Day 718 - Removing the Ego from Greatness, the Grounding Process

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into the point of big ego as a result of having good results within particular points of sharing/performance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thirsting for the recognition as the praise within a job well done as like mastery in execution.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mentally masturbate accepted and allowed suppression into a transmuted experience of Superiority that feels so good from the perspective of getting myself high within and as my very own self-induced trite.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the psychic vampirism within and as the accepted and allowed big ego reaction as getting high as a result of the actions/responses others share.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking the ultimate life and living is within and as the established status position within the world system as recognized fame and fortunate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying the inferiority which fuels the attitude of ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the self-righteousness within ego as like believing that I am entitled to a positive high energetic buzz.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the pain and trauma as the self-inflicted self-abuse that exists within and as the reactionary play out of ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for bouncing around in reactionary polarity play as character personifications as either big or small ego...based upon the judgement of sizing myself up in relationship to others here as my ego competition for ultimate supremacy here as like the KingOfTheCastle, the One Winner.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted to examine the reactionary positive energy high or big/super ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing the solidarity here as the relationship with all my peers here as the various reflections of myself as One and Equal as Everything here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a dissonance within myself as an ego personality that is incomplete that cannot relate to all Life here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for denying the abuse of greed as ego.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self-righteous in fighting for my very own limitation as the result of being defensive in relationship to other ego's here/

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for participating in sports and activities from the starting point of ego as like the encouragement of dissonance within myself for the potential moment of bliss that may result from existing as the great one winner for a brief moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard all Life here within and as a result of being preoccupied with my own ego status in relationship to others ego status.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to thrive of the misfortune of others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being blinded within positive energy participation as a like a form of mental masturbation into a daze,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to stumble and fumble around within a haze of positive energy feelings of disregard for the actually status and state of World affairs.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing accounting responsibility for myself as an able bodied being that is here that can support the stopping of bullshit here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the propagated ego hero character that exists within our world that is like the status acceptance and allowance agreement that abusing life for an experience is is what this world is all about.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for just wanting to be a part of the big ego story here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring and regarding to be well accepted and regarded by others as a result of doubting myself and believing that I can only trust myself if I have the trust of many others believing in me.  I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how fake this believed trust to be, when one rationalizes one's very own state of mind from a starting point of dissonance in relationship to Everything here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowiing myself to encourage the continuation of cognitive dissonance in our shared world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for limiting my potential expressions here within the justification that it feels good to win at the expense of another feeling bad in loosing and that is just the way things are...so the decision is either abuse or be abused. I realize the absurd ridiculousness of the mentality of apathy, lack of self-trust, lack of self-confidence, and the lack of empathy and remorse.

When and as I see myself going into a energetic high experience in and as reaction to receiving positive feedback, I stop and breathe, I see the specifics of the point that exists as a dissonance within myself...I forgive myself for accepting and allowing such a dissonance to exist inside myself as the acceptance of myself as less than life here. I realign myself as self-regard as I care to make sure I effectively remove the contamination in my vocabulary and within this I reestablish the terms of agreement here as what is best for all life from the starting point of myself existence here as Oneness and Equality.  I realize and understand I am in the midst of the birthing process of myself actualization here as All as One as Equal. I commit myself to the humbling gratitude in seeing/realizing and physically learning to stand and walk and move in always that are best for all of Life here.

I commit myself to stopping apathy.

I commit myself to living self-trust.

I commit myself to living self-confidence.

I commit myself to empathy.

I commit myself to compassion and remorse.

I realize the practical application of not allowing myself to be consumed within any point, because that is not practical in supporting my ability to live responsibility here.

I commit myself to exposing the ridiculousness of the ego games here.

I commit myself to educate on the character dynamics of ego.

I commit myself to stop perpetuating our culture of psychic vampirism.

I commit myself to removing the ego from Greatness and grounding myself within the earth here as commitment to Life.

Day 669 - Work and Play

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a negative energetic charge in relationship to Work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a positive energetic charge in relationship to Play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I can counteract Work having a negative energetic charge by attaching Play to work with a positive energetic charge.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a sort of neutral energetic relationship with regards to work and play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a preference towards play over work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating opposition towards work in play...as like having these words existing within me as opposing forces.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring Work to be Play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for struggling to always have a harmonious balance between work and and play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to give up play time in order to take on more work time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the responsibility of creating more work for myself and less play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that for work to exist without play is for work to exist without enjoyment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to require to work without having enjoyment within the work that I am doing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating conflict within my effectiveness in maximizing my working potential as a result of having a preference towards spending my time playing sports/games.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having always the idea that I should look to minimize the amount of work I do and maximize the amount of time I play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to resist exercising my working potential.

I forgive myself for being in opposition towards work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for connecting work to a point of survival that I have to do.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting upset that I live in a reality where work is required and to a certain degree enforced as a necessity...while at the same time play is not regarded as being an equal necessity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself for creating so much play time for myself when in fact I live in a world where a tremendous amount of abuse and suffering exists...and that there is much work to be done in order to remediate the situation to an optimum/harmonious balance of both work and play.

I realize that in order for the World in which I live to get to a point of assistance and support for all life to have an optimum and harmonious balance of work and play requires a tremendous amount of work.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to let go of leisurely pursuits so that I can take on more Working responsibilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding the opportunity that exists for me to Work as a Leader within the Wold System.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having the attitude that I don't really want the responsibility of having to work very much and that I would rather focus on having free time for myself to be playing and learning how to play better.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a procrastination attitude towards Work and within this directly comparing Work to Play...as like Work being of less value to me than Play time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being apprehensive about creating Work for myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a preference for only engaging myself within Work that doesn't really seem like Work and could be definitely be regarded as Play.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having judgment about myself as being selfish from the perspective of only really regarding myself and no other life within not wanting to Work and and Wanting to Play as much as Possible.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that even looking at this point of creating more Work and Responsibility for myself is stupid...and like why would anyone want to create more work for themselves.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing the need for me to be a Working Professional within the World System and that I do not really require to be educated within the various professional fields of study because there is already so many professionals working within the various fields of study...and thus there is already, seemingly more than enough people Working.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for when I was a child, creating this idea about not really needing to contribute to society because there is already so many people contributing to the way society functions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abdicating my self-responsibility for the ways in which I function/participate within society.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for logically reasoning as a child that I do not require to involve myself within a position of importance or significance within society because there is already so many people looking after these positions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having some shame and judgement about acknowledging my resistances to taking on Work and dedicating myself to laboring the facilitation of great change within Our World System that is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not pushing myself as hard as I am physically able to push myself within Laboring great change within the Word System.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist as a sort of outcast in the word system from the perspective of deliberately minimizing my Work/Labor within the world system.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to take responsibility for the World System that I participate within.


To Be Continued

Day 536 Private Property and Licenses-The King of the Castle

Many times I've had selfish greedy thoughts about wanting to be in control of resources so that I can be the one who collects the profit at the expense of others having to pay me because I am the owner of property. Like for instance...I've always been really annoyed with the concept of royalty...like why the fuck it's accepted and allowed. How about I be declared the royal ruler of earth and everyone pays me because I am the owner of everything....or almost everything...and how about I stand in the position as the ruling authority to say how things should be so that I can have the perfect life where all my desires are satisfied...basically what I'm saying is that if someone should get a free ride and not have to work and do slave labor....why should I?

I see and realize how my particular thinking doesn't really solve the fuckedness of the situations that exist within the world...it;s more like me being spiteful and jealous of other spiteful people who happen to be standing in higher/greater positions of spitefulness and greed...and are benefiting from the power position at the expense of others suffering.

I realize it is fucked to just want myself to not be fucked and allow others to exist within a fucked up situation....and I realize and understand it's extremely fucked up to only regard myself and not consider everything else.

I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of close mindedness as the delusion of self interest and grandeur while not regarding the consequences of such close minded focused projections and desires.

I was thinking recently...why don't I create the need for more licensing requirements to do things...where I create the business where people are required to come to me and take a whatever course to become certified to do whatever and get a whatever it is specific license. Like I mean the whole licensing thing is getting ridiculous...and I know it;s all about money...and my thinking is how I can profit and make easy money so I can have an easy life....but what about the consequences...the spitefulness within creating and perpetuating bullshit so that I can have an easy time and privileges here...like I had thought...what if you needed a license to grow vegetables..and so everyone who grew vegetables had to pay me a licensing fee....or what about if you want to throw a ball around in public....what about a licensing fee to be able to throw a ball around....or what about a licensing fee to speak in public....or what about a license to take public transit in addition to paying a fee to take the bus or any other method of public transit....like what about requiring a license to be able to be a passenger in a plane...as a method of terrorism prevention....so you are pre-screened and therefore because you bought your license you don't have to go through all that bullshit airport security because you got your license you can just swipe your card....or what about just make people have a license to travel in addition to airport security....basically what I'm getting at is that due to the inherent fuckedness of how our money system functions in the world...increasingly there is more and more bullshit created through law and legislation that perpetuates and exacerbates the inherent fuckedness of our world/earth...so that new generations can be insured to grow up within an ever evolving levels of fuckedness...because people are needing to survive within this inherent fuckedness and the nature of the game we have created is to spit on each other in hopes that by spitting on someone else we wont get spit on and that we will be able to prosper from having created and accepted and allowed disregard for our fellow beings here.

I don't think these thoughts I've had are cool at all....there all quite nasty really...reflecting the inherent nastiness of  myself within and as a reflection of humanity.

Human civilization is quite a nasty thing.

The truth is, as long as we have a money system that does not regard and value Life with the utmost importance as the highest value....we are existing within a money system that is less than great that devalues Life.

What;s interesting when you ask yourself, what is Life? What qualifies as Life? Who and What is Life? You see and realize that all actual substance is Life. This self-introspection requires one to dare to be self-honest in investigating how we have disregarded the quality of our substance here...and have compromised and disregarded our substance because that is what we were born to do...substance abusers produced by substance abusers...I mean look how substance abuse is a real problem...the fact that we don't even generally typically  regard ourselves as substance abusers if we are not doing copious amounts of illicit drugs is absurd. Because have a look; our body, our earth is our substance here...and have a look at what is being accepted and allowed to happen to our body, our earth. Abuse. Unprecedented levels of abuse. For what? For Why? Because we don't even know why....because we justify why as our just if why...as our fictional justice system because our relationship with words is of questionable structural integrity...because resistance is futile...because were so narrow minded within our self-interested pursuits and desires to be happy within the most extreme dire straits....that the coping defense and protection mechanisms of our minds/ego programming is constantly evolving and upgrading in complexity and cleverness cunning ways to out wit and outsmart ourselves as to trick ourselves into not realizing and understand how fucked we are...that hey might as well just get fucked up and believe it to be a good time fucking up our body our earth because of peer pressure...like because it;s popular to be fucked up...and fuck why not right? like, fuck it. right?...we only live once so might as well say fuck it right? it;s all about the here after anyways right....how the fuck and what the fuck kind of here after is there going to be for anyone who diminishes their substance body of earth...how can anyone claim to be at peace in the hereafter when they contributed to the fuckedness that exists to this very day....would there not exist a here after until what is here has been established and accounted for as like the very very very basic mathematics of 1+1=2?

So the links posted below are few links I looked at prior to writing this blog...the first one economists Journey to Life How will companies be Nationalized is a cool read within and as a solution to implement and foster practical living change within and as the proposed Living Income Guaranteed.

If You are not familiar with Living Income Guaranteed, Google it.

http://economistjourneytolife.blogspot.ca/2013/12/day-255-how-will-companies-be.html

The Next couple of links here are examples reflecting upon my thoughts and desire for profit off of resources at the expense of others...looking at the company Nestle specifically and how the company supports the privatization of water and thinks that water being an inalienable human right is extreme and irrational and that... well... because, water is import/vital component of Life substance/subsistence that it should be bought and sold like most other components of Life at the expense of much suffering and abuse

http://www.trueactivist.com/nestle-ceo-water-is-not-a-human-right-should-be-privatized/

http://www.nestle-waters.com/healthy-hydration/water-body

NOTE: ALL LIFE IS VALUABLE, AND WE ARE ALL A PART OF TEAM LIFE....TIME TO START REALIZING AND UNDERSTANDING WHO YOUR TEAMMATES ARE AND TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR THE ABUSE YOU'VE INFLICTED ONTO YOUR FELLOW MATES.