Ok, so in realising how I had accepted and allowed love
connections in my previous blog where I accepted and allowed myself to define
certain things as positive and would allow myself to be very positively charged
as a result of these things, like an obsessive possessiveness. Anyways..i
noticed that I was being spiteful about smoking and that It was coming up in my
backchat as like fuck, smoking is to blame for me having
thoughts/feelings/emotions...like if I never smoked I wouldn’t have brewed up
positivity as a result of compounded emotions. It’s like in realising one point
I’m looking to blame the point on everything else as the reason why I am the
way I am...when in fact this is just one contributing factor in the way in
which I formed and developed relationships. Like the smoking relationship I had
formed was similar to the hockey relationship I had formed when I was
younger...and I realise to blame anything as separate from me as being at fault
is to further mind fuck with myself as really avoiding facing the truth of
myself as mind fuckedness as that’s what I’ve formed in my head in so many ways
as various relationship charges...and it’s all me...so...why have levels of me
like polarities of me...like good me’s and bad me’s...it’s like wow...how many
values have I accepted and allowed within myself? It seems to be so simple and
easy to keep clarity and simplicity with the law of equality as
oneness...meaning no conflict...it is what is....as it is what is...lol...Ism’s.
it us here our, we they I is all the same as all our referencing wordings for
and as us to communicate with and about and to each other as each one makes up
every one.
Ok, I’m perhaps going on a bit of a rambling tangent about
the simplicity and the common sense clarity of oneness and equality as the
absolute law of beingness.
Point I will open up is some judgements I had accepted and
allowed myself to mind fuck about in my head with regards to smoking as a point
of blame.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
blaming smoking as a negative thing because I saw how i was charging love and
positivity about smoking and I see and realise charging love as positivity
energies resulting from and as conflict of negative energies is fuckedness.
I forgive myself for not realising how I started taking on
the opposite of positive polarity charge about smoking as negativity by
accepting and allowing myself to judge smoking as bad and the reason for myself
channelling positive energies.
I forgive myself for not realising that smoking
is innocent and it’s me who has accepted and allowed myself to create value
system energies about things as positive/negative/neutral...and therefore
accepting and allowing a defined balanced imbalance within myself as energy
fuckedness.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not
realising the simplicity, practicality and common sense of equality as
agreement as self lived realisation as practical living here in every moment as
who I am in all ways.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for charging
polarity conflict frictions as energy value systems within myself as positive,
negative or neutral. I forgive myself for not realising that the unconscious
mind represents the point of negative energy the sub conscious is the point of
neutrality and the conscious is the point of positivity.
I forgive myself for trying to justify everything as all
good, pure positivity as a way of fear of facing the ugly truth as negativity
and the accepted and allowed conflict within myself as mind resulting in negative,
positive and neutral.
I forgive myself for not realising that wow how abusive it
is to turn negative energy into positive energy as funneling through the mind
consciousness systems from negative in the unconsciousness to neutral in the sub
consciousness to positive in the consciousness.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating my
minds into different realms/worlds of myself as either I’m in my conscious
mind, my subconscious mind or my unconscious mind.
I forgive myself for not considering the interconnectedness
of my minds as unconscious/subconscious and conscious together making up the
totality of and as the mind consciousness system.
I forgive myself for not realising how much separation I was
accepting and allowing as the various mind consciousness systems as being at
battle/friction with each other as a means of mind survival.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
considering myself to be a super consciousness system because I’ve used various
drugs to explore my minds as unconscious, sub conscious and conscious.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
always wanting to give context to points like as good or bad or kind of in-between...like
who would I be without using a rating scale of 1 to 10...like well the rating
scale can still be the rating skill based on quality...each value is equal and
one as its value as it simply is what it is.
I forgive myself for not realising it is me in relationship
with words as values and marks as scores as performance...like...accepting and
allowing judgements as polarity charged energetic experiences as
feelings/emotions...it’s like wow, I realise I am in and as the process of self
equalization as the great equalizer..lol...each is the great equalizer...like
....like,....like,., like...as all is a like...as were all like a piece of each
other as like each piece is like the same substance...like same essence,...yet
each piece is unique...like it’s all the same difference...yet...like were all
a like...like...I’m playing with the work like to make a point of likeness as
like ok it’s clear to the point and emphasis on and as the word like I am
implying as the image and likeness....as each image has the same likeness as
our image in likeness is and as the same physical substance sustenance as
oneness and equality is our image and likeness.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
thinking about what I’ve written as like why did i write that what is the
reason for what I’ve written, couldn’t I have said what I said in a different
way...perhaps I should have tried to write what I said in the above paragraph
in a different sort of way to say what I said...
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
judging how I speak as words as communication of I am as the process of
unification as man living in and as the flesh as oneness and equality. I
forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing that I will not
understand what I am saying.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
doubting my ability to understand always what I’m saying as living words.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
wanting to depend on thinking as like a medium for understanding.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing thinking as like
a filter for interpretation and understanding as comprehension.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
filtering myself with thought as a means of comprehension because of the
accepted and allowance that I wouldn’t comprehend myself and be able to
function if I didn’t have a filtering system...I forgive myself for not
realising that a filtering system as mind as thinking as a means of
comprehension as a means to apparent knowing in understanding is a guise of and
as a disguise as a veiled illusion/delusion because of the accepted and allowed
doubt and not proven effective self trust as absolute certainty in each and
every moment as the starting point of creation as oneness and equality. I
realise as I equalize myself in always as like self purification I will be less
and less reliant on and as my mind as filter to assist and support with and as
comprehension/interpretation as the point becomes more and more obvious that I
do not require to filter me because I am in agreement with me as absolute self
trust and self honesty as practical living what is best for all in all ways in
every moment as absolute bestness/greatness as a living legend as a never
ending story as creation.
I forgive myself for not realising the limitations of
relying on my mind as direction/movement.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being
governed by mind movements as the gears which grind me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
creating gears that grind me as accepted and allowed conflict with myself as
accepted and allowed separations as perceived separateness as various
relationship connections which seem disconnected from me as mind.-yet I realise
that everything I see is me here as substance and that there is like no open
space in my seeing as it’s like everything I see is all in the same room...like
there’s no separate rooms,...like if I am to draw what I see...there’s a depth
that cannot be captured in pictures as it like dimensions within
dimensions...and in just having written about multi dimensionality...I consider
the vastness of multi dimensionality beyond my imagination because imagination
is images in a nation as that which I already know...and perhaps I know I don’t know the whole story
of me/life as multi dimensionality...it’s like I am in the process of
remembering myself as all as one as equal and yet it’s like as I examine and
investigate myself the commons sense that I am seems oh so familiar.
Ok so it’s like i reckon that i often see without depth yet
it’s like I have moments of clarity where I am like wow, whoa...Like me looking
at me in so many ways like beyond words
I commit myself to becoming a gentleman in all ways best as
the gentleness of breath in and as every moment.
I commit myself to studiously writing myself out as the
point of self freedom as physical structure symbolically poised as equalization
and oneness processing that facilitates practical living self realisation as living
words.
I commit myself to living in practical application the
realisation that words are living as I am the living word...as I am living
words.
I commit myself to pushing my practical living application
as living words as writing creativity as physical support in enhancement in and
as creative living as a creative creator.
I commit myself to self expansion as creativity in and as
all ways what is best for all beings here as living perfection.
I commit myself to honouring and cherishing and sharing and
playing and teaching the gift of life as joy as the presents of presence as the
unification of man as I am.
I commit myself to live self forgiveness until I have given
myself everything that I had taken away from myself through acceptances and
allowances as separation
I commit myself to stopping the polarity flip flop friction as
back and forth energy fluctuations.
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