Day 792 - Royally Fucked

Royally Fucked

“I realize all forms of Inferiority and Superiority are essentially the same thing as points of self-suppression and that it's like Inferiority is less suppression than superiority....where superiority is superior suppression. Funny to see the irony of suppression within Inferiority and Superiority where it's Inferior suppression and Superior Suppression.....like fucked and double fucked.”

“I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having become so used to being royally fucked that I experience myself as uncomfortable in being less than royally fucked. Where being less than royally fucked, feels strange and almost embarrassing and shameful...where i should want to fuck around more so i can get back to being royally fucked. The irony is profoundly fucked lol.”

The Fact that within our world we have the word “Royalty” and “Royal” is an indication of the ingrained Debt Servitude relationship as Inferior and Superior. This is showcased well as the basis of energetic conflict within and as Mind. Polarization. Friction. Battle. War. Slave Mentality.

What do I mean when I say, “Debt Servitude”?

Servicing and Creating Debt. In Service of Debt. Like Debt is the Superior and the Service is Inferior. Where the Debt and the Service need each other to exist...because it's like a point of both being incomplete without the other one...and so each is bound, bonded to the other.

Relation Fucked. Meaning, the basic framework in which relationships are designed is within and as this debt based construction of More than and Less than. Money has become the medium to support the servicing of charges. Energy is another expression and outflow of money. Meaning, Our positive feelings and negative emotions as our relationships to everything here.

Why Relation Fucked?

Relation Fucked, because the basic mode of conditioning, our behaviour within and as mind set up has been, Royally Fucked. Ironically, it is because of our own Accepted and Allowed Royal Acclaim. And our own accepted and allowed Royal Servants. Where each is a manifested representation of ourselves here in all ways and our reaction/impression about it, is like valid confirmation for mind justification in continuing to mine and mind the feeling and emotion about what we see....because what we see is what we are...and it's been going on for so long as the Specificity in Definition Impressions. Where it's like we just layer and layer and layer the Self-Deception. Only, we don't regard our behaviour necessairly as draconian...but more of a sort of human evolution of our greatness...and that our greatness is just very complex and sophisticated like our intelligence...I mean deception. Cough Cough.

Where am I going with this bit, “Royally Fucked”

It's a point of self-reflection for me in and as the world here. Where I am in the process of taking responsibility for all characterizations of myself here. Removing the Separation existent within myself as how I separated myself from all characters here by believing myself to be an individual character that is totally a Separate Setup from all other characters here. See, it's interesting because we have the whole spectrum of characterizations within ourselves...and it's a range of vocabulary and a range of feelings and emotions...just as we have a range of colour here that makes up the spectrum of colour. Point of Investigation is ourselves here as Life.....What is Life...Life is Sound. So in really investigating through words the structure of myself and the world, word by word in a way where I can specifically investigate how I have articulated...made my artistry into the point of ecstasy excretion through perpetually suffering and torture,  making slave labour by keeping my Body and Beingness in a state ingrained debt servitude to my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how I created the design and definition of Royalty within my mind.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand how the definition of royalty existent within my body and mind as supported the world as a whole being exactly the way it is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to really go into myself to see who and how I am existing within and as my mind as Royalty.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to face myself as Royally Fucked.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to deny and suppress myself here as Royalty.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying the suppression of myself as Inferior to Royalty because of various phrases such as: “its just the way things are”, “there's just royalty and non royalty”, “our family just isn't the royal one”, “not everyone can be royal”, “Royalty wouldn't exist if everyone was royalty”, “royalty is a necessary position and part of our world and society”.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to go into conflict with “Royalty” where I would be angry and frustrated with the status of the world, my words, myself here....while most of the time, only projecting my disgust outwards onto others I define as Superior to Me here in this world as for instance the Queen of England and her Royal Family.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame people in this world who are regarded as Royalty for the problems within and as the class system of inequality existent within humanity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to want to fight against the world out of frustration for my understanding of the relationships that exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to really take the time to place myself as each individual thing here....to really stand in and as each One here in this world.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having created a preference towards conflict and destruction over collaborative structured creations. I realize the ridiculousness of fighting for my limitation. I realize that working together is to get things done...is to actually move as the point of democracy here...in making things happen as a result of weathering the weather as a result of creating the ripple that is the momentum that moves the current which is currency which is our weather system which is our water which is our weather, which is our environment.

I realize I like to use synonyms for words, as this is like this and this is like this and this is like this....I realize this is a support in seeing how words are capable and able of supporting and assisting each other in working and playing together as a form of compliment and complimentary action.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge my usage of words and how I create the flow of my words in sentence structure.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear the judgment and condemnation of others for the flow and presentation of myself here in and as Word.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become apathetic within and as my Words...specifically the structuring and the sounding placement of how I lay things out. I realize I created an apathy towards practically structuring my reality. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create Apathy within myself....and within this, justify the suppression of my ability to structure and create new Potential.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to lock myself up within my word relationships in such a sneaky and deceptive manner of self-trickery that I resist to even speak or write about it....because the pain of self-condemnation as an Inferior and an Imbecile is heart breakingly embarrassing to myself as Mind Superior Royalty who is Superior to such characterizations and behaviours.

To be continued

Day 667 - Charisma

The word "Charisma" has been brought to my attention many times recently. I suppose there is some irony in saying that "Charisma" has gotten my attention...because within the definition of charisma means, "a compelling attractiveness or charm that can inspire devotion in others." Dictionary also says that Charisma is, "a divinely conferred power of talent"

Synonyms of Charisma include: charm, presence, personality, force of personality, strength of character, magnetism, attractiveness, appeal, allure.

The roots of Charisma are said to come from ecclesiastical Latin, from Greek Kharisma, from, Kharis 'favor, grace'.

So, my initial thoughts for writing this blog was to open the word "Charisma" and see how I can live "Charisma" as an expression that supports and assists what is best for all Life.

Within looking up the dictionary definition of charisma, I had a reaction to seeing "devotion" within the definition....and I thought, 'I can't use charisma...it's too religious...I don't want to attract devotion...people being devoted"

So, what I do next is slow myself down, I say, "wait a minute here, lets look more closely at the word devotion....perhaps I am jumping to conclusions as my reaction relationship towards devotion was rather self-evident.

So, I looked at the dictionary definition of "devotion".  What I realized is that devotion is not limited to religious ideology and that Devotion can be applied within anything and everything that we do as devotion can be described as a commitment...and a loving loyalty and enthusiasm within our participations here.

So, obviously I realized that devotion is a pretty cool word that can support and enhance self-expression/self-enjoyment/sharing-is-caring.

So, I looked at Charisma in relationship to Everyone living this word. This I see here is a cool point of support...because if everyone is Charismatic...well that is pretty cool reflection to see...because this point encompasses the dedication and discipline within hard work....which is the self-commitment and the satisfaction within and as the love/loyalty/enthusiasm for the work/play/moves we make.

Due to the nature of "Charisma", I see that there is tremendous potential for prosperous change and growth that is in the best interests of all life here....because I see that Charisma is infectious....like, it is a powerful point of support in getting into you as your attention/focus beyond a reaction...as most often like an admiration and a respect for what you are seeing...and so, in liking what you see...this stimulates/instigates a physical push within oneself to further challenge oneself in stepping up their game/devotion/work/play/participation/life...as the attraction within charisma is a physically charming quality.

Charisma I see is sharing the image and likeness of greatness....an air of confidence that cannot be ignored because the presence is so strong.

So, Charisma is one of the greatest gift you can gift yourself with....because once you gift yourself with charisma, you can support others to do the same....and this is how our world becomes great....because it's a collective accumulation of greatness in the 1 + 1 equation and accounting for all Life here as The One Great Life....The Great One....The Great One Life Here....Because as the cause be devotion to Life/Greatness which is Who We Are....Tag You Are It.

To be Continued

Day 531 Entertainment Distraction to Learning Engagement

I just listened to this cool interview about distractions. I suggest to check it out.

I've been questioning how I spend my time. I've been asking myself if I could better spend my time.

I've looked at the point of entertainment as a distraction. I see how my Life has been tailored in accordance with getting as much entertainment as possible. Like minimizing everything else to maximize entertainment.  I figured this is the dream...like this is what everyone wants to be doing, to have as much entertainment as possible.

I see how I have flipped flopped around within various forms of entertainment.

I see how this entertainment energy was ingrained within myself as a young age.

I've questioned the point of existing without any entertainment?

I've judged entertainment?

I see how I can change the relationship from entertainment to that of a learning engagement as a result of accepting and allowing myself to be self-intimate with self-introspection in analyzing/investigating my reactions within the entertainment.

I see how I have not always allowed myself to introspect my reactions within various forms of entertainment.

I see and realize how avoiding to introspect reactions is a total waste of a gift/opportunity to receive fantastic self-support which encourages and enables self-expansion.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for only sometimes investigation/introspecting my reactions within entertainment. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for limiting/suppressing my learning potential engagement by not making a concentrated effort to learn from every reaction I have. I realize and understand that there is so many little reactions that happen within me throughout a day. I realize and understand that by making note of a bunch of them on a daily basis, I would in fact be gifting myself an abundant amount of opportunity/fortune. I realize and understand that it is not difficult for me to find reactions...as I realize and understand that reactions just kind of happen within my mind as a result of what I have previously accepted and allowed to exist within my mind.  I realize and understand it would be quite easy for me to make note of a list of reactions on a daily basis.  I see and realize how making a list of reactions on a daily basis would be of great support within and as the point of self-investigation....because each word/point of reaction represents a gift and a learning opportunity. I see and realize how there is so much opportunity for me to be learning throughout the day. I realize and understand that neglecting to investigate reactions is to neglect and suppress learning opportunities.

I'm looking at the point of my world expanding as a result of giving myself self-direction within enabling myself to be constantly actively engaged within physical reality...like entertainment in a way becomes irrelevant because there becomes only direct physical participation...like everything becomes a point of engagement...where I am able to actually give myself direction in moving myself to finish tasks/responsibilities that support myself expansion within and as learning.

I see how entertainment is a point of taking a break/time off from learning.

I see how I created this relationship towards learning versus entertainment when I was a young child...where I learned how to not learn and just react.  Learning is a point of focused concentration.....what is interesting about this though,....is that every reaction results from a point of focused concentration...like you cannot react to a point if you are not aware of the point...so within this I see and realize the point of self-responsibility within and as my focuses concentration....that I enable myself to direct my focused concentration to questioning and exploring the particular reactions that exist within myself.  I see that questions in a way are like reactions...and questions are what is key to learning.

So how did I learn to not learn....by fearing to ask questions....which is a point of resisting to take the steps necessary to understand and realize something.

So it's like we either learn from reactions/programming and see and realize how reactions/programming works...or we become blissfully ignorant/oblivious to how we are continuously programming and re-acting ourselves... and then believe Life to be this trip/experience that we don't understand but keeps us entertained/distracted from the actual truth of ourselves as the source of Life.

Day 529 Turning the Switch

So, I find myself here in need of a turn around...like I am starring at the misdirection I gave myself as the consequence of having an idea about chasing desire...and well I got to the point of desire...and well things just are not what I planned they would be.

I'm faced with seeing the mistake I made...and correcting my mistake requires me to do a big 180 turn around.

It's funny that I didn't want to see this earlier and had to put myself through the ringer so to speak as like travelling many miles only to realize the point that was available to see without the extensive journey.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how useless it is to project future desires within my mind and to spend my time chasing after the attainment of desires.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself within seeing a giant mistake that I made.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for considering to spite myself in seeing the giant mistake that I made by thinking and believing well I've already made the mistake...no point in immediately correcting the mistake....what's done is done...and I just got to commit to the course of direction that I am in as a result of the mistake...changing paths/course of direction would not be honorable because I committed myself in this particular direction....even if it was a mistake...I'm committed to my mistake.....WTF...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for committing myself to mistakes that I make...like believing that I must have the integrity and honor to walk within the mistake as like it wasn't a mistake at all like to pretend that things are all good and that regardless of things not being all good I just got to stay the course because I already set the sails and there's no turning back.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resistance to turning back on a decision I made....as a result of fearing the consequence of turning back.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being reluctant to face  myself within the vulnerability in learning from my mistake and turning back as the prevention mechanism to stop myself from furthering misdirection within and as a mistake.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the dangers of stagnation within and as the process of self realization and self-correction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having desired a form of solace within stagnation as like a believed/pretend form of escapism from responsibilities as like a way to procrastinate on responsibilities....so that I could make believe that everything is accounted for.

When and as I realize I made a mistake, I stop and breathe, I take a moment to look at the mistake I made, I learn from the mistake, I realize and understand the fact that I made a mistake is irrelevant because I learned from my mistake. I realize and understand that crucifying myself within self-judgement is ridiculously absurd and spiteful towards my best interests.

I commit myself to not postpone seeing my mistakes.

I realize and understand the consequence of postponing to see what is here.

I realize and understand the practicality within living at the cutting edge of time.

I realize the point/practicality of living at the cutting edge of time to be a means of preventing stagnation within time.

When and as I see myself resisting to make a turnaround...as like to retrace my steps to correct my miss step, I stop and breathe and I realise and understand that postponing to correct a misstep is reckless because many more missteps...as like travelling within the abyss of misdirection will require further reverse engineering later as the means/method to remedying self-corrections as the consequence of delaying to take immediate action as a being walking at the cutting edge of time here.

I commit myself to seeing the funny here.

I commit myself to stop delaying to see the funny within my acceptances and allowances.

I commit myself learning from my mistakes.

I commit myself to avoid making mistakes by being self-honest within my decisions.

I commit myself to stop judging myself for making mistakes.

I commit myself to turn around and retrace my steps after realizing and understanding that I made a mistake.

I commit myself to self-perfection.

I commit myself to learning/expanding myself every day.