Day 461 Attitude

"At it to do"


Attitude:
(n)

1. The way a person views something or tends to behave towards it, often in an evaluative way.
2. A theatrical pose created for effect (especially in the phrase "strike an attitude)
3. A position of the body indicating mood or emotion.
4. Informal a hostile manner..."don't give me attitude, my girl"
5.(Engineering/Aeronautics) the orientation of an aircraft's axes in relation to some plane, especially the horizontal.
6. (Astronautics) the orientation of a spacecraft in relation to its direction in motion.
7. Performing Arts/Ballet) Ballet a classical position in which the body is upright and one leg raised and bent behind.

(source: http://thefreedictionary.com/attitude)


The reason i am looking at the word attitude is because the point has come up in relation to completion of a university course.  I've written about this point before...and I've mentioned points that relate to my attitude about doing the university course...but I don't think I every took responsibility about the point of my attitude in relation to walking this particular university course into completion...and it's been very difficult for me.  I've had a terrible attitude about the course.  I've tried to ignore my brutally negative attitude about the course and just get through it...but I see the point of responsibility in gifting myself the release and ease of posture, like the release of stress and tension on my body as a result of trying to do something while holding onto a brutally negative attitude about doing so.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how I have placed stress and tension on my body as a result of holding onto a brutally negative attitude about the university law class I am taking.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how my brutally negative attitude about the university course jurisprudence has been an accepted and allowed form of judgement that has been a hindrance to my  movement and progress withing the program.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being stubborn in my attitude about the university course jurisprudence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being brutally negative in attitude about the university course jurisprudence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for self sabotaging my individual progress within the jurisprudence course.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to effectively participate within the jurisprudence course while accepting and allowing myself to carry a contaminated definition of the word jurisprudence in relationship to and as the university course I am taking...and within this I see and realise how my attitude reflect contamination in regards to the course itself as polarized energetic judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying and believing it to be fine for me to hold onto such judgement within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being righteous within self judgement about the university jurisprudence course.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the irony that has been unfolding here as consequence within and as the fact that jurisprudence is the science and or philosophy of law...and the point of irony here...is that I did not understand the law of my being as what I have accepted and allowed within my words, which is the basic structured formation of the law of my being here.


to be continued

Day 452 It's All In the Words

I've been sharing lots of time with parents and siblings lately which has been a cool point of self reflection.


Committing myself to writing as a point of self-perfection/self-correction has assisted and supported me in changing the dynamics of family relationships.


Sharing lots of time with parents and siblings is a therapeutic process.  No one has triggered me more to investigate my acceptances and allowances than my parents and siblings.  I am grateful for the support I have been privileged with.


What's interesting and cool is that by not taking any words personally, I have allowed and accepted myself to direct words as a point of assistance and support.


In the past, so much, I failed to effectively direct words as a point of practical assistance and support as a result of accepting and allowing myself to be conflicted within my relationship to words.  As a result of accepting and allowing a conflicted relationship with words, I had been quite abusive with my vocabulary as I interpreted words as an attack/defense and within this reciprocated from the perspective of an "I" for an "I"....as like "I" copying "I".  I didn't understand my participation's and even once I started to realize my self-righteous nature of an "I" for an "I", I still became triggered with points of reaction that required self-honest investigation to realize and enable the process of self-correction.


What is interesting and cool within this process, is that as I allowed myself to investigate the nature of my every reaction to words, I became able and capable of correcting myself in the moment as a point of self-responsibility...as like, allowing myself to stop and breathe, and then correct the situation by taking accountability for my words.  Taking accountability for words includes speaking words and not speaking words...and within this releasing the emotional and feeling attachment to words through and as the process of self-forgiveness.


I've been looking at the point of blame...and how I justified so much of my communication from the starting point of blame...as like the energy within accepted and allowed blame would fuel my spoken words as like seeing offensiveness everywhere and not considering myself to be one and equal as the greatest offender of words.


I've come to realize and understand how I had connected blame to self-righteousness and anger within myself in ways of polarized energetic friction that resulted in me becoming frustrated and agitated quite easily and severely as a result of my resistance to face myself within thoughts, words and deeds.


What's interesting to me now, is how trivial my past acceptances and allowances have been...as like I see and realize and understand how the result of having an ineffective relationship with words has caused me tremendous strain and discomfort throughout the years.


I see and realize how I did my best to cope with my contaminated vocabulary...and how I did not understand the significance of my accepted and allowed relationship agreement with words.


I see and realize how I neglected and abused myself with words.


I see and realize how I turned words into weapons of mass destruction...and I realize and understand how I accepted and allowed myself to perpetuate war within myself as like an arguing for my own limitation and self-suppression.


I see and realize how my words terrorized me with the spectrum of energetic fears from the lowest lows of emotion to the highest highs of feelings....and how within this I was always the dictator, the man hiding behind the masks of character persona's I accepted and allowed myself to act out as a result of my relationship agreement contract with words.  What's interesting and crazy was that I did not realize and understand the extent to which words acted as the codes to my own imprisonment.


What's fascinating and ironic now, is how I am investigating words within law as jurisprudence which is the science and philosophy of law. And, also, I am aligning myself to provide educational software to people so that they can purify the law of their being...by correcting the contaminated word relationship agreements...and also by preventing the formation of contaminated word relationship agreement contracts.


I learned and realized that "vocabulary" sounds like "vocation" and the only way to practically live an everyday "vacation" is to become a wordsmith, as one who is at home within themselves as the living relationship agreement with all words from the principle starting point of creation as Oneness and Equality, as what is best for all Life, as that which can stand the testaments of time eternally.