Day 720 - Income Tax

I think Income Tax is total fucking bullshit.  From my perspective it is a total scam.  This blog here today is not an investigation of the law in which exists in regards to Income Tax.  This blog here today is in regards to the emotions I have accepted and allowed to exist as a Reaction to Income Tax.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get angry about "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for projecting blame in regards to the existence of "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting frustrated about "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting emotionally frustrated with people who believe "Income Tax" makes sense.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience myself as being victimized by "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self-righteous in regard to "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being impatient within communicating with others about "Income Tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to people who do not give a shit about "Income Tax" and just pay somebody to take care of it for them.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that "Income Tax" is total fucking bullshit.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking "Income Tax" is a scam.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that forgiving myself for something doesn't make the point more or less true but in fact it is a point of self-responsibility in removing the dissonance between oneself and the point. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to let go of the negative energy within myself in regards to Income Tax.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created difficulty for myself in releasing the negative energy associated with things that are negative.  Within this, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that if I were to get rid of the negative energy about such points than perhaps the point would be mistakenly disregards as not negative anymore.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for conditioning myself to think and see in and as reactions where it's like I have become accustomed to associate a positive or negative energetic value with the words/things I see.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing making mistakes as a result of releasing myself from negative or positive energetic possession.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of fearing to let go of the positive/negative energy experience/reaction to things in this world because then things would no longer be the same. Within this, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have been fearing change.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to change energetic relationships out of fear that I don't know what will come of them and to a certain extent all I have ever known is relationships from the starting point of reaction as energetic experience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I allowed the words "income tax" to exist as negative energy triggers within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for placing myself in conflict with the words "income tax".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the absurd ridiculousness of placing myself in and as a war of words....where I am in a state of flux with regards to words as either a positive or negative or neutral reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining reaction to exist as something that is bad that is negatively charged, even though reactions can be positive energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a neutral energetic reaction towards "Income"...and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a negative energetic reaction towards "tax".


To Be Continued

Day 618 Relationship Association

So, I've become aware of how I have little moments of accepted and allowed justified judgement within myself as a form of self-talk/backchat...where within this behaviour I am sitting/standing within a point/heir of self-righteousness where I create this better than perspective...where I look at the person within my reality as less than me...I have done this within the justification that there being stupid...or don't realize that there being stupid...and whats really stupid about this is that I talk to myself about this...as like justifying and believing it to be necessary that I process and figure this out about and by talking about it to myself from the starting point of reacting to it...and what's funny and ridiculous about this is that within my mind...I see how I have been validating this behaviour from within the starting point of wanting to make sense of what the fuck is happening in my environment...like wanting to define another being..as like make sense of why they are like they are...what's interesting about this...is that its delusional...because obviously there is so many factors that goes into a person being exactly the way they are. What's also interesting about all of this is that this explains me as why I am exactly the way I am. And so within seeing the small reactions...I am able to investigate and forgive myself for all the little moments...and get to know myself for real as a point of and as self-intimacy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying judgment within myself as a form of self-talk/backchat...where within this behaviour I am sitting/standing within a point/heir of self-righteousness where I create this better than perspective...where I look at the person within my reality as less than me. I see/realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of such participations. When and as I see myself creating judgment within myself as a result of having even a minor reaction within myself, I stop and breathe, I say,"I am here"...I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating separation between myself and another being here. I see/realize/understand how within understanding the nature of a reaction I participated within...I am in fact able to see how I created the particular relationship dynamics that originated from a state of cognitive dissonance as manifested perceived separation. I commit myself to releasing myself from manifested perceived separation in my relationships with beings here. I commit myself to stand/sit One and Equal here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying stupidity. I see/realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of justifying stupidity. When and as I see myself trying to make sense of something within my mind by justifying stupidity as the reasoned logical explanation, I stop and breathe..I say "I am here"..I self-reflect upon the point in question...I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself of for justifying and rationalizing stupidity as an acceptable human condition that is beyond repair. I commit myself to self-correcting every aspect of my accepted and allowed justifications within and as the word stupidity. I commit myself to investigating all my relationships and the nature of my accepted and allowed word associations. I see/realize/understand the practical living support within remediating my vocabulary, as a way to prevent cognitive dissonance within myself here. I commit myself to take self-responsibility for my mind. I commit myself to purifying my vocabulary. I commit myself to purifying the nature of myself here as what I accept and allow to exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself of not realizing and understanding the delusion of trying to make sense of things when in fact common sense is lost within the moment and statrting point of trying to make sense of things. When and as I see myself trying to make sense of things, I stop and breathe, I say "I am here"..I look at my starting point here, I see/realize/understand that the starting point here as what is best for all Life is in fact always common sense. I see/realize and undestand that I do not require to make sense of things when in fact I allow and accept myself to stand within and as the self-direction of and as common sense...as like this is the point of self-reflection here...where in fact I am giving myself the opportunity to see with clarity here the common sense reality that is always here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting myself access to practical living common sense reality within trying and attempting to make sense of things within and as my mind consciousness system. I commit myself to establishing and solidifying practical living common sense reality within myself here. I commit myself to the flexibility of mind within and as common sense physical reality. I commit myself to understanding and self-realizing common sense here.

Day 607 Expectation

The word "Expectation" is a word in which I have flipped flopped within as a result of creating and projecting conflicting thought/feelings/emotions about future projections. It's interesting to look at how I have in many instances defined an upcoming potential experience/participation with positive or negative energy. I have associated the positive and or negative energy upon the word 'expectation'.

It's interesting to see how my particpations within particular events/activities/possibilities/opportunities have in fact been compromised as a result of how I have accepted and allowed the word "expectation" to exist within myself. Like, I have moved myself within an positive energetic buzz towards things that I have defined as having a positive energetic expectation. Also, there has been a hesitance/resistance for myself to participate within events/activities/opportunities where I have created a negative energetic charge towards my expectation within a particular point.

It's absurdly ridiculous to see and realize how I have created a reliance upon forming opinions as my self-defined expectations about future potential happenings. What is interesting about this is that I have justified expectations based upon my current relationships towards particular things within my reality. 

What is interesting is that it's total bullshit....like I do not require to have positive or negative energetic expectations prior to participating within a particular point.

I see/realize/understand how I can examine potential expectations for future endeavors as like calculating different possible play-outs within future events...but even within doing so...it is just a belief and or an assumption...which is a guess...a form of prediction...a kind of justification...a reasoned explanation as why it could be this particular way...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing I require to be dependent upon creating justifications as a way to validate my movement within and as a point of self-righteousness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how it is in fact a point of self-sabotage and self-rightouesness to move towards or away from points of participation based upon creating an emotion/feeling about the particular point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that I need emotions and feelings to move myself within physical reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be pulled and pushed by the feelings/emotions I have created within myself about particular things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being self-righteous in my conviction and affinity for my thoughts/feelings/emotions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing myself to be bound to my thoughts/feelings/emotions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to consider and regard the impact each and every single thought/feeling/emotions has upon my physical participation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience limitation within my physical body movement as a resulting consequence of accepting and allowing myself to be possessed by various thoughts/feelings/emotions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the ridiculous absurdity of building upon the future with positive energetic expectations/projections. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the psychological mentality of why I would give attention and focus upon projecting positive or negative energetic feelings/emotions. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for compromising the well being of myself within subscribing to positive or negative energetic expectations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying positive energetic expectations within and as a point of desire/want..

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying negative energetic expectations within and as a point fear of loss/consequence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying negative energetic expectations within and as a point of blame/anger/hate/frustration/irritation/confusion/neglect.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the cognitive dissonance that exists within me when and as I react to a particular point with either positive or negative energetic expectation as to how the particular point will play out.


To Be Continued

Day 551 Teacher Student Relations

I experienced a little bit of agitation, frustration, annoyance and irritation within teaching ski lessons today.

The scenarios's that triggered these incidences were when a student or students were causing the rest of the class to wait upon them. What bothered me was that the student or students seemed to have no regard for how their particpations effective the rest of the class.

I see how in these particular incidences I briefly allowed myself to take the events personally and go into a form of reaction/judgement where I victimized myself as a result of the particular events unfolding.

Also I see how I directed blame towards the students in thinking that they ought to know better.

I see how in the particular incidences I lacked empathy and consideration. I see how I momentarily disempowered myself by taking the unfolding of the events personally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the self-victimization of myself within taking the unfolding of events personally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying agitation, frustration, irritation and annoyance as a result of participating within the blame and judgement of accepting and allowing myself to be triggered/stimulated by people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for existing within and as the superiority character within participating as a ski instructor/teacher.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have created a cognitive dissonance towards my students within taking on a superiority personality as being the teacher/instructor. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the equality within student/teacher relations and that I am in fact always both the teacher and the student as like I am also learning from the students as the students also stand within and as the role of teacher.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting annoyed, frustrated, angered and irritated within the incidences where I assumed/believed/perceived that the students ought to know better. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as the student within these particular incidences and how I know better that to judge/assume and create a form of logical self-manipulation within myself as a way to justify and validate separation and the abuse of energetic accumulation within myself. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being inconsiderate towards my students within thinking they ought to know better. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for projecting blame, anger, agitation , frustration, annoyance and irritation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being spiteful and self-righteous within thinking that my students ought to already know these particular things and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resistance to educating and informing others about things I believe and perceive that they ought to already know and understand. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying resentmenttowards my students as a result of having accepted and allowed myself to participate within emotional energetic reactions towards my students.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being selfish within my relationship with others within not fully wanting to give up superiority/inferiority relationship and place myself within their shoes as one and equal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have created moments of temporary hardship/burden in relationships with others as a result of not placing myself within and as the shoes/position of the being. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame within being resistant/reluctant to place myself within and as the shoes/position of all beings within and as this world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being spiteful and self-righteous within neglecting to place myself in the position of each and every single being here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for only sometimes placing myself in the position of other being here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame of only sometimes regarding the equality of Life here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being shameful and spiteful towards the equality and oneness of all Life here.

When and as I see myself looking at another being as separate from myself, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand there is a point of cognitive dissonance here as accepted and allowed manifested separation, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a rift/separation between myself and another being here. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness in perpetuating experiences of cognitive dissonance. I commitmyself to removing all experiences of cognitive dissonance within myself.

When and as I see myself considering being angry, irritated, annoyed, agitated or frustrated, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the disservice I do to Life within accepting and allowing myself to abuse life within the energetic reactions of anger, irritation, annoyance, agitation and frustration. I look to reflect upon the point within myself and see how a moment of opportunity opened up where a particular event/scenario unfolded as a lesson for me to learn from within seeing and realizing where/how/why self-correction is required within myself with specific regards to a particular point. I commit myself to walk the specificity of self-correction with specific regards to a particular point. I commit myself to utilizing the lessons/opportunity that are presented to me here in every moment to self-perfect my standing here within and as the equality and oneness of Life.

When and as I see myself formulating logical assumptions within my mind about others as like what I think/believe/perceive, I stop and breathe, I return the points within myself as I realize and understand this thinking/believing/perceiving is specific to what I have accepted and allowed to exist within my mind...and that it is my self-responsibility to remove the limitations of my thinking/believing/perceiving about others within myreality. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of rationalizing and perpetuating the justification of judgement as a necessary thinking/believing/perceiving mechanism necessary to self-define others within a limited view. I realize and understand that holding onto limited views about others reflects that acceptance and allowance of self-suppression within myself. I commit myself to stop all forms of self-suppression within myself. I commit myself to investigate all forms of self-suppression. I commit myself to stop and prevent self-suppression within myself.

I commit myself to valuing and regarding All Life Equally.

I commit myself to Equality and Oneness within and as Teacher/Student....Student/Teacher relations.