Day 613 Self-Forgiving a New Beginning

Continuing from my previous post Day 612 Beginning a New Day




I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to make sure when and as I go to sleep at night, I take the time to assess my day within and as how I participated, specifically investigating any trigger points as emotions/thoughts/feelings that came up that were not directed in the moment.

I commit myself to assessing my day before going to sleep as a point of self-responsibility in insuring my future well being...I see/realize/understand this to be a point in making sure I start my new day with a clean fresh start.

I commit myself to preparing my new new today with a clean fresh start.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for carrying around dead weight as like the baggage of my previous days thoughts/feelings/emotions as like unresolved points of energetic conflict that exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the amount of time I have wasted within mind as a result of indulging within whatever comes up within my mind as like just kind of going into the vortex of my mind without and specific practical self-directive application to facilitate self-corrective applications.

I commit myself to specifically applying self-forgiveness and self-corrective applications when and as I go into the depths of my mind to investigate my memories.

I commit myself to taking self-responsibility for my memories.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wallowing within my memories.

When and as I see myself wallowing within my memories as like a point of self-indulgence and neglect and resistance to really taking self-responsibility in moving myself within and as the point of self-forgiveness, I stop and breathe, I say, "I am here"...I forgive myself in relationship to the point in question in which I see/realize/understand that I separated myself from. I commit myself to prevention as the best cure...and within this I see/realize/understand the practical living self-responsibility in re-scripting scenarios for when and as I am faced with a specific point...I have a structured platform of support outlined to assist and support me in stopping participation within and as a point of self-sabotage/self-suppression.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for carrying dead weight around within and as the justification that it is necessary to hold onto thoughts/feelings/emotions about the past as specific memories that playout within my mind over and over again. I see/realize and understand the practical living assistance and support in self-forgiving myself the thoughts/feelings/emotions that replay within my mind. I see/realize and understand how the thought/feeling and emotions that replay within my mind are reflecting to me the point of self-responsibility I require to enact for myself...as I see/realize/understand that thoughts/feelings/emotions that replay within my mind reveal to me where I have in fact abdicated my practical living self-responsibility. I commit myself to practical living self-responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for logically reasoning and justifying that I have a few minutes to spare/burn/kill and therefore I can indulge within my mind as like a form of entertainment as like a daydreaming/tripping in my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not regarding the physical body consequences for drifting off within my mind as like a form of entertainment and distraction from and as practical living physical self-responsibilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to plan out my escape from practical living physical self-responsibilities within justifying that I have a few minutes to spare/burn/kill within indulging within the depths of my mind as a like form entertainment and distraction from and as my immediate participation within physical reality.

When and as I see myself deciding to drift off within my mind, I stop and breathe, I say, "I am here" I direct myself in facing the point of avoidance by looking at and seeing what I was in fact attempting to avoid, I take self-responsibility for my acceptances and allowances, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from myself, I self-correct my manifested separation by re-structuring my behaviour programming from within and as the starting point of prevention is the best cure. I commit myself to and as self-perfection.

Day 562 Starting Point of 'Investigate'

In a way we are always here as investigative detectives. What is interesting about this perspective is that even though we are always here within and as investigative detectives...our effectiveness existing as the best investigative detectives is compromised and suppressed when and as our starting point is not clearly aligned within and as the starting point of Oneness and Equality.

The starting point of 'Investigate' became clear to me today as I was faced with challenging work related circumstances and I allowed myself to form some personal self-righteous judgments and take the challenging work related circumstances personally. Within this, the point of self-reflection is required. Within and as the principle of Oneness and Equality, self-reflection is always here. 

It's interesting to see how we can compromise being the best investigative detectives within taking things personally and not wanting to question why particular things become so challenging for ourselves. Like for instance the particular challenges I was faced with was primarily within my ability to place myself within and as the shoes of others. I created such difficulty for myself as a result of clinging to particular biased/judgement/assumptions/beliefs/opinions that really hindered my physical well being...and within this I was missing the pertinent points/opportunities/clues/gifts that were available here for me to see. What's interesting about this is that as a result of automatically creating these biased judgments/assumptions/beliefs/opinions...I was blocking myself from having access to myself-investigation/education here. Consequently, I allowed myself to accumulate stress as a result of perpetuating thought within my mind to support the initial biased judgments/assumptions/beliefs/opinions I formed as like automatic reactions within beginning this particular work assignment.

The points in particular the opened up that I was resistant to see within myself, related to parents catering to children's desires and children just wanting to have their way no matter what. Also the point of self-entitlement/self-regard...and not realizing how I was being triggered by this point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how if I let even one moment of automated backchat within my mind be accepted and allowed within myself without further investigation, that the backchat will continue to accumulate and build so that I am able to see it in a bigger manifested presentation of consequence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I created 'challenging circumstances for myself' as a result of my inability to effectively self-reflect upon the nature of my backchat within moments while working. 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having just wanted to shutdown and go to sleep as like to re-set my mind and forget about the points I faced within my day today that require further investigation so that I can re-align myself from and as the starting point of Equality and Oneness and and prevent myself from ever perpetuating a similar instance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking personally what I see and within this utilize this as my self-righteous bias to feel validated in forming and perpetuating automated backchat about the particular circumstances I am witnessing and participating within.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to realize and understand the mind processes I am witnessing and participating within in any give moment. I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how my mind is the point of self-reflection for me to see what and how I have polarized my physical well being here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to face the point of myself as a child being spoiled within my parents catering to my every desire...or almost every desire.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being irritated/frustrated and annoyed in seeing children being persistent in doing everything they can to get there way within fulfilling their individula desires.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the shame that exists within me as a result of seeing and realizing how ruthless I have existed within primarily focusing myself here on the obtainment of my momentary desires while totally disregarding everything else within my environment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting angry/irritated/frustrated and annoyed with facing the nasty acceptances and allowances that have existed within myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abusing myself within playing out the self-automated defense coping systems for not wanting to face the nasty acceptances and allowances that have existed within myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a self-automated defense coping systems for not wanting to face the nasty accpetances and allowances that exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the scope of irony that exists within creating self-automated defensive coping systems within myself. I realize and understand how I have perpetuated that which I have resisted and fighted against...and within this if anything have only ever validated the nasty acceptances and allowances that exist within myself within accepting and allowing myself to passively accept and allow myself to play out and perpetuated automated backchat as the automated defense coping system.

I realize and understand my effectiveness in my ability to physically express myself here in and as the standing of what is best for all life within and as the principle of Oneness and Equality is a breath by breathaccumulation....because it is is in each moment of breath that I make the decision of what I accept and allow to exist within myself. I realize and understand myself-responsibility within witnessing self-automated backchat within myself to investigate the origins through the process of self-investigation. I realize and understand that self-forgiveness and self-corrective statements are required in these particular incidences. I realize and understand backchat is like an accident/incident that is happening within my mind and that is my self-responsibility to investigate and report the accident/incidents...as I realize it is myself-responsibility to prevent the accident/incident from perpetuating into a more sever problem and situation...and within taking self-responsibility for myself in the moment...I revive myself here as Life...bit by bit...piece by piece....breath by breath...as I realize I am in the midst of an ongoing process/investigation of self-realization as I walk the journey to life in and as the purification of the law of my being here as Equality and Oneness.

To Be Continued

Day 463 Walking the Talk

Today I was telling someone how I am getting over a cold by examining any built up suppression's within myself.  Like examining any areas where I allowed myself to be stressed about particular living situations...and if I held onto stress and did not in fact physically release the points of stress/strain on my physical body. I also shared the point of how it is interesting that our human physical body is always communicating to us our acceptances and allowances.

My friend pointed out how she too was getting over a cold, and how she examines her communication as a point of support and self correction. Specifically looking at the point of talking not being practically aligned with walking...as walking the talk so to speak.

When she mentioned this point I had an aha moment as this is a very simplistic way to examine one's behaviour.

I noticed in particular how I had been talking lots of about having to do school work, and saying that I got to do school work...and in so many instances I was not doing my school work.  I realised the school work had been a point of stress for me....but I didn't consider that I wasn't walking my talk so to speak...and I had considered other points on the surface more so before I got to the point of my attitude towards doing my school work as a root cause of having accepted and allowed stress within my physical body to accumulate to a point of getting a cold.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to talk about doing things without actually doing things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not being accountable to my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting responsibility within my communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to hold myself accountable for the words I speak.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for allowing myself to neglect fully living my words.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for contradicting myself within my words by saying one thing and then doing another thing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the consequences I place onto my physical body as a result of being out of alignment with my talking and walking as a point of unison within and as physical living actions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating reasoned excuses and justifications for me to accept and allow myself to discredit/disservice practically living words as what is best as a point of self directive self support.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resisted to unconditionally give honor, dignity, and integrity to physical living words in every moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for acting in opposition to living words as a point of self-empowerment and self-directed support as factors enabling me to be highly effective and efficient in my day to day living.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for lacking discipline within my communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the importance of structured discipline within and as communication.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for compromising the living of words as what's best for Life within allowing myself to place importance within my feelings in the moment as a point of accepted and allowed reaction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give weight to reactions and not realise and understand the extent to which every little feeling I hold onto as a polarized energy is in fact a point of stress, as like added weight/pressure I am accepted and allowing myself to force on to my physical body as a point of strain.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being irresponsible in every moment of communication as a result of not valuing myself and my words as oneness and equality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for communicating as less than Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I had accepted and allowed myself to be communicating as less than life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for abusing myself through words by not accounting for every word I speak.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to devalue my words by not realising and understanding the life value of each and every word I speak.

When and as I see myself making an excuse and justification within my mind as an avenue for me to escape living the words I have spread out for myself as a path of support and assistance to walk up as the practical living of words, I stop and breathe, I direct myself to walk my talk, I realise the self support within walking the talk and not accepting and allowing doubt as a mental road block to exist as time loop to keep me cycling in conflict friction as polarized energies existent within myself.  I realise and understand that as I walk and talk words as a point of self-commitment I am in fact giving/gifting myself the opportunity to express and live myself here as living words.

I commit myself to walking the talk.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that by talking about something I make the walking less of a walk....and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to physically walk.  I realise that physically walking a point is the only way to move.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I could walk a point effectively through creating a polarized energy about a point and that the emotional/feeling buzz as my intnetion would be enough of a push/buzz to get me to walk a point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for always looking for and trying to find a short cut or an easier way to do things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to give my best effort into everything I do...and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for misplacing my effort by putting so much effort in trying to figure out ways to avoid using as much effort.  I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how much more effortless the walking of my talking would be if I do not allow myself to put effort into trying to find a short cut as like a point of instant gratification as a like somehow being able to get the reward/big payout without putting in all the effort.

I realise and understand the effort required within walking the talk.

I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of misplacing effort within trying to avoid doing things.

I realise and understand the fruits of my labor are dependent upon the effort I put into my labor and that by avoiding my best efforts, I am sacrificing the quality of the fruits I may bear.

I commit myself to giving my best effort into harvesting the fruits of my labor.

I realise and understand my words are the seeds that bring into fruition my harvest.

I commit myself to harvesting my best efforts from the seeds of my words.

I realise and understand my words as both a seed and a fruit and that the quality is determined in and as the starting point of creation as Equality and Oneness as what is best for life....and therefore I know and understand that by planting the best seeds I insure the best results.