I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
having suppressed and avoided facing the brutality of myself as what I have
accepted and allowed within myself throughout time with the courage and honour
to execute self correction as a form of self perfection as like the self
realisation that I will myself as form by purifying myself as self perfection.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
having justified myself as self suppression as a result of feeling
uncomfortable when staring the brutality of me as my acceptances and allowances
as separation.
I forgive myself for having avoided the hard work as self
willed self discipline in slowly but surely moving through the accepted and
allowed brutality within myself as like the polarity friction as accepted and
allowed manifested friction.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
having just buried the brutality of me with positive thinking and a positive
attitude that like it’s all good man like ya I just forgot about the shit I
buried because I don’t want to take self responsibility for the brutal nature I
have accepted and allowed because its like so fucking brutal and admitting my
own brutality takes courages and honor because it’s a fucking brutal
task/work/process.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being
defensive within myself as like an outflow as consequence to accepting and
allowing a self righteous addiction as like an automated way within myself to
hide from the truth of myself as like the brutal nature I have accepted and
allowed and become as consequence of manifested acceptances and allowances.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
having fueled the brutality within myself and the world as like trying to cover
up the brutality that has manifested here as exstensive abuse because facing
myself as an abuser is fucking brutal as like realising myself as the lowest
low and to know that I fueled the highest highs within myself from holding onto
and compounding the lowest lows.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
having used drugs as like a temporary crutch as like a medication to regulate
myself into a state of perception of like it’s all good man everything is
awesome and lets just focus on the positive because the negative is the truth
of ourselves and its brutal and it’s like a buzz killer and I wanted to create
the highest buzz like a buzz so high that I am never not high.
I forgive myself for not realising the extent to which I was
compromising myself by focusing on living and becoming the highest highs like
placing myself above everyone where I sit atop my throne and look down upon
everyone from my seat of total self righteousness based in separation of myself
as all as one as equal.
I forgive myself for not realising how strong I built up my
guard as defense systems as to defend myself righteousness always because I
realise I could manipulate myself in such a way that I could always derive a
buzz from my actions by operating on guard as like an automated defense system
to protect myself righteous indignation.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for
having fallen so many times within and as self righteous indignation as like
saying fuck you to myself as all as one as equal.
I realise I am slowly but surely bit by bit working through
the brutality of me as consequence as like the manifested friction within me as
like absolute abuse and disregard for myself as life as an equal and one
creator responsible for my actions and the results of my actions.
I realise that as a result of having fallen so many times in
so many different ways I have the opportunity to be a teacher to many by
sharing my stories of consequence with the practical solutions to alleviate and
avoid manifested consequences as accepting and allowing separation within
myself as polarity friction as like highs and lows as feelings and emotions
that were created from a spectrum of self appointed values in separation of
myself by having been ignorant of myself as all as one as equal as being It
here the source as the root of all evil.
When and as I see myself accepting and allowing myself to be
flooded with emotions or feelings as like manifested consequences which are
being shown to me in a moment as the result of my suppressions as the brutality
I have buried within myself, I stop and breath...and I realise I am the courage
and honor in facing the brutality of me with patience as like self
determination in breath to allow myself to breathe myself out as like a
grounding myself as like to realease the built up energies within my body that
have compounded as like stress as like anger and irritation as consequence to
accepting and allowing myself for having buried the brutality of myself.
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