Day 653 - Surprise is the Sure Prize and Sure Price?

It's fascinating to see how I have in many instances...

Actually resisted giving myself the surprise...

As the point of pushing into the unknown of myself here because there is no "energy" and "motivation" to do so...

Like there is no pulling and or pushing "Energy Experience" inside myself to do/create from moment to moment that is like this impulse....

Yet, what I find interesting about this...

Is,

.........,

At the same time,

..........,

There is......

This....

 Very Physical Point of Myself Existing Here.

 Me.,

 The Starting Point

of....

and as.....

 Me/My Being Here...

 Which,

 Is Always....

 All ways about pulling and pushing things open

 As the movement of me here

To

Explore/Play/Work/Develop/Create

Responsibilities.

I experience myself in many moments missing this "Self-Innovation Responsibility" of myself here...,

As a result of negating and neglecting to develop and open up the potential surprise and sure prize...

As the exploration into and as the unknown will surely bring forth new insight,,,

Which is obviously a sure price to pay....

Because isn't self-discovery and self-awareness the sure price...

When and as One is all ways willing to invest...

As our time here,

Because our ability to in fact enjoy our time here comes from and as our awareness here,

Being able to direct our response able connections/relations

Within and as the expression of self-awareness and Self-Responsibility.

This being our Why and Who and how of What We in Fact are.....





What am I exploring about directing and responding in accordance with our awareness?



Self-movement, self-actuality, self-creation, our potential, innovation, exploration, discovery, insight, uncovering, new development, process and progress, learning, new, education, standing status, increased potential.....etc...etc..

So,

to be more specific here in the moment:


I am looking at how and why it is there has been such a hesitance and resistance to actually creating a full time vocation to the innovation of Awesomeness and Cool in and as my expression of myself here from moment to moment ?..........

So,

Specifically,

I am seeing how there is things/activities/points that i see as being interesting and cool to explore.....BUT....have not actually pushed myself into moving through and developing because I do not know what the Prize and Price will be at/as the harvest of my fruits/labor...., which is interesting in and of itself because it's like I justify not testing and exploring the depths of my capacity because I don't know what they are and I cannot actually see them...so therefore kind of artificially inducing the logic that because I don't know/see it....then it can not in fact exist...

and here the kicker...

the kick starter...

as the potential that I am, always exists here....

yet the potential that I create is the...

in the moment movement of myself that can only be witnessed as myself in and as the moment I make the decision to participate within and as the exercising my movement/potential here....

which is fascinating because as I actually dare to move/explore/investigate/play/work,

I in fact actually act out  my response abilities to and as what is in fact best for Life....,

which is in fact interesting and fascinating within and as how the process of and as my self-creation/innovation in fact works here as the labor of movement/birth/breath/physicality here.



Why is the question?

the King of the Quests.....

yes, WHY, is in fact the Question.

When You Ask WHY....You Get to Know HOW and WHO.....because HOW and WHO are related to WHY....because HOW and WHO were created and innovated through WHY....

I say through WHY...because it is a passing on type of process as in and how it is in fact that we create/move/share/develop/grow/learn.....

Sharing is Caring principle at work/play here....

because,

as the cause that be....,

this is the essential ingredient/recipe in putting together the whole picture/puzzle that originated as the WHY....

and since we are WHY...

We know HOW and WHO...

because we are also the WHO and the HOW because all LIFE is ALWAYS Relative,

which is fascinating in and of itself because all Life is always here within and as the CREATION PROCESS HERE.

It's FUN and Fascinating to explore our potential as we enable ourself to move for the sake of moving as the exercising, working and playing of and as our Natural Learning Ability here.

What is so cool about this, is that, we are essentially a "Surprise".

The saying comes to mind: "Life is full of Surprises".....which I see can also mean....Life Is Full of Itself.....Which I see is; Within and so Without.....Internal equals External...

So, is "Surprise" in and of itself an expression and explanation of Our actual Potential Here?

Is Life not the Prize and Price all  must pay/give/receive?

Would it not be silly to disregard the value of All Life Here?

If One disregards aspects of Life Here...Does that mean, One is in fact disregarding the existence of their Life Here and therefore All Life Here....because, are not all Lives here connected to this One Life we are all existing within Here?

SO,

Is it important to give surprises to one another?

Is giving someone a surprise like giving someone a gift?

Is Our Life not the most valued Gift Here that has been given/bestowed to us Here?


Does it make sense that, that which has not been Forgiven has not been given for myself?

Am I able to Give Forgiveness to myself in every moment all of the time so that Everything/All of My Life is Given/Received/Lived/Expressed/Cherished...?

Is Self-forgiveness the Key/Tool to Receiving/Accessing/Unlocking/Opening Myself Up Here as the Kingdom of Heaven?

Would Life itself not be a complete surprise as the manifested expression of the Kingdom of Heaven in All it's Glory?



Looking more at "Surprise"... surname...sur-prize......"sur" the prefix meaning: "over, above, and in addition to"....survive...surcharge...survey....very sure......as above and so below....Life and Death is beyond Survival.....Death is In Life and Life is In Death....So,.. AS Within and So Without.....LIFE IS WITHOUT DEATH AND DEATH IS WITHOUT LIFE.....LIKE, Oneness and Equality together as our weather that creates the flow of the expression we sew as the fabric of Life we play with here.....

Interesting to see the parallels within our Life Fabric/Substance here and Our Fabrications here as the make up marker, covering up what is already here and clear as the purity of Nature.

Day 587 Questions Give So Much Support

Continuing from my blog post, "Day 580 Gifting Myself Within Self-Reflection"


Here are questions that came up within me in my previous blog that require further investigation/exploration.


"Is it wrong for me to exist the way I have existed?"


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within the right/wrong frame of mind. I realize and understand that existing within and as the polarity equation of right/wrong frame of mind is not in fact what living life self-expression is in fact all about. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of judging every action as right or wrong. I see and realize and understand this to be in fact a point of and as a conflicting reaction energy reality that perpetuates both the right and the wrong as like the right makes the wrong so and the wrong wouldn't be wrong without the right and it's just so limiting as like being caught within and as this inner turmoil war that is the fighting for peace as like trying to reconcile while not realising and understanding how holding the missile in pursuit of peace perpetuates the war of disregard within and as the two sides of the same coin kind of war that becomes a matter of subjective opinion that opens up and breeds questionable understanding because it creates and perpetuates this grey area mentality of this middle road delusion of the right and wrong being relative to where your standing and it's less than seeing the whole equation as it is what it is because of what is here and so, I commit myself to stop limiting myself within and as the self-appointed judgement upon my every action here as right or wrong within and as the realms of positive/negative energy persecution.

When and as I see myself questioning myself as am I right/wrong, I stop and breathe, I investigate why I am concerned with the valuation and definition upon a point of being defined as right and or wrong. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of moving about from and as a starting point of justification...like justifying the right or the wrong. I commit myself to stop the fighting within myself as the right/wrong divide.


"Am I trying to justify self-interested pre-occupation when in fact I exist in a time/space reality that requires extensive assistance and support in re-aligning the framework rules to support what is best for all Life."

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying self-interested pre-occupations as a way to give myself an experience of contentment within and as a form of self-satisfaction that I am in fact right in doing what I am doing and therefore due to my righteousness I can garner a false sense of confidence because of the justification which I can utilize as the methodology to fuel the religion of self-belief from and as the perspective of my self versus your self as like this war/conflict that needs separation as the fuel/grease/oil to remain intact. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of utilizing justification. I commit myself to stop searching for contentment and self-satisfaction. I commit myself to realizing and understanding myself as the source of and as content and satisfaction here. I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of creating a point outside of myself as the vehicle to transform the standing up of myself into and as physical sound ground in and as the harmonious balance of stability. I commit myself to trusting in and as physical self-expression as the key to me here in and as physical sound stability...existing beyond the limited dimensions of polarized energy equations of right versus wrong. I commit myself to practical living...and the question/answer to 'what is practical living' comes from within and as my self-trust here.

When and as I see myself consuming myself within self-interested pre-occupations that do not serve the best interest of all Life here, I stop and breathe, I investigate what I am avoiding to see, I face my accepted and allowed resistances/fears/conflicting energies and I take directive self-responsibility in sorting out the inequality that exists within myself. I commit myself to purifying my starting point for being/expressing myself here as Equality and Oneness.


To Be Continued with investigative exploration into and as the following quest-full questions:


"Do I fear letting go of my personal self-interest?"



"What else do I know besides my personal self-interest?"



"How would I exist here if I moved out of a desire based starting point of self-interest pre-occupation?"



"Should not the point of living here be for everyone to have the opportunity to investigate and explore their personal self-interests?"



"Why am I resistant to fully letting go of my personal self-interests when I know and realize our shared reality requires serious changes in order to assist and support all Life here as what is best? Would this not be a point of serious change?"



"Do I see how I argue for my own self-imposed limitation within justifying/desiring to spend my time within recreational/leisurely pursuits when our shared reality requires intensive labor investigative pursuits in order to stop the heinous abuse that is perpetuated as a result of disregarding what is best for all Life here?"



"Why have I allowed myself to regard my-self as separate from everything else here?"



"Is believing Self to be separate from everything else here  a way to justify the use of blame and abdication of personal self-responsibility and self-accountability?"



"Do I see how I have not really understood the extent of self-interest in the greatest most profound sense because I resisted living from the starting point of Equality and Oneness in every moment?"



"Do I see how self-interest from a starting point of self being separate from everything here creates a disharmony as a cognitive dissonance to the understanding and self-realization of what is best for all Life here...and how regard for self-interest in the most profound sense is the regard for what's best for all Life...as that's the best self-interest....the only real self-interest....because anything else is less than considering all Life One and Equal Here?"

Day 454 Is Time a Question?

Continuing with a "time" investigation....beginning here with a ranting and raving about time as a way to further investigate my perceptions of "time"


importance of time....time being undervalued is a serious global epidemic....like money as debt is a clear indicator as time enslavement....total disregard of time....I mean....the way our systems are set up for instance...like economic system, legal system, education system,....indicate a total waste and disregard of time...like where's the value in Everyone's time...? ? ?

Lets look at oil as an example....it takes a long time for oil to form in the earth....it's being so under valued and wasted these days...because the resource is being controlled and manipulated by a small minority of people on the planet...as like claiming the rights to all the oil reserves...and thus setting oil at a price to get everyone's money....keep things relying on oil because it's a control piece...on people's time here...as like our inadequate global system is heavily reliant on oil....


Lets look at labor...labor takes times....actions done in time....many goods are being sold really cheap.....which is a result reflection of having a low value relationship reflection towards labor/time/life...exemplifies and reflects a prison planet...as like generally low self worth...disregard of time/life


Look and see the relationship with Life and time....this here is our Life Time........


What the fuck is going on?


Reflecting on the word "time" and seeing how I have undervalued time from the perspective of oneness and equality as the starting point of creation.....realizing and understanding that oneness and equality is beyond energetic polarity friction constructs....

What I am getting at is that the state of our world is our estate and is a reflection of our value system.  I see this point as a result of examining my relationship with and as the word time...and that this basic principle of word relationship agreements shapes and dictates the form of our information....like how systems operate....

 the economic system, legal system and education system are reflecting upon an undervaluing of time...which also means an undervaluing of life because relationship exists between  "Life" and "Time"......and... there is consequences for ineffective word relationships....which are formed and developed in/over "time"

Is "time" like "law" or "science" ?

Does time determine the facts?

Is time an indication of the facts ?


Is Time a "form of delay" ?

Is "time" a speed system ?

space-time....space and time to form sounds....sound formations are the result of time...

Time is relative to space ? Is all Time relative?  Is this the same as saying.... "Is all Life relative?

Relative...like in a relationship with...as a result of being related as a result of sharing a connection...coming from the same starting point origin....

What is "origin"

Originate....original.... What is the "origin" of "time"

Does time equal movement


Without movement, can time exist?

Is time a form of Question...like a mathematical equation?  If so, is it logically obvious that everything here is a part/piece of the question/mathematical equation as both the problem and solution?

Everything contributes to the rate of time

we can stop destructive cycles/patterns in time...


We can re-verse engineer our word relation conversations in time as a way to correct the future design of the world as a reflection of word agreement relationships as the manifestation of what is best

We are studying the consequences of time so that we can prevent future consequences that are preventable...so that "what's always best can be equated with time" so that what's always best is Here within our physical Life Time...as we become what's the physical best life time




I will continue to play/work/investigate "Time"