Day 707 - Fun Knee Forgiveness on Inner Jury

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to weigh myself down within holding onto memories/thoughts/feelings/emotions of the past that recycle within my mind that act as like a perpetuating strain and stress on my physical body and negatively influence my ability to walk.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how recycling through the same thoughts/feelings/emotions of and as the past perpetuates a strain on my ability to walk and move effectively here....and I forgive myself for not realizing how my knee injury accident correlates to a buildup of acceptances and allowances within myself that have not been properly dealt with.  I see realize and understand that allowing polarized energies to exist within my mind/body does not support the well being of my body/mind. I commit myself to releasing the energetic nature as conflict/polarity from the relationships that exist within my mind and body. I realize the absurd ridiculousness of holding charges against myself as specific positive or negative energetic resonances the support separation and dissonance from the starting point of Oneness and Equality

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the fun within the injury I can have as like how to make light of the situation and make the best of the situation as what is best support and assistance for myself here.  I realize the absurd ridiculousness of being hard and heavy on myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for questioning the attitude of gratitude in relationship to having injured my knee. I mean this is not the situation that I would have knowingly chose for myself to experience but now that I am within it...I am grateful the opportunity and the chance of self-reflection. Living gratitude has been a process of sorts as I see I have sometimes had the tendency to want to justify an attitude of something less than gratitude...as like a form of disdain and suffering and self-victimization because it seems like that is what I should project in comparing my current situation to past situations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how as a result of holding onto judgement about particular events in the past that I have justified particular attitudes based on an emotion and or feeling reaction as a result of perpetuating points of comparison within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have in the past talked myself out of gratitude as the great living attitude.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to live gratitude as the greatest attitude unconditionally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have unconsciously superimposed my daily attitude from a starting point of energetic reaction. And within this I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how I can in fact stop the any and all energetic attitudes and actually create the living of gratitude of my attitude here.

I see realize and understand gratitude to be the greatest attitude because gratitude comes from giving and an appreciation for giving....and living gratitude unconditionally means to give to oneself unconditionally as the best giving support and assistance one can in fact give.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding Always in which gratitude as a great attitude is in fact the giving of self-support and assistance here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to have fun in every moment of my knee injury.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying believing that I must be serious and reserve because I have injured my knee.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not really knowing how I should express myself within having an injury.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience myself as discombobulated at moments when asked how I am doing within and as my day to day experience of myself within the process of recovering from a knee injury. I see have been confused from the perspective of believing that I shouldnt project myself as being to good or like in such good spirits because of the circumstances that I am dealing with...and because of this make believe fear I see I have created as like believing that if I enjoy my recovery process too much than maybe I will get injured again.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to enjoy the healing process within and as my knee injury.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that if I will be self sabotaging myself in some way if I make a good time out of a what I believe to be shouldn't be such a good time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying a less than my potential greatness experience for myself within and as a result of accepting and allowing myself to live less than "gratitude as the greatest attitude in every moment".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting the funny within and as the play time available to me within walking the injury recovery process.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to make the best of my time in every moment,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard my best efforts in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the playful ease of living gratitude as the greatest attitude in every moment as a the way to support and assist the best for oneself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not even considering all the opportunity and potential existent for me in walking the knee healing process.


When and as I see myself faced within a person asking me how I am doing today.....I see realize and understand that it is ridiculous absurd to fear giving an answer that is too great/awesome as like that would then result in potentially accepting future experiences that are less than great and awesome. I realize and understand the irony of trying to rationalize decisions through fear...as like they work out completely in the opposite manner and that which you don't want happens...and it's like a ridiculously absurd experience because it's logically sound to oneself in being illogical....yet one doesnt realize the mindfuck because one is engulfed within it....which is like a vortex of consumption until one is able to take a breath and step out of one's own very self defined entrapment and sentencing. It's funny and ridiculously absurd the trains of thought we ride without even regarding ourselves as the conductor of such a construction.

I commit myself to gratitude as the greatest living attitude.

I commit myself to giving myself the gift of gratitude as my living attitude here.

I see, realize and understand how gratitude is a great attitude enabling effective relationship development and creation..because in living gratitude one can in fact see greatness within oneself and others here.,,,which is key in creation process as one is able to see the value and worth...and the best ways possible.

I commit myself to greatness.

I commit myself to let go of worrying about consequences for being to good or behaving better than is expected of me based on the situations and or conditions I am within.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding my very own gratitude within seeing and realizing the energetic mind consciousness construction within and as my thoughts/feelings/emotions.

To Be Continued