Day 32, Directing the Flow
Ok, so today is my day off from tree planting and there are
many tasks for me to accomplish in a limited amount of time. My day off is my
one chance in the week to have a little bit of internet time. I used the
internet to post my daily writings in my journey to life series and to submit
my DIP assignments. Also I had to pay a cell phone bill. My access to the
internet cam this morning and I had to be persistent in order to accomplish all
these tasks. The people that I was in the
motel room with were anxious to leave the room and get going and I had to keep
focused on the tasks at hand. I
experienced slight anxiety/stress within myself about finishing my computer
tasks before I was out of time. It’s like I felt a little bit of peer pressure
to hurry up or just stop what I am doing because my peers are bored and want to
check out of the motel earlier than the allotted/scheduled check out time.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to
compromise self direction as a result of peer pressure as external influence.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to worry
about my peers and their self satisfaction
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to
hesitate about directing every moment of myself as the flow of my go.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
judging myself as selfish for directing myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
defining, ‘selfish’ with a negative charge.
I forgive myself for wishing other beings were more
proactive in directing the flow.
I forgive myself for not realising the flow as the mind
consciousness systems seamlessly flowing and playing out. I forgive myself for
accepting and allowing myself for confusing self direction with the flow.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
getting annoyed at beings that seem to be lacking self direction. I forgive myself for not realising that
getting annoyed at beings for lack of self direction is because
I am annoyed at
myself for lacking self direction in every moment.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing self direction
to be perceived as a chore/work and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing
myself to define chore/work as negative and to be avoided and have resistance
towards.
I forgive myself for not realising gratitude and
gratefulness for self direction capabilities.
I realise as a creator I am self responsible for directing
myself.
I realise self direction starts with presence of breath.
I realise self direction as oneness and equality entails
pushing through resistance because of self suppression as separation through
and as mind consciousness systems.
I realise I am alone in standing as self direction.
I realise the flow as the mind consciousness systems
seamlessly flowing and playing out. I
realise the difference between mind consciousness systems flowing within me and
self direction within me as stopping mind consciousness systems.
When and as I see myself resisting to direct myself/life, I
stop, I breathe and I realise I am the starting point of self direction as
oneness and equality.
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