obstacle course/PLANET to Plant it...as we Plan it. See the plant and the plan...and the planet here...as the playing with what is here...and using the similarities within things that are good for mutually beneficial and prosperous results. Planning and Planting our nature makes the fruition of our Labor specifically great...as the great nest here is spread far and wide...as the planet greatness...the great nest here for all to live and reside..as the practical living of love made visible as the truest truth of what is real desire..as like what it is to really live for real here. You know, creating the Here in which you are always...as like no matter what,,,You/We are Here as Everything. That's all there is. And the potential comes from nothing as like the return to self creation...as the innocence of self-realized here. The contact with self actualization here. as the hey hello hi I see me here...and I get in to me I see as self-intimacy,

Day 711 - New Path Every day

Important Note:

  Sometimes in my blog writing I kind of go a little all over the place in bringing together connections and I realize that sometimes points of practicality can be a bit of a stretch as it's like not always systematically straightforward.  This doing and sharing of mine here in writing is a freestyle in the moment expression where I face  myself as the music/sound that is me and I connect my words together unrehearsed without hesitating between verses as like a come together reflection of my writing/riding/driving/living freestyle expressive ability and mobility in the moment as where I am at within and as my birthing myself here and my creative responsibility.

If you see a verse of words that you really like or a verse that just seems a little too discombobulated...please share your feedback with me as fellow life Rider Sharing through feedback in the form of Insight as Question or Statement.


This writing has been influenced by the support and assistance garnered in the Eqafe Interview entitled, "Path of the Initiate - Reptilians - Part 380"


reminded of fear skiing new terrain through the trees that quickly....

skiing is life....

driving a car....life is like being a car....and the road/direction/comes out of you as the pathway to take/go along....always on a New path/trail...because what's going to happen and is possible is Unknown...

An Uncertainty experience within oneself.

Walking around on eggshells.

Each One is creating the path/journey Every Moment.  Funny thing is that Don't have a map. Driving in anticipation/waiting for something to happen...Looking to see if something will happen. This is a result of having been accustomed to things happening to Us. It's like knowing some shit is going to happen eventually...and then kind of getting a little pissy when shit happens. It isn't necessary to have a fear/worry about bad shit happening.

This type of experiences is what is preventing Oneself from actually CREATING the Living of One's Life. Irony here is that one is creating the Shit/things One doesn't even want.

How are we RESPONDING to these type of Mistakes/accidents/Unfortunate circumstances?
How we RESPOND Says a Lot about ourselves as a Creator Here. SEE the Opportunity existent within and as RESPONSIBILITY.

The Question to ask Oneself is, "How Creative is Your Response Ability?"
Are You Practically and Effectively Living CREATIVE RESPONSIBILITY ???

DO YOU SEE "CREATIVE RESPONSIBILITY" AS THE WAY....ALWAYS HERE....ALL WAYS HERE....DO YOU SEE "CREATIVE RESPONSIBILITY" ALWAYS?

SEE, 'CREATIVE RESPONSIBILITY' IS ALWAYS HERE AS WHO AND WHAT AND HOW AND WHY AND WHERE AND WHEN of and as OURSELVES HERE. SEE WE ARE THE VEHICLE/DRIVING/MOVING EXPRESSION THAT DESIGNS/DECIDES OUR LIFE HERE.

OBVIOUSLY DESIGNING AND DECIDING UPON A LIFE THAT IS BEST FOR ALL LIFE HERE IS WHAT IS ALWAYS BEST. BECAUSE HERE YOU SEE GIVE AS YOU LIKE TO GET.  IMPORTANT TO NOTE....THAT YOU GIVE BECAUSE YOU GOT IT...NOT BECAUSE YOU ARE HOPING OR WANTING TO GET....BUT BECAUSE YOU HAVE THE POTENTIAL TO GIVE..AND YOU REALIZE THAT EXERCISING YOUR POTENTIAL SUPPORTS THE WELL BEING OF LIFE HERE AS THE FRUITS OF ONE'S LABOR AS THE MANIFESTED EXPRESSION OF LIVING TO GIVE.

CREATING A ROAD MAP GUIDELINE FOR A NEW DAY....A NEW ADVENTURE....A NEW JOURNEY IS A COOL POINT OF SUPPORT TO HAVE WITH ONESELF FOR THE TRIP.  IT'S FUNNY FUN AND COOL TO REALIZE THE EXTENT OF ONESELF AS THE TOUR GUIDE PROFESSIONAL ON ONE'S TRIP....THE CAPTAIN FLYING THE PLANE...OR THE SNOWBOARDER OPERATING THE SNOWBOARD, OR THE DRIVER OF THE CAR....YOU KNOW BECAUSE IN THIS REGARD IT IS POSSIBLE TO PLAY AS YOU MOVE ABOUT CREATING THE NEW TRAIL/PATH/ROAD/WAY AS THE SUCCESSFUL RESULT OF LIVING/WORKING/BEING HERE TODAY.
IN KNOWING THAT YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR THE TRIP...IT MAKES IT EASY TO NOT GET HUNG UP.....STUCK ON A BAD TRIP....BECAUSE WE KNOW WE CAN MOVE THROUGH IT AND THAT BAD TRIPS ARE LIKE TEMPORARY BLIPS IN THE WAY AS LIKE THE OBSTACLES/PROBLEMS IN OUR LIFE TO OVERCOME/SOLVE AS WE DISSOLVE OUR SELF INTO EVERYTHING...AS LIKE THE REALIZATION THAT WE ARE WITHIN EVERYTHING HERE...AND IT'S LIKE A PROCESS PLAY WORK WITH GETTING TO KNOW HOW TO GIVE WHAT IS BEST FOR OURSELVES HERE IN ALWAYS BEST. SEEING HOW TO SKI IN THE BEST POSSIBLE WAYS/STYLES...AND WITHIN THIS, CREATING OUR OWN INDIVIDUAL AMAZINGLY AWESOME STYLE THAT IS PRACTICAL AND EFFECTIVE IN AND AS OUR COOLNESS/AWESOMENESS HERE.

SEE, WE EACH CREATIVE OUR OWN MOMENTUM AND RHYTHM AS LIKE THE FLOW OF HOW WE HANDLE THE CONDITIONS OF THE TERRAIN WE ARE WORKING/PLAYING UPON. THIS HERE IS PART OF THE FUN AND FUNNY POTENTIAL AS THE COOL HERE IN AS AS OURSELVES STANDING AS THE FREESTYLE FLOW OF LINKING TURNS TOGETHER AS THE MASTER OF RESPONSIBILITY...RECOGNIZING THE TIMING REQUIRED TO MANEUVER AND EXECUTE SOUND PRECISION AND PRECISE MOVEMENT/TIMING AS THE ORGASM OF ONESELF HERE AS LIVING CREATIVELY AS THE FREESTYLE FLOW OF MOMENT TO MOMENT MANAGEMENT AS A MANAGER OF WHAT IS BEST FOR LIFE.

I FORGIVE MYSELF FOR ACCEPTING AND ALLOWING MYSELF OT FEAR TO DRIVE A NEW PATH EVERY DAY.

I FORGIVE MYSELF FOR ACCEPTING AND ALLOWING MYSELF FOR NOT REALIZING HOW AWESOME IT IS TO CARVE A NEW TRAIL EVERY DAY.

I FORGIVE MYSELF FOR ACCEPTING AND ALLOWING MYSELF FOR FEARING THE UNKNOWN.

I FORGIVE MYSELF FOR ACCEPTING AND ALLOWING MYSELF FOR RESISTING TO LIVE FOR REAL

When and as I see myself hung up about something, I see/realize/recognize the point being a temporary obstacle that in fact requires my attention and that it is my self-responsibility to navigate the obstacle/problem into and as a practical living solution....where I maneuver myself in such a way as to CREATE the way in which Is Best...what I didn't totally know until I did it....Until I lived it...Until I moved myself Beyond it...like the freestyle self-responsibility flow of and as self-direction as the Creation principle in flowing/riding/driving/skiing/Living Here.

I commit myself to using the the flow movement metaphor as Life Being the Journey Here and each is the The Driver/Rider/Hiker/SpaceShip Operator here and that the path is always unknown as to the potential possibility of happenings...Yet what is known is that it is our Duty to Make our Best Path.

I see/realize/understand the self-responsibility in making creating paths from day to day as the self-leadership support understanding and realization of Living to Give as the support and assistance within Sharing while Caring.



Important End Note:

I see here how in reflecting back upon my freestyle flow I can fine tune my movement understanding and realization of myself here.

I commit myself to the vulnerability and humbleness required to live self-reflection and self-correction.

Day 715 - Audacity in Creativity Living Rhapsody

The Song is me..
The Song is One.
The Song is Always Sung.
The Song is Won.
The Winning Song Is Always.
The Creative Audacity in Living Rhapsody.

The Playwrights is to Play with the right and the left side as part of the compass of moral discretion as the discernment to choose as Always loss Prevention. The protection is in the Play rite as the writing of passage...the laws governing the body of self doing it here.

The body of government is the creativity in audacity as Living Rhapsody.

The Yo of the flow...the recognition of re-cognition..the rewiring of lying as to fire the liars from communicating through the wires making this cellular as the status standing agreement of Our Cells here...the Seeing Ourselves all together here...as to get here...is to get her..as the understanding and realization of the mother-ship...ya the leadership boarding...No hoarding..

This is Greatness...the Nest that is Great,.

Grattiude?

Yes please....the pleasure of attitude be the One you want...the winning Won...because you know how it goes....self-regard....appreciation and acceptances be part of the daily bread in giving living allowance as the money that is our honey pot pie..as the why to the we high as we low...the as above so below and the side to side in the decide brigade as the cumming together of knowing how to masturbate...no need for debate...fuck the weed...no need....we doing the deed...Indeed...we live the daily doing deeds as our very pleasures Indeed.

Ski bop the hip hop like flowing down the mountain on the jungle gymnasium inside the cranium rock cap...rock rock to the beach house....all housing inclusive of the law of Gratitude be the Attitude...living the law Greatness is the nest of our residing as the desire in reside...check it..see it...cash money living life value.....regarding yes..as the agreement purpose point in postured positioning a stance of self-acceptance that is Great.

Grateful is Key in being full of Great...though check it as the money in the bank...with greatness comes great responsibility because it;s an actuality of living in physical reality...the maneuverability in the acquisition of substantiating a position.

Poster the Posture...for the Posture is the Post You are.
The Rhapsody of Self-Expression....
Orgasmic...
The Oar, The Gas and The Mic...
Tools Check...Making it Made...Motor Boating the landing whether or not weather permitting because I make the permits for my permissions as the standing authority in and as the recognition of moral allegory in principle posed positioning as what;s best for You is Best for Me. Yo!


Wordy wordage is part of the stretching in expanding the mobility as how you sketch it so...so you know...because sometimes it comes out as the aftermath of the shout...but check it...it was here already as the fountain flowing within...the water runs non stop...the mouth be the tap...whether you tap dance or not...the song is song in every note as the sounding of it why as the how and the when as the what the we got here.

Musician in an Orchestra with a Sea of Organs...playing each piece has it;s part...no part can direct all parts as each part has it's own individual part ...so each part can stand as the individuality creativity audacity rhapsody as the flow go you know and trust...can't rust when you bust,..because just a paused hiccup indicator symptom symbol like a stop sign to slow down...rewind try it again...check the tempo

Momentum is the mountainous movement of the moment when you go Uhm and than drop the hesitation and stick to performance presentation

Day 710 - Legging go of the Knee'd for Ego

Read this blog here that is a transcription of the video "Revenge of the Ego". Read the words, Hear the words. Take your time.

In writing the title for my blog here, the thoughts that came into my mind were "wait, hold on, I don't want to let go of the Ego do? Don't I maybe need it...or like is it possible for me to exist without it....what are other people saying about the ego....isn't there something about just kind of managing your ego....maybe I should investigate the ego more before I decide to commit to a title that supports the notion of letting go of the need for Ego."

I see my knee injury that I am facing as coming at a very pivotal time in my life. I have been utilizing this is a point of support. Support from the perspective of reflecting upon the consequential build up of my mind consciousness system acceptances and allowances.

I see this knee injury as being a wake up call of sorts from the perspective of like, "hey my body is telling me something....my mind has been telling me lots of things that I have been buying into as idea's that is like contributing to me existing here as Ego...Dare I say Super Ego....as a being who has been influenced and controlled by energy, the very energy i have given credence to...as the ego....the motivation...the motive to do or not do in so many instances...as the pull/push...why....the purpose having been the energy as the what I believed came natural to me as what I wanted...and my belief in being devout in giving myself everything I want...as like creating this compromising position of sorts...a self-sabotage...self-manipulation if you will....where the wants become congruent with the needs to such an extent that there is like a blur between what is actually what...and just become an auto-pilot drifter of sorts as following the code....the code i created within myself as the ego markings...the map of how I respond to stimuli...how I am able to function....like an addict....doing whatever it takes to feed the want that has become a believed need...and making this a purpose of sorts as kind of enveloping within myself create black hole.

The irony of course is being careless and negligent within heir of superiority as the super ego stronghold....which is like a beingness lock down into suppression where the ability to see and breathe is often negated as like an unfortunate result of being so engulfed within a state of one's own personality possession. I see this as the consequence of bad Accounting...meaning, the neglect of my words/actions/deeds....where the pile-up/build-up became a pressure point crystalization that was just too much....a tipping point. a breaking point if you will....an explosion of sorts was the experience of my knee in a moment of physical activity where it seemed like I should be able to bend and contort my body into such a position without consequence.  And reflecting on past instances...I see that I was in fact able to make such pivoting maneuvers without pain and injury....but in looking back, I did not have the accumulation buildup that I had when I went into this particular fall....it's like the pressure buildup was just too much....there was no escaping it.

This consequential fall is quite interesting in and of itself and I am grateful to be here reflecting on the points as I see here this is all part of me Learning, expanding my realization of what in fact Self-responsibility is. Seeing here how my neglect of responsibility manifested and revealed itself in my physical body as me participating in an activity without the ability to immediately bounce back up and recover...it's like I had the idea/belief that I should be able to..and that nothing will happen to me....yet I see I didn't even consider why I wasn't able to...as like initially my Ego was too much to even see what I have been doing to myself in and as my thought/word and deed without and even realizing the severity of how creation in fact works as the working of words as the put together manuals and instructions for how things are to be formed as the information used to build the structures. No, I didn't think it of any paramount importance for me to be so disciplined that I accounted for Everything within myself...each and every single thing.

So, Oopsie, I have had a slip up a mighty great fall...due to some seriously neglected...disregarded and regarded accounting...as my self valuation...self-evaluation....and the irony here...is in and as how I have been living my-self-created-evaluation...and so the results are specific to me here...as my relationship reflection of me here as/with/within Everything here...and fuck....it is clear that the moment to moment application of practical living self-responsibility has been less than effective..and therefore I am facing the consequences of believing Life to be the Kneed for Ego...as like the only way to function here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the kneed for Ego I created within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that if everyone here is an ego, than might as well be a super ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to trap myself within ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I've fucked myself so hard within ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having continuously fucked myself within and as ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting lost within my own ego.  I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the trick of ego in being for getting and the forgetting that ensues within the starting point of being all for getting...as like not seeing and realizing the togetherness of words as complimentary players here...but just abusing words as instruments of consumption.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abusing words as a result of accepting and allowing myself to often regard words as meaningless...and to therefore never really care about myself or take myself as the living words seriously.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for seriously fucking within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for seriously fucking Everyone, Everything up.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to face myself and take responsibility for fucking everything up.....like....always believing to such an extent...that I do not require to be totally accountable as being the One here who is responsible for Everything being fucked up.

I forgive myself for fearing my own judgement within placing myself in a position of standing accountable for Everything here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself as being too big an Ego to actually stand as a self-responsibility completely, embodying self-ownership for the total fuckup that exists here as everything.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get fearful in talking about Everything as a point of Existing and Life regard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking of myself as Everything...and that being like too much.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as too little from the perspective of my potential ability to live self-responsibility here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to substantiate myself for real with my acceptances and allowances.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting stuck in personality character constructions that are less than Who I really am.


To Be Continued

13/03/2015 ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- >>> 01/01/21

THE JOURNEY CONTINUES,

Picking up where I last left off here:

"TOO LITTLE" and "TOO MUCH" is EGO.

Equality and Oneness Together as One WORKS WELL to  Prevent the possibility of self-compromising.

PROCESS is for the PROS TO SAY ------- > PRO SAYS #worldclassplayer

To Be Continued

Day 709 - The Greatness of Gratitude

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for polarizing the usage of Gratitude where I would believe that I can only be grateful for moment in which I have a positive reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how limiting my participation within Life is when one is within a state of reaction to events and situations whether they are positive or negative.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining gratitude with a positive energetic charge.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how to in fact practically live Gratitude Always.

I forgive myself for thinking that Gratitude is a selective thing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating gratitude with the giving of thanks and that I only need to give thanks sometimes...like when someone gives me something and they are expecting to hear thanks as like the social etiquette reciprocation appropriate response.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for learning about "thanks" from my parents from the perspective of being told to say "thank you" to people when the give me something...by kind of coercing me into it in the moment as a child.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I developed an apprehensiveness towards Gratitude and Giving/Living Thanks...'Thank You' as a result of experiencing a sort of coercion about the application of "thank you" and giving/living thanks...as like the implication that I am not it and that I have to become it.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how I developed a sort of rebellious attitude and resistance toward the practical living of "gratitude as the greatest attitude"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I copied my parents.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the gratitude in Always for my parents.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the gratitude for Everything in Always.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the Gratitude of myself in Always Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of selective usage and application of gratitude as a great attitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for half assing gratitude within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding gratitude.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the embodiment of myself as Gratitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for faking to live words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the significance of ALWAYS all ways Assistance and Support as What is Best for All Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for Judging ALWAYS.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of judging ALWAYS.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to question how to in fact Live words as the embodiment of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the profound marvel that is here as the effective usage of words as the Potential existent within and as words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how the potential I see within words is in fact a reflection of the Potential that exists within Me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the difference between minimizing the application of Gratitude and maximizing the application of Gratitude as the Greatest attitude....and within this, I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the profoundly absurd and ridiculousness of deliberately choosing to minimize the expression of Gratitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for going to great lengths in order to spite myself, as like justifying the suppression of greatness within myself...that I deliberately hid through blame and self-denial.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make sense of non sense because of a particular energetic push or pull experience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my relationship development with words has been like a push or pull experience as like wanting to gravitate towards the word or away from the word...as like in both cases creating a sort of dissonance in myself regard towards the practical living of Words where the Words are either mostly positive/negative/neutral.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Gratitude of Slowing down within myself to Stop the Energetic experience.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the Gratitude of Grounding the experiences of Energetic reaction within real time moment to moment application, as the practical living realization and self-correction of self-forgiveness/love/gratitude here as who I am.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding gratitude within myself as a physical loving action...as like to see for real and care with careful consideration for all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how great Gratitude is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from Gratitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how Great Life is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the greatness of every moment here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying myself as less than the greatness of the moment Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing myself as One and Equal as the Greatness which is Life Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing less than Gratitude and Greatness for Life.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the consequences of accepting and allowing less than Gratitude and Greatness for all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting lost within self-righteousness as the result of not understanding or realizing Gratitude,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing my words to exist as less than Gratitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Gratitude for WORDS.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding Words.

I commit myself to the Greatness of Words.

I commit myself to Greatness.

I commit myself to Gratitude as the Greatest living Attitude.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the application of self-forgiveness is in fact an action of Gratitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to gift and give gratitude to myself here....and that this is in fact a practical living self-responsibility....because I need to live gratitude for myself in order to be able to give/share Gratitude with All Life Here.

I commit myself to living the Gift of Gratitude.

I am Grateful for Gifting myself Gratitude, the Greatest Attitude.

I commit myself to Gratitude, the Greatest Attitude.


To Be Continued

Day 707 - Fun Knee Forgiveness on Inner Jury

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to weigh myself down within holding onto memories/thoughts/feelings/emotions of the past that recycle within my mind that act as like a perpetuating strain and stress on my physical body and negatively influence my ability to walk.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how recycling through the same thoughts/feelings/emotions of and as the past perpetuates a strain on my ability to walk and move effectively here....and I forgive myself for not realizing how my knee injury accident correlates to a buildup of acceptances and allowances within myself that have not been properly dealt with.  I see realize and understand that allowing polarized energies to exist within my mind/body does not support the well being of my body/mind. I commit myself to releasing the energetic nature as conflict/polarity from the relationships that exist within my mind and body. I realize the absurd ridiculousness of holding charges against myself as specific positive or negative energetic resonances the support separation and dissonance from the starting point of Oneness and Equality

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the fun within the injury I can have as like how to make light of the situation and make the best of the situation as what is best support and assistance for myself here.  I realize the absurd ridiculousness of being hard and heavy on myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for questioning the attitude of gratitude in relationship to having injured my knee. I mean this is not the situation that I would have knowingly chose for myself to experience but now that I am within it...I am grateful the opportunity and the chance of self-reflection. Living gratitude has been a process of sorts as I see I have sometimes had the tendency to want to justify an attitude of something less than gratitude...as like a form of disdain and suffering and self-victimization because it seems like that is what I should project in comparing my current situation to past situations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how as a result of holding onto judgement about particular events in the past that I have justified particular attitudes based on an emotion and or feeling reaction as a result of perpetuating points of comparison within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have in the past talked myself out of gratitude as the great living attitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to live gratitude as the greatest attitude unconditionally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have unconsciously superimposed my daily attitude from a starting point of energetic reaction. And within this I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how I can in fact stop the any and all energetic attitudes and actually create the living of gratitude of my attitude here.

I see realize and understand gratitude to be the greatest attitude because gratitude comes from giving and an appreciation for giving....and living gratitude unconditionally means to give to oneself unconditionally as the best giving support and assistance one can in fact give.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding Always in which gratitude as a great attitude is in fact the giving of self-support and assistance here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to have fun in every moment of my knee injury.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying believing that I must be serious and reserve because I have injured my knee.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really knowing how I should express myself within having an injury.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience myself as discombobulated at moments when asked how I am doing within and as my day to day experience of myself within the process of recovering from a knee injury. I see have been confused from the perspective of believing that I shouldnt project myself as being to good or like in such good spirits because of the circumstances that I am dealing with...and because of this make believe fear I see I have created as like believing that if I enjoy my recovery process too much than maybe I will get injured again.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to enjoy the healing process within and as my knee injury.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that if I will be self sabotaging myself in some way if I make a good time out of a what I believe to be shouldn't be such a good time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying a less than my potential greatness experience for myself within and as a result of accepting and allowing myself to live less than "gratitude as the greatest attitude in every moment".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the funny within and as the play time available to me within walking the injury recovery process.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to make the best of my time in every moment,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard my best efforts in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the playful ease of living gratitude as the greatest attitude in every moment as a the way to support and assist the best for oneself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not even considering all the opportunity and potential existent for me in walking the knee healing process.


When and as I see myself faced within a person asking me how I am doing today.....I see realize and understand that it is ridiculous absurd to fear giving an answer that is too great/awesome as like that would then result in potentially accepting future experiences that are less than great and awesome. I realize and understand the irony of trying to rationalize decisions through fear...as like they work out completely in the opposite manner and that which you don't want happens...and it's like a ridiculously absurd experience because it's logically sound to oneself in being illogical....yet one doesnt realize the mindfuck because one is engulfed within it....which is like a vortex of consumption until one is able to take a breath and step out of one's own very self defined entrapment and sentencing. It's funny and ridiculously absurd the trains of thought we ride without even regarding ourselves as the conductor of such a construction.

I commit myself to gratitude as the greatest living attitude.

I commit myself to giving myself the gift of gratitude as my living attitude here.

I see, realize and understand how gratitude is a great attitude enabling effective relationship development and creation..because in living gratitude one can in fact see greatness within oneself and others here.,,,which is key in creation process as one is able to see the value and worth...and the best ways possible.

I commit myself to greatness.

I commit myself to let go of worrying about consequences for being to good or behaving better than is expected of me based on the situations and or conditions I am within.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my very own gratitude within seeing and realizing the energetic mind consciousness construction within and as my thoughts/feelings/emotions.

To Be Continued

Day 706 - Fun Knee

It's Funny how things work out. Like when you see and realize a connection you hadn't previously considered, or like You realize something you had been avoiding/accepting that was totally ridiculous and absurd.  Like, specifically when you get into the dynamics of the relationships...this is where the fun and the haha funny moments are as like the enjoyment of the fun that can be shared together through learning which really is in fact a caring and sharing because the caring is sharing and the sharing is caring.

Why does Fun and Knee sound like funny?

Is there some sort of connection here? What's the correlation?


Well, if you look at what is really fun or funny....the funny is fun...but the fun isn't necessarily funny...unless it's added to it so to speak...as like fun can exist with the funny...but funny doesn't really exist without the fun. because have a look, if you are closed off from having any fun...it is tough to really learn anything effectively in a way that is like aha...I get it, I got it....I see....that's funny.

Funny in and of itself is an expansive point of Fun...as like the ever expanding point of fun. Funny, really is an integral part of the learning process here. Self-enjoyment is a cool description I see here as describing a relationship which is fun and funny because enjoyment....specifically self-enjoyment is a shared point...and if you look at the make up of our cells here...I mean ourselves here....you see and hear that there is so many cells/selves here....like there is so many parts that make up the whole.

All joking a side because funny is in the ability to decide as like to see for real what is in fact what. Funny is beyond the make believe. Funny is the Know thy Self curriculum. What is funny about funny and all funny a side is that You Decide...if You Can See the Funny which is a decision...which is funny in and of itself...because it's a logical reasoning that perhaps is illogical in deciding the decision you've sided with.

How I got to the Fun Knee here as my creative writing play work here is as a result of giving extra close attention to my Knee as I am in the process of Healing a Knee Injury. It's interesting in how giving extra close attention to a specific part, the potential to create new connections and possibilities exists.

In looking at myself acceptances and allowances here, I have been facing the questions of Fun and Funny in regards to my Knee. Specifically I reflect here in the self-movement of myself within and as points of Fun and Funny as the Creative Play Work Here. See, I see and realize myself as the Orchestrator of Who and How I am within and as my participations here. Gratitude is the attitude that I am working and playing with. Sometimes this has been difficult...as I have many times tripped myself up on my own self-righteousness...which is like a hiccup in effective breathing/seeing here as what is what for what it is.

What is opening up here for me is the abdication of the Funny and Fun within myself where I have allowed and accepted myself to move along without regard for the fun and funny within and as the work I do here. This strain I have done onto myself I see reflecting my knee injury as my current inability to walk effectively, as my body has revealed to me here...'stop...you cant walk like you've been walking....you are facing the consequences of accepting and allowing accumulated restraint/strain that has now manifested itself in the form of an Injury...as the inner jury no longer will continue as the strain and restraint.'

Interesting it is to see the funny in the serious and the fun in the serious as the serious fun. I find it interesting that there often comes to be a dissonance or a disconnect from the fun when there is seriousness. This sentiment of "seriousness" I see as the 'Adult' mind...as like the losing the fun of childhood and perhaps trying to get back to it...or maybe having lost it all together and not even realizing what has been lost because one is so enveloped in the "serious".  Like for instance I do not recall as a child having the same extent of mind activity...thought action as I have today....and I am not certain that all the thought action is a good thing...as I have noticed that often the though action can be of a serious nature...as like the 'police man in the head' kind of thing where there is always some sort of systematic judgement and stereo type casting taking place...and it's like really a money calculator when you see things for what they are simplistically....because the way money works is also within and as the emotion and feeling of the body whether it is positive feeling or negative emotion...both are perpetuating the dependency and the continuation of one another...and so the mind of though/feeling/emotion becomes like an individualized calculator of accounting the individualized and specialized self interest and regard for the very self created frequencies of one's particular value.

It's interesting to see how my creative writing play here has taken a turn into looking at the mind and money in regards to the adult...


To Be Continued

Day 705 - Knee Injury and the Inner Jury

This is an introductory post into what will be a series of writing's about myself in relationship to a most recent knee injury I have suffered.

A few points I would like to make note of here that will be focus topic areas of investigation:



Looking at the word Injury...and Inner Jury....and the Inner Journey required as self-reflection upon the build up of acceptances and allowances.


The vocabulary of the knee. There is much vocabulary about the knee that is somewhat foreign to me from the perspective of not being well versed in the specific words/parts of the Knee and Knee area.


Looking more closely at the functioning of the knee as a whole and as the make up of all the individual parts.


The Knee and Structural Resonance Alignment. What does the knee signify in relationship to the Mind...specifically the consequence of an accumulation of energy as Mind Consciousness Systems.


Healing my Knee with Self-forgiveness and Self-responsibility.

Note: I have looked at the structural resonance documents on more than one occasion and my self-forgiveness will be supported directly by the support and assistance I have received within reading the documents. See the link here for specific document in regards to the knee.

I will begin here at the end and work with the beginning in taking care of all points of consideration that require attention. Beginning with a general opening of self-forgiveness as the initial support and assistance recognition to allow the aid in and as my self-corrective process.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the "inner jury" within and as an Injury.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the consequences of unnecessary physical body suffering as a result of accumulated memories within myself from the starting point of feelings and or emotions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the impact of holding onto the memories of the past within my body with the particular charges of emotion and or feeling.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for nor realizing and understanding how in fact memories can in fact crystallize in the body as an accumulation of accepted and allowed energetic possession that kind of like leaches off of the physical body.

I  forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the value of my knee for granted.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the totality of my physical body for granted.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting to a point of regard as a result of unfortunate consequence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being responsible for injuring me knee.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for hurting myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being insincere with the practical living daily regard for my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding all the parts of my knee and how all the parts of my knee relate to all the rest of the parts of my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being inconsiderate and believing myself to have too many physical body parts to be able to in fact regard and consider all my parts.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having thought about regarding all my body parts from the perspective of getting to know all the names of the physical body parts...but to within this regard,  have a reaction of doubt and of the thought/thinking that it is not possible for me to get familiar with the vocabulary of all my body parts...or that it's not practical....even if I would like to know all the vocabulary of which I am made of.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that it is just too difficult for me to be aware of all my body parts.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing making the effort to get to know all my body parts because there is so many body parts I have taken for granted within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the physical body for granted.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that my physical body is just to complicated to really know and understand absolutely.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making excuses as to why it is not likely that I can know and understand myself completely here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be impaired by vocabulary.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the patients required to integrate and develop vocabulary that I am not familiar with.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not really know and understand myself/physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having the idea and attitude that it's just kind of impossible to really know and understand everything about the human physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying and distracting myself with excuses as to why I do not need to work as much as I am able to on a daily basis in getting to know my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting daily regard, appreciation, gratitude and consideration for my physical body.l

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to specifically know and understand the totality of my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the self-intimacy required in actually getting to know my whole physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating conflict with my body as a result of how I am participating within my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mistreat my body as a result of not taking self-responsibility for my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not taking self-responsibility for my body with the support and assistance of my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mistreat my mind as a result of not taking self-responsibility for my body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard myself with a mind and body that require regard and consideration equal and one as what is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding what regard and consideration for Everything as Oneness and Equality in fact means.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the physicality of words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to self-correct my misuse of words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the physical self-direction as living actions within as the words as sound here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having conflict within belief about what is possible within and as the Living Words Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for polarizing potential with disbelief, as like making sense out of non sense.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the irrationality within arguing/disagreeing with myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the impact of having even just one point out of physical alignment as Oneness and Equality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how consequences are perpetuated as the fear of more consequences existing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating hardship for myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being negligently unaware and dare I say oblivious to the stress and strain I have done onto my physical body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for struggling with the living of specific regard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding things within being lazy as like not wanting to live the patience required to investigate the detailed specifics of a point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for glossing over specific points.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a prefference for generalizing information as opposed to being specialized in detail as like really specific with information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that it is better to be more specific with information than it is to be less specific with information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to compare and contrast the point of generalizing information.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the patience required to see the detailed specifics of all things here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for glossing over the detailed specifics with regards to the specialized vocabulary about the knee parts in and around the knee as that which contributes to the knee existing here as the knee.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being lazy with language.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that I do not require to be a specialized authority of words as the authority of knowing myself here because there exists so many different kind of doctors that specialize in different sections/parts/areas of expertise...and since most people are not master specialists of themselves as like know it alls....why should I be one?

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing self-responsibility for myself here as the physical authority of myself here. I forgive myself for justifying a lack of accountability for self-actualization of myself here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making sense of not taking self-responsibility for the authority of knowing myself here because there exists so many different kinds of specialists here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I am not required to be an authority here because there already exists so many different types of authority figures here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created an idea of myself as being anti-authority....and I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of such a notion as like creating a fight with myself internally that is perceived externally within other types of authority here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing the practical possibilities of self-actualization as self-authorization here. Meaning, that self-responsibility is a knowing how to physically direction one self here as all as equals.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand the complications that are created within and as the acceptance and allowance of inequality..,,and that accountability and consideration is much easier to process from the starting point of equality and oneness together here as what is best for all Life.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to write myself free everyday.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the consequences of passing up even just one opportunity to write.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the motivation within and as self-forgiveness from and as the perspective of fostering and facilitating the development of new growth...as like creating something that wasnt here before....as like a new opportunity is born.