Day 730 - Coming Out of Retirement

I can recall on more than one occasion, declaring that I was taking an early retirement. The idea of an early retirement is something I was looking into at the end of my teenage years and the beginning of my twenties. My attitude was that I am ready to commit to full time leisurely pursuits. The consideration was that perhaps I would not make it to old age or that I would be less mobile, less flexible, less capable or less able bodied. From my perspective, I was of the notion that I should give as much time to myself now as possible....even if I have to pay for it later....that giving myself tremendous amounts of time now, would pay dividends later...as like actually gifting myself with the privilege to slow down and seize the day.  This was regarded as somewhat of a radical notion because all my peers were looking to position themselves into life long careers so that they had the potential to secure their retirements.  I also figured that I could have a retirement now...and perhaps I could still have one later. I mean, initially I kind of regarded that my adulthood would be a lifelong retirement of sorts and that it would be focused on  my individual self-interests in the now of consciousness...without real longtime planning from the perspective and principle of Be Here Now.

Well, it's been perhaps just over a decade since i first declared myself taking an early retirement.

There's been many times throughout this past decade where i forgot that I had many times declared and wished for myself an early retirement and within this not really considered the fabric of my wishes. My immediate regards were that of fulfilling my immediate and moment to moment desires. a lot of very treats from the day to day and month to month retirement living management.

What also appealed to me about this approach is not really having wanted to get serious about long term planning...committing to any long term plan.

I would say also within this was the concern that I would have to give up my childhood for adulthood.  My thinking was that I will carry my childhood into adulthood and I will take the senior approach very childishly...from the perspective that I will skip the typical young adult middle age mentality and go right for retirement kind of living....from the perspective of my focus being on the shortsightedness of daily pleasures and leisurely pursuits.  My thinking about recreation was that perhaps I will want to play more now then when I am older...maybe I wont want to play so much when I am really old...and then I would rather focus on work....because from my perspective old people don't seem all that playful...I mean sure there's a lot of them that are cheerful and good spirited but they also kind of sit around a lot...and isn't there a lot of young people in jobs where they sit around a lot....wouldn't it be better to take a sit around type of job when I am old...

I also have had the attitude that I have a Golden Ticket.

I remember this steady girlfriend I had for some years and she was finishing her schooling up and was prepared to get into career mode and begin a family.,..and at that time I was not at all interested in that approach for myself..I was in full out retirement mode...thinking that my living leisurely as my recreational pursuits were my investments for my future and that I have a  Golden Ticket that I can cash in when I so desire....and the thing about my thinking was that my golden Ticket has so much potential like the realization within myself that I can in fact do what ever I want....like I am the will and the way and so realizing this is like a wow realization because it is a point of self-comfort within and as self-empowerment. At the same time...there can be almost an urgency within self that comes up as like wanting to make something happen because potential exists...and at the same time a hesitance of not wanting to rush things....kind of a indecision between getting going and postponing....

A realization that has become clear to me is that Yes, Indeed I do have a Golden Ticket and this Golden Ticket is in fact my Potential Here...and the thing is...I Require to Use My Golden Ticket...and I cannot just save it away and avoid it for a long time later.....that is foolish....My Golden Ticket has the Most Value Now...and The Value Of My Golden Ticket Gets More Valuable every day I Exercise it....like a card I got to pay/play with as the decisions I make.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how the wishes and declarations I make for myself shape my reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to take on long term planning as point of self-directed commitment and responsibility I bring into fruition

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that typically people fall apart when they get old.


To Be Continued

Day 680 - Genuine Interest

 



"It is the individual who is not interested in his fellow men who has the greatest  difficulties in life and provides the greatest injury to others. It is from among such individuals that all human failures spring."  Alfred Adler


This is a point I have found myself guilty of from time to time. For the most part, I am fascinated in learning more about the specifics of the interests of others. However, I have noticed that from time to time, I can be quite disinterested and dismissive and rather quick to cast judgement. It's deplorable really. You know, it can happen so quick....You see someone at a party or function...and You disregard them because of the way they are dressed...or because of something you heard them say...or you have already formed an overall characterization of the individual based on how you have framed your interpretation of them in relationship to you...and have judgmentally decided that they are not a worthwhile connection for you to foster here....a real disregard taking place here....Or....this has happened in particular instances....where I dismissed myself as not being of enough caliber to associate myself with the likes of that which interests me in getting to know further. Strange relations...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having allowed relationships with others to suffer as a result of disregarding the other person....persons.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having a self-interested attitude about relationships...where the relationship with another is strictly to feed my self-interest,,,and that we are in relationship because of this particular point of agreed upon interest and or obsession.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having great difficulty developing relationships with others who do not share my primary self-interests and or obsessions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for negating the development of relationships through common mutual interests as a result of getting stuck within the particulars of differentiating interests.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being selfish in taking the time to get to know the overall character of another.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being heavy in judgement in relationship to myself and others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying and judging whether or not it is appropriate for me to show interest in another from the perspective of whether or not another's body language is suggesting to me that they are open and inviting.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to communicate with the types of people who do not present themselves as open and inviting.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for presenting myself as disinterested and the complete opposite of open and inviting.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying and validating myself within being close minded and unapproachable.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying others to be stuck...and fucked in their own close mindedness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being rather dismissive of the overall potential of humanity.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to take the initiative to get to know someone who has resistance and is apprehensive about opening themselves up.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being inconsiderate of others who are somewhat close minded.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have existed as rather close minded from the perspective of being dismissive of those who I define as not being totally aligned with my thoughts and interests.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating dissonance in relationship to other people as a result of having reactionary judgement to the particular actions of participation I witness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting my learning potential in moments of dismissiveness where I allow my reaction in a particular moment to get the better of me...and I therefore justify the perpetuation of dissonance in relationship to the person I am in immediate proximity to and towards.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging and justifying my status standing of character as being of less than  enough caliber to actually associate with the likes of such and such characters.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which the superiority and inferiority interplay of relationships can only exist to the extent to which I accept and allow it to exist within myself....and therefore whenever I am triggered by a particular point of superiority of inferiority, the opportunity is being presented to me as the gifting chance to remediate the relationship disagreement within myself...and therefore my outer world as the mirror of my inner reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the problematic nature of self-interest from the perspective of only really regarding the desires and interests of oneself as being totally and completely separate from the desires and interests of others....to such an extent where the belief exists that it is best to ignore others because that is how I have chosen to treat myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for ignoring others as a result of making believe that I actually want to ignore myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for ignoring myself.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding myself within looking at others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for ignoring the support and assistance of others as being integral to the best interest of myself and others.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to share interests.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for encouraging selfishness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying selfishness to exist in a polarity relationships to selflessness...as like the marker of either being rich or poor...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a polarized dissonance as a result of my relationships towards the words "rich" and "poor".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for associating rich with superiority and poor with inferiority...and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating the continuance of a split/divide between character personas as a result of how I have allowed the word relationships to exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that in fact the best wording and world potential exists in and as each and every single being.

I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which my word relationship characterizations have influenced the state of worldly affairs in which exist both inside and outside of myself here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be limited by emotion and or feeling energetic reactions. I realize how I am able to in fact learn from every emotion and or feeling energetic reaction as a part of the learning process realization in understanding Self here.

When and as I see myself neglecting to regard the interest of another, I stop and breathe...I re-focus my attention upon the interest and service of another...as I see realize and understand the desire to serve...and I see and realize how living in a way that is giving is in fact in the best interest of all Life Here.

I commit myself to Live in a way that is the Best giving to Life.

I realize and understand the effectiveness of relationship agreements is within and as the interest of each other.

I realize and understand that sharing is caring, regardless of whether or not the particular sharing is well received in the moment of sharing.

I realize and understand that We exist here within a time where we are actually learning how to share and care effectively...and that throughout history there has been a polarized dissonance towards sharing and caring.....Sharing and Caring being synonymous key elements to effective harmonious get together's as the key to our Life together here on planet Earth as the way in which best serves the desired interest of all Life Here.

I commit myself to support the development of Life potential.

I commit myself to sharing and caring for Life.

I commit myself to utilizing my vocabulary effectively and efficiently to assist and support the flourishing of Life potential.

I commit myself to enjoying the Creation process.

I commit myself to enjoying the process Journey to Life as What is best for all Life here.

I commit myself to relationship mastery in all ways best for everyone.

Day 626 Procrastination Energy

Problem:

Having an energetic experience of "I don't feel like doing this now...even though I know I have the time and opportunity to do this particular thing I need to get done"

Prolonging inner-turmoil as a result of allowing a point to be lingering as a result of non action. The point lingers on an emotional level and physical level because the energetic experience related to avoiding the point is not effectively dealt with...and the actual physical act of doing the work/deed/task hasn't been taken care of..

Not immediately directing an energy that comes up within me...is like perpetuating a bad debt/loan...that is just accumulating within interest/stress/strain...meaning that ultimately I am paying a greater price for a point that I could have put in less time/labor to initially deal with effectively in supporting myself.

Solution:

When and as I see myself having a particular energetic experience come up within me with regards to doing a particular task, I realize this energetic charge is a self-induced mind fuck that I can choose to in fact stop...as I see realize that this is not in fact a valid point of support for me here. I stop and breathe, I give attention to my breath awareness here...I see/realize/understand myself here within my physical body and that I am capable and able to move myself beyond the restraints of self-inflicted reactionary energies that come up within me. As I give attention to my breath awareness, I begin to see how the particular energetic experience wasn't really valid from the perspective that I cannot really be possessed within energy when and as I give attention to my breathing here. I direct myself to moving myself within the physical task that requires my participation.

Reward:

By not delaying to get the job/task/responsibility/work done immediately without postponed delay because of an energetic emotion/feeling as not wanting to do it....I have more time that is stress free...I have more time to accomplish/create more things...I am able to relax...I am able to play...I am able to stand within and as the starting point of self-responsibility in and as my expression here...I am able to express myself for real, as what is best for Life....My practical living becomes the epitome of Awesome.

It's interesting to see here how my best interests compound from and as the starting point of physically moving myself to get the work done without allowing any procrastination energy to get in my way of what it is I would like to do.

Day 605 My Personal Business Corrections

I commit myself to business.



I commit myself to personal business.



I commit myself to interpersonal business.



I commit myself to universal business.



I commit myself to personal responsibility.



I commit myself to interpersonal responsibility.



I commit myself to universal responsibility.



I commit myself to looking at and understanding personal/interpersonal/universal business/responsibility.



When and as I see myself being spiteful towards self-responsibility/business relations, I stop and breathe, I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for holding onto a point of spite within myself within and as the form ofanger/blame/frustration/irritation/annoyance, and I give myself a release from being bound to this energetic charge imprisonment...I commit myself to preventing the continued outflow of such a particular behaviour pattern within myself...I commit myself to understanding the ramifications/consequences of spitefulness...and to self-correct every point of spitefulness that I see.




When and as I see myself being spiteful to myself by placing myself in conflict within and as my business responsibilities, I stop and breathe, I see/realize/understand the absurd ridiculousness of mind fucking my potential success here within being most effect within and as my business responsibilities. I see/realize/understand the absurd ridiculousness of self-sabotage....and I see/realize/understand how self-sabotage is linked to positive energetic charged desires as the reasoned justification to validate and excuse such self-sabotage. I commit myself to self-correcting every single point of self-sabotage within myself, by self-forgiving myself, self-correcting my behaviour programming, and self-committing myself to the prevention of self-sabotage as the self-realization and understanding that prevention is in fact the best cure.




When and as I see myself having resistance towards a particular dynamic of business/relationships/self/movement, I stop and breathe, I see/realize/understand that I have created a conflict...as a specific energetic impression....I see/realize/understand that this is in fact a choice....I see/realize/understand my self-responsibility in self-correcting the choice I made...by making the decision/choice to align my decision/choice within and as self-support and assistance. I commit myself to stop compromising my self-movement. I commit myself to stop choosing to restrict my access to Life assistance and support. I commit myself to stop creating energetic impressions/affiliations/frictionstowards particular points within my reality here.




When and as I see myself suppressing self-responsibility/self-expression within business relationships out of fear of losing existing business relationship, I stop and breathe, I see/realize/understand the absurd ridiculousness of choosing to rationalize the influence of fear upon every decision. I commit myself to stop suppressing self-responsibility/self-expression/business-opportunity/self-expansion. I commit myself to being genuine and sincere within business relationships. I commit myself to sharing self-responsibility/self-expression within business relationships as a point of practical living genuine self-expression and sincerity. I commit myself to sharing the appropriate amount ofinformation within business relationships. I commit myself to seeing/realizing/understanding the nature of business relationships. I commit myself to developing and enhancing business relationships. I commit myself to building and expanding business relationships. I commit myself to being authoritatively authentic within and as business relationships. I commit myself to practically living the word business. I commit myself to myself as business.




To be Continued

Day 604 Prioritizing My Life Business

So,

I see/realize/regard/understand that my every moment participation here is a reflection/presentation/consequence of Myself/Life/Business/Here.

So,

I see/realize/understand how I have negated to regard the significance and magnificence of my every moment participation here.

So, 

I see/realize/understand how I have taken for granted Myself /Life/Business/Opportunities that exist here from moment to moment.

So,

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and hiding myself form the fact that my behaviour from moment to moment is a reflection/presentation of Myself/Life/Business/Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting the mindset of business.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the dynamics of "Business".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing to ignore points of potential business within my reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for seeing business as a point of responsibility that I would like to minimize.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for minimizing my business responsibility and potential here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to expand my business/responsibility here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the correlation between business and personal self-responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Life/Business/Opportunity I have been bestowed with here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making excuses/justifications/reasons to restrict/suppress/diminish Myself/Life/Business/Talent/Opportunity/Creativity Here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the the significance and magnificence of giving myself Business/Responsibility.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how to give myself Everything I want.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for restricting my access to Everything I want.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself believing that I cannot have Everything I want.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being hesitant about giving myself everything I want.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to give myself Everything I want.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for hiding from the Quest of Questioning Everything I want.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for restricting and blocking the assitance and support of others giving me Everything I want.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being spiteful towards myself and others within resisting to seeking out help in getting Everything I want.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to commit to self-direction I see/realize/understand to be valuable Life/Support/Assistance that will enhance my practical living reality here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to utilize all resources I have at my disposal.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resistance to utilizing resources.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for trying to take short cuts and skimp out on the cost benefits to and as the investment within and as my well being here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being a cheapskate with my money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for undervaluing physical life labor here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and uderstanding how undervaluing my physical life labor here reflect and presents the example of how the world exists within and as a point of life suppression...where life is not regarded to be valuable and is in fact drastically undervalued.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for drastically undervaluing Myself here...and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for devaluing Life as a result of not realizing and understanding the starting point of and as Life Equality and Oneness.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to really mind my business.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to examine all the dimensions of what it in fact really means to "Mind My Business"...and within this question My Opportunities/Resources available within Minding My Business.



To Be Continued.

Day 498 Atlas Shrugged

I suggest watching the movie Atlas Shrugged, or Reading the book.

Many cool points are presented that align with Supporting a Living Income Guaranteed.

The book/movie will encourage the contemplation of why our shared reality is the way it is. The point is fantastically illustrated how fighting the system will not change the system. Fighting the "powers" that be is a great delusion.

The point of accountability and responsibility is illustrated. It is each individual here who is required to stand within and as the point of responsibility and accountability.

Reward for our efforts is encouraged.

If our labor/efforts are undermined than everyone suffers.

If the point of self-responsibility is disregarded our existence/Life is disregarded.

The movie illustrated the ridiculous absurdities of the blame game and abdication of self responsibility/accountability/dignity/integrity.

The point is illustrated how money is not in fact the root of all evil.....that money is just a tool...and we are the one's that determine how we use the tool. Obviously to use a tool effectively, awareness/foresight is required which is to see the consequences and implications of our actions, thereby preventing harm and suffering by standing within and as self-responsibility/accountability/integrity/dignity.

The point is illustrated how designing a legal system with excessive rules and regulations which act as like the mechanics of facilitating fraud/robbery/injustice is highly ineffective in all regards.

Fighting a person who doesn't understand what there doing is futile. The expression "resistance is futile" easy to see and realize within and as one moves through the book and or movie.

A cool quote within part 1 of the movie by a man who realizes the ridiculousness of arguing with someone who is fighting for limitation...this line is used in the midst of an elite social gathering where fake smiles and false appearances are the majority, "Happiness is the delusion of those who are superficial"