Day 597 Morning Rhythm

I have noticed a couple patterns that have been playing out with regard to my participation within the mornings. I'm either go go go...or slow slow slow. It's interesting and ridiculous because in both particular scenario's the rhythm of my movement is justified/enforced by the force of my feeling/emotion. Like for instance when it's go go go...it's because if I don't I will be late for work because I give myself only so much time in the morning so that I get myself moving quickly. This mentality has created the opposite effect if I do not require to go to work early in the morning...where it's like I go into a rebellion character acting out because I believe/feel like...and I'm being influenced by my feelings and emotions to just kind of doddle around.

What's interesting about all this is that I see and realize how I respond in directing my morning movements is a result of what I am giving myself to receive.

I see here how I would like to forgive myself for what I have accepted and allowed myself to receive from myself in relationship to morning movement/flow/direction/participation/practicality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining my mornings in relationship to whether or not I am going to work...work from the perspective of it being labor in which I will be paid for.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how the relationship associations I have created within my vocabulary about I see and perceive the morning have had a direct effect in my ability to function to my utmost potential within and as the morning time here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fucking with myself in the morning from the perspective of using fear to motivate myself into movement and getting up in the morning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that only fear can motivate and stimulate myself into action.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for calibrating my morning routine to levels of fear.,,,and within and according to the established levels of fear...I will co-ordinate my movements.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for aligning and hard-wiring my morning's with fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making my decisions and choices to move myself within the morning entirely based upon fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be conditioned according to fear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating polarity within my mornings as a result of comparing and judging which morning it is based upon which day of the week it is.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating conflicting values in relationship to the morning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for manipulating and self-sabotaging myself within and as the "morning".

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for polarizing morning within and and as positive and negative energy associations.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my participation within creating conflicting outlooks about the morning has influenced my effectiveness in the morning from and as the perspective of my sound stability in the morning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself of redefining the morning as good or bad and within this associating good with positive energy and bad with negative energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring for all my mornings to be filled with positive energy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating negative energetic experiences for myself within the morning as a result of channeling and desiring positive energetic experiences in the morning.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have difficulty facing in the moment the point of my acceptances and allowances and within this...forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for accepting things that compromise my best interests from and as the starting point of Oneness and equality as that which is best for all Life is best for me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating conflict within myself between day and night.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for deliberately using fear as a motivational point of movement for myself within my morning/day/night.

To Be Continued