Day 721 - Is Embracing the Cold a Key in Physical Body/Mind Awareness Here?

I've been exploring Cold Water therapy.  It's a fascinating process. I suggest googling, "Wim Hof" aka, "The Ice Man".

The focus of this blog here today is to remove any energy within myself with regards to "Cold".



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to associate fear and a general resistance towards the cold as like not wanting to get cold when and as I am warm.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for regarding Cold as separate from myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a energetically polarized relationship between Hot and Cold,...where Hot is a positive thing and Cold is a negative thing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating Warm with a mild positive energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating the word Chilly with the word bad and also 'not being good' and with a generally accepted negative energetic charge.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having positive energetic experiences within myself as a general point in regards to warm and hot temperatures and also a generally negative energetic experience towards cold temperatures....or as like a bit less good than warm/hot temperatures.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself dismissing the therapeutic support for the body within working with Cold.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the generally accepted ironies within society/cultural-norms about temperature and specifically the words, "Cold" and "Hot".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Irony about the specifics accepted within North America culture about catching a "Cold" as like a type of sickness/flu...and not realizing the irony within a typical "Cold" where one may get "Hot" in the process....which is kind of funny in the process....because it seems like a bit of a balancing act here.....where it's like You have a Cold and thus You get Hot in the process as like the body's way of balancing out the internal temperature within oneself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I am able to have influence on my body's ability to regulate temperature as a result of and as my connection here with breath.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the self-investigation into the nature programming conditioning of the mind consciousness as a result of seeing the extent of my automatic bodily reactions to Cold as like an ingrained Fear point that has been developed and conditioned overtime as a result of and as the way I have conditioned my mind and body here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a survival mentality relationship towards temperature and the specifics of weather...where there is a point of dissonance within myself with regards to the specifics of Temperature and Weather Conditions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for accepting and allowing Weather and Temperature to exist as points that are separate from me to a certain extent as like regarding myself as somewhat inferior to Temperature and Weather.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having been somewhat conditioned throughout the years in my environment to fear the elements to a certain extent as like a matter of survival.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how self-expression can in fact be suppressed in regards to the Elements here as a result of and as the specifics of our emotion/feeling about things and also as a result of accepting and allowing particular points of knowledge and information about things, without actually questioning it for oneself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of the suppression that exists here in our world as a result of and as Word Relationships.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for conditioning my perspective about reality based upon what other people say.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blindly accept points as truth because many people believe them to be truth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having subscribed to the logical rational that if many people are saying something is so, than it must be true and that I do not really require to investigate the point myself because clearly it is true....otherwise so many people wouldn't believe it to be so.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the fuzzy logic at play within and as the general acceptances and allowances of just following along with the crowd....as like not really considering that everyone within the herd is potentially also using this exact same fuzzy logic....which in a way makes everyone within the group a kind of lemming where it's like the blind leading the blind all the way into and as their very own self-demise.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to face the Herd mentality in society/culture here,...even when as as I have tested a point and proven it for myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for conditioning myself to not like to have to deal with directing the Herd on points of realization that are not commonly realized or understood.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being rather self-righteous in keeping my self-realizations and insights to myself as like a sort of coping mechanism with the patience required to communicate points effectively to people who currently do not understand said things/points.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be impatient in word/though/deed as like reacting to the Weather/Temperature of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a hard time fathoming the interconnectedness with bodily well being and breath awareness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a negative energetic reaction towards the words "meditate" and "meditative"...and also for associating these words with various mental masturbation practices...and generally thinking that anyone who meditates is engaging in the egoistic practice of stroking one'es own ego...and that the whole meditation thing is always rooted in the desire for more positive energetic experiences.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the physical body/mind process of self-awareness as Everything Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for assuming that in being born here in this shared reality of ours, that everything is taken care of for me and that I don't really have to do anything...and that I can do whatever I want because Everything is taken Care of.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for blindly assuming that the authorities of Science are accurate in and as what they say to be true.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from and as Science.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to doubt the validity of and as myself as here as the very empirical evidence of and as Science.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created dissonance and opposition in regards to the words Science and Scientists...as like making believe these words to be points of and as self-righteous governing authority.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the scientific process of and as my mind/body relationships here as like the signs and symbols that exist within and as me here that are working together in playing their parts.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for dismissing and disregarding the creative ability of and as each individual part/life that makes up and supports the inner-workings of my Body.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of support always all ways available here within as as the serendipitous interconnectedness of and as the willingness and openness to investigate the possibilities that open up within and as the king of Questions....meaning, where Oneself realizes and understands the self-regard within and as the AsKing...asking of Questions here...as the Self-Authority Governmental Science Investigation and Discovery Journey here...as the growing prosperous potential expansion and development.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the interconnectedness of and as Structural Resonance Alignment within and as the AsKing of QuestIons here as being a point of self-reflection of as as the tune that I am sounding/reflecting here....and how within this process....the answer/solution/question is being mirrored back at me within and my participations within our Shared External Reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a dissonance between my internal reality and my external reality here....where there has been a generally accepted disregard and cover-up operation of avoidance as like a procrastinating neglect of exercising the daily practical living of the extent of self-responsibility required to exist here as a constant and continuous Life Force.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the blockage from and as the extent of oneself existent within and as the air of Ego...as the colorful energetic spectrum of feeling/emotion energy as the range from Inferiority to Superiority.....

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the temperature exchange within oneself as the participation within and as as energetic reactions, from the shortness of breath to the ineffective blood circulation of various degrees of accepted and allowed fear.


To Be Continued

Day 675 - Supplant Fear with faith

“Supplant fear with faith”.  What is faith? Faith is the self-trust and self-responsibility in taking care for self-honestly determining our very own fate.  See, this is an interesting point of correction. To succeed fear is to stop accepting and allowing fear to take over as guide and therefore replace/correct/supplant with faith/self-trust/self-honesty.  It’s interesting that it has been an arduous task for me to actually gift and give myself the support and assistance that I require. What is also of equal interest is that the “learning of lessons”…correcting my mistakes…sometimes took me longer to figure out…because of a rigid stubbornness of mind…a fear mind set…a belief…a blockade in my teach ability….resistance. Gratitude is a great attitude. Being grateful is great. Be great. Live Gratitude. It’s the Best Attitude. Want to be the best and most proficient learner? Be grateful. Always all ways. I have found out the hard way…a most unfortunate tragic comedy really….that to spite myself/life by actually resisting gratitude in my practical living behavior and expression made my ability to learn/comprehend/see my reality clearly and actually utilize my creative abilities….not possible. What’s interesting about this, is that gratitude is a really easy humble thing to live and is in fact a really fun way to be. What’s funny about this is that by resisting to be grateful has been like a point of misaligned pride in thinking that I mist punish myself for my mistakes as like the only way I can learn…to the point of being so stubborn in not wanting to acknowledge my errors and being so fearful of them, that, rather than having a laugh and being rather playful about my ridiculous errors/mistakes and bouncing back up from my falls…it’s a most unfortunate thing to wallow into the depths of despair where the depression is oh so heavy as a holding added weight onto one self as like a bumbling along through the storm of emotion that is keeping the livelihood of self in hiding…like a fearing to actually stand up within oneself and take ownership for being here and able to problem solve and create….the gratitude way as the “I live to give…and therefore I get to give…because I got it to give…because I get to give because I got it to give…and when you get it…understand yourself here and the potential….there is no real choice about it….it’s like ya, well obviously I’m going to just do what’s best…I mean that’s real justice. Isn't it?

What I want to share here now is the point about belief. Belief is so often misguided….and misaligned…as like a false flag operation…perhaps well intention'd…but unknowingly fucked. Belief is the trust point often without having reason or rational as to why the trust should exist…I mean here enters a point of hope….and faith in relation to hope…where there is like an idea that things can work out without actually having to do anything….though what is interesting here…..is that in writing this myself here….I see how I have lots of resistances towards belief….like that is how I have created confusion within myself….a relationship with belief separate from myself…where I blindly followed the words of another and took it on within me, a belief without the real testing and investigation….which is an act of cowardice really.

So what’s interesting and really cool is that a real belief….is a real life here. Meaning, to become the life you want to live. Meaning, Know thy Self. Self-Creation here. I have struggled with this point of self-creation here within and about the point of belief….because I could always see the potential within and as self-guided belief…as the “Be Life” within and as the correct alignment and understanding of belief. Though which also perplexed me was the obvious fact that belief has so often been backwards kind of thing…where it was obviously skewed…and it has been easy for me to see the “Lie” within belief.  What I did not realize I was doing for quite some time was stumbling back and forth between my actual potential as how to believe in myself and the actual resistance to the very word Belief. I was caught in my own self damnation…judgement….self-judgement…believing in things in myself that are actually not of practical and tangible support for myself.

I have shown myself many times throughout my stumbling’s within Life, that I actually am capable of making great things happen. The Flow of making great things happen as the momentum is momentous is a real treat, a real pleasure and a real joy as a favorite self-expressing movement of mine.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the doubt within delayed movements as like being points of fear that effect my self-trust….belief…knowing in myself…and are actually points of support to show to me…where a point of weakness has not been strengthened as being learned into new abilities as the practical living result of taking responsibility for my every actions…making me my very own action hero…as I save myself the heartache and misery of resisting gratitude as being the greatest of attitudes…and therefore I continuously move in creating my moments of practical living actions…that are of a continuous motion in and as the mathematics of addition and multiplication…as I develop my stamina in going on and on without a fumble or a tumble….though when I do….it becomes no big deal…because I see what I did there and have a laugh at my own expense…as I enjoy paying the immediate price in remediating my deficiency in action so that I do not perpetuate an allowance of reaction…for I am my very own action hero…I am the very best me…because I see and know that is the responsibility commitment like a wedding vow I make onto myself to give to myself whatever I need…so that I can always take what is here without delay…so that my responsibility is swiftly as it is quickly so that I maximize my playtime potential as a result of understanding the equilibrium balance  of work ethic as my very practical living of self-discipline…meaning that I will do whatever is necessary in order to create the best solutions….because I am very goal oriented in and as focused direction in seeing how to score a great play as a result of willing to hard work a fantastic result.

I see, I know now how I feared belief itself as the truth of myself in and as the very fact that I have not known myself as well as I would like to and therefore it has always been difficult to have a very strong belief in myself….because I actually feared getting to know myself….facing myself…all the various faces that I have accepted and allowed….because I mean…wow…there is nothing scarier than facing all the mirrors of one’s very own reflections. Laughs out loud…a belly full of them. The jokes we play on ourselves here are like the worst king of jokes, really tragic stuff…and I mean it’s ridiculously absurd when we actually reflect of the extent of our acceptances and allowances and we go through our rationalized and justified fears…I mean like wow oh my god really….really…I created such a state of affairs for myself.

What’s interesting is that I have had the fortunate opportunity to have actually experienced the letting go of fearing many of moments and actually totally committing myself to trusting my movement and just continuing to do so….again and again and again…..Repetition is the key here….Don’t step…get it get it….Got it…because we you got it you don’t have to get it because you got it. But its important to remember that in the beginning of learning something new….we require to get the hang of it before we got it. Why do you think it is that we love to hang out with people we like….because it’s fun to hang out….because it’s a process we've learned…a sharing that comes natural…a natural learning ability…to get the hang of it…I mean we are closely related to monkeys…and monkeys love to hang around…like the arangatang…lol…I like monkeying around with my words in how I say and share the play that is me as a resulting reflection and expression of the work that I do.

What’s funny to look at is how I can see here in my process of taking self-responsibility for all my shit…in some instances it’s like I would get myself into a state of shock and awe as a result of looking at what it is I have in fact accepted and allowed…,missing the gratitude in these moments….for actually seeing/catching the pattern…so that I have the opportunity to learn from my errors…and create new pathways for myself…as ways forward that I can be totally satisfied with.  So, the point I am getting at here is that I see , realize and understand the importance of giving focused attention to the solutions I can work…that I can actually see within myself that the potential exists….that before I actually walk the correction in the future…it’s like I already simulated the situation in myself as a result of connecting and aligning with the potential that has always existed within me…and therefore realizing and recognizing an awesome play in which I am able to make when and as I am potentially faced with such a scenario.   I make myself a power player within and as my taking of self-responsibility. I am grateful for my commitment to learning. I commit myself to being humble…and therefore allowing myself to learn as effortlessly as possible as a result of realizing and understanding how learning is a natural process as I allow myself to naturally learn/move here…as water/sound/self-expression.

 To Be Continued

Day 515 Self-Commitment Statements from Branding/Marketing Stigmatization

Continuing from previous blog:

I commit myself to stop branding and marketing stigmatization

I commit myself to stop polarizing Cool.

I commit myself to Living Cool as Oneness and Equality.

I commit myself to the understanding and realizing that the origins of Cool are within and as the starting point of Oneness and Equality.

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing Cool to exist within and as a hierarchy of superiority/inferiority.

I commit myself to stop suppressing myself within believing that I am cooler than anyone or less cool than anyone.

I commit myself to stop believing that I am a strong influence to be feared.

I commit myself to stop projecting fear.

I commit myself to stop justifying isolation.

I commit myself to socializing with my peers.

I commit myself to stopping to facing my acceptances and allowances in physical reality.

I commit myself to stop being petrified to face my acceptances and allowances and self-correct my acceptances and allowances that are not in accordance with what is best for all Life.

I commit myself to stop projecting superiority/inferiority as like energy game positioning of self-judgement separation.

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to exist as a social outcast.

I commit myself to stop coping with disappointment.

I commit myself to stop creating logical self-manipulation.

I commit myself to stop creating reasoned justifications as to why things are the way they are.

I commit myself to stop subscribing to the judgement and belief of another.

I commit myself to stop making sense out of judgement and belief.

I commit myself to stop distorting my ability to see physical reality.

I commit myself to releasing the energy charges stored within my memories.

I commit myself to stop believing myself to be a bad influence.

I commit myself to stop desiring to be a good influence.

I commit myself to stop judging myself as a point of influence.

I commit myself to stop suppressing my participation within activities because I believe I am too cool to participate.

I commit myself to stop judging and comparing myself to other people.

I commit myself to stop judging and comparing myself to activities.

I commit myself to stop judging people's actions.

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing things that are not cool to exist within myself.

I commit myself to practically living the word Cool.

I commit myself to stop censoring myself as Cool.

I commit myself to stop fearing how others will handle my expressions.

I commit myself to stop fearing how others will handle me.

I commit myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to be handled. lol.

I commit myself to stop fearing to handle myself within and as self-stability, self-direction, and self-trust.

I commit myself to stop worrying and judging myself expression.

I commit myself to stop worrying and being concerned with people's perceptual judgement of my expressions.

I commit myself to stopping placing conditions upon my ability to express myself.

I commit myself to stop restraining myself within self-imposed limitations.

I commit myself to stop judging feedback.

I commit myself to welcoming criticism.

I commit myself to stop fearing criticism.

I commit myself to stop criticizing myself.

I commit myself to stop desiring negative criticism.

I commit myself to stop desiring positive criticism.

I commit myself to stop reacting to criticisms by generating positive feelings towards positive criticisms, and negative feelings towards negative criticisms.

I commit myself to stop looking for validation outside of myself.

I commit myself to standing within and as the point of self-validation.

I commit myself to stop being an energy whore.

I commit myself to channeling energetic experiences to make a physical experience seem more profound.

I commit myself to grounding myself within physicality.

I commit myself to stop getting high within an energy.

I commit myself to stop accepting and allowing myself to exist as an energy Low.

I commit myself to correcting energy disparity within myself.

I commit myself to stopping polarity friction within myself.

I commit myself to correcting energy conflict friction within myself.

I commit myself to facing everything that triggers me.

I commit myself to becoming free from triggers as points reaction triggers.

I commit myself to self-correcting all energy triggers by removing the separation that I've been holding on to.

I commit myself to stop taking being triggered by things in my environment personally.

I commit myself to realizing and understanding the extensive amount of assistance and support I have within my environment within seeing and realizing the triggers that exist within my environment are in fact the teacher here to support me in face myself.

I commit myself to utilizing the gifted opportunity of being triggered as the means to facilitate self-forgiveness and self corrective statements.

I commit myself to expanding my awareness.

I commit myself to expanding my presence.

I commit myself to expanding my Life Force Essence as my ability to exist here in physicality.

I commit myself to existing here in physicality.

Day 450 Family

This is a continuation from my previous post where I opened up the point of "family" and brought forth a big picture perspective and consideration about the word "family" being all that is Here as everything Here is Part of and as the Earth/Life Family.



What I would like to share now, is some self-forgiveness in regards to "Family":



I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding as a result of not considering all Life within the equation of being part of the word family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting and disregarding the well-being of family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging and comparing and belittling my family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for holding onto grudges against family members.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from parts of my family/Life?Earth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created a hierarchy of family importance as like believing and perceiving some family members to be more valuable and important and within this consideration, consequently neglecting and disregarding many family members.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting the point of understanding that my relationships with immediate family members in my environment reflects that which I accept and allow within myself...and therefore my immediate family member relationships are like keys for me to see me in and as self reflection as what I have accepted on a small scale...and therefore reflect the larger picture of what and why the world as a whole is the way it is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for deliberately being nasty to family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be in conflict with family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take family interactions and communications personally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted having patience with family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having polarized the word family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having deliberately tried to alienate myself from family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to manipulate family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be victimized by family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having feared family judgment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the simplicity of existing here with everyone as part of my family.


I commit myself to regarding Everything/Everyone as part of the Earth Family