So, I've noticed how sometimes I have over committed myself within the words I have spoken. Where for example I make a statement about something or say that I will or will not be participating in a particular activity. Within looking at this point, I've come to see how in some particular instances...my initial wording statements about something or my commitment towards participation or non-participation within a point have been in vain from and as the perspective that my starting point was based within and as a reactionary nature/energy. Meaning, my words in relationship to the particular point in question carried a polarized energetic charge, as a reflection of the cognitive dissonance towards the point in question.
OK, So, This has been somewhat problematic for me, because the resulting consequence of such a scenario playing out...is that I am faced with the truth of myself here as like why I initially reacted to the point in question, and who/how I am in relationship to the point in question. What's interesting here is that sometimes, seemingly very automatically, I would perpetuate this discomfort and experience within myself of feeling like I am stuck, and not knowing what to do...as like a so called moral dilemma, because my initial Wording was out of alignment from and as a starting point rooted in Equality and Oneness. Which therefore results in the morality dilemma play out of "Damned if I do" and "Damned if don't."
This whole "damned if I do...and damned if I don't" scenario is very peculiar, because there is a point of deliberate neglect within it. The truth of the matter and root cause as to "why" this moral dilemma developed in the first place, Requires Self-Reflection and Self-Correction in order to purify the Equality and Oneness of my Character Here.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the problems I am creating for myself when and as I answer a question from and as a starting point of energetic reaction.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to take the time to labor the changes required in free myself from the bondage of the world holds I have placed upon myself without realizing and understanding how I was in fact suppressing the nature of my self-expression within and as the moment of Initial Reaction.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how the Wording of myself here from moment to moment shapes my status standing acceptances and allowances here.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to tangle myself up within and as a web or words with various energetic relationship triggers that act as particular limitations/suppression and rules/laws of who/how and why I behave the way that I do within a particular moment.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how the truth of myself-expression is buried within and as the moments where I speak words from and as a starting point of being energetically triggered.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the simplicity in living I create for myself, when and as I commit myself to self-investigating every reaction that comes up within myself...and from here, making the commitment to stop the perpetuating playout of reactionary energy within myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the importance of stopping myself from communicating from a starting point of fear/reaction.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which fear exists within communication...as like this unconscious energy play out that mostly goes unnoticed and disregarded most of the time.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the simplicity in sorting out a problematic situation as a "moral dilemma"...where there is an experience of "damned if I do and damned if I don't"
When and as I see myself Speaking from a starting point of reaction, as like having something to hide...fearing to lose, I stop and breathe, I see/realize/understand that I am here and that I do not wish to perpetuate the mind fuck that encompasses continuously perpetuating energetic reactionary participations. I see/realize/understand the absurd ridiculousness of trying to hide from the fear that exists within and as a point of energetic reaction. I see/realize/understand the irony that exists within reaction as a point of fear. I commit myself to taking self-responsibility for my reactions/fears immediately and steadfastly by realizing and understanding how I am in fact able to practically adjust my course of actions in the moment as I see/realize and understand my potential abilities to express myself here in the moment free from the debt of fear/cognitive dissonance.
When and as I see myself cycling within my mind about what to do...as like experiencing myself as stuck within a point, I stop and breathe...I see/realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of the situation as I commit myself to taking the time to really slow myself down with my breathing...and daring myself to look at what I have resisted looking at that is causing me conflict/indecision as like a stuckness in knowing what to do. I commit myself to self-directing myself from situations/moments of stuckness by facing the ugly truth of the matter as the self-suppression that exists within myself.
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