Day 31, Arrogance and Jealousy
Ok, so I didn’t realise the connection between arrogance and
jealousy as both points involve the point of comparison and
inferiority/superiority. I’ve noticed lately how I am always comparing points
or attributes of others against myself.
For instance, today I compared this dudes super white teeth against my
not super white teeth, I compared another dudes arms to my arms...his arms were
more muscularly defined with veins his veins bulging out...mine not so much. I
had thoughts about how many trees another being had planted...specifically a
being I place myself in competition with. I recently wrote about the point of
competition and the ridiculousness of being possessed by winning versus losing. I didn’t realise the points of arrogance and
jealousy in relation to completion as a result of accepting and allowing
comparison, inferiority and superiority to exist within me.
A while ago I realised the nastiness of jealously and vowed
to myself to not participate in acts of jealously about women...specifically a
girlfriend. I never considered that I
had points of jealously deeply rooted within myself that have affected every
relationship I have or had.
I see the arrogance design as projecting a better than
appearance while feeling inferior and I see the correlation with jealously as I
have allowed constant comparison within myself as like a relentless completion
I am in based in comparing pictures/results/data/separation.
Another point that I see I have connected to both arrogance
and jealousy is self judgement.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not
realising that I had accepted and allowed arrogance and jealousy within myself
as a result of self judgement, inferiority, superiority, nastiness and
comparison.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as
inferior compared to other beings.
I forgive myself for not realising and living one and equal
with all beings here.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
automatically comparing myself against other beings that I deem, ‘better than
me’.
I forgive myself for not realising I have been limiting my
interpretation/understanding/self realisation of equality and oneness as a
result of accepting inferiority/superiority through self judgement based from a
starting point of comparison of ‘better than me’ or ‘not as good as me’
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
defining picture presentations as better or word than me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
projecting arrogance and jealously as a result of accepting and allowing
comparison within myself and energy fluctuations as instability as
inferior/superior.
I forgive myself for not realising I have accepted and
allowed conflict within myself by accepting and allowing comparisons and what
comparisons actually are as jealousy and arrogance when inferiority,
superiority and self judgement are accepted and allowed to exist.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
seeing myself as less than the being whose arms were more muscularly defined
than mine.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to
compare the whiteness of a beings teeth against the whiteness of my teeth and
think and believe that the being has better teeth than me because his are whiter
and therefore he is better than me because he has white teeth.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be
jealous of a particular being when he plants more trees than me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
thinking bullshit thoughts about the being as nastiness justifications to
validate self pitying that I except the being as better than me and that I
justify it based on the fact that I am better than the being at other things
and therefore the being is jealous of me about other skills that I have that
the being does not seem to possess.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing a competition
mindset.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing self judgement
within me based from the starting point of comparison as self judgement
accepted and allowed competition that I am trying to win.
I forgive myself for not realising there exists no actual
competition within myself as oneness and equality being physically here and
that the competition I have perceived to exist is a result of mind delusions as
mind fucking which is the result of accepting and allowing comparison based on
picture presentations I see and therefore creating a skewed value system which
results in energy fluctuation as being out of sync with oneness and equality as
a harmonious balance/stability.
I forgive myself for not realising the correlations between
jealousy and arrogance as wanting to be noticed through accepting and allowing
the point of comparison from the view of being validated by others and the
results and rewards I receive.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being
jealous of the being who sometimes plants more trees than me because he is
taking attention and praise away from me from the perspective of being noticed
by others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
wanting and desiring to be noticed and appreciated by others.
I forgive myself for not appreciating and noticing myself
here within all my acceptances and allowances.
I forgive myself for not realising that I was holding onto a
point of inferiority within myself and that I was coping with inferiority with
jealously and arrogance through accepting and allowing comparisons/self
judgement and fluctuating energy levels as feelings and emotions as a result of
playing the poles of polarity as inferiority and superiority.
I forgive myself for not realising the gift that is
available within judgement as the realisation that, hey this is me here and
that I am seeing a point about myself here and If I see something I define as
‘better than me’...I am that point too and therefore the being that is
expressing/exposing the point to me is giving me a gift that I can express as
myself as that is the oneness ad equality of our beingness as we are the same
image and likeness. Meaning that I am grateful for all the support beings are
sharing with me as points of self realisation as self perfection as oneness and
equality here together again.
I realise the gift that is available within judgement as the
realisation that, hey this is me here and that I am seeing a point about myself
here and If I see something I define as ‘better than me’..I am that point
to and therefore the being is
expressing/exposing the point to me as giving me a gift that I can express as
myself as that is the oneness and equality of our being as we are the same
image and likeness. Meaning I am
grateful for all the support and assistance that beings are sharing with me as
points of self realisation as self perfection as oneness and equality here
together again.
I realise that I was holding onto a point of inferiority
within myself and that I was coping with inferiority with jealously and
arrogance through accepting and allowing comparisons/self
I realise the correlations between jealousy and arrogance as
wanting to be noticed through accepting and allowing the point of comparison
from the view of being validated by others and the results and rewards I
receive
I realise there exists no actual competition within myself
as oneness and equality being physically here and that the competition I have
perceived to exist is a result of mind delusions as mind fucking which is the
result of accepting and allowing comparison based on picture presentations I
see and therefore creating a skewed value system which results in energy
fluctuation as being out of sync with oneness and equality as a harmonious
balance/stability.
I realise I have accepted and allowed conflict within myself
by accepting and allowing comparisons and what comparisons actually are as
jealousy and arrogance when inferiority, superiority and self judgement are
accepted and allowed to exist.
I realise I have been limiting my
interpretation/understanding/self realisation of equality and oneness as a
result of accepting inferiority/superiority through self judgement based from a
starting point of comparison of ‘better than me’ or ‘not as good as me’
I realise living one and equal here is without judgement and
comparison as arrogance and jealousy.
I realise I letting go of arrogance and jealousy is letting
go of self imposed limitation and enabling self expansion here as limitless
potential as self expression.
I realise I had limited self expression as a result of
accepting and allowing arrogance and jealousy within myself as a result of
accepting and allowing of self judgement as conflict friction as a result of
creating separation within myself to place myself in competition with parts of
myself.
I realise that my mind is a tool of support to show me my
acceptances and allowances so I can face my acceptances and allowances with
brutal self honesty to that I can eradicate fuckedness within myself as manifested consequences as a result of
accepted and allowed separation through self
judgement/comparison/inferiority/superiority/nastiness.
When and as I see myself accepting and allowing points of
comparison within myself, I stop, I breathe and let go of the ridiculously
absurd acceptance and allowance of self comparison/self judgement as I realise
the self imposed limitations of accepting and allowing self judgement/comparison
as completion.
When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself to be
arrogant, I stop, I breathe and I
realise the ridiculousness of accepting arrogance within myself as allowing
built up inferiority within myself and the attempt/want/desire to be noticed as
superior.
When and as I see myself accepting and allowing acts of
jealously within myself, I stop, I breathe and I look for the gift to give to
myself as the point where I accepted and allowed judgement in creating the
point of jealousy. I am grateful for self examination as the gifts of
support/presence of self realisation as oneness and equality here.
Redefining words:
Jealousy:
I’ve experienced jealousy as this uncomfortable emotional
possession that is like an intense reaction that is always negatively charged.
Dictionary definition:
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jeal·ousy
adj.
1. Fearful or wary of being
supplanted; apprehensive of losing affection or position.
2.
a. Resentful or bitter in rivalry;
envious: jealous of the success of others.
b. Inclined to suspect rivalry.
3. Having to do with or arising
from feelings of envy, apprehension, or bitterness: jealous thoughts.
4. Vigilant in guarding something:
We are jealous of our good name.
5. Intolerant of disloyalty or
infidelity; autocratic: a jealous God.
[Middle
English jelous, from Old French gelos, jealous, zealous, from
Vulgar Latin *z
 l sus, from Late Latin zlus, zeal; see zeal.]
jeal
 ous·ly adv.
jeal
ous·ness n.
Synonyms:
jealous,
covetous, envious
These adjectives mean resentfully or painfully desirous of another's advantages: jealous of a friend's success; covetous of my neighbor's possessions; envious of their art collection. |
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American Heritage® Dictionary of the English Language, Fourth Edition copyright
©2000 by Houghton Mifflin Company. Updated in 2009. Published by Houghton
Mifflin Company. All rights reserved.
Playing
with the word jealous:
Gell
us...jealous..j-eal-o-us..gell us..like put us together because there is a
disconnection here through accepted and allowed separation which has me
experiencing emotional turmoil as energy fluctuation based upon reaction.
Disapointment of wants/needs/desires based on acception and allowing emotional
suppression and therefore a separation exist that needs to be re-connected and
the resoult is jealousness as the accepted and allowed separation has gelled
apart creating a gell us as jealous....gell...like jell us..like guuue
us...like the glue as substance that keeps us all together has been unglued...
Jealousy:
Results
from emotional reactions from within and as a point of energy fluctuation as
instability which exposes nastiness within oneself as accepted and allowed
separation as a disconnection and therefore a reaction results from the
disconnection of not realising self as the image and likeness as the point
where jealousy occurred as a reactional disconnection/separation.
Jealousy
also results from accepting and allowing self judgement by accepting and
allowing comparison and energy fluctuations as superiority and inferiority
complexes within self as a result of suppressing equality and oneness as self
realisation.
Arrogance:
I’ve experienced arrogance as wanting and desiring to be
noticed for my apparent specialness/greatness that is based from a starting
point of comparison to others and being portrayed as better than others which
is a result of accepting and allowing inferiority within myself and therefore
desiring/wanting an experience of superiority which is a positive energy charge
as a way of releasing the negative energy charge. This has caused me to flip
flop with energy fluctuations within myself between highs and lows...and
working hard to suppress the low and always remain high as Mr. Superiority when
in fact the ugly truth is accepting and allowing myself to exist as Mr.
Inferiority. I’ve therefore viewed arrogance as a negative energy charge.
Arrogance dictionary definition:
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ar·ro·gant
adj.
1. Having or displaying a sense of
overbearing self-worth or self-importance.
2. Marked by or arising from a
feeling or assumption of one's superiority toward others: an arrogant
contempt for the weak. See Synonyms at proud.
[Middle
English arrogaunt, from Old French, from Latin arrog
 ns,
arrogant-,
present participle of arrogre, to arrogate; see arrogate.]
ar
ro·gant·ly adv. |
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American Heritage® Dictionary of the English Language, Fourth Edition copyright
©2000 by Houghton Mifflin Company. Updated in 2009. Published by Houghton
Mifflin Company. All rights reserved.
arrogant [ˈærəgənt]
adj
having or
showing an exaggerated opinion of one's own importance, merit, ability, etc.;
conceited; overbearingly proud an arrogant teacher an arrogant assumption
[from
Latin arrogāre to claim as one's own; see arrogate]
arrogance n
arrogantly adv
Collins English Dictionary – Complete and Unabridged
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Adj.
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1.
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arrogant - having or showing feelings
of unwarranted importance out of overbearing pride; "an arrogant
official"; "arrogant claims"; "chesty as a peacock"
proud
- feeling self-respect or pleasure in something by which you measure your
self-worth; or being a reason for pride; "proud parents";
"proud of his accomplishments"; "a proud moment";
"proud to serve his country"; "a proud name"; "proud
princes"
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Based on
WordNet 3.0, Farlex clipart collection. © 2003-2012 Princeton University,
Farlex Inc.
Playing with the word arrogant:
are a giant...bigger than...better
than...are O cant...arrow cant...as the arrow cant point in that direction as
being firmly stubborn about something which is to hold onto the point of
division and separation as a result of not letting the arrow point to equality
and oneness as the whole point which encompasses all the angles and particular
views as which is best for all...while arrogance is holding onto a particularly
view point which is in friction/polarity judgement within myself as like an
internal war that is based upon divide and conquer and therefore separation is
accepted and allowed within the individual through lack of self acceptance as
all as one as equal which results in over compensating self worth because of
accepting and allowing a low self worth.
Arrogance:
is a result of accepting and allowing self
judgement as low self worth and over compensating by portraying the image and
impression of importance and superiority...it’s like wanting to be recognised
and noticed in order to feel a sense of self sufficiency, self adequacy because
of the accepted allowed inferiority judgement held in regards towards self.
This therefore is the result of an internal war between inferiority and
superiority because the arrow can’t point to equality and oneness because of
the accepted and allowed friction and energy fluctuation from accepting and
allowing the divide and conquer point of inferiority versus superiority.
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