Day 585 Self-Satisfaction Corrections

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating judgments about self-satisfaction and amusement.





When and as I see myself creating energetic judgments about self-satisfaction and amusement, I stop and breathe, I purify my vocabulary by removing the positive/negative energetic charges associated to the words "self-satisfaction" and "amusement". I realize and understand how points come up within my mind as a self-reflection of the conflict that exists within and as my vocabulary from and as the perspective of having associated positive/negative energetic charges upon words. I realize and understand it is myself-responsibility to purify my relationship with words back to a point of equality and oneness where the words stand pure and innocent here. I realize and understand how detrimental it is to exist with a contaminated vocabulary. I commit myself purifying my vocabulary. I commit myself to stop sabotaging myself within and as the acceptance and allowance of existing within and as the restraints of a contaminated vocabulary as a result of a reluctance to face the initial memory impressions I formed to particular words as thought/feeling/emotion energy resonances from and as within a point of conflicting friction.






I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how within investigating a point of introspection I have a tendency to polarize my findings as like right and or wrong within and as positive and negative energies.






When and as I see myself creating a versus scenario within and as my self-investigation/introspection, I stop and breathe, I realize and understand this is a flag point within myself where I am standing within and as a point of conflict...experiencing the pull and push of both energies existing within myself, I realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of justifying and validating both the positive and negative energies within myself. I commit myself to practically applying the tools of self-forgiveness and self-corrective applications to facilitate my release from and as self imposed energetic enslavement. I commit myself to stop getting lost within and as the pull/push of positive/negative energies. I commit myself to remaining stable within sorting out various energies within myself by remembering to breath...and slow myself down with breath. I realize and understand that it ability to see what is here clearly is suppressed when and as I forget to slow myself down with breath. I realize and understand the base nature of my programmed conditioned mind is to move quickly within and as energetic reactions/stimulation as positive/negative/neutral energies. I commit myself to sorting out the energetic layers within and as my mind consciousness system.







I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for seeking self-satisfaction within creating a labeled self-definition/judgement upon a point with a polarity friction/conflict energy.






When and as I see myself aligning self-satisfaction within creating a labeled self-definition/judgement upon a point within a polarity friction/conflict energy, I stop and breathe, I see realize and understand the absurd ridiculousness of continuing within such a capacity, I see realize and understand the urgency within stopping myself and self-correcting my structural resonance alignment here as I realize that to perpetuate a polarity friction/conflict energy within myself in any capacity is not cool as it is in fact self-harm. I realize and understand what I accept and allow within myself is a resulting reflection of what I would like and want for others to have...and so I realize and understand the self-responsibility in giving myself the best caring support and assistance in purifying the nature of my relationship here as by becoming one and equal with Life. I commit myself to becoming One and Equal as Life here manifested in physicality.

Day 512 Branding and Marketing part 4 Style

This is part 4 of Branding and Marketing blog series. For context from the beginning click Here.

"At some point I kind of reacted to the point of liking to style myself in particular ways...and kind of revolted as like like dissing my own styles by being like whatever, who gives a shit about style, and created a who gives a shit style...or maybe more appropriately labeled I don't give a shit.  I was reacting to the ideas I had incorporated within myself as a result of my environment about dress etiquette...like you know dressing professionally...and I just reacted so much so to this...as like thinking how lame it is that there's kind of a uniform standard dress code of how you are supposed to be dressed for particular functions/events...and within that...the various labels that co-exist with wearing these types of clothes or those types of clothes.  I mean I kind of got wrapped up in my own judgement but not realizing and seeing it."

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging the styles that I like.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting in judgement to how I have styled myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I created the "who gives a shit style" within reacting and kind of revolting as like dissing my own styles by being like whatever, who gives a shit about style.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I manifested the I don't give a shit style.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not giving a shit.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I got wrapped up within my own judgement with regards to clothes and style.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I changed my style from that which I liked to being about a lack of caring to like me as my own style...as like creating a dis-attachment within myself to the clothes I was wearing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for blaming my environment for my attitudes about clothing styles.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become frustrated within seeing myself as a product of my environment.

I forgive  myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging my environment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wearing clothes from and as the starting point of emotion as like making a statement of rebellion as like I don't give a fuck about my environment or what the accepted and allowed norms are with regards to dress code etiquette.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having resistance towards dressing professionally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for desiring to dress professionally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging and defining people based upon the clothes they are wearing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react to the types of clothes people wear.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting mad with myself for liking to style myself with particular clothes in particular ways.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for creating friction towards style.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as style as like a reflection of that which I accept and allow within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for wanting to believe that I don't care about style when in fact I was hiding the fact that I really did care about how my style yet I didn't want to acknowledge myself...and thus in a way I was hiding from myself as like being stuck within my internal realms of judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to lose myself within self-judgement.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being extreme in seeing things about myself where will I will go from one extreme to the other extreme....and I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I believed I was changing by existing as the opposite point...but not realising and understand that the movement wasn't real as it was from within a starting point of reaction/judgement/fear.  I realize movement from within and as the starting point of fear is not in fact real movement/expression....it's an outflow consequence.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for spiting myself within judging myself for liking particular things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for moving into judgement about liking particular things without finding out why it is that I like particular things.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing and judging that liking particular things is bad/wrong.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that the things I like are points of weakness of character and the for me to be strong I must stop liking everything I like.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for hating myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for spiting myself within hating the things I liked.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing that everything I like is some sort of energetic addiction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I am able to practically live physical self expression within and as the things that I like to do.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking there are things I like and there are thing I don't like, and there are things I hate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself creating a hierarchy of likes and dislikes.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing hate to exist within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the point of rebellion existing within myself as coming from within and as the starting point of accepted and allowed self-loathing/hate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within and as a starting point of hate and self-loathing.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to have a love/hate relationship with myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to abuse myself by having mixed feelings/emotions about myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding Oneness and Equality as the epitome of style....as like the starting point of creation here.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself from and as the word style.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create conflict within the word style.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how my expression reflects my relationship with words as like what's going on within myself...as the nature of  my inner acceptances and allowances exposed externally.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having tried to hide the nature of my inner reality.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding that nothing is ever really hidden and everything is revealed.


To Be Continued

Day 508 I Wasn't Expecting That

Brief detour from my previous blog which will have a continuation.

Today I want to write about dealing with the unexpected that comes up that requires immediate attention.

So, I had a situation that came up today where an error resulted on an investment I made which was due to a 3rd party human error. The particular situation that needed to be sorted out required looking at many considerations in order to reach the best practical solution. There were some solutions presented immediately that were quick deal solutions that were not best...but a point of immediate remediation.

So within having to take time to assess the various considerations, I was getting a little bit stressed because I wasn't expecting to spend my time in this particular manner. I had initially budgeted my time differently...meaning...I had planned to spend my time focusing on other important priorities.

I knew it was ridiculous for me to get stressed and worked up about having to sort out this new situation...and fretting about falling behind on my planned schedule.

It's interesting that the initial point that came up was about money....and the other points or priority were about responsibilities/obligations/labor that needed to be done....which also reflected money.

So, I see here that I am still a little tightly wound with regards to money.

I understand that the design of the current money system reflects the design of the mind consciousness system as money as like energy and everything being about energy...and I mean within the current system it's very much survival based from a perspective of fear for your life because were in a system where it's win or lose....like if you're not careful you can be a bankrupted loser....and I mean if you're a winner,...you're perpetuating someone else being a bankrupted loser...so the design of the win/loss relationship is most unfortunate.

A Living Income Guaranteed is an immediate solution that can be facilitated on a global scale as a practical living solution to prevent the perpetuation of the win/lose....lose/win scenario's of our current monetary system.  A win/win system is obviously what is Best.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get stressed within having to deal consequences that were unexpected.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying being stressed/frustrated/on edge because of the fear of losing money unexpectedly.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to lose money.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing to be in a bad financial situation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fearing getting a brutally raw deal, as like an unlucky break.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for becoming agitated that my attention required to be shifted away from my initial plans.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having some stress within adapting in the moment.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how restrained my expression has been within having resistance towards adapting/responding in the moment to new circumstances that are not part of the old programmed plan.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for comparing the pre-programmed plan to the new planning that is required to be created as what is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to being inconvenienced in not being able to still to my pre planned schedule of how I would spend my time within particular priorities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting to the point of requiring to adjust my immediate priorities.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding the extent to which priority adjustments are required in order to facilitate a world that is best for all Life.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for existing within a pre-programmed bubble of expectation.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to exist outside of a pre programmed self contained bubble of predictability.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being annoyed that I became stressed within facing new unexpected circumstances that required my immediate focused self-direction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself for not being as perfect as I would have liked to be in directing new unexpected circumstances today.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get worked up within myself with regards to the various time restraints imposed upon myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to strain myself with time restraints.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for feeling rushed within time as a result of having so many points that require my attention and self-direction.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging and comparing various points in time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating myself within various points of judgement in time.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realising and understanding that I am in the process of constantly facing new points of consequence as acceptances and allowances that I require to direct within and as the points of self-responsibility, self-trust, self-forgiveness, self-honesty, self-commitment and self-corrective solutions.  I realize and understand


When and as I see that a new point has come up that requires my immediate attention, I stop and breathe, I look at the point, I realize and understand that reacting in any way to looking at the new point is ridiculous, I realize and understand that reacting to old plans as how I had planned to spend my time is ridiculous, I realize the impracticality of accepting and allowing myself to be stressed within my participation here.  I realize that in every particpation it is always about the starting point within particpation. I realize and understand Oneness and Equality as the starting point of creation as that which is best for all Life.  I realize and understand that any other starting point is a point of separation and therefore is less than real creation as oneness and equality.

When and as I see myself getting stressed about money and or time, I stop and breathe, I realize the absurd ridiculousness of inducing stress/strain upon my body within allowing myself to be stressed/strained about time and or money.

I commit myself to purify my relationship to money.

I commit myself to purify my relationship to time.

I commit myself to living Oneness and Equality as the starting point of Creation.

I commit myself to preventing strain and stress from occurring.

I commit myself to taking self-responsibility for the creation of a World that is Best for All Life.

Day 505 Fishing For Reactions

I was at the comedy club tonight checking out a show. It was a real nice venue where the stage was real close to the audience, in a not too big of a room that had about 200 people. I liked the set up in that people were packed into the place.

A few judgments came up in me this evening as points of self-reflection:

Laughter used as a point of reaction as like reacting to the comic just saying something shocking/surprising/distasteful/vulgar/inconsiderate.

Comic fishing for the laughter as a point of reaction to just saying something shocking/surprising/distasteful/vulgar/inconsiderate.

Comic talking shit about another person.


I realize and understand that these are all tactics used within the arena of stand up comedy. I understand the judgement has come up within me because these are all things I have done. I've done all of these things a lot.


I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fishing for laughter as a point of reaction to just saying something that is regarded as shocking/surprising/distasteful/vulgar/inconsiderate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for laughing from within and as the starting point of reacting to hearing something shocking/surprising/distasteful/vulgar/inconsiderate.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fishing for laughter from others by talking shit about another person.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for laughing as a reaction to someone talking shit about someone else.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress my potential to share real funny within desiring to receive reactionary laughter that can be regarded as funny.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for make believing funny out of making fun of others as like forms of put-downs.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for separating the starting point of ridiculousness away from myself as within making fun of somebody else.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging the audience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding myself as the audience.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging comedians.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself as a comedian.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing to take it personally when I see a comedian doing a bit that I don't think is very good.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for placing expectations upon stand-up comedians.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for mind fucking with myself about comedy/stand up comedy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging the various tactics used within the craft of stand up comedy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to place myself in competition with other stand up comedians.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to regard myself as superior and inferior to other stand up comedians.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for believing stand up comedy to be just a big ego dick swinging competition.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting to comics getting emotional.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting emotional doing stand up comedy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to talk shit about stand up comedians.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to talk shit about myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to get jealous and envious of stand up comedians.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to put in the time working on my stand up comedy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making excuses and justifications as to why I have been neglecting the point of stand up comedy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be disappointed with myself for slacking off on the point of stand up comedy.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I have mind fucked myself with regards to stand up comedy within and as the result of accepting and allowing myself to indulge within backchat as self imposed limitation in and as the form of excuses/justification/avoidance.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself for fishing for reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for fishing for reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining fishing for reactions as something bad and negative.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for feeling guilty for having triggered so many reactions in so many people.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that I must try to avoid triggering reactions in people at all times.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for taking offense to reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for reacting to reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing for taking reactions personally within myself.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be ashamed of all my reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be embarrassed of all my reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be disgusted by my reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for getting high off of reactions.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for feeling powerful within generating/triggering reactions within myself/others.



To be Continued