Day 772 - Life is a StandUp Comedy

 



It's funny you know, when you really get something, like you totally got it. I mean it's that moment of aha that can turn into a real hahahaha ohhh man that's funny, that's rich, that's just so great. pure gold. So money.

See, our lives are like an ever evolving learning process of self-expansion and recognition here, and we are all ways the butt of the joke. I mean we are the source of it all. We are in the house of mirrors and everything exists within ourselves and is mirrored outward as our external reality.

It's interesting to see, when we go for prolonged amounts of time without any relief... I mean, like, just perpetuating a build up of our own self-induced stress that we blame and judge and really believe it's all out there, outside of ourselves. So in a lot of ways, this is not so funny...and that is precisely the point....the knot in the funny....the knot in the fun, because we are too tightly wound, taking ourselves way too seriously, not recognizing the jokes, the points, the learning lessons, the mistakes, the problems and the solutions.

See, it's interesting; Self-honesty through accepting and allowing ourselves to be vulnerable with ourselves here,...our self-in-to-me-I-see...our self-intimacy, the taking the time to look, to care, to in fact recognize the bits of things that are happening within ourselves here.

See, these 'bits' are the jokes....and it's interesting, because everybody has so many bits here, I mean, we are always working with bits of information, and so much so it's in these moments of working with information...and there's a plethora of ways in which this is so...the amounts of varying relationship dynamics is tremendous.  The jokes, the fun, the funny, is the balancing act of not taking ourselves too seriously within and as the work we are engaged within, because we are at work all the time so to speak...our very design is as a working body here,  i mean our body doesnt take a vacation every few days,.., it's an all the time thing.

So, in having some laughs while we work, while we share, while we converse, while we play, we allow ourselves to learn and grow...we are creating a natural learning environment for ourselves within ourselves by allowing ourselves to recognize our accepted and allowed moments of ridiculousness. I mean wow, if we really have a look...it's like so often we are missing out on the fun and the funny because we are not being self-honest with ourselves here. Faking to be cool when in fact that isn't really cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to play it cool when shit is not all cool.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating a too prolonged build up within myself without getting to the punch line, the joke recognition, seeing the ridiculousness that i have accepted and allowed.

I realize it's kind of funny to exist as a living joke and to within and as the joke, forget that,.. Tag, I am It.  Like, oh shit, I totally forgot what the fuck i was doing.....what i have been doing....oh man...fuck.  Looking back at my set, as my acceptances and allowances that are ridiculously unacceptable it's like wow talk about bombing. Wait no, don't say bomb if you are being recorded....oh shit is this blog being recorded....lolol.  But seriously, butt butt butt...we are the shit....the whole spectrum of it, it's like we got a giant ball of shit here, the planet and it's a matter of shit management, i mean shit, take a regard of the fact that if you don't move the shit through your body on a regular basis, you are going to fucking die,...maybe through explosion, maybe not.  Point being here, is that I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forget that I am always working and playing with a bit of some sorts, because that's the standup comedy life process here.

I realize it isn't to say, we must deliberate be fuckup's in order to be funny and have fun....no that would be dumb. Everyone is already a fuckup, Obviously myself included.  It's to self-honestly allow ourselves to recognize our weakness and to turn them into strengths, and to allow ourselves to play with these points of self-development.  Allowing ourselves to be cool in walking a point of weakness into a strength. Allowing ourselves to enjoy the journey/ride/adventure within and as our natural learning abilities here.

It's funny,

When we allow ourselves to be too hard on ourselves,

It's like we are deliberately creating a Hard-On within our minds,

You know,

A throbbing erection to mind fuck the shit out of ourselves with...

and it's like,

every time we allow ourselves to be hard on ourselves about something, it's like we are creating a new big dick inside ourselves,

as another big dick example to fuck ourselves with.

Excuse my Dick humor here,

I'm just dicking around.

Because you know,

it's kind of funny,

I mean realizing the extent to which we fuck ourselves is tragic,

Tragic comedy,

A divine comedy if you will,

because there is so much learning in store,

I mean we are all such a wealth of storage...

and it just so happens that sharing our realizations has the capacity to be both fun and funny.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to hold back on showing myself the funny here, as the moments/points of ridiculousness that I have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to forget to look at the ridiculousness of myself within my acceptances and allowances as the source of funny.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress the fun and funny I have within myself that is at the core of my being here.  I realize and understand that the fun and the funny are here for everyone, we are all a part of it, and it is in fact best shared as like we are each the story teller, and what's cool about a good story is the fun and the funny along the way.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to take it easy within recognizing difficult things I have accepted and allowed.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for choosing to create a fearful frame of mind when I am faced with points that are challenging.  I realize that is ridiculousness, because going into a fearful mind state when things are difficult and unfamiliar, does not really assist and support oneself to move with a sort of effortless ease as the presentation of our in fact developed response abilities as the ways in which we are skilled and versed in movement.

I commit myself to sharing my process of life standup comedy.

I commit myself to encouraging others to share their life process of standup comedy.

I commit myself to share points of relationship that are easily relate-able, so that the fun and funny can be had by all.

I commit myself to educating through sharing stories/jokes of trials and tribulations.

I commit myself educating myself about others by being interested in listening to their stories of trials and tribulations.

I commit myself to being open minded.

When and as I see myself having difficulty communicating with someone, I stop and breathe, I have a giggle as I recognize I have been fucking myself unintentionally....which is pretty ridiculous....i mean to fuck yourself and not realize how you are fucking yourself is pretty fucking questionable...I mean what the fuck is going on!  SO, I recognize the specifics of the mind fuck, and I forgive myself and correct the discrepancy within myself as the point of conflict/friction/blockage that i had been brewing/building within myself.  I let it go.  I open up my ability to relate here. I see for real what is here,  I allow myself to return into and as Flow Here, by being completely open and at ease within myself here.


I commit myself to being a pillar of support in communicating with others.

I commit myself to gratitude within and as the process sharing of words here.

I commit myself to many daily word exchanges.

I commit myself to treasuring each and every word exchange.

I realize word exchanges are kind of like the stock exchanges...because words are instruments here of tremendous value.

I commit myself to cherishing my words and the words of others.

I commit myself to see the assistance and support in words always all ways.

Day 770 - The Lame Fear

You get what you don't want and You get what you want, so either way, you Get it.  Get It? Get It!  Got it.

I noticed I fear being Lame.  Like, I do not want to appear weak or lame or somewhat inept in my participation, whatever that may be.  Ironically enough, what you really don't want, you get more of..when your starting point is in opposition of that very thing...it's like a homeopathic remedy and equation in so many ways....where the thing that is here to support you the most, is the very thing you are "fighting" and in "conflict" about. Tragically ironic indeed.  It's like creating  more and more consequence, a bigger and bigger mistake...to either be the cause of one's demise...or the Very Solution Remedy Cure here.  Funny, because everything is it...and where shit gets complicated is in and as how we have tagged it. You know that very elementary game of Tag You are it?  The word spelling's we imprint as our character impressions...not realizing the forgeries we are creating, because it's a fake of sorts, a conscious/unconscious incompetence. Not as the Knot in and as our not realizing what we are doing to ourselves...our cells here in and as our world here.

I noticed how I have been perpetuating a mind fuck within my world participation's within this point of fearing to be Lame. In many ways this perpetuates a sort of inferiority/superiority play out of characters....where it's like I go into a sort of De-siding....I mean, deciding...as like a self-censorship within participating within a point, or a sort of self-righteous superiority/Inferiority.  Though, there is the alternative to both these conflicting realities...which is me being here, clear from fear.  Though the very instance of me having moments of being clear from fear is very questionable,...because it's like a moment of fresh air, a breath of life...and then it's gone and into some sort of self-perpetuating stagnation or drowning.  Like forgetting how to swim for a moment...ironically enough, it's more like disabling my swimming ability in a moment, as like choosing to impair my ability with the acceptance and allowance of fear to be the commanding authority in relationship to the points of ability in question as my response abilities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing the word Lame.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how much I have allowed myself to have a fearful relationship with the word lame.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how much I have limited/suppressed my natural learning ability as a result of fearing to be Lame/Weak within a point.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the Irony relationship Tool and How it Links specifically with Fear in and as a Word Relationship.  As like a realm of Fear is at the core of accepted and allowed issues/conflicts/problems within an individual relationship. And, why this is so ironic, is because it is the very Fearful relationship with specific regards to the word in question that keeps the problem/conflict/mistake/misfortune alive.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which i have self-censored my potential as a result of accepting and allowing myself to be in opposition/fear towards the word Lame. I forgive myself for not realizing the irony within fearing to be or be perceived as Lame.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the extent to which process is a tragic/divine comedy play out here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how Irony can be a rather specific tool for investigating words, where you can use the word Irony as a sort of cross reference where you have a look to see if you are being ironically stuck within the very word you are making a concerted effort to investigate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing how cool a tool Irony is within investigating words as like a fun and funny play to aid in and as the word investigation/exploration. - See more at: http://michaelwilliammcdonald.blogspot.com/2016/02/day-769-exploring-word-lame.html#sthash.hpDhwsRP.dpuf

Day 765 - Word Movement Expression

 



Have you ever considered that our words are correlated with our actions?

That, Our actions are a result and reflection of our Words?

Or quite contrary,  that there seems to be a real disconnect between our words and actions?


What I find to be quite interesting is the Questions we are willing and not so willing to ask ourselves in relationship to the Words, which present and mean specifically so much to each of us as individual personalities as how we are existing here on a day to day basis.

Word exploration is perhaps the most fascinating area of Research on Planet Earth. What is so remarkably interesting about this, Is that each person...Investigator if You will, Is the starting point.....the Focal point of the Investigation.  What about the word itself....or what the word presents?  The Awesomeness of this question and answer is that it exists here both internally and externally.  Our ability to see/realize the truth of ourselves here stems, and branches out from the ownership of self-responsibility here....the taking of initiative to actually focus and be specific with the questions we ask ourselves/each-other here.  I find it most difficult to actually See into a point that is not clear...If I am in a rush....it's like where there is too much of a rush, the focus is distorted and perception is tainted...and skewed as a result of not slowing down enough to take the time to identify points of movement as words that require further analysis.

Word Exploration encompasses/embodies Everything/Everyone Here! Think About it!

What I find ironically comical about this process of Word(s) Investigation is that there can be MASSIVE amounts of Word Defenses that take place as Our very own Word Reactors within ourselves, that perpetuate and stimulate a sort of emotional and feeling instability...a real restlessness that often gives the tainted perception/belief that is good/bad....like a sort of being at peace with the war that exists within ourselves...yet we are not aware that we are the Highest Authority and Governing Body which is Orchestrating the very War that exists inside of ourselves...yet it is usually generally only regarded as "Out there" and separate from ourselves...and so the running dialogue within our minds is a sort of Justified, War Games Exercise as a self-defined Necessary Evil to Fight for Peace and an Unwillingness to Negotiate with Terrorism.

See:  the very "Terrorism" is our individualized, self-personified, Characterizations of our Words.  And the Tragic Comedy here....is that Unwillingness to Communicate (negotiate if you will) with Terrorism...when the Elephant in the room if we dare look, is a result of Seeing in The Mirror...and Realizing that which we see isn't some grand illusion, magic act or terrorist trickery attack (well maybe a bit of self-trickery through denial, delusion, manipulation....etc...etc).....WHAT WE SEE, is What is Real Here...You Know, the Shit...the Stuff that so often, we believe to be "out there" separate from ourselves.

Fascinatingly enough, When we Care or Dare or both...to the act of Questioning the specifics of our Word and World relationships, there is a profound self-enjoyment Here, a real self-intimacy, a level of self-regard that is too often dismissed as a result of being in our very own War Games exercise of dissing and missing out on the truth of our shared Life together Here.  It's funny in the tragic sense because when we take the time to use our common sense here, we get the Joke....the ridiculousness if you will...and we are the source of it....our accepted and allowed behaviors....our mistakes...misdirections....errors.  Now what is so ironically comical about this, is the lengths we are willing to go to to prevent the funny from coming through....as like not wanting to appear weak/vulnerable/childish/silly/mistaken/fearful.....yet these very points are harbored as the fighting points we must be in offense/defense relationships with.  It's like laboring a self-reflective laugh and insight of a real substantial magnitude is so often dismissed out of fear of ridicule...which is ironically ridiculous, Isn't it?  I mean if you see and realize your own self-accepted ridiculousness and you fear having a laugh at the self-realization Here...I mean this is just crazy to have a very funny joke and to hoard it from others...you know to really hide it...to resist sharing it....to actually make a point to Deny the Funny Here.....I mean like, what the fuck?   This is the self-governed military way of each of our individualized mind/body and Being word and world relationships to one extent or another...Until we dare and care to take responsibility for all of the faults here.

Self-Education, Self-Reflection, Self-Empowerment exists within and as Self-Responsibility.

What does Self-Responsibility mean currently within yourself?

What is your relationship to the words, "Self-Responsibility"?

Is there room for expansion within your current relationship definition and living of "Self-Responsibility"?

Have you ever considered your self-responsibility to Laugh at your own ridiculousness...and to actually for a moment, deliberately make an ass out of yourself for others to laugh with...as like the follow up education process of sharing a moment of truth...you know, showcasing the ownership and authority for the bullshit...and to from here...actually share the bullshit purification process as to revealing the best way to go about that particular point.  This is, after all, the age of Revelations....the information age where all is revealed in one way or another.  Ironically, we get to shape our information when we take ownership and authority...self-accountability and self-responsibility for ourselves here. Funny, because we get what we are willing to give and it starts from sharing what we Got to Give.  Go Figure, lol. !??!

Day 686 - Christmas Irony

"...The Spoiling of Our gifting Inheritance opportunities Here" (Mike McDonald - Day 685-The Interconnectedness of Good and Bad)

Let me begin by sharing some common synonyms associated with the word "Irony":

Sarcasm
Causticity
Cynicism
Mockery
Satire
Sardonic
Paradox
Incongruity
Incongruousness

There are 2 Very Common Antonyms associated with the word "Irony":

Sincerity
Logic

The roots of the word Irony, As well as "Socratic Irony"stem from the early 16th century via Latin from Greek.

See earlier meanings as:

'Simulated Ignorance'

and

'Dissembler'


Let us now look at commonly accepted definitions of Irony:

The expression of one's meaning by using language that normally signifies the opposite, typically for humorous or emphatic effect.

A state of affairs or an event that seems deliberately contrary to what one expects and is often amusing as a result.

A literary technique, originally used in Greek tragedy, by which the full significance of a character's words or actions are clear to the audience or reader although unknown to the character.


Do You Realize the Christmas Irony?

The "Christmas Irony" is but one example outflow of the Irony that exists here.

Whether You realize the "Christmas Irony" or not may reflect your "Character" here...as your participation within your acceptances and allowances here. Note the third common definition of irony listed above in italics. This definition can also be referred to as 'dramatic irony'.

The Irony of "Christmas" is that we are the very Butt of the Joke....and the popular funny of the times...is a most unfortunate, tragic comedy....a reflection of our historical origins.....re-gifting....a re-cycling...a re-presenting...if you will of the acceptances and allowances of the regard/lack-of-regard of the Human Condition...and for the Value of All Life Here.

Here are some Socratic Irony Exemplification!

Isn't it better that the sentiments of "Christmas"...you know, 'the spirit of giving'...and, 'good timing and good cheer'....are only a 1 day out of the year living?

I can't imagine how problematic the world would be if everyday was like "Christmas"....Can You? It would be so difficult to perpetuate the upkeep of War.

There are a lot of cool values/principles associated with "Christmas"...I wonder if we Humans as a species, really lived and honored such principles daily....what would happen?

There's not enough time to have "Christmas everyday"...I mean, there's a different amount of hours in a day on Christmas....isn't there?

Do You think Heaven on Earth...if there were to be an everyday heaven on earth....that, it would reflect something along the lines of the most amazing Christmas story ever...where all Life was presented and regarded here...and shared and valued as the gift giving self-expressions we are?

Must there exist an equal relationship of Very Good and Very Bad?

How special a time of the year is Christmas generally regarded as?

Would you say that typically every other day, shares the same "specialness" as Christmas?

Isn't it interesting how a 'holiday' such as "Christmas" can be organized in such a way to accommodate a rather relaxed work day?

Is it impossible to imagine a constant giving and receiving experience? Like, where there is a continuous movement and momentum as the flow of the go continuing in and as what is going on....as a harmonious playing and working together that is a seemingly endless production that is Awesome in Magnificence as the marveling gratitude being the accepted and allowed great attitude accommodating the value and regard for all Life here?

Do You See any Christmas Irony in the Current Human Conditioning as Our Wold System Collective Expression?

Notice there is an "Awe" about Awesome and Awful. Awful is like the overdose of Awesome...like the consequence of a serious dissonance....extreme wealth and extreme poverty for example.....a too muchness if you will.....where destruction is the result.

Isn't Awesome Construction much more sustainable and a logically sound investment when and as you consider the alternative to Awesome construction, being the awful truth constriction which is filled with irony....as the holy shit realizations...as the current tragic comedy here?

Remember, As you celebrate this Merry Merry Christmas...what an absurdly ridiculous joke you are....Now it is very very important not to rebel against Christmas....because the only thing more absurdly ridiculous than something that is absurdly ridiculous...Is fighting against something that is absurdly ridiculous....because in doing that you perpetuate and substantiate the ridiculous absurdity...and actually fuel the existence....of the most unfortunate tragic comedy you wish to remedy.

Stand Equal and One with the Joke You are.

Never forget,

You are a Joke!

Haha

Joker.

Make it a good one....the balance between good to bad is out of wack.....

Creative Cool Please!

Regurgitating Repeating isn't working unless it's working...and how many times do you really want to regurgitate the same shit? or Wait...isn't that the point....to regurgitate shit...as like the way to keep on feeding and feeding Bullshit?

Pardon my Shit, lets Substantiate it.

Merry Self-Forgiveness ! ?

Day 633 Premier

Premier is so prime as the the primer that it used to prevent destruction and therefore it so Premier to realize and understand Yourself as the World Premiere...and the Words Premier and Premiere..Because it is only within and as our self-reflection here can we see and realize the best in everything here...as the best...and what's best for all life here starts within our-self...because we must understand and realize what is best within our-self and give our self the support and assistance of what is best...so that we can always live a premier life. It is so premier that we see and realize our prime potential. To be Premier is to give Premier is to live Premier. We are Premier. When we regard all Life as Premier, our experience here is extraordinarily Premier.

For those of You that have forgotten, "Premier"....Premier is of Prime Importance....I mean Premier is of utmost importance, order and position. Premier is the best. Premier is the starting point of Creation...the earliest part of creation. Premier is the essence of Oneness and Equality. Premier is all around awesome.

What is interesting to see here is that problems have come about from the acceptance and allowance of and as what is less than Premier here...which is interesting that we would create an existence where we give ourselves less than a Premier Performance at any given time...I mean this is a bit of a serious what the fuck situation....like think back looooooooooooooooooooooooong long ago to a time when Premier Performance was Everywhere...that all that was shared was Premier...like everything was always so Prime...I mean there was no real taking at play here....because everything was given...and what was given was always the best...so there was no need to take without asking...because an interesting thing existed here at the time...there was no greater divine king than another...everyone stood equal as the great king/queen of existence here...mean how we governed our shared togetherness here was to make sure that we always give our very best...like there was no half assed performances...so everything that was done was really fucking awesome...awesome fucking...so obviously...how everyone/everything existed was really fucking Prime...I mean Premier Fucking...Now that's a Prime way to Fuck.

Who would want to express as less than the best... I mean that's like what the fuck...that's like receiving the best gifts/tools...and saying thanks but no thanks..."I'd prefer to be fucking around my own way, even if it's not that good of fucking"....I mean like what the fuck is the psychology of this type of mentality?...Obviously this mentality of being less than the best is a consequence of a long long time ago...and We are in a day and age where we can see the consequence of this less than Premier giving and sub par fucking around....I mean the irony here is to say that we've  primarily fucked ourselves into oblivion...However...No not quite...Not gonna Happen...till here no further...because...the cause be our Self-Premier Process of Self-Expression Self-Correction as Our Physical Structural Alignment here as how we can hear and integrate within and as Our Premier here that we had disregarded and distraught-fully neglected as a result of and as our misguided beliefs as how we ought to be and behave...not realizing and understanding the blame which was how we laminated the lame game as a less than premier performance piece here...and what's so funny/interesting/cool/Premier about tuning into our Shared Here..is that it's all Inclusive, Each is the puzzle piece connection connotation correlation as the key maker creator to stopping the destruction of Premier and standing as the embodiment of Premier Here to Care take the remedy solution and prevention for ever more of the prolific rape as the travesty of our shared game gamer throne reality of and as the consequence of participating within less than Premier Fucking.

So, next time you sit/squat on your holy throne and you pop a shit, look down and say, "holy shit I'm so divine...I see and understand how I'm responsible for taking care to clean up and manage my king asshole.  Holy Shit I've been a real Fucking Asshole". WOW!

Day 505 Fishing For Reactions

I was at the comedy club tonight checking out a show. It was a real nice venue where the stage was real close to the audience, in a not too big of a room that had about 200 people. I liked the set up in that people were packed into the place.

A few judgments came up in me this evening as points of self-reflection:

Laughter used as a point of reaction as like reacting to the comic just saying something shocking/surprising/distasteful/vulgar/inconsiderate.

Comic fishing for the laughter as a point of reaction to just saying something shocking/surprising/distasteful/vulgar/inconsiderate.

Comic talking shit about another person.


I realize and understand that these are all tactics used within the arena of stand up comedy. I understand the judgement has come up within me because these are all things I have done. I've done all of these things a lot.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fishing for laughter as a point of reaction to just saying something that is regarded as shocking/surprising/distasteful/vulgar/inconsiderate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for laughing from within and as the starting point of reacting to hearing something shocking/surprising/distasteful/vulgar/inconsiderate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fishing for laughter from others by talking shit about another person.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for laughing as a reaction to someone talking shit about someone else.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress my potential to share real funny within desiring to receive reactionary laughter that can be regarded as funny.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for make believing funny out of making fun of others as like forms of put-downs.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating the starting point of ridiculousness away from myself as within making fun of somebody else.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging the audience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as the audience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging comedians.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself as a comedian.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to take it personally when I see a comedian doing a bit that I don't think is very good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for placing expectations upon stand-up comedians.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for mind fucking with myself about comedy/stand up comedy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging the various tactics used within the craft of stand up comedy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place myself in competition with other stand up comedians.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to regard myself as superior and inferior to other stand up comedians.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing stand up comedy to be just a big ego dick swinging competition.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting to comics getting emotional.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting emotional doing stand up comedy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to talk shit about stand up comedians.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to talk shit about myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get jealous and envious of stand up comedians.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to put in the time working on my stand up comedy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making excuses and justifications as to why I have been neglecting the point of stand up comedy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be disappointed with myself for slacking off on the point of stand up comedy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have mind fucked myself with regards to stand up comedy within and as the result of accepting and allowing myself to indulge within backchat as self imposed limitation in and as the form of excuses/justification/avoidance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself for fishing for reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fishing for reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining fishing for reactions as something bad and negative.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for feeling guilty for having triggered so many reactions in so many people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I must try to avoid triggering reactions in people at all times.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting to reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing for taking reactions personally within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be ashamed of all my reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be embarrassed of all my reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be disgusted by my reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting high off of reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for feeling powerful within generating/triggering reactions within myself/others.



To be Continued

Day 475 Information F%$K YOU!

Hey, Check out the Youtube video I did "Information F%$K YOU!"

I had wrote a bit of a script...kind of a ranting and raving in relation to the point of conflict...like wanting to fight others as a result of the accepted and allowed conflict within myself.

So, below is the script/ranting and raving I wrote out about the point....and following this sharing...I'm going to go into self-forgiveness on the information...as a point of self-support.

I want to fight You…but I don’t know Why I want to fight you…but I want You to fight me back…and if you are not fighting me back…I'm going to get more reactionary…like a nuclear reactor that want’s to explode….you know like some serious terrorist activity…as I terrorize you to show you that I am being terrorized within myself….and what’s typical is blame…like being lame…by saying its because your so this….and being so convincing in being lame…that I  mean like what the fuck….being blinded by the veils of self righteousness…that I know and understand things…and knowing and understanding being possessed by a feeling/emotion/train of thought…thinking…is a dangerous kind of knowing….and so …I've come to see that what the fuck of such behaviour….and I mean…really ….I am so done…with looking for fights….why the fuck would I want to fight with anyone…I mean fighting is a point of inflicting punishment upon  another…and getting punishment pain, force inflicted upon yourself….I mean its really ridiculous how I allowed information to be a point of pain and punishment inflicted upon myself….as like OK…I can fight myself with this information…like…maybe I wont be consciously aware of it…and I just have a self righteous reaction because… all reactions are some form of self righteousness…and when I'm being  Mr self righteousness…I cant really know anything…which is like the perfect number…for fighting…because when your self righteous you cant feel/sense/be aware of anything….like perception is totally distorted….and I suggest avoiding such wackiness all together…by taking a deep breath and realising all reactions…are nuclear…like radiating terror within are self….that is a threat and compromise to our life and the lives of others…..no wonder…in the news….the big topic of  terrorism...and the war on terror…..we humans are our own terrorists…at least I was…and I didn't even know that the extent of my education was harboring me as a terrorist waiting to exploded….picking and choosing random event to totally blow up on….energy storms…brewed like volcanoes within the human body….sorry body for all the abuse….it;s time I quieted and settled the storm….

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting to Fight You.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding that You is Me within wanting to Fight You.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding myself as a nuclear reactor just waiting to explode every time I have a reaction and I passively accept and allow it to exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the consequences of passively accepting and allowing reactions within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting to take action as self direction on points of reaction within myself as like giving myself the gift of forgiveness and looking at the absurd ridiculousness on the point of reaction...and realise and understand that if I can't see the absurd ridiculousness on the point of reaction...its because I'm caught within a point of self righteousness that is blinding me from seeing my own absurdity that is overwhelming in ridiculousness.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for pointing the fingers of blame upon others as like a coping mechanism of neglecting to really care and take responsibility and accountability for myself. I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of such behaviour and I realise and understand how lame blame is as I realise and understand that blame is the epitome of lame.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting the danger of passively doing nothing after I have a reaction...and that by just not participating within the reaction is not enough of a safety preventative measure...because the reaction is a point of abuse...and by not realizing it from within myself with self-forgiveness in real time...is like...allowing it to accumulate within myself as a memory that formed as a point of information...where I gave a a particular energetic charge....and the math of giving so many energetic charges within myself...is a resultant explosion/harm/abuse to the physical body...and possibly others....as reactionary behaviour is the cause of abuse in this world....as reactionary behaviour is without any compassion, care, and consideration for well being and is completely irrational.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to cycle within particular thought patterns over and over again...as like thinking these are OK...and not like some more negative thought patterns....and within this I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for categorizing and holding onto though patterns that I believe to be positive....and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding the self-righteousness connection with positively charged energies...as I see, realise and understand how self-righteousness is in the roots of positive energetic charges...and is in fact why when you are possessed within positive energy....you have noooooooooo idea.....how fucking retarded you in fact are...because it's a point of being blinded by the light....

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be totally fucking retarded within positive energy as a point of self-righteousness....and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding how getting focused on the positive energy actually perpetuates mental retardation and blindness from physical reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to numb myself with self righteousness

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to numb myself with reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for perpetuating numbness to information within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being so possessed within energetic charges in relationship to words/information/observations

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for casting spells of blame.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself fro resisting to dare to look at the extensive nature of lameness within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that looking at lameness within myself is just a point of judging myself and that I shouldn't judge myself as lame because that;s negative and I should rather just twist my word relations/information around so that I view regard myself only in a positive way/light...so that I can trick myself instead of treating myself to actually being a person of integrity and dignity...who wants what;s best for myself and all life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for neglecting my body as my body...and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be at war with my body within passively accepting and allowing reactions/thoughts/feelings/emotions to exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for confusing self honesty with self righteousness....and within this not taking the time to breathe and observe the energy charge that is always in play within and as self-righteousness...as the tell tale sign of physical instability.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being dishonest within myself when believing myself to be just within having an emotional reaction/explosion projecting energetically charged words onto others...as a point of not being able to handle my shit...and not caring who has problems dealing with my shit...cause...I don;t want it to be my problem...and I just gotta get it out of me by projecting it onto others.

I commit myself to stop fighting with myself and others.

When and as I see myself fighting with myself and or another, I stop and breathe...I realise and understand the absurd ridiculousness of such behaviour....I smile as I realise crisis adverted within stopping and breathing. lol. I direct self-forgiveness in the moment, as I see and realise the physical practicality of moment to moment application of self-forgiveness....as self-forgiveness as an installed application within myself is like a DIY physical body purifier.

When and as I see myself having a reaction, I Stop and breathe...I direct myself into utilizing  my installed application of self-forgiveness as my go to tool of support within myself. I enable myself to see and realise the absurd ridiculousness in relation to the particular point of reaction as I apply myself within and as the process of self-forgiveness. I see and realise how I receive awesomeness as like the funny of understanding the abusrd ridiculousness of a point within forgiving myself for a point because the dimension of funny is connected to every single point as are all dimensions connected to every single point...and I realise and understand the support within utilizing funny as a tool to assist and support self-expansion as like a way that makes process always fun.

I commit myself to fun within and as the process of self-realization through applying the physical application of self-forgiveness.

I commit myself to sharing the stellar awesomeness of self-forgiveness as a global solution that must be implemented on an individual level.

I commit myself to living the physical installment of self-forgiveness as like an application that is ingrained into the law of my Beingness...as I realise and understand the starting point of creation is within self-forgiveness...as I see and realise the starting point of creation as Equality and Oneness.

When and as I see myself manipulating information to paint and portray a positive light/energy...I stop and breathe...and I realise and understand the fuckedness of such participation...I move myself to investigate my behaviour within running the application of physical self-forgiveness.

I commit myself to physically ingraining self-forgiveness into myself as a point of common sense obviousness...as like one and equal to the point of breathing...as a point of my physical embodiment as a point of self-support and self direction in being here as a real living being who cannot be compromised...and who stands for all Life as what is best for all Life.

Day 430 Stupid Fear Manipulation

"What You Resist Will Persist"

I've come to understand the point of what you resist will persist with regards to fear within yourself...like holding onto particular feelings/emotions will compound within yourself until self responsibility is taken by facing yourself within the point of the acceptances and allowances and releasing/removing the polarity energy charges...and all polarity energy charges are in fact forms of fear.

Let me take a moment here to share a little story about myself:

I'm interested in a world that is best for all Life. I see the Earth as Our Life Playground and Home. Some time ago, I was looking at how I could effectively participate with assisting and supporting the manifestation of Heaven as Earth...Like how can I contribute to Life Greatness...What role can I play in assisting and supporting the New World Order, Where all Life is regarded with the highest value.

I began looking at the point of comedy as practical platform avenue to plant a lots of seeds of support within lots of people as the words I speak...as like spreading the message of awesomeness, which is Oneness and Equality Here as What's Best for All Life.

I figured I can take on this role because I don't see anyone taking on this role, and I see it as a fun role I am capable and able of taking on as a personal responsibility.

I see the point of stand up comedy assisting and supporting with the necessary political process that is required in order to facilitate world changes that are best for All Life.

I see, realise and understand that comedy is a great way to educate people...because real funny, is a cross reference confirmation of understanding, as an aha...ahahahhahaha moment because, You and I get it...We Got the joke, the point that is being relayed as a sharing realisation...a connection is made...and what's interesting within comedy...is that even when someone doesn't get the message being relayed...the seed is planted within the being...and eventually the seed/point will sprout.

It's kind of ironic that I've come to see comedy as a way to plant seed of support within others as a practical way to assist and support the facilitation of Heaven on Earth, because my primary source of income for the past 9 years has been tree planting...So I am very familiar with planting.

A little more than 4 years ago I got the idea of making a tree planting reality tv show...and 4 seasons ago I took a personal camcorder with me and documented a lot of footage...and within this time...I was just starting to consider myself as a stand up comedian...so talking and joking with everyone I worked with and doing interviews and taking all sorts of video footage was a cool experience and process...unfortunately I lost most of the footage I had accumulated that year...I had the camcorder out every day...and ya I had so much interaction with everyone I worked with there was a lot of good footage.

The next season I went tree planting, I met a dude who had the same idea as me with regards to creating a tree planting reality show...and this dude had put some more planning/brainstorming into it than I had previously done...and he had gotten himself a really decent camera to accumulate footage with. Also this dude understood that he was going to have to create a pilot...as like that which he could present and pitch to television companies/broadcasters...

A few days ago, I was informed that a television broadcaster has agreed to do the show...and now the fine details of the contract are being out and I should expect to receive a shit ton of paper work soon...as release papers...and contract terms of production.

The show is going to focus on a specific amount of people as the main characters/focus of the show...I've been selected as one of the people/characters to be profiled.

This is a great opportunity to plant lots of seeds of support and accelerate myself further into stand up comedy .

Now here's where I expose a point of stupidity:

Some time ago I figured it would be clever of me to make believe myself to fear being a famous stand up comedian...because I figured if I feared this...I would manifest what I feared..as like the basic principle of what you resist will persist...

This is not a recommended suggestion to create a fear about a point that you want to happen...because what has happened is that I created a huge mind fuck...as like, fears about doing the tv show...and fears about doing stand up comedy...so it's like...ridiculously absurd...and I realise and understand the ridiculous absurdity of this all...and so fortunately I am able to stop this mind fuck.

So now...I have to walk through all this bullshit fear I created within myself about something that I actually wanted to do....I mean how stupid is that...that I created fear within myself about something that I like and I think is cool...I mean talk about stupid...


To be continued...