Day 676 - Life...Learning...Teach Ability...Opportunity and Fortune

I would like to start here with some self-forgiveness in relationship to the words in the title of my blog here today:

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing Life.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to fear for my life.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not regarding the miraculousness of Life in every moment of Breath.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying punishments as like forms of debts I must pay when I judge the mistakes that I make within my Life,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resistance to Learning with effortless ease.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience difficulty with Learning.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to acknowledge my Learning difficulties.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have been a slave to my emotions/feelings in many moments...and as a result of such instances I was existing as less than masterful.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how an open mind to learning is suppressed when and as a person has locked themselves into an emotion/feeling about a particular thing.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for disregarding and dismissing Life and Learning from the perspective of not really regarding and considering that essentially when and as we participate in Life Here in every moment, We are Learning...because we are always Reading the Information of the present Situation.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to actually consider what it is I am in fact reading as I participate here within my Life.
I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the discrepancy...and problem with reading without comprehension.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as existing here within a process where essentially I am learning to read effectively, where I am able to work with any and all information I am presented, and in fact direct the information in a way that is responsible and considerate of all Life Here.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the remediation process that I am participating within....where I am tested on a point of discrepancy/dissonance until I can exemplify and exhibit repetition on the point as like being a mark and indicator that I got the point in check...I know it.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which gratitude is key in being able to exist here with a strong teach ability.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing or even really considering the question "How teachable am I?"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to investigate the question, "How receptive am I to learning new things?"

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to see that my true potential is within and as my willingness and openness to Learning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that learning is just sometimes...and typically learning is mostly for very young children...and that learning is a point of less and less significance as we age.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that learning diminished as we age.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I had previously conditioned myself within my thinking and beliefs.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how much it is in fact that I actually want to learn all the time...and that Learning is a natural expression of mine.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how capable I am of learning anything about anything....that really my potential within learning is quite limitless.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and  understanding  the Opportunity and Fortune that is always here and available for myself as I read.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding a correlation between reading and leading,,,as like readers are leaders,,,and those who read lots are the ones who have the best opportunities to do something really fortunate in this world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent of misfortune that exists here as a result of poor reading and comprehension abilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that in order to do the basic mathematics in creating a world that is best for all Life...Reading ability and Vocabulary Comprehension are key.



To Be Continued

Day 574 Positive Voice Tonality

So I was working with a whole bunch of 5 year old children today and I noticed a peculiar thing where I would speak in a slightly higher pitch towards them when I was trying to get their attention and tell them or show them how to do something when they had been distracted. It's interesting because I was aware of how I was sounding out my words...and I was kind of like what the fuck...and it was somewhat difficult for me to talk to them in a lower voice tonality. 

What is interesting about this is that I noticed my effectiveness in communicating/directing the points of learning comprehension was most effective when I made the effort to make sure I spoke to them in a low physically grounded voice tonality.

What's interesting about the higher pitch voice tonality...is that I noticed I was speaking in that pitch as a point of reaction...where I would go into the I'm a super nice positive friendly guy personality...and within this...I would speak from within a starting point of positive energy, and the intent of doing this was that there was a belief within me that I would forge and or strengthen a connection with the children through the use of sounding really positive within my energetic responses.

What's interesting about this is that I noticed how today was more challenging/stressful than usual as I had many moments with the little guys where I was seeking out their approval. I mean its kind of funny and ridiculous to see how I would go into this nice guy construct of like "ya you can agree with me and you can listen to me...because just listen to how nice my voice is when I'm talking to you...don't you think I'm so nice and friendly..."

What's interesting about this is that I've made some bullshit associations with going into positive energetic voice tonalities as a point of making approval/validation with others....specifically little children.

What's also interesting about today is that I really played with how I spoke to the kids in some moments...where I made a point of really speaking in a low voice...and what's interesting is that the kids were so much more responsive to me with the lower my voice tonality. It's like so ridiculous in a way because...when I would be "trying to be all positive in my voice tonality" it was a struggle for the kids to comprehend what I was saying...and I would have to repeat myself and establishing comprehension with the children was much more difficult.

I see here how also the point of positive voicing tonality would come out as a consequence to having negative reactions within myself...where I wouldn't necessarily be particularly pleased with the child...and then it's like I would speak in a way of sucking up to them because I feared them having there own temper tantrum...and so believing that I got to be super positive with them as a preventive means to them having temper tantrums.

And what is interesting and ridiculously absurd about my particpations in fearing the children being emotionally distraught and having temper tantrums is that I was having so many little temper tantrums within myself and in a way was trying to cope/manage my own emotional inner turmoil.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for using a positive energetic voice tonality as a point of self-automated defense and coping mechanism.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to manipulate children by using a positive energetic voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to strain my physical body within reacting to children by speaking to them in a higher pitched positive energetic voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for doubting my effectiveness to communicate with children in a a low grounded physically stable voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that people require to be persuaded and influenced with positive energetic voice tonalities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing people having temper tantrums.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating emotional turmoil within myself by deliberately going into positive energetic voice tonalities as a way to make connections and keep the peace.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to the learning ability of small children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having moments where I reacted as a point of impatience with the young children I was working with today.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for self-victimizing myself within working with small children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking the actions and responses of small children personally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be self-righteous in relationship to small children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how abusive it is to deliberately make a point of speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality to children.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the nastiness of speaking in a higher pitch positive energy voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame within reacting to children by speaking to them in a higher than normal voice tonality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for going into the nice guy character construct in relationship to children where I believe I do not have a connection with them and I have to earn their validation and approval through speaking from a starting point of positive energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how equally fucked it is to speak to children in a negative or positive energetic voice tonality.

To be Continued

Day 551 Teacher Student Relations

I experienced a little bit of agitation, frustration, annoyance and irritation within teaching ski lessons today.

The scenarios's that triggered these incidences were when a student or students were causing the rest of the class to wait upon them. What bothered me was that the student or students seemed to have no regard for how their particpations effective the rest of the class.

I see how in these particular incidences I briefly allowed myself to take the events personally and go into a form of reaction/judgement where I victimized myself as a result of the particular events unfolding.

Also I see how I directed blame towards the students in thinking that they ought to know better.

I see how in the particular incidences I lacked empathy and consideration. I see how I momentarily disempowered myself by taking the unfolding of the events personally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the self-victimization of myself within taking the unfolding of events personally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying agitation, frustration, irritation and annoyance as a result of participating within the blame and judgement of accepting and allowing myself to be triggered/stimulated by people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for existing within and as the superiority character within participating as a ski instructor/teacher.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have created a cognitive dissonance towards my students within taking on a superiority personality as being the teacher/instructor. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the equality within student/teacher relations and that I am in fact always both the teacher and the student as like I am also learning from the students as the students also stand within and as the role of teacher.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting annoyed, frustrated, angered and irritated within the incidences where I assumed/believed/perceived that the students ought to know better. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as the student within these particular incidences and how I know better that to judge/assume and create a form of logical self-manipulation within myself as a way to justify and validate separation and the abuse of energetic accumulation within myself. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being inconsiderate towards my students within thinking they ought to know better. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for projecting blame, anger, agitation , frustration, annoyance and irritation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being spiteful and self-righteous within thinking that my students ought to already know these particular things and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resistance to educating and informing others about things I believe and perceive that they ought to already know and understand. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying resentmenttowards my students as a result of having accepted and allowed myself to participate within emotional energetic reactions towards my students.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being selfish within my relationship with others within not fully wanting to give up superiority/inferiority relationship and place myself within their shoes as one and equal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have created moments of temporary hardship/burden in relationships with others as a result of not placing myself within and as the shoes/position of the being. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame within being resistant/reluctant to place myself within and as the shoes/position of all beings within and as this world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being spiteful and self-righteous within neglecting to place myself in the position of each and every single being here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for only sometimes placing myself in the position of other being here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame of only sometimes regarding the equality of Life here. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being shameful and spiteful towards the equality and oneness of all Life here.

When and as I see myself looking at another being as separate from myself, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand there is a point of cognitive dissonance here as accepted and allowed manifested separation, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a rift/separation between myself and another being here. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness in perpetuating experiences of cognitive dissonance. I commitmyself to removing all experiences of cognitive dissonance within myself.

When and as I see myself considering being angry, irritated, annoyed, agitated or frustrated, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the disservice I do to Life within accepting and allowing myself to abuse life within the energetic reactions of anger, irritation, annoyance, agitation and frustration. I look to reflect upon the point within myself and see how a moment of opportunity opened up where a particular event/scenario unfolded as a lesson for me to learn from within seeing and realizing where/how/why self-correction is required within myself with specific regards to a particular point. I commit myself to walk the specificity of self-correction with specific regards to a particular point. I commit myself to utilizing the lessons/opportunity that are presented to me here in every moment to self-perfect my standing here within and as the equality and oneness of Life.

When and as I see myself formulating logical assumptions within my mind about others as like what I think/believe/perceive, I stop and breathe, I return the points within myself as I realize and understand this thinking/believing/perceiving is specific to what I have accepted and allowed to exist within my mind...and that it is my self-responsibility to remove the limitations of my thinking/believing/perceiving about others within myreality. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of rationalizing and perpetuating the justification of judgement as a necessary thinking/believing/perceiving mechanism necessary to self-define others within a limited view. I realize and understand that holding onto limited views about others reflects that acceptance and allowance of self-suppression within myself. I commit myself to stop all forms of self-suppression within myself. I commit myself to investigate all forms of self-suppression. I commit myself to stop and prevent self-suppression within myself.

I commit myself to valuing and regarding All Life Equally.

I commit myself to Equality and Oneness within and as Teacher/Student....Student/Teacher relations.

Day 545 Stupid Conditioning Corrections

Continuing from Previous Blogs Stupid Conditioning Part 1 and Part 2


I commit myself to living passion and compassion.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become stressed within situations where things do not work out according to my plan and or expectations.

I commit myself to adapting my plans from the starting point of practicality when and as my plans do not manifest as expected.

I commit myself to flexibility within achieving my goals and exercising my action plans.

When and as I see myself becoming frustrated/agitated...even a little bit, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the impracticality of allowing myself to dwell and wallow within despair.

I commit myself to stop dwelling and wallowing within despair.

I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of dwelling and and wallowing within despair.

When and as I see myself reacting to someone's learning ability, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of reacting to someone's learning ability. I realize and understand reacting to someone's learning ability is like choosing to suppress self-awareness and my natural learning ability.

I commit myself to supporting the natural learning ability.

I commit myself to encouraging the natural learning ability.

I commit myself to patience and self-trust within and as the natural learning ability.

I realize and understand that within the natural learning ability everyone eventually gets to the same point of understanding/realization.

When and as I see myself neglecting a duty of care for myself/others, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand the self-integrity and self-responsibility within and as the 'duty of care' as what is best for all Life as the epitome of Oneness and Equality. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of negating self-responsibility within and as my duty of care. I realize and understand myself as the epitome of and as duty of care. I realize and understand my standing commitment here as principled living duty of care. I see and realize our duty of care within and as self-honest investigation as the best self-responsible solutions. I realize and understand self-responsible solutions prevent the perpetuation of most unfortunate consequence. I commit myself to prevention as the best cure. I commit myself to moving myself expression here within and as the starting point of 'duty of care'

When and as I see I am accepting and allowing difficult in living patience as a word of assistance and support within myself, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand that I am accepting and allowing a discrepancy to exist within myself in relationship to the word "patience". I direct myself to clarify my relationship agreement within and as "patience" as like the payment/gift in enabling myself to see with clarity the common sense obviousness of what is best...as I realize and understand what is best for Life come from within and as the self-honesty of patience, as like taking the time to see for real so that I in fact can realize what is here to see and can direct my actions from and as the starting point solution of what is best for Life, as I realize and understand that I first gift myself the gift of patience and in that first gifting myself the gift of patience/self-real-seeing...I enable myself to give real support because I have taken the time to make sure I have what is best to give and share as the supported living solution here. I realize and understand myself as the living assisted and supported solution. I realize and understand I have the patience to receive the gift of Life as I am committed to laboring myself here, in and as physical reality. I commit myself to the patience in birthing myself as Life.

When and as I see myself reflecting on baggage that I have harbored within myself such as disappointment/regret, I take this moment and opportunity to release myself from my own self inflicted bondage into suffering and internal damnation, I realize and understand when I am triggered by an external event within my reality that opens up a point of self-reflection in seeing my past history...I direct myself in giving myself a new way forward, by circumventing the continuation of a past historical pattern that does not best serve all Life here. I realize and understand my ability to create a new path for myself as all Life here that is a presentation of what is best for all Life. I realize and understand the point of practical living individual self-expression within the birthing process of Life born from and as the physical. I realize that it is the principles that are important within creating a new path as a solution/remedy to circumvent old history from continuing to repeat itself.

I commit myself to releasing/letting go of all the dead weight I have dragged around within myself.

I commit myself to stop burdening myself with the extra weight of unresolved conflict within myself.

I commit myself stress free living as the self-realization and commitment to facing and releasing all problems that exist within myself.

I commit myself to becoming problem free as a self sustaining solution that constantly and consistently works to maintain excellence/perfection/magnificence.

I commit myself to embracing excellence/perfection/magnificence.

I commit myself to realizing and understanding the humbleness within and as the excellence/perfection/magnificence of self.

I commit myself to solutions that are best for all Life.

I commit myself to stop choosing to be spiteful.

I commit myself to standing as example of the decision to let go of the freedom to be spiteful.

I commit myself to deprogramming stupidity from within myself.

I commit myself to programming that which is best for all Life.

I commit myself to Oneness and Equality as the initial starting point program from which All Life programs can be born and scripted as the written scripture which is all ways best for Life.

I realize and understand the process of re-structuring the law of my being within and as the rudiments of Life Being Oneness and Equality.

When and as I see myself blaming a student, I stop and face my mistake as a teacher as I realize and understand the shame in blaming a student for their learning inability. I realize and understand the self-responsibility in and as the physical standing as a world teacher to be held in and as accordance to the principle of Life Being Equality and Oneness. I realize and understand blame is lame...and that within blame there is a point of opportunity to correct a misfortune and therefor in turn, turning the missed fortune into and as a fortune as the practical physical living example and solution of the impossible becoming possible through and as the self-determination of my will being the way which is the growth and expansion of that which is always best for all Life here as the consistent and constant sharing/givings/offerings that are all ways best for Life.

I commit myself to standing within and without Life and Death.

I commit myself to preventing stupidity.

I commit myself to standing as the best education possible.

I commit myself to dedicating myself to education as that which is best for all Life.

I commit myself to Life Education.

I commit myself to preventing misfortune within education.

I commit myself to giving the best education.

When and as I see myself suppressing the giving of the best education possible, I realize and understand the point of oneness and equality here as the principle Life living law of existence and within this I see and realize how I was choosing to not receive the best education possible..and within this moment of clarity...I give myself the answer as the lesson learned from my mistake and therefore take myself direction inward and outward as the onward playing presentation of and as the practical living Life Simplicity Physical Solution Here.

I commit myself to playing and presenting the Practical Living Life Simplicity Physical Solution Here.

I commit myself to standing as a Teacher/Instructor/Educator/Teammate/Peer/Common Man, playing and presenting the Life Simplicity within and as the Practical Living Physical Solution Here.

I commit myself to move beyond good intentions and desires that perpetuate self-interest indulgences that are out of alignment of what is best for All Life Here.

I commit myself to aligning myself Here as what is all ways best for/as Life Here.

I commit myself to stop sabotaging creation within and as the pursuit of happiness/good intentions.

I commit myself to self-responsibility within and as direct-response-abled-first-aid....as the care and attention I wish to receive. I realize and understand the practical within the statement, "be careful what You wish for"

Day 543 Stupid Conditioning

A very interesting point came to my attention today. I noticed how sensitive I was in reacting to moments of stupidity. I had a student today who was quite stupid from the perspective of lacking common sense and being very slow witted. This bothered me a little bit. Where I found myself getting agitated within myself out how slow she was in processing information and making connections that were quite apparent/instantaneous/obvious for others.

I realized and understood that it was totally fucked for me to be judging my students ability in any capacity what so ever....that for me to take her starting point personally was actually quite stupid. Within realizing my own stupidity within my acceptances and allowances I didn't dwell within it. I looked at why I was bothered and agitated. I was actually getting mad/frustrated within myself. I realized again that this was ridiculous for me to be accepting and allowing such behaviour within myself. I questioned the point further as to why I would accept and allow such points within myself.

I saw how I would take points/interactions personally....where I could see that my student was reflecting and helping me to see that I was making the decision to fester within my own created stupidity. Kind of like where I would judge my stupidity with anger/frustration as like a form of self-righteous justification. What's interesting is that initially my seeing this was masked within the desire and good intentions...like being mad that the student wasn't better. I see here this is a point of self-reflection where I have harbored my own disappointment for not being better as like a self inflicted temporary road block perpetuating my own stalling in taking directive action in giving myself solutions so that I can in fact be better than what I am accepting and allowing myself to be.

The point also came up where I was suppressing myself in being the best teacher of support because I was allowing myself to be emotionally attached to my students performance, in that I was taking their state of performance/conditioning personally...and in turn I was being less than the best educator because I was in fact harboring/accepting and allowing spitefulness to exist within myself. It's like this spitefulness just existed within my secret mind...but this spitefulness was a point of separation I was choosing to be allowed to exist within myself as a form of self-created mental barrier that was hindering my abilities to be the absolute best point of support and assistance for myself and others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for conditioning stupidity within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the stupidity of judgment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying and validating stupidity to exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge stupidity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting and taking offense to stupidity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being reluctant to face the extent of my own self-created and perpetuated stupidity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having feared stupidity further manifesting within myself if I were to in fact face and own up to my own stupidity as like acceptances and allowances that are totally stupid.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing my learning ability and potential within the fear of being stupid.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for harboring disappointment within myself for my stupid acceptances and allowances.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be slow witted.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to lack common sense.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for suppressing common sense within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the stupidity of impatience as like justifying the emotional experience of reaction within a moment as a result of seeing through the eyes of blame as like the veil of separation as like their always being this form of cognitive dissonance between me and another as the same image and likeness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having been spiteful to my student within getting agitated within myself that she was not smarted and quicker witted.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame within judging someone's intelligence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being derogatory and spiteful to those who I regard as stupid and slow witted.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for bullying myself and others within accepting and allowing myself to be derogatory and spiteful.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shameful stupidity within self righteous indignation of judging another being's intellect/learning ability.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for participating within such shameful relationships with others where I place a sort of value score based upon how I regarded their intellect and their for value/worth.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for limiting my potential to be a teacher who is always great.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how ridiculous it is for me to spite myself/all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying and validating spite as through various forms of logical self-manipulation through accepting and allowing myself to perpetuate a spiral within an emotionalreaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself patients to be difficult at times.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the practical simplicity in making the decision to always exercise patience as a matter of understanding and realizing prevention as the best cure.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how shameful it has been for me to have chosen to be patient only sometimes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the detailed specific intricacies within and as the practical simplicity in programming self-perfection within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the humbleness required within facing the shame of seeing my every acceptance and allowance that is not in accordance/harmony of the starting point principle of creation as Equality and Oneness Here...as that which is Best for All Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for putting myself through so many agonizing experiences as a result of allowing myself to be triggered/annoyed/frustrated/angered/disgusted/impatient within moments of stupidity/ridiculousness/dumb wittedness/cognitive dissonance/lack of common sense.


To Be Continued

Day 419 Word Accountability

Day 419 Word Accountability

The point came up today where I was talking to my brother and we were talking about all sorts of different types of work and I said to him that politics interests me….and within this, he said to me that I better remove a bunch of the things I have posted online. My brother had mentioned this to me before…and I was kind of thinking about it…but this time…I said no that won’t be happening. I see the future of politics as an arena of transparency. I told my brother that I’m here to expose myself as a person…not trying to hide myself…and that if someone wants to bring up something I posted…whether it was from yesterday or a long time ago…and If I see a point of correction within what I have said/shared…I will take accountability for my words and speak about the point in question…and perhaps give added context as like a way to add to myself as a story of interest as like a way showing and exposing myself as a Being of integrity as a Being here who is not afraid of judgement as a Being who’s not interested in the slander game…not worrying about being slandered as a result of being exposed as a Being who is open and does not keep secrets…as I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of leading a top secret life from the perspective of being paranoid about who and how I am expressing myself.

So within my sharing here today, I’d like to take the opportunity here to share some self-forgiveness in relation to hiding and being paranoid/fearful about being exposed on the internet as a Being who’s walking a process of self-correction, as someone who’s interested in the manifestation of heaven on earth…and as someone who’s removing the skeletons from the closet as like the dead weight within having held onto acceptances and allowances that were not aligned in accordance within and as the principles of equality and oneness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that if I am serious about politics and being in the media that it is important that I censor myself and hide who I am and what I am all about.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing what others think about me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having feared others trying to manipulate and slander my name.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that it’s natural to be paranoid and fearful of others  looking to exploit and slander others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that if I want to be involved in politics that I have to be fearful about be screwed over as like believing that I need to have different lives…as like a private life and a public life…and that they must remain separate and secret…because if my private life were to be also public…than there would be total transparency.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I have participated within the fear of total exposure and keeping things secret and hidden…as a result of being fearful/paranoid about exposing/sharing myself as to say this is who I am and this is what I have done…and this is what I am doing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the connection of the point of transparency within individual beings as like a point of intimacy and support that facilitates nurtures, fosters, enhances and increased learning abilities and potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having held onto judgment about publicly exposing myself as a being walking a process of self-correction, as a being who is committed to self-perfection.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the assistance and support in leaving a track record as like written documents of writing process of self-transformation as like the visible evidence here that I am accountable for my actions…as like showcasing all my faults in a way…as to say, like hey look…when and as I see a point that requires self-correction within myself, this is what I do…this is how I stop and prevent that problem from occurring again…this is how I live self-improvement…this is what I am committed do and this is what kind of being I am here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing global exposure as like being examined by lots of people…as like reading all my words and checking out my history as my story as me being and becoming a point of authority as I take ownership as an author/Life creator here who realises and understand the principles of Oneness and Equality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the totally ridiculous absurd nature of fearing total exposure from and as a starting point of just being frightened, startled and timid about people knowing all the details of my Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the ridiculous absurd nature of celebrity culture and fans from the perspective of people obsessing about celebrities lives…and within this I forgive myself for not realising and understanding the correlation of fear of exposure…as like exposure had become like a huge thing in this world because there is so much fear around exposure and making a mistake…that reality TV shows are edited and scripted and politicians have a whole team the works to regulate the image of the president/prime minister…as like having all this guidance on how to act…it’s like being a politician in a wealthy nation in the world…is like being a Hollywood actor starring in a dramatic role…as like constantly having to check the script to see what is required to be said…and how one should project themselves about each particular scene within the political production process.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding myself as an example and teacher for politicians as like how a politician operates as totally fucking awesome!

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having spent so many years being frustrated and annoyed and angry with politicians and the political system…and within this not realising and understanding how I was deflecting my own abilities and capabilities as like my responsibility to take on the responsibilities of becoming the example of what a politician should be like, by becoming the practical living example that can be copied and emulated as like showing and saying here is the recipe formula for being a totally fucking awesome politician….this is the best way to do it…and be it….here I am and this is what and how I stand here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising my image and likeness to politicians in this world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to take accountability as the role of responsible politician here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from and as the role of politician.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not voting and supporting myself as the best political candidate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for waiting for and desiring for other political candidates to be exposed as great examples of being a totally fucking awesome politician.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how much fun potential is available to me here within accepting and allowing complete transparency within and as my commitment to self-perfection through the process of self-realisation and self-corrective actions.

I forgive myself for not realising and understanding how much easier it is to walk process of self-correction when there is complete transparency…as like the networks of support are opened up and there is total access to assistance and support everywhere...because I am opening myself up to being here everywhere as like totally exposed nothing to hide…as like a being who realises and understand transparency to be the key of good governance.

When and as I see myself fearing to express and share myself, I stop and breathe and I make a point of pushing through the resistance/fear/mental barrier/ and I express myself as the expression of sharing and transparency as like this is who I am here and this is what I am about within and as the principles of Oneness and Equality.

When and as I see myself reacting in fear to another being’s fears/concerns/worries/doubts….I stop and breathe…I assist and support the being being’s worries and fears to dissipate and be released as I do not accept and allow myself to be consumed within a reaction…and therefore I direct the point…as like planting the necessary seeds of support within the being…as I realise and understand the seed of assistance and support are my living words  as the principled sound foundation of equality and oneness….and I realise that words as seeds of assistance and support will grow within other beings…because they are in my same image and likeness as like my fellow mates as part of team life  as like members of the human division as like another You is Me man…so I care to share because I see and realise my responsibilities for the well-being of my teammates.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having neglecting my teammates as like fellow members of the human division on Team Life…as like I realise and understand that is ridiculously absurd to hold a grudge against any of my mates…and that judging any of my mates for their actions and mistakes is absurd ridiculousness because I realise the point of forgiving and forgetting as like the best living attitude here.

I commit myself to the best living attitude here as forgiving and forgetting.

I commit myself to becoming a teacher for the course, “how to be a totally fucking awesome politician”

I commit myself to realising and understanding and expanding myself as a totally fucking awesome politician.

I commit myself to transparency.

I commit myself to good governance as I realise the starting point of good governance starts within me as the law of my being here and that is my self responsibility to purify the law of my being as Equality and Oneness.

I commit myself to giving the best criticisms and chirps to my fellow political candidates as my fellow mates as all here in the human division as members of Team Life.