So, I got on the greyhound bus yesterday and I had to buy
new bus tickets for me and my girlfriend.
We had bought tickets a while ago to get the most reduced rate for
travel fares...anyways...we needed to exchange our tickets for a different date
as our work date had been changed which influenced our travel plans...greyhound
does ticket exchanges for 15dollar fee...the issue with this working for us was
that we purchased our tickets online...and we had to talk to customer services...because
customer services for online ticket issues is different organization that
tickets purchased directly from the station...anyways...Customer service said
it was ok to exchange tickets at station for 15dollar fee...however they would
have to fax the station permission to do so. The fax was sent at 8am...our bus
was scheduled to leave at 10am...we were trying to get our tickets exchanged at
930am...the station said they could not exchange our tickets until they
received the fax...i called customer service from greyhound station on
greyhound phone and passed the phone to a greyhound agent to see if we could
just get a verbal confirmation as the information was in the computer and we
had the fax verification number...and the customer service people said fax had
been sent...however sometimes faxes take as long as three hours to be received.
I waited till a couple minutes before 10am before dishing out double the money
spent on the earlier purchased tickets because people at greyhound station and
at customer service said there was nothing they could do...It was kind of a
what the fuck moment...like waiting on a fucking fax for
confirmation..like...every person involved in sending or ready to receive the
fax knows the situation...yet nothing can be done....where was the fax...in
between processors.... anyways...i was
laughing at the ridiculousness of the situation as it seemed completely
retarded and void of any common sense.
Anyways...this seems an appropriate time to clear myself
about any emotions connected to money.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
fearing losing money that I did not plan to lose.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
attaching feelings/emotions to money and that
I’m feeling good when I got money and that I’m emotionally low when I’m
losing money. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating
energetic charges within my mind in and as relationship to money.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing for separating
myself from and as money.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
judging myself worth based on the amount of money I have as a result of
accepting and allowing self worth to be judged on the basis of an energetic
polarity charge based on the amount of money I have and how I feel about it as
an energetic charge.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for supporting
the global abusive money system as money created as debt is abusive and
disregards life equality and oneness in all ways.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
reacting with emotion and anger and frustration for being dependent upon money
for my well being here in this reality where money is created as debt.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
connecting the fear of losing money to the fear of death because if I don’t
have money there is a greater chance that I will not be able to afford to live
and and survive.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not
considering all the people that are not surviving everyday due to a lack of
money and not being able to win the competition in order to get and maintain a
savings account of money.
I forgive myself for not realising that I first developed a
relationship with money when I was born into this world as it seems our mind
consciousness system is based on this polarity relationship as fear of survival...and
survival of the fittest as money as debt as the global currency/electricity
that makes movement and gives direction to beings in reality.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
justified some beings as just being fucked and not smart enough or well adept
to win and therefore not worthy of living because they just didn’t play the
game well as getting and obtaining lots of money. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing
myself for only concerning myself as self interest as separate from all others
as me in other life’s...I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
mindfucking with myself as the pursuit of happiness...as like chasing a penis
as a mind fuck...as not really ever having lived in a way which is best for
everyone.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being
possessed and obsessed by money.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being
angry and frustrated and irritated at the fact that I’ve allowed myself to be
obsessed and possessed by money and therefore as a result allowed myself to
suppress myself as concern for having money and just spent my money frivolously
as a way to say fuck you money...and therefore saying fuck you to myself as
spiting myself as taking care of myself in the best ways possible.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
enjoying spending money because it makes me feel good as giving me an energetic
charge or righteousness.
I forgive myself for not realising that spending money
frivolously has been feeding my energetic charge of self righteousness.
I forgive myself for not realising that I would often look
to spend money when I am feeling low emotionally or when I am starting to feel
an energetic high as a way to boost or maintain my energetic high.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
stressing myself out physically by worrying and fearing losing money and
wondering if I will make enough money to live comfortably.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
desiring to make billions of dollars.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for blaming
people who have lots of money and keep quiet about speaking out loud about the
fuckedness of our monetary system.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
reacting to cowardly actions about the monetary system...not realising that I
have been cowardly in my speaking out against the fuckedness of the monetary
system as money created as debt as an absolute travesty of life.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
reacting with anger and irritation and annoyance and frustration to seeing
establishments closed and transformed to cheaper establishments that sell
inferior products because it is more profitable and takes less maintenance to
sell shitty food that’s pre packaged as required no equipment.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
wanting to yell at people for the fuckedness of the money system because I am
pissed off at myself for having accepted and a monetary system of fucked up
abuse.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be
pissed off at myself for the acceptance and allowance of a fucked up monetary
system that disregards life support in all ways.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing for existing
like the fucked up monetary system of abuse by accepting and allowing myself to
abuse myself with reactions as energetic polarity charges within and as min
acceptances and allowance.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
desiring instantaneous awesome changes which are best for life in all ways.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
suppressing myself as point by point self realisations as instantaneous awesome
changes which is best for life in and as all ways.
I forgive myself for not realising the accumulation factor
of self change as point by point as the accumulation of points in making up the
total transformation as birthing myself as life from and as the physical.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
fearing to be the point that actively influences the monetary change as what is
best for all life.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to accept
tiredness as an excuse for not working to facilitate change as what is best for
all in all ways.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to
reacting to the bullshit fuckedness that is spoken aloud on the news in the
room that I am sitting in at the moment.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for using
money as a point of blame as a way to justify bullshit fuckedness and
stupidity.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing bullshit
fuckedness within myself as a means to justify self righteousness within myself
as a means of self defense and self protection to avoid reflecting each point
back to myself that I react to.
I realise that I first developed a relationship with money
when I was born into this world as it seems our mind consciousness system is
based on this polarity relationship as fear of survival...and survival of the
fittest as money as debt as the global currency/electricity that makes movement
and gives direction to beings in reality
I realise that spending money frivolously has been feeding
my energetic charge of self righteousness.
I realise that I would often look to spend money when I am
feeling low emotionally or when I am starting to feel an energetic high as a
way to boost or maintain my energetic high.
I realise the accumulation factor of self change as point by
point as the accumulation of points in making up the total transformation as
birthing myself as life from and as the physical.
When and as I see myself reacting with emotions or feelings
to money I stop myself from charging energetic polarity mind energies within
myself as I realise the self inflicted abuse I am causing onto my physical body
as a result of charging up polarity energies through my minds as
feelings/emotions.
I commit myself to speaking out about the fuckedness of the
monetary system as debt which is contributing to global fuckedness.
I commit myself to being creative in my expression in
sharing and educating people on the fuckedness of the monetary system as debt.
I commit myself to correcting the monetary system as debt
and fuckedness as life abuse.
I commit myself to practical living as life support to
support the best interest of life in all ways.
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